Rude kissed back fiercly, and not just because of the alcohol. As much as he knew Reno wanted to make him forget about Josh, Rude wanted to make Reno forget about him as well. At least for a little while.
Reo laid back in the bed, tossing his clothes, they soon were strewn all over the hallway, even now, ravaged by scar tissue and rough life, he was still beautiful.
Rude released Reno's lips, pausing only momentarily to replace them on the pale patch of unmarred skin that ran from Reno's neck to about halfway down his chest.
Reno's breath came out in an explosion of air, a soft moan, the moonlight silvered the moisture in those green orbs, he'd become better at not letting them fall, though they still gleamed in his eyes on occasion, this time. ..banishing Josh from his heart, his mind, his bed. ..or at least trying. His hands reached around Rude's back, clipped nails just barely grazing sensitive skin as his name came out on another low moan.
Rude took a single nipple into his mouth, first just running his tongue over it before nipping gently, then again a little harder until he heard his name burst from Reno's lips in that keening fashion he so loved.
Yes, that slender body was extremely responsive, one of the things that Rude loved so much, the mako he'd used in his younger years along with the enhancements he'd had during Turk training had had the side effect of making his nerves all that much more sensitive, when Rude took that nipple between his lips, the stubble from his goatee stroking and scratching at the skin around it, that moan grew a bit louder. He needed to forget. ..forget Josh. ..forget the storm that was soon to blow over them, forget all of it.
Rude travelled further down, ignoring the flesh jutting up between Reno's thighs, demanding attention, in favour of kissing the insides of those thighs, a trail of tiny love bites left in his lips' wake.
His body fairly shuddered, mouth opening wide and teeth gritting as Rude's name fell from his lips again. ..He didn't know why things were so much more intense after one of their fights, but they always were, he felt his nerves light, his body awakening, and it was wonderful. His back arched for more, he wanted, no NEEDED, even more, fingers splaying across Rude's bald head now.
Rude ignored those fingers, kissing and nipping his way down to those knees and back up again. He gave Reno a tiny reprieve, nuzzling his nose against the warm flesh before moving back up to kiss and suck at the skin along his torso.
With another hitching gasp that sounded almost like half a sob, pleasure washed it all away, the pain of what he felt was a betrayel of his love, though he wouldn't tell the larger man that. He suspected Rude already knew that, though. Rude seemed to know him so well.
"Say it," Rude whispered, his voice deep and harsh-sounding when he made it back up to Reno's ears.
"I love you. ..please. ..never hurt me like that again. ..need you. ..want you. ..need to have you for mine alone. .." the words came out a tortured whispering moan.
Rude shook his head, indicating that wasn't exactly what he was looking for. In an attempt to prompt Reno, he took the redhead's earlobe into his mouth, sucking on it gently as he let his fingertips brush just the tip of his arousal.
And with that it came out in an explosion of air. "Oh Gods, Rude. ..take me. ..make me screech, make me forget it all."
With a tiny smile that he knew Reno would feel, Rude pulled away. He made sure the redhead was watching as he slid to the edge of the bed, putting his legs over as if he were going to stand up. He spoke one word, "Reno," before he gestured with his hand for the man to settle on the floor, on his knees, between Rude's legs.
Reno let Rude guide him, his eyes asking as he settled between them his mouth taking him in eagerly. ..tounge lapping, teeth scraping, his own cock beginning to weep in response to the tiny grunts and moans he drew from the bigger man.
"Mmm... that's it..." Rude mumbled, one hand fisting in the sheets while the other carefully combed fingers through Reno's hair.
He plunged Rude down, his eyes had finally stopped misting up as he lost himself completely in the sights, sounds, smells, and sensations of being with Rude, of giving him the things Josh never had, never could. Sure, they were parents with responsibilities now that Rude had never had before, but there were so many benefits to it, things that made it worthwhile. And there really was no law that said a year from now they couldn't still be doing this. ..or even 20 years from now.
"Right there," Rude muttered, his hips making tiny little thrusts against Reno's lips unconsciously. He had just enough presence of mind to pat Reno's head with the small tube of lube, indicating he wanted the redhead to prepare himself while he was... otherwise occupied.
