Hey guys I'm back again with chapter three. I'm not sure how long its gonna take to get chapter four up but ill do it as quick as I can. This chapter is where all the angst come in. So major emotional conflicts are going and the characters are a little OOC but I don't think its too bad. I'm thinking about have some one figure out the Sohma curse someone who is known to the Sohma's what do you guys think should I do it or should I have Shigure make up some stupid excuse.

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" I just came from the main house." Hatsuharu said leaning against the window frame in Shigure's office. " I saw Kazuma there and he gave me a job to do."

" I take it this job as he calls it has something to do with Kyo and Tohru." Shigure said.

" How'd you guess." Hatsuharu said sarcastically. He smiled slightly. " It's what I have to do that causes me to hesitate. How it'll hurt Kyo." Hatsuharu's smile turned into a sarcastic smirk. " How it just might kill me."

" What've you got to do?" Shigure asked very curious.
Hatsuharu glanced back at Shigure.

" Oh." He said. "...can I watch?"

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" So Tohru what happened Haru and I left?" Momiji asked slyly.

" Nothing happened we just went to class." Tohru said.

" So how did you and Kyo end up like that?" Momiji asked.

Yuki looked questioningly between Momiji and Tohru. " End up like what?"

Momiji opened his mouth to answer when he interrupted.

" Tohru, we need to talk." Hatsuharu said pointing towards the door leading to the back field. " Outside.'

" Oh okay Hatsuharu." Tohru said slightly confused.

Hatsuharu looked over at Shigure and nodded. " Make sure he gets there." He mouthed. He walked over to Yuki and placed his hand on Yuki's shoulder. " Watch Momiji for a few minutes. Maybe show him your secret base or something." He let go and walked to the door his hands stuffed in his pockets and eyes twinged with fear. " Come on Tohru."

Tohru followed obediently. What could Hatsuharu want with me?

" Well Tohru." Hatsuharu said. " I must admit you keep surprising me. What I saw today shocked me. I don't think anyone has seen Kyo like that. All his defenses down. He was stripped bare his emotions raw and open to being scarred. His soul exposed giving someone the opportunity to break him and shatter his spirit like china glass." Hatsuharu said sliding his hand down Tohru's arm. Out of the side of his view he could see Kyo standing on the roof frozen in shock. God I hope I live through this. Hatsuharu thought as he brought his other hand up to gently stroke Tohru's cheek. He saw Kyo ball his fists and his eyes blaze with jealousy and anger...and a desire to kill. He saw Kyo shaking as he took a step forward. Hatsuharu looked back at Tohru giving a pathetic apologetic gaze. " I'm sorry." He said. Hatsuharu pulled Tohru to him close and fast not giving her time to react and he kissed her.

" I told you never to touch Tohru!" Kyo yelled jumping off the roof landing beside of Hatsuharu. " Didn't I say I would kill you if you ever touched her like that." Kyo said grabbing Hatsuharu by his shirt collar. " Don't think I won't kill you Haru." Kyo threw Hatsuharu into the patch of stones Yuki so commonly beat him into. " You made the biggest mistake of your life when you kissed Tohru." Kyo said advancing menacingly his stride full of hate yet it was restrained.

" Kyo please." Tohru said. " Don't"

Kyo stopped at the sound of Tohru's pleading voice. He glared at Hatsuharu who was struggling to get back up.

Hatsuharu was shaking as he tried to stand up but he couldn't feel his legs at all. It was probably because Kyo had thrown him headfirst into the rock patch. He rubbed the back of his head already feeling what he knew was gonna be a big, painful, ugly bruise. At least I'm still alive Hatsuharu thought. He looked up as he saw a pair of hands grab is collar again and drag him up off of the ground.

" Don't you ever touch again." Kyo said through clenched teeth. His breathing was hard and labored and his chest rose and fell in great gasps. Kyo felt a hand on his shoulder. He turned back to Tohru's pleading eyes once again.

" Kyo don't hurt Hatsuharu." Tohru said.

Kyo's fist became limp and Hatsuharu dropped with a loud thud. He just looked at Hatsuharu his anger replaced by fear. His head swung furiously between Hatsuharu whose face was clenched in pain and Tohru who didn't know how to react... who to help. Kyo just turned and ran away from the whole situation. He ran into the woods not glancing behind him. He tried running away from the world...from the cruel reality of what he did... from all the different emotions assaulting him...but what he was really running from was Tohru. He could escape everything by running…everything but the storm.

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" Haru why the hell did you do that?" Yuki said as he came to stand by Haru.

