"Well, don't you look lovely tonight," AJ commented Sadie, making her step back so he could twirl her around. She smiled at him as she turned, showing off the red dress that covered her body, going all the way down to her knees in a tight form, fitting her curves perfectly. It was strapless and she had her hair in loose curls which cascaded down her shoulders. "But why so dressed up?"

She let herself into his hotel room, still holding his hand, "told Petey and Bobby I was going out," she answered. "Which, I am because I am in your hotel room." She kissed him on the lips then flopped down on the bed, waiting for him to join her. "Do you have a change of clothes?" she asked with a small smile.

AJ smiled back at her, tossing his bag on the bed. "Jeans and a shirt?" he suggested with a shrug. "Actually...I kind of like you the way you are. I never see you that dressed up." He sat down on the bed, placing her head in his lap so he could trace her face, "you're beautiful," he wispered, placing his lips on top of hers. Weakly, she kissed back, shifting her body so she was off of him and stood up, walking towards the bathroom.

Standing in front of the mirror, she took a face cloth and began to wipe off the make up on her face. Scrubing until her face turned red, she stopped to look at her reflection: she was a different girl than she was eight months ago, before she had started dating AJ. Taking the elastic off of her wrist and throwing her hair in a ponytail, she continued to glare at herself through the mirror, staring at her apperence that stared back at her. Her eyes were gleaming back at her in fake happiness, the worst kind of happiness there was.

Finally leaving the bathroom, she walked back to where AJ was on the bed, asleep with the TV on. She cahnged into the jeans and shirt he had left out for her before answering the knocking that was at the door. "Yeah, yeah, yeah..." she mumbled, doing up the button and the zipper. She flung the door open, finding Alex standing in front of her with two cigerettes in his hand.

"Gee, there's a surprise: you answering AJ's door. Good thing I wasn't Petey, huh? Man, you would've been dead by now..." he continued to talk out loud, expecting Sadie to pay attention to him as he listed off all the ways that Petey would have killed her. "But hey, while I'm here, I got a pack of cigerettes, it's a nice night out...why don't you join me for a smoke?"

"I don't smoke," she answered, watching as he walked to the patio door that lead to the balcony.

He let out a loud laugh, "that's funny, because I swear your little Starburst addiction has happened for a reason..."

"Anymore," she finished. "I don't smoke anymore. It's bad for you."

"Yeah? So is lying, but yet...here we are." He smirked at her, opening the patio door and lighting up his smoke. He held the extra one out to her, taunting her as he blew a smoke ring out the door.

Giving in, she snabbed the cigerette and lighter out of his hand and lit up before she even sat down on one of the plastic chairs that was outside. The nicotine gave her instant relief as she could taste it on her lips, matching Alex's smoke ring. "So," he started, leaning against the railing. "How's things?"

"What do you want?" Sadie asked him, knowing he was there for a reason.

"What do I want? Someone to enjoy a smoke with! No one smokes in that locker room, and the Ring Of Honor guys can hardly afford smokes. I knew I could count on you, Miss. Niall. I know you best, remember. But hey, while we're talking about you, lets talk about how you feel about slowly breaking everyone's heart...well, except mine of course because I know your secrets..."

"I don't break hearts," she mumbled, tapping the end of the smoke to let ashes fall to the ground. "I've been with AJ for eight months, his heart is fine."

"Oh. Well, that just took the fun out of things."

"You're here for a reason, what is it?" Sadie demanded, inhailing the cigerette. "You don't just come to someone's hotel room at..." she took a look at her watch, "12:17 in the morning just for nothing." Blowing smoke in his direction she waited for his answer.

He shrugged his shoulders in a response, flicking his cigerette butt to the ground that was floors away. "Sades, I just want to hang out, catch up. Friend stuff, because we're close like that."

"We aren't close at all," Sadie mumbled, flicking her cigerette butt to where Alex did.

He grinned at her, causing her to roll her eyes. "Sadie, Sadie, Sadie...Relationships seem closer than they appear," he told her with a wink. "Isn't there anything you want to ask me? Anything you want to tell me? Maybe even a messege I can pass along..."