Reno did just that, his fingers finding and touching spots that caused him to moan around the flesh in his mouth in delightful ways, his eyelids fluttering a bit, long lashes touching angular cheeks.
"You like this?" Rude asked, his fingers in Reno's hair gripping just a little tighter, a completely unconscious movement. "You like sucking me while you fingerfuck yourself?"
A slow nod, and a slight nip were his answer, those lids still fluttering in a manner that told of just how much he did like it.
Rude's head moved back, and he had to release Reno's hair to catch himself from falling backwards. That, however, did not stop his verbage. "Could get off like this, you know..."
"Please... " he spoke around him. "F-fuck me. ..need you. .need to have you inside me."
Rude's hips thrust forward unexpectedly, directly after which he pulled himself from Reno's mouth. "Over the bed," he said, standing and indicating he wanted Reno bent over the edge of the bed.
Reno rose on somewhat pleasure-shaky limbs and bent over for him, his head thrown back, mouth open with tiny gasping pants issuing from those parted lips.
Rude picked up the dropped tube of lube, minutely coating himself before touching just his tip to Reno's entrance. He held the redhead's hips down, stopping Reno from making any movement that might cause Rude to breech him.
"P-please. .." He begged again, the stutter appearing as it did sometimes when he wasn't able to control his tongue and lips as much as he normally did.
Rude pressed slightly forward, his head just barely stretching Reno's entrance. "Again," he grunted.
"f-fuck me!" it came out a shouted plea.
Rude's hips snapped forward almost before his brain registered it. He paused, feeling Reno's muscles flutter around him as he fought to keep his head.
Reno let out a loud, pleasured screech as he was penetrated, his legs nearly going out from ubnder him.
Rude's hips moved without conscious thought, pulling out and snapping forward without Rude even realizing it was happening. He reached his hand around, already feeling his climax tickling the edges of his senses.
Reno barely felt as his head went even further back, his mouth opening impossibly wide as a loud, sobbing wail echoed from him, his body tensing, knees locking to hold him up as he sprayed with an almost explosive force against the bedding beneath him. . .once the main wave had passed his knees unlocked and his legs began to go out from under him with the aftershocks as he clenched and pulsed and twitched around his husband.
Rude's hips pressed flush against Reno's. He was already buried to the hilt, but with that pulsing sensation, he seemed to be trying to push even further inside before he finally spilled himself inside the redhead.
Finally his eyelids fluttered all the way closed, his knees giving out fully. It had been an exhausting day, both physically and emotionally, but for once, when he dropped against the bed, his face held a little smile.
Rude pulled himself from Reno's body, then padded softly towards the bathroom for a washcloth to clean up with. And to think, he only managed to run into the wall once on his way there.
Reno had fallen asleep on the bed, leaning against the foot, he was going to be VERY sticky in the morning, but right now he couldn't care less.
Rude brought the warm washcloth with him, and stumbled only a little as he made it back to the bed. He moved Reno carefully, using the washcloth to get the majority of the mess off the redhead. He then pulled the comforter off the bed as best he could with Reno laying on it, rolling the redhead onto the un-comforter-ed part to finish removing the dirty laundry.
Reno let out only a soft groan as he was moved, he was asleep verging on passed out, but he needed it. He just hoped the Josh problem would soon be gone.
Rude climbed onto the bed, pulling up a spare blanket as he tried to curl around Reno to sleep.
When he awakened, he wasn't sure what time it was, but the tv and the coffee maker had turned on with their timers, the tv was ser to the news.
Rude was on the couch with his he couldn't remember which cup of coffee, his hangover and the fact that Reno was sleeping keeping the volume on the television down.
Reno when he came out noted the picture on the tv was of that blond reporter Rude seemed to have a bit of an attraction to reporting on a terrorist attack on a local item shop, his brow lifted as he quietly asked "Wonder if that was one of our holdings?"
"It was. In the past. The President sold it for no profit to a former secretary. She always wanted to own a shop, and was just starting her family..." Rude words were even and almost bland as he tried to move his lips as little as possible.
