Find The Way

By: Haru Hotaru

A/N: I changed my name to Haru Hotaru. It means Spring Firefly in Japanese.

I'm re-doing the summery of my story a bit. Not the one you see under the title. The one you find inside, which tells you the couples.

Summery: Kira has been captured by ZAFT and according to Rau Le Creuset, has to pay a death toll for betraying ZAFT. Can Athran just stand by and let that happen? If he helps Kira he'll be branded a traitor and be a fugitive for the rest of his life. Mostly KA but a bit of DY, DM,YOC, MM, and TM as well! Lacus and Cagalli make thier appearance, but Kira/Lacus and Athrun/Cagalli will not be spoken off. KF will be hinted, but not carried out. Do not read if you are uncomforted by comforting between boys. No sexual boy tension nor sexual thoughts. Brotherly love! OC character will be added! Rated T for violence, language.

Chapter Songs: Untitled by Simple Plan, Boulevard of broken dreams by Greenday, Song of peace by Lacus Clyne, In This Quite Night by Lacus Clyne, and Majestic by Haru Hotaru, If It Only, by Haru Hotaru.

Chapter Summery: Tensions mount between the ZAFT soldiers. Lacus Clyne enters the story, and appearance by Haru Hotaru and her father, Jonathan Marla Hotaru.

Kira's POV-Reflecting on the past.

I walk a lonely road,

The only one I have ever known,

Don't know where it gause

But it's only me and I walk alone.

I walk this empty street

On the boulevard of broken dreams.

I was a coordinator fighting for the EA. I had friends…friends I had to protect. But was anybody there to guide me? Yes, for a while. Lacus Clyne with her flowing pink hair and heavenly blue eyes. For her limited stay, she was there to catch my fall. I enjoyed her presence. She helped-a lot.

In return for her kindness, I set her free. Set her free to Athrun. He told me to come along. But I refused. Bound by a sense of protectiveness and a promise I had for my natural friends.

There are decisions you have to make in life, but they can bring endless pain. It makes you wonder, is the right choice really worth the pain?

When your surrounded by people, but you feel as if you're walking alone, nobody to hold your hand, nobody to guide you?

When the city sleeps

And I walk alone

I walk alone

My shadow is the only one that walks beside me.

Living each day, playing along. Putting on fake smiles, finding love in someone who's just using you. Yes, I know for fact that Fllay is using me. But it feels good to be in someone like Fllay's arms. Maybe, I love her. Maybe I am using her as she is using me. Either way, I feel like I have to protect her from harm.

So I fight over her. I make her mine. I hurt for her, and perhaps, deep down she feels the same way.

Miriallia Haww, a shy girl, is like a sister to me. I remember giving her advice to ask Tolle out. It worked out, and I'm glad.

Kuzzey has always been distant towards me, but is still a friend.

Sai is a great friend. I can always count on him to help me, and is a great advice giver. I'm happy to have made friends with him.

Tolle has always been there for me through thick and thin. He has never left my side in times of despair, and has become like a brother. Even in what he was by my side, in spirit if not able to be there physically. He stood up for me, and became my closest friend on the Archangel.

But not even Tolle should replace Athrun. Nobody could.

However, I got by.

Maybe it was the fact that I was on the Archangel. I must admit, I loved being on the Archangel.

Having a soft, kindhearted yet competitive captain, who often fought with strick and stern Officer Badgeroul. A commander who loved to make jokes, like the big brother I never had.

Moreover, the fact that whenever we went to an allied base such as Artimis, the soldiers were all coldhearted. But on the Archangel, there was warmth and kindness coming my way. Add the fact that love was there. Even amidst war. I liked it there.

But there was a hole. That chould never be filled. But maybe it whould fill. In a ZAFT ship that wanted to kill me. Maybe it chould be filled here. Drifting between consciousness and unconsionciouseness, here on an infirmary bed on the Vasailius.

Athrun's POV

This chouldn't be happining. No…it just chouldn't. They were so cold hearted! They only treated Kira to make him feel content, and were prepared to kill him for a reason like that? I shouldn't have captured him…I should have brought him back to the Archangel! I whould have gone into there cells! Or I chould have even joined the EA!