"I pretend I'm asleep because it's the only time he'll say he loves me." She took a deep breath, trying to calm her nerves as she slightly chuckled to herself. "Like, I lay there, and wait, and wait...fifteen minutes he takes in the shower, and I'm usually rolled over reading a book or something, not paying attention to the TV...but then when I'm half asleep, I'll feel him get into bed, and he lays right next to me so our bodies are touching, and he'll kiss my shoulder, then my neck, and whispers he loves me. Never says it out loud to me when we're alone, just when I'm asleep, but I just pretend I am because I like hearing him say it. I shouldn't..."

"Because you're scared of love?" Her eyes fluttered open to where Alex was standing, a new cigerette hanging out of his mouth, lazily. Watching as the embers burned and the ashes drop to the ground, she shrugged her shoulders back at him.

"I guess I am..." she whispered, never making eye contact. "Hey..." his eyebrows raised in acknowledgement, taking a drag from his smoke, "is he doing OK?"

A cloud of smoke escaped his lips as he nodded his head. "He's fine. Doing good. Bought a new couch last week for his apartment...yeah, he's good."

"You don't tell him anything, do you?"

"What? About you?" Alex asked with a half laugh. "I tell him everything. And hey, if you want me to stop, I think you know what to do." His cigerette sat between his forefinger and thumb as he continued to lean on his back against the railing, looking at Sadie with a grin. She stood up with a sigh, walking over so she stood in front of him and quickly pecked him on the lips. When she turned to walk away, he grabbed her arm harshly and brought her towards him, "you know that doesn't count," he whispered, his lips inches away from hers.

Taking in a deep breath, she moved her lips to press against his, allowing him to take control of the kiss when he wrapped his arms around her waist to bring her close; as if a habbit, she wrapped her arms around his neck. The taste of nicotine was still on their lips as their tongues brushed past each others, both of them wanting to deepen the kiss...both of them wanting more.

She felt his hands go up her shirt, his nails grazing her skin and reaching for her bra clasp. His fingers fumbled with it, causing Sadie to smirk mid-kiss, breaking them apart. "That wasn't apart of the deal," she whispered, readjusting her shirt and stepping back away from him.

"You know," he called after her, stopping her at the patio door. "If you're you're willing to kiss me to keep you and AJ and secret, there's something there other than just feelings, Sades."

"Like what?" she challenged, turning around but keeping her hand on the door handle.

He walked over, opening the door for himself but lowered his lips to her ear, "you love him."

She followed behind him into the hotel room, escorting him to the door. "Hey," she whispered so she wouldn't wake AJ, "do you still have a smoke on you?"

Reaching into his back pocket, he pulled out a package that had seven cigerettes remaining. "Have the rest," he told her, waving her off. "You'll need it for this next week."

And with that, he left.

Sadie watched as he walked down the hall, his hands in his pockets and his shoulders slumped forward, possibly going down to the bar, possibly going to go bug someone else.

Finally shutting the door, she placed the pack of smokes in her purse, knowing no one would look in there. Taking the jeans off and getting under the blankets, she moved close to AJ, kissing his shoulder and his neck. He stirred, opening his eyes and looking at her in the dark. "Hey," he whispered, turning around so he was facing her. "You took a long time in the bath room..."

"Sweetie?" she asked, cutting him off. "Sweetie, can I tell you some things and you promise not to get mad at me?"

AJ sat up and wrapped an arm around Sadie's waist to bring her closer to him. "Sure babe," he answered, letting her lay on his stomach. "What's on your mind?"

She sucked her lip into her mouth, still tasting the nicotine and still slightly swollen from the kiss. Her fingers lingered against the side of her mouth before she finally looked up at her boyfriend. "Before I began training in Japan..." she stopped her train of thought, slightly chuckling to herself. She couldn't tell him now, not like this. "I smoked," she said, "like, cigerettes. And sometimes weed, but not all the time. And tonight I had a cigerette, and I have a pack in my purse. I'm just going to finish that package, and I won't smoke anymore, I promise."

"It's a dirty habbit," AJ commented, kissing her forehead. "But what else did you want to tell me?"

"What else? Oh..." she looked around the room while she tried to think of another quick, cover up lie from what she really wanted to tell him. "My boobs," she said, cupping them in her hands, "they're fake."

"That's what you wanted to tell me?" AJ questioned. When Sadie didn't answer, he shrugged his shoulders. "Well, as long as we're coming clean about things...I