Hatsuharu smiled but it was distorted as he winced in pain and grabbed his arm. " Aww how nice to see you worry so much. Where's Momiji?"

" Sleeping." Yuki said. " Shigure called Hatori he should be here soon."
Haru looked over at an innocent-lookng Shigure. " Huh didn't expect me to live."

" What was that all about?" Tohru asked her voice trembling.

" All in time sweet Tohru. You'll understand soon I expect." Shigure said glancing at Hatsuharu now being supported by Yuki.
Hatsuharu nodded.

" Go Tohru I suspect dinner must be done now... perhaps even a little burnt." Shigure said.

" Oh my god! I forget about dinner." Tohru shrieked. Following her outburst was a deafening clap of thunder. A flash of lightning sighted the sudden downpour heading their way. " Oh no Kyo!" Tohru whispered

" Wedon't have time Miss Honda." Yuki said hobbling along with Hatsuharu supported by his shoulder.

Shigure grabbed Tohru inside. " Kyo will be alright. He'll come back." I hope Shigure thought.

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" Kyo still isn't back yet. It's almost dawn and it's been raining all night." Shigure said from his desk.

" Kazuma said to let him. This is a lot for Kyo to be hit with. I don't think Kyo ever planned to meet someone like Tohru. He never thought anyone could love the cat from the Junnyshi." Hatsuharu said from his position of leaning against Shigure's wall. His head now bandaged and his arm wrapped.(A/N: By Yuki of course. I just had to. Just pretend Hatori was too busy and he dropped of instructions. Sorry Haru/Rin.)

Yuki sat listening sadly. They all rested their hopes that Tohru would truly love Kyo. For some reason the whole Sohma family was playing matchmaker with those two. He didn't come up in the picture anywhere. Did they think he didn't have any emotions. That he wouldn't be hurt. That he didn't have feelings for Honda-san. No it was all about that stupid cat and the onigiri.

" But I think the thing Kyo least expected. What causes him to stop and his head to fill with doubts. What he thought would never happen." Haru said. " Was that he would begin to love that person back."

Yuki looked over at Hatsuharu. He didn't want to believe that he was hearing this. He always got what he wanted. He was always the special one of the Sohma's cursed by the zodiac. Kyo was always the one shunned and scorned.

Hatsuharu spoke again as thought reading Yuki's mind. " The cat was meant to be shunned and scorned for eternity. No one was supposed to love him. He was meant to be feared for who and what he truly was... not accepted and wanted for it."

" Yes Tohru sure hasn't followed the rules of the zodiac curse." Shigure stated.

" No she hasn't." Hatsuharu said.

The silence that had lapsed between the three Junnyshi was broken by another deafening roll of thunder.

Kyo better get back soon Shigure thought. Tohru's been tossing around all night. If she waked up and Kyo isn't here she'll probably blame herself.

" The storm seems to be getting worse. The closer to dawn it becomes the darker the sky grows." Yuki said.

Hatsuharu and Shigure slanted their gazes over to Yuki. This was the first time he'd spoken since the start of their conversation.

" If that baka neko wants to kill himself fine. It's no loss of mine" Yuki said angrily. He hit his fist down on Shigure's desk. " If he loves her so much why does he keep hurting her? Why does he keep doing this to her? He just runs blindly trying to escape. He isn't doing anything but tearing her apart. Everyday he didn't show up for meals she smiled less and less. Her eyes didn't glow anymore and she didn't laugh at all. What has he done to deserve her?

" Nothing." A soft voice said from the doorway. " Nothing at all."
(A/N: Dont think I wasn't sorely tempted to end the chapter here... but I dont want a cliffhanger right now.)

Yuki, Shigure and Hatsuharu looked to see Momiji in the doorway. His eyes were glazed with sadness... gleaming with emotion.

" Momiji you shouldn't be here." Hatsuharu said standing up wincing in pain.

" Why shouldn't I?" Momiji asked calmly and monotonously. " Don't say my age as an excuse. You're no older then I am Haru." Momiji turned his sad gaze to Yuki. " Kyo hasn't done anything to deserve Tohru's love. Maybe that's why Kyo does deserve it most. Kyo doesn't change who he is so people will be happy. He doesn't hide what he's really feeling. He isn't afraid to let you know he hates you...maybe love is the only emotion he has trouble with...because he's never had it. He doesn't care about other people's judgment of him. What they think of him doesn't matter...their just strangers who don't want to look past the surface. No one can change Kyo unless he wants to be changed. Kyo always had to fight for himself. Nobody was there to defend him like they were there for you. Kyo always felt he had to make a name for himself, earn his right to exist. He didn't need a lot of friends or material things. Kyo needed a family... he needed someone to love him. Someone to want him near. He would love to be accepted by all the Sohmas but deep down he knows someone will always hate him." Momiji said his eyes unflinching as he stared into Yuki's.

