Hugging the porcelain throne was all she could do to keep the room from spinning. Her body had been wracked with horrible bouts of nausea; an all too familiar side effect of her first pregnancy. As she washed her face in the sink, she look up at the mirror to find her appearance all but pretty. Turning her attention to the clock, she sneered at the time. Seven fifteen. Picking up the phone she told the receptionist that she was still not feelingwell and would be going to the doctor's. Three days now she had felt horrible and called in.Mulder had been gone since last Tuesday on a case with Doggett and Reyes. So she was all alone with Will who thankfully was asleep at the moment.

Scully then called her mother and told her that she was still not feeling good.

"It's nothing mom. I just feel a bit under the weather so I am going to the doctors today."

"Alright, Dana, I'll be there in a bit."

Sighing slightly, she plopped down at her bed and let the lightheadedness pass. She was without a doubt pregnant and it filled her with mixed emotions. Waves of happiness and guilt rode over her.

"Congratulations, Dana. I am pleased with your results. I surely thought that it would take a couple of procedures before it took but your excelling beyond comprehension."

Scully nodded slightly. The doctor continued, "You're seven weeks along. I'll set up your next prenatal exam with Judy in the waiting room, okay?"

Nodding again, Scully got up to change. Now that her thoughts had been confirmed, came the hard part, telling Mulder.

Scully tiredly unlocked the door to her home to find her mother there sitting with Mulder and William. She furrowed her eyebrows at Mulder.

He came up to her quickly, flushed. He kissed her chastely before speaking.

"Are you alright Scully?"

She nodded not sure what he was worried about.

"When I tried to call Quantico looking for you, Sally told me that you had called in sick the past few days and when I called here I reached your mother who told me you had gone to the doctors. Are you sure you're okay?"

Scully smiled half heartedly, "I'm fine Mulder. Really I am."

"Are you sure?" He asked searching her eyes, "Because for a moment I feared…"

She knew what he was about to say so she stopped him. She hated how the cancer always loomed over her and what was worst was the way he always feared the worst.

"I'm in perfect health." She boasted.

He nodded staring intently at her. Her mother got up and kissed her daughter before making her excuses about leaving. She knew all too well that her daughter had found something out at the doctors that was only for her to share with Fox. She suspected she knew what it was but she left it like that as she left.

Scully walked over to sit with her son who was busy playing with a small grey alien and a miniature Hulk Hogan.

"Hi Will, mommy's back." His face lit up as he held out his hands for her. She scooped him up as she took him into the kitchen where she put him in the high chair.

"So what did the doctor's say?" Mulder mumbled as he followed her into the kitchen.

"Nothing except that I'm in perfect health, I've just caught a bit of a cold." She stated in a tone that meant don't ask anymore questions. She desperately wanted to tell him but she couldn't bring herself to actually do it.

He eyed her suspiciously but accepted her answer.

A cold silence swept over the two as she began dinner.

Several Weeks Later

Scully stared at the mirror making sure that her belly had not yet swollen in the least bit. She was now ten and a half weeks pregnant. The nausea got no easier for her but she braved it out for work. Her breasts on the other hand were so tender so had almost let is slip to Mulder that she was pregnant.

While during one of thier latest intimate moments, Mulder ravished her body with kisses. In which, despite her guilt, she found herself overcharged and wanting him. Her sudden wave of urges brought her to become quite fiesty with Mulder. Who, although a brilliantly educated man, was somehow not able to see the changes in Scully. As he massaged her breasts, she enjoyed and relished in it until it became a bit too tender and she yelped out in pain. Scared of this Mulder backed off wide eyed, babying her. She assured him it was just a fluke spot that had hurt but he still eyed her with skeptism.

She found it harder to hide her pregnancy than the first time considering that she didn't have Mulder around the first time. With each week her belly began to protrude more and more and with Mulder sleeping next to her, she found it difficult to hide it from him. He felt a sudden wave of rejection from her as she became increasingly more and more tired to have sex. Feeling a bit hurt he stopped his advances on her altogether.

From his point a view, Scully had become withdrawn and moody beyond belief. He couldn't figure out what was wrong with her. Their conversations became less and less. He spent most of his time with William who was learning to walk while Scully sulked in the bedroom reading. He wasn't even sure when the last time he had hugged her had been.

Mulder sat the rag down as he finished up supper. Making his way towards the bedroom he knocked quietly before entering, "Scully?"

She was lying down on the bed when he came in. She hugged the pillow tightly as he came and sat down beside her.

"Are you okay?" He asked not sure what was wrong.

She nodded without turning to face him.

He scooted over next to her and lay down. Wrapping his arms around her and the pillow, he whispered into her ear.

"You trust me right?"

She nodded again.

"Then tell me what's wrong. You haven't been yourself lately. You've become so withdrawn." He pleaded with her.

Tears streamed down her face as she shook her head silently. She knew he would find out soon enough but she still could find no words to tell him herself. Lying to Mulder was the one thing she dreaded most.

"Is dinner ready?" She asked as she began to pull herself from the bed but Mulder caught her by surprise and pulled her back to him causing the pillow to slip from her making it easier for his hands to wrap around her belly. As his hands found their way across her mid section, he felt the hardness of her protruding belly and stopped moving to pull away. He stared at her for moment in complete shock as all the instances fell together now and assured him of her recent behavior. She turned to face him now, her face flush.

Mulder slowly brought his hand back up to her belly and rubbed it again, just to be sure. His eyes widen, "Scully?" He asked.

Her head dropped down and she sighed," I didn't want to tell you, Mulder." She solemnly stated.

Again shocked, he raised his eyebrow at her, "Why?" Almost in tears himself.

"Because I wasn't even sure it was possible. I didn't want to get your hopes up only for it not to happen." She breathed hoping he could find the half truths.

Mulder turned away from her and shook his head, "How? When?" The words mumbled out from his lips.

"Three and a half months. I'm due in the springtime."

"Mine?" He blurted out in a sort of stupid way.

She laughed quickly, "Of course it is. Why would you ask that?"

"I just. Three months, you've been hiding from me." The tears formed filling her with guilt.

She quickly grabbed him into a hug, "I'm so sorry. I was just so scared. I didn't think it was possible. I didn't even know if I could do it a second time around."

He immediately hugged back, "I'm here this time. The whole time, no matter what."

She nodded through her wet eyes. Little did he know what was up at stake here she thought bitterly.

TBC...