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A/N: Well, here is chapter 8! Took my forever to write! Anyway, I hope you enjoy it very much. I'm not feeling good, so please blame this horrible chapter on my horrible cold. Also, I said I wouldn't update until October, but when people tell me to update, I do. But the editing has only started. I have to re-edit chapter 2, I made a lot of mistakes there, a lot of typos, too. Like Yzak's POV should have been deleted, because of Yzak's new behavior in the first chapter. I'll work on it as soon as this is updated, kay?
Another thing, R.I.P to all the victims of September 11th, you will always be remembered in our hearts. And to the victims of the recent shootings in Montreal, R.I.P also, and let us hope that nothing like this college shooting will ever take place again.
Now, onto the story! Just go scroll down, and read, and don't forget to click the purple button at the bottom when you're done! Thank you, and enjoy!
"I could a tale unfold whose lightest words
Would harrow up thy soul, freeze thy young blood,
Make thy two eyes, like stars, start from their spheres."-Shakespeare, Hamlet
Chapter Eight: Bloody Teachings Lacus' POV
"Miss.Clyne, we shall reach our destination shortly," spoke Mr.Andrea, my driver. I nodded briefly, before shutting off the communication. I let out a long sigh and slumped back against the seat of my limo. I had failed, but that's no surprise…failure is what I am, it's my destiny to fail. Every song I write, is merely an illusion, every word I speak, the 'words of wisdom' are just fancy words, which I can't put a meaning behind. It's all an illusion, Lacus Clyne is a nobody, a failure. Memories from time gone past suddenly resurface, memories of my childhood, memories of my mother, horrible memories that had been banished for so long, they came back to me now.
The tears started the streak down my face, and with a long rumble of thunder, the sky was crying with me. The rain was falling, it was falling endlessly, soaking the earth, and giving new life to the flowers and the trees. But all I could do was continue to cry, to sob hysterically. I had failed someone else…
"I'm so sorry, Kira-sama…"
Then I'm trembling, shaking uncontrollably. I'm nothing…I'm a nobody! I'm not the 'perfect' idol everybody loves. I'm just a girl that hides behind a mask. Their love for me is an illusion, Lacus Clyne, the perfect pink haired princess, princess of pop, is a petty liar, she's a girl who is selfish, who never can say what she is really feeling, a girl who fails the ones dearest to her.
"Stop the car!" I shout. Mr.Andrea, hearing my scream screeches to a stop, and I run out into the forest, far into the unseen depths. I fall to the ground and cry my heart out for what seems like hours.
Several minutes later, the sun comes out, and the sun spreads throughout the land, the squirrels and birds come out to rejoice, and suddenly, I smile, and wipe away my tears. The rainfall has just bloomed a flower, a beautiful flower.
I get up with my hope renewed, because there is still hope, no matter what. There is still something I can do…
I pick up my phone and call her.
Cagalli's POV
Aaargh! Why did this stupid shuttle have to break down? While I'm in the middle of NOWHERE? Is this my fate? To die in a broken shuttle? Why does life have to be so mean? How am I going to survive without getting more food? Okay, I have a months supply here…but that's not the point! If this stupid thing doesn't work, I'm going to be here, abandoned…all alone, for the rest of my freaking life! Okay, Cagalli, just calm down, I suppose you could try and fix this, your pretty good with machines. Yes, that's a girl, just check the engine, and get this STUPID thing to work, and stop taking your freaking anger out on your readers!
Oops…the readers. I gulp quickly. I'm so sorry for the inconvenience! You see, I was flying through space, talking to you, when the shuttle engine fails. So now, I'm stuck here, as you can see.
Now, lets see, how to fix this thing…I get closer to the control panel and sigh deeply, hunching over in exhaustion. I don't want to be dealing with this, I want to go to sleep…but I want to find that boy, my savior. My anger begins to spark, as I pound the control panel with my fists.
"Damnit!" I cried. Suddenly a red light caught my attention.
"Shuttle will self-destruct in…" the numbers in the screen started to scroll down, lower and lower…
uh oh
Haru's POV
The expanse before me is endless, with no limitations, no end. The stars shine continuously, glimmering, like hope in the direst situation. I let out a contented sigh, I'm happy right now, to be staring into the vastness of space. I smile slightly. Being in outer space has its perks. But the moment couldn't last, I had to pay the person I was here for a visit.
I quickly walked into the infirmary, to see Kira-sama absorbed in the newspaper. I smiled in spite of myself.
"Hello, Yamato-sama," I greet him formally. His head turns in my direction, and he looks startled.
"My name is Haru Hotaru, it's a pleasure to meet you," I said floating over to him and extending my hand.
"The pleasures mine," he said, shaking my hand. He looked confused.
"I was curious to see you, Yamato-sama, my home, too, was in Orb, and I've heard so much about you…please, Yamato-sama, may I ask you a few questions?" I explained, seating myself on the stool beside his bed. He looked straight into my eyes, the calm amethyst looking past me, and into my soul. He seemed to study me forever, before an answer came.
"Yes, Haru-sama, you may. But please, just call me Kira." I averted his eyes, staring at the flowers on his bedside table.