"Poor woman. ..man, that's just rotten."
"No casualties," Rude replied, his tone indicating that there was at least a good sign in the whole story. "But the store's totaled."
Reno just shook his head, inwardly he wondered if it was them warming up for the big event, it was a distinct possibility, but if he said it out loud Rude would probably just dismiss it as his own wild imaginings.
"There's coffee," Rude pointed out, intending fully to nod his head in the direction of said beverage, but hangover stopping him short from doing so.
"Thanks yo. Oh, I left an elixer for the hangover, but I knew you'd probably rather suffer it out."
Rude nodded, his face scrunching with the pain moving gave him. Reno knew him too well. Thank whatever gods were listening it was his designated day off.
Reno went in to get a shower, despite the quick clean up by Rude his hair was unpleasently sticky, causing him to scrunch his own face in distaste
Rude moved a little slower towards the shower, his headache causing him to mumble a curse every few steps.
He sighed as he made the water more to his taste, then felt the building shake, letting out a muttered curse. "What the HELL?" He didn't look, he was almost afraid to, reminded suddenly of the destruction Meteor had caused.
The shudder of the building had caused Rude to collide with a wall, something that drew out a louder than usual curse.
Reno finally managed to steady himself and called back. "You ok, aibou?" The power was still on, which was a good sign that it was not THEIR building that had taken the hit, but instead one nearby.
"Yeah," Rude's voice sounded terrible when he responded, a clear sign that he was okay... so long as you discounted the damn hangover.
"Tryin' ta take full accounting o' what's nearby. .let's see. .the grocer's. .Dry Cleaner. ." then his face paled when he contemplated the possibiliity. "The elementary school."
"They wouldn't," Rude said softly. He tried to quickly guess what else was around them. "The monorail Reeve was supposed to open today?" he asked, knowing the building was on he opposite side of their block.
Reno looked out the window, and his knees gave out as he shook his head in denial. ..then gestured with a shaking hand. .he'd trailed out of the bathroom stark naked as he was pointing at the destruction. .There was a CRATER where the grocer's had been. ..and the school was missing the entirety of its south wall, kids gathered around outside.
"Fuck." Rude's tone indicated that he was both upset by the fact that such a thing had to happen so close to his home, as well as the fact that it was supposed to be he goddamned fucking day off.
"I. ..I gotta go make sure Rennan's ok." He almost walked out just as he was before he remembered that just how he was was NOT a way to walk out in public and shrugged his sweats and t-shirt on, he knew Rufus would likely call wanting them to assist the police investigating the attacks, even though he and Rude BOTH knew who it was. . .and that it was them gearing up for the big blow.
Rude chose to just sit on the floor, cursing his luck, his hangover, anything else he could think of at that moment.
Reno found Elena outside the school as he arrived, his eyes begging her to tell him that Rennan was outside among the kids that had gotten out.
"Where's the big guy?" she asked, the dirt and debris giving her previously clean suit an already dirty look.
"Home, he had hangover from Hell. ..I was in the shower when the thing blew, shook the whole fucking building. .where is Rennan? Did you see him among the kids outside?"
Elena pointed towards the only tuft of bright red hair in the crowd of little people.
"Oh Thank Gods. ..what the FUCK kind of people blow up a building right next to a fucking school full of kids? " He was well aware he'd brought down the plate, but he had tried not to think about how many kids died, and at least it hadn't been during school hours. ..he probably would have wanted to shoot HIMSELF right there if it had been. ..besides the fact that it was HIS kid made him feel a lot more outraged about the prospect.
"Formerly owned by ShinRa Company," Elena explained. "Currently... owned, I guess, by a retired SOLDIER."
Reno just cursed quietly, and shook his head. "Man. ..they've become fucking TERRORISTS. ..this shit's gotten the Hell outta hand...Reeve and Avalanche can't ignore it now, they CAN'T."
"It wasn't that long ago Avalanche WAS the terrorits, Reno," Elena pointed out.
"Granted, but shit. ..they saved the fucking world, right?" He was just shellshocked. "And they didn't fucking blow up grocery stores. .or schools."
