A/N: If you can handle the last chapter you can handle this one. It's pretty mild.

Dean now sat in a diner, a lot like the one that he met her in. He was reminded of her everywhere he went, he winced when something brushed by his arm, and as the sharp sound of the door closing sounded again. He was very hung over, and all he could think about was her, and how he didn't want to be alive anymore. He knew that he wouldn't do it until his goal was done. He was going to cause pain to the people that pushed her over the edge once he found them.

Dean's cell phone rang and he picked it up.

"Sam?"

Dean answered his phone with an apology to Charlie, "What's up Sammy?" Dean asked putting emphasis on Sammy knowing that his brother would cringe.

"It's Sam, and we need to help dad."

"Why now? I'm busy at the moment Sam."

"Because the dictator said now."

"Well tell him I can't."

"Whatever."

Dean turned to Charlie after hanging up and saying "Sorry, family issues."

"Well in that case, you should go."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes Dean, and if you are done tonight, and not totally exhausted, then call me."

"Okay."

They were sitting in a little coffee shop, so Dean stood up, and grabbed his coffee and left.

To this day Dean still regrets leaving her, even though he knew that his leaving didn't really affect her much. She would still be gone.

"Dean, you there?"

Dean remembered that he was on his phone, so he spoke "What Sam, you don't talk to me since we killed the demon, and now you expect me to just have a fucking heart to heart, I don't think so."

Dean could tell that Sam was hurt over Dean calling him Sam, even though he hated the nick name, it was something that Dean always did, no matter how pissed off he was. "Dean, listen, I know Dad and I haven't exactly talked to you the last couple of years, but we were worried when we couldn't reach you, you changed you phone number, and the phone company said you were overseas."

"Doesn't matter where I am Sam, I'm paying some people a visit." Dean said as he hung the phone up."

"All That I'm Living For"

All that I'm living for,
All that I'm dying for,
All that I can't ignore alone at night.

I can feel the night beginning.
Separate me from the living.
Understanding me,
After all I've seen.
Piecing every thought together,
Find the words to make me better.
If I only knew how to pull myself apart.

All that I'm living for,
All that I'm dying for,
All that I can't ignore alone at night.
All that I'm wanted for,
Although I wanted more.
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me.

I believe that dreams are sacred.
Take my darkest fears and play them
Like a lullaby,
Like a reason why,
Like a play of my obsessions,
Make me understand the lesson,
So I'll find myself,
So I won't be lost again.

All that I'm living for,
All that I'm dying for,
All that I can't ignore alone at night.
All that I'm wanted for,Although I wanted more.
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me.

Guess I thought I'd have to change the world to make you see me,
To be the one.
I could have run forever,
But how for would I have come
Without mourning your love?

All that I'm living for,
All that I'm dying for,
All that I can't ignore alone at night.
All that I'm wanted for,
Although I wanted more.
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me.

Should it hurt to love you?
Should I feel like I do?
Should I lock the last open door,
My ghosts are gaining on me.

A/N: Ookay... if you like this story please review, otherwise, I won't continue. The song is All That I'm living for by Evanescence.