I smiled at him and nodded. "But you must not tell anyone I came, understand? I will not tell any of your answers to any of my fellow soldiers." I sighed, deeply. He raises an eyebrow, but nods.
I clear my throat before I start.
"Kira-sama, you were born in Carpentaria, am I correct?" I questioned. He nodded.
"Then you moved to Heliopoless, to escape this war," I continued.
He nodded again.
"But after Helipoless' demise, you were caught in the middle of the war you tried to hard to escape. How did that feel?" I looked at him searchingly.
"I…I felt frightened, and angered. I spent most of my nights crying, and whenever I fought, I lost all my mercy. I was hurt, I was pained, and the rain that fell just wouldn't stop. But I had to do it, I had to protect."
I looked at him respectfully. I understood the concept, to not want to do something, no, to be against doing something, being frightened of doing it…but having the weight on ones shoulders and the pressure, and the price…that you face your fears and do it.
"Kira-sama, do you think in this war, can peace be obtained? Even when we have our own beliefs and religions? Is peace only a dream, never to come true?" I looked at him seriously. I had never asked anyone this, but my mind kept on thinking about it, thinking and thinking. I just had to ask this soldier, this kind, innocent soldier, the one question that kept me up at night.
He smiled at me. He gave me a genuine smile. "Of course, it can. All the faults of humanity can be mended by humanity. If we give up hope, and say 'peace' can never be achieved', then it won't ever be achieved! But it won't come with only fighting…we'll have to talk, and compromise. War will lead to nothing, it's only an illusionary path to peace."
"I agree. So would you, Kira Yamato, do whatever it takes to obtain that peace?" I looked at him seriously, this was the big question. "Anything it takes?"
Kira arches an eyebrow. "Of course I would!" he exclaimed, as if it was obvious. "I'd give my life for it!"
I smiled at him. "Then, your fate is now sealed," I spoke softly. "I'm not supposed to tell you this, but I'm here as a spy. A spy to break you out of here when your fully recovered. Then, you can do whatever you want; return to the battlefield, or live in Orb in peace. It will be your call, as long as I know whatever you will do, will be for the better, not the worst."
Kira looked stunned. Then his body froze. And he smiled. His body started to tremble, then to shake. I jumped to my feet.
"Kira-sama! Are you alright? Should I call the doctor?" I asked, panicking.
"N-no…Haru-sama, please get Athrun!" I nodded firmly. He must have stressed himself too much. "Zala-sama will be here right away!" I turned and quickly walked out of the room, bumping into a slim, muscular body. I look up to see the face of none other then Yzak Joule. He sneered at me.
"What do you want, you filthy traitor?"
My blood ran cold, my heart froze. He'd heard!
Athrun's POV
I walked out of my room to head to the cafeteria, and then to visit Kira. I had been busy with my duty, so I couldn't see him a lot, unfortunately.
"Zala-sama! Zala-sama!" I turn and hear the voice as the new female recruit runs in my direction. She seems pale, and nervous, as if experiencing one of those horrible life-changing moments.
"What is it?" I ask curiously.
"It's Kira-sama! I think something's wrong, he's been stressing himself, sitting up when he should be lying down, resting. And he's been talking too much, and worrying about things that are out of his control. But the point is, something's terribly wrong, he's only getting worse. He needs you, Zala-sama!" she stopped to take in a deep breath, but by then I was already sprinting towards the infirmary.
When I reach there, Kira's body is shaking, and he's crying. He looks terribly frail, and sick.
"Kira!" I kneel by his bed and pull him into my arms.
"A-Athrun, it hurts!" he wails, clutching my shirt tightly.
"Shh, Kira, it'll be alright, you're going to be just fine." I say rubbing his back, worriedly. He was scaring me, I was scared of losing him.
Suddenly, he passes out. I look down at his face, and put a hand on his chest. What's happening? Will Kira be alright. Tears start to form in my eyes, and I bury my face in Kira's hair, pressing my hand harder against Kira's chest.
Then I realize it with a horrible start. I started to panic, to tremble, and my tears started to pour down more constantly, as I called for help.
Kira had stopped breathing
Cagalli's POV
Finally! I found the Life POD and sat down, ejecting it from the shuttle. Good thing, too, because not a second later did the shuttle self-destruct. I sighed, frustrated. I am destined to die alone in space, aren't I?
But there's nothing I can do, so I sit, and wait…
But I don't have to wait long before something happens; my cellphone rings. I pick it up, only to hear a voice I'd known, a couple of light years ago…
"Lacus?"
To be continued…
"We but teach bloody instructions, which being taught,
return to plague the inventor."-Shakespeare, Machbeth
A/N: Well, there you have it! Chapter eight 'bloody teachings', even though the title doesn't fit. Tee hee. And don't kill me for being so mean to Lacus-sama! Or for the suspense. This chapter wasn't rushed, I'd planned it this way! Anyway, this and the next chapter will be getting a side story very soon, just to tell you. I hoped you liked it, and the editing will soon be completed!
Have a wonderful weekend!
Haru Hotaru