"In the old days..." Elena reminded him. Back before the group had gotten organized, back when her sister had just started as a Turk.
He just threw his hands up, terrorists on a small scale blowing up reactors he was used to dealing with. ..but terrorists taking out a grocery store and half of a school. ..that was something else entirely. The fact that his kid was in there added a whole new dimension to the entire thing.
"We really don't need you here. Reeve's sent enough men down to keep the area secure... and I'm more than qualified to do the messy details." Elena's smile told of just how badly she wanted -- needed -- to prover her worth as a Turk yet again.
"Go ahead, I'm gonna take Rennan and get myself back into some sembelance of sanity. ..boss was right to put you on this. ..shit's gotten entirely too personal." There, he'd acknowledged that anything having to do with Krastof's gang was too personal for he and Rude. ..and the fact that the elders were behind it made it a little personal for Tseng as well.
"Probably for the best," Elena said with a smile. She pulled Reno into a hug, telling him, "Go. Your son, and I'm sure your husband, too, needs you."
Reno hugged back, just enjoying the feel of human contact a moment before walking over to Rennan, knowing he'd likely be regaled with tales of how everything had happened. He heard one of the kids murmering about how the little redhead had saved one of his classmate's life by helping her out of the debris and getting her out before the wall collapsed completely.
"PAPA!" Rennan's voice was clearly the loudest of the bunch when the little bundle of energy latched itself to his father's leg.
"Hey, kiddo." He lofted Rennan up onto his hip. "Papa Rude n' I saw the school. ..it shook the whole building. I heard you saved a little girl." He nuzzled Rennan's cheek. "You don't know how proud I am o'you for that."
"It was so LOUD, and MESSY, and Papa Rude would have had a FIT with the stuff that was lying around..." Rennan, like his father, didn't seem to need to stop to breathe when he was speaking out of excitement.
"I was scared for you, Gods, I'm glad you're allright. .." He hugged his son tighter than he ever had. He watched the cleanup crews bring out the debris from the classroom, and had to bury the urge to shield Rennan's eyes when they started bringing bodies out. Yes, becoming a parent definately changed your perception on things.
Rennan looked around, despite his father's attempts to sheild his eyes. "Where's Papa Rude?" he asked.
"Back at the condo, he wasn't feeling well this morning"
"Is he sick?"
"He'll be ok in a few hours. You want some lunch before we head home? I know they'd be serving lunch right around now."
As if in answer, Rennan's stomach growled. "Yeah, it's probably a good idea. Don't need Papa Rude yelling at us to eat."
"We can stop by Tifa's and grab some sandwiches and some juice and you can tell her all about today, sound good?"
"Okay," Rennan smiled. Like most children, he dealt with tragedy rather well.
The bell rang above the door of the new Seventh Heaven and Reno greeted the dark haired barkeep with a wave. "Hey."
"Afternoon guys," Tifa said with a smile. "We're not quite open yet, but if you guys want something to eat, I can give your order to Denzel. He's our new cook in training."
"Thanks, Tif. ..man, what a day. I'm sure you saw the news. "
"And since you're both here I'm sure you were at ground zero," she replied, going about straightening what few chairs she'd taken off tables and taking down the chairs she hadn't gotten to yet.
"The condo is less than two blocks from ground zero. .." He shivered, just the tiniest bit.
"There were desks and books and chairs all over the place, Aunt Tifa! I helped Tina get out of the building."
"Really?" she asked, sitting down for a moment by the pair. "Was there anyone hurt?"
"They were bringin' out lotsa bags shaped like people. ..Papa was tryin' ta keep me from lookin'."
Tifa shook her head. Her expression clearly told of how, in her days with Avalanche, something like that would never have even been considered. "But you saved that little girl, didn't you?" she said.
"She's my girlfriend," Rennan beamed, then his face got a little red. "She told me I can marry her when the school gets fixed."
Reno chuckled a bit, "I think we got a lotta years to worry about that yet, slugger." Oh yes ..a LOT of years. ..he hoped.
"Why?" Rennan asked.