I can see why Kira joined them! However, I will fight as hard as I can, for Kira.

I sat on a small chair beside Kira's bed. Slowly, his eyes fluttered open.

I opened my eyes

I tried to see but I'm blinded

By the white light

I can't remember how,

I can't remember why,

I'm lying here tonight.

"Hey," I greeted.

"Athrun?" I asked. "Is it really you?"

"Yes," I said softly. "You're here, with me."

"What's going on?" he asked uncertainly.

"We captured you," I said, my voice cracking. "But it was the wrong thing to do…their going to execute you on October.13th." It came out painfully. I just choked it out.

And I can't stand the pain

And I can't make it go away,

No, I can't stand the pain!

"Executed?" Kira's eyes widened, but softened again. "That gives me quite some time, Athrun. It's May.20th! It gives me a lot of time! Maybe I can recover in that time…and I get to be with you, Athrun! I'm sure things will work out, don't worry."

He was being brave. For my sake.

I knew that on the inside, he was shocked.

How chould this happen to me

I've made my mistakes

Got nowhere to run

The night gause on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life!

I just want to scream!

How chould this happen to me?

Softly kissing his forehead, I whispered in his ear. "Go back to sleep now. I know you're in pain. Go to sleep. I'll wait for you."

In this quite night,

I'm waiting for you,

Forgetting the part,

And dreaming of you.

All this pains me. I'll slip of the edge soon.

I'm slipping of the edge

I'm hanging by a thread

I want to start this over again

So I try to to hold onto a time

When nothing mattered

I can't explain what happened

And I can't erase what I have done…

…no I can't…

But I'll have to hang on. For Kira.

Lacus' POV

This morning, I got a message. A very important message. Atleast, to me. Kira has been captured. He will be executed, in a few month's.

Why? Because of military needs. If we take away someone's life because we want to be strong, how strong are we? Is it not weak to kill someone for that reason? Is it not desperate? The public have not been notified. Even if it whould be a load for the council to have him live, but what douse that make of us? The council said that we are kinder then the naturals. But if we want to look good so badly to throw a life away, we're much worse. Will peace present itself in such a land? For both sides, we have our wrongs. But we both drag on this war, when it chould be ended so easily. If both sides refuse to let the to other side exist..if we treat a person for what he is…not who he is…then we are all to be blamed. For the simple reason, natural or coordinator, we are all human beings! We are not separated! The coordinators aren't a different species! When the naturals attacked Junuis seven, they attacked themselves. Whenever ZAFT attacks the naturals, they attack themselves. That's the truth. We both need to acknowledge that, to bring peace.

So still the evening air,

So warm and soft,

Peace everywhere

I see a world in harmony

I world of peace, and humanity

A world where people walk free

Like water in a stream

Flowing on, forever more.

So I'm heading to the council right now. To protest. They may all hate me. But it will be for a good deed, after all!

In the midst of a barren land

They're a rose

Fighting for its life

It's hanging on

It's fighting

But how much longer

Can it hold on?

When the famine is spread

When all else wants it dead?

But it's fighting

It's hanging on to life

It's majestic.

A single rose in a barren land.

There has always's been a barrier between the naturals and coordinators. But on the Archangel, that barrier is no more.

Kira proved to all of us that there is still hope. Though many refuse to grasp that. Kira was treated well. He had some real friends. The council wants to cover that. They cover it up…but I will reveal it…to the whole universe.

Normal POV

In ORB, a nation of neutrality, a building stood. It was there to serve ORB on its secret missions that sometimes took place. Such as the one about to start today.

Haru Hotaru walked to her father's desk.

"I am ready," she said. "I am ready to go to the Vasalius undercover to try to prevent Kira Yamato's execution."

TBC

A/N: I know this is confusing and unclear, but it'll make sense soon! I'll update again ASAP!

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As long as forever, I'll be by your side. I'll be your friend, your companion, you guide.