Yuki looked away from Momiji. How is it that Momiji so young could understand this? Perhaps its because Momiji had been searching for love too. After his mother rejected him and let her memories be erased without regret. The difference was Momiji found love. He was hard not to he was just so happy and lively

" Look at me." Momiji shouted.

Yuki stared at Momiji in shock. Did the little rabbit just yell at me?

" You hide yourself Yuki. You try to make it seem like you just one everybody to be happy even if it'll kill you. No one knows what you really feeling because you don't let anyone in. You put a smile on while inside your straining your anger and the urge to mutilate somebody. You let people push you around just because you want them to like you." Momiji said. " Tohru knows who Kyo is because he lets her see his soul. He doesn't keep many things secret…. neither does she. Yuki some people can't even begin to fathom how your mind works….how you would truly react. You're not who your really are meant to you're what everyone else wants you to be. " Momiji finished falling on his knees. He bent his head down as Hatsuharu hobbled over and came to kneel beside him. Momiji felt his good arm encircle his shoulders. " So tell me Yuki if Kyo doesn't deserve her love because he's hurt her….what makes you think you're any worthier? What makes you think you haven't hurt Tohru too? She may be to forgiving but you're the foolish traveler Yuki." Momiji said. " But this story doesn't have such a happy ending. The traveler cried for his gift without his eyes great tears of joy. He was foolish…too trusting but he was grateful for being thought of by the goblins. You don't cry for the gifts given to you. All you do is tell the world how unworthy they are and that they don't deserve anything you've been given. You selfish Yuki…. you've been taught to believe you were the smart and clever…the special one of the zodiac. You were invincible, you could do no wrong. Give it up Yuki all the reasons you've given as to why Tohru's love could never belong to Kyo…you're guilty of too." Momiji looked back up at Yuki his eyes twinged with anger. " You've always been loved Yuki…. your whole life. When someone finally loves Kyo you have to take it away from him. Why don't you try being rejected by someone….by people you love."

" Momiji." Hatsuharu said softly and somberly.

" I'm going to check on Tohru." Momiji said getting to his feet shrugging off Hatsuharu's arm. He looked back once more at a shocked and guilty looking Yuki.

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" He won't ever understand Tohru." Momiji whispered. " Yuki just can't grasp the emptiness. The black abyss of loneliness. Days spent yearning and nights spent crying endless tears. Wanting for somebody to say they love you. Kyo never had love in his whole life. He didn't have a dad just like you….his mother had been afraid of his true form. Even if she hadn't been she died while he was still young. It was suicide so maybe if he wasn't a cat she might've loved him and lived. No one gave him love and compassion after she died. They blamed him for it. Whispering behind his back about awful things…. holding him responsible just because he was cursed with the cat. At such a young age with no father or mother with the whole world against him Kyo became what he is now. Seeing himself as a gargoyle upon society. You kinda know how that feels….but you had Uo and Hana to take care of you. I don't think anyone can really understand Kyo. You can try though Tohru you can try." Momiji said his voice shaking and his eyes filled with tears. " Please Tohru for all of us try to love Kyo."

Tohru rolled in her sleep. " I get scared though….thinking about his form."

" It's okay to be scared Tohru. Like Kyo said being scared just means you know who he really is. Listen to him for once accepting you're scared and letting him know would probably just make him love you more." Momiji said hoping that if she didn't remember word she would remember the emotions she was hearing in her sleep. " You just have to try Tohru."

" I don't know if I can." She whispered unconsciously.

" Why?" Momiji asked.

" Because a part of me already…." Tohru's sentence hung off as she fell back into her slumber.

" A part of you already what?" Momiji asked….and the thunder rolled.

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I can't…. go back…. ever Kyo thought. I made such a fool of myself…. in front of her. Hatsuharu didn't deserve what I did to him….she doesn't belong to me. She just thinks of me as a friend….a confidant. Or maybe she doesn't think of me at all. Kyo shook his head trying to dry himself. The trees hadn't provided him much shelter. He'd been in this downpour for hours and he kept getting weaker and he felt so tired he just wanted to lie down and die in misery. It just hurt to breath and his head was spinning and pounding. It hurt….everywhere….so much. " Just one more step." Kyo told himself. He did just that one more step and the minute his shoe hit the ground he grabbed his sides in pain and collapsed.