"I'll leave you to handle THAT one, PAPA," Tifa said, wandering back towards the kitchen to check on Denzel.
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"Because girlfriends and spouses are for grownups."
"Nuh uh," Rennan shook his head. "Bobby's sister is 15 and she's getting married this year. And Allison's sister is 10 and SHE'S got a girlfriend..."
"well, in our house they are." Hee did NOT want Rennan to be a father at 17 almost 18 like he was.
"Oh." And that was the end of that.
When the sandwiches came Reno watched Rennan eat eagerly. though he nibbled on the sandwich. "Go play with Denzel a sec, ok? Me and Tifa are gonna talk for a sec."
"I can help him in the kitchen?" Rennan asked, his eyes lighting up.
"Go ahead. "And he turned to Tifa now, hhis eyes showing clearly his stress level both between the bombings and his home situation of late.
"Talk to me," Tifa said, sitting down.
"I don't know what ta do about this situation with Josh. .." He explained to her what Rude had done and then just sighed, shaking his head and lowering his chin into his arms which were flattened against the bar now.
"I don't know what to tell you. He's obviously still harbouring some feelings for him, if it came to that."
"I know. ..shit.. ." He shook his head again. "I can't deal with this shit, Teef. ..the thought of him. ..doing THAT. . .shit, it's tearin' me apart even thinkin' about it."
"Then don't think about it," she replied. "Look, there's not really anything you can do about it, so don't worry. If you've brought it up, and he feels sufficiently guilty, let it go. If it happens again... call me, and I'll beat his ass."
Reno chuckled a little sadly. "I just want him to stop having anything to do with him. ..it wouldn't be so bad if he hadn't tried to kill me several times. .. " "But Rude won't give him up." There. She said it. "You... you can't make him, you know? He has to want to do it, and I think this is one of those things where it's almost like he WANTS to keep himself tied." Tifa paused. "It almost feels like he's setting himself up for a midlife crisis or something."
"That's what scares me so friggin' bad. .you. .." and he whispereed it. "You have no idea what it would do ta me. .. ta Rennan. ..if he took off on us over some stupid idea o'tryin' ta recapture his youth."
"He's just confused right now... and probably just as scared."
"So in the meanwhile, I'm just supposed ta not conront him. ..and hope ta GOD he doesn't walk away?" He looked up at her, and the tears he'd been holding back for days glimmered again, he again fought them off but it was so hard.
"I... I don't know, Reno," Tifa said with a sigh. "I've never had to deal with it before. I've always gone for the younger men, you know that. I guess... I guess the bigger a deal you make of it, the more he's going to question telling you things, and the less he's going to tell you."
Reno nodded, but it still was hard for him to let go of "It's my nature to question things, ya know? In my experience when you didn't ask questions. ..didn't try ta fix things. ..it came back to fuck you in the ass later."
"I think this is one of those things that you can't really help him with, only hurt him. So the best you can do is offer him what support he needs and let him do what he has to. I have faith, Reno," she smiled.
He nodded, even though that sense of unease would not let go. "If he walks away anyway. . .?"
"You did your best." She paused, thinking a moment before replying, "But you have to remember: he left him once. That will always weigh in the back of his mind any time he thinks of him... and Rude's never left you."
Reno nodded again, fighting the urge to curl up on himself. "I'm just sick of the fear. . ..the never knowing where the Hell I stand. ..I want him to be MINE, mine alone. ..am I being selfish to want that?"
"A little," Tifa replied. "But it's justified."
Reno smiled a little then, shaking his head. "This morning. ..for just one moment when we made love I was able to pretend it hadn't happened. ..that everything was like it was last year before all the madness started,. ..but it;'ll never be that way again. ..I wouldn't give up Rennan for all the materia in Wutai. ..but to have this uncertainty out of my life. .. I'd love that."
"There's always uncertainty. It's just a matter of how you deal with it."
"That's the thing. .. he was. ..the one thing I could always be certain of. ..and now. ..he's not." He shook his head at himself again . "Do you know how maddening it is having NOTHING certain?"
Tifa just sighed. "You're making this harder than it has to be, Reno. You're going to end up tearing yourself apart over it, and that won't do either of you any good."
"I know, I think too much, right"
"Something like that."
"So your suggestion. ..go home, send Rennan out to play for a while. .make love to my husband. ..then let him know how I feel but make sure he knows no pressure. ..but yes, that I do feel like he's betraying me almost when he does stuff like that, though I understand that Josh is going to BE in our lives until he can stand on his own."
"Now you've got it." Tifa's smile could light up even the dark room around them. She glanced at the clock, her eyes instantly widening. "Oh! I'm late. Gotta open up."
Reno called back for Rennan, and as his son came out he picked him up, heading back toward the condo.
Rude had found himself napping on the couch, something he almost never did, for most of the afternoon. He didn't wake up until he heard Rennan's voice from the hallway.
Reno sent Rennan out to play with Livewire before sitting next to Rude. ..his hands gliding gently over his skin.
"Again?" Rude asked, a raised eyebrow indicating that the majority of his hangover had been slept off. "So soon?"
"I. ..I just " He sighed, wanting to explain, but not wanting to make him mad.
"Just what? Killed a puppy? Ate a whole clove of garlic? What?"
"I need you. .and it makes me really uncomfortable and insecure when you do. ..well, things like what you did yesterday. I know it shouldn't. ..but it does. Just like I know all of this new responsibility makes you feel that way. "
"You have me. How many times do I have to tell you that?" Rude replied.
"I know that. .." and he sighed shaking his head. "please. ..don't get angry with me, allright? I'm just telling you how it feels, not accusing you of anything or even asking you to do anything about it. ..and I know I think too much and need to stop feeling insecure. . ." suddenly he just siezed Rude's mouth, that kiss saying the things he couldn't finda voice for. ..the need and longing that fueled the insecurity.
Rude pulled away after a moment. "If I say I'm sorry can I get another one of those?"
"'course. ..I love you, ya big lug. ..I don't wanna end up losing you over some stupid fucked up mid-life crisis. .." he smiled a little, bending in for another.
"I am NOT having a midlife crisis," Rude denied. "Only old people have those."
Reno just shook his head, and grinned.. ..reaching in to shut him up with yet another breath-stealing kiss.
Rude thought about telling Reno that he should piss the redhead off more often, but he figured that would stop the toe-curling kiss he was currently getting, which would be bad.
Reno's clothes came off first without ever breaking that kiss. ...then he started stripping RUDE without ever breaking it, laying his body against his husband's, his own slender frame shaking with all sorts of emotion. ..the day had been thoroughly draining.
Rude paused for a moment, pulling his lips from Reno's. "Rennan?" he asked.
"Outside in the playground playing with Livewire and Em, with Elena keeping an eye on Em. ...Em'd stay out there until dark if Elena let her."
Rude chuckled. "Just don't want to scar him."
"I know. . .Gods, I love you. ..'swhy I don't wanna ever let you go. ..'swhy I want you to myself so bad, n' I know it's selfish, but I can't help that."
"You've got me," Rude replied, pausing for a moment. "You... and that brat of yours... you got me." There was a tiny smile on his face that went all the way up to his eyes, making them shine as he removed his ever-present sunglasses.
Reno with that leaned over him, then with no preparation except a spit lube drove himself onto Rude with a soft hitching gasp, tilting his head back a bit. "R-Rude. .fuck you feel so great."
Rude had no answer to that. Unless, of course, one would consider a wordless gasp of pleasure an answer. In which case, Rude answered in spades.
His motions were not so desperate as last time, hips lifting and dropping in that circular motion which made that cock bar do things to his guts that made his entire body shiver, his cheeks and the bridge of his nose pinkening as his breath was reduced to tiny pants. ...he was just so damn hot for the man inside him that he couldn't stand himself. . .
Rude found that he couldn't exactly move in that position, so he just let Reno pull the climax from deep within him, something that completely and totally caught Rude by surprise when it happened.
Reno collapsed over onto him as he sprayed between them. .. then got up and got dressed after cleaning himself up. "I guess it'd be a good idea NOT to get caught nude on the sofa when he comes in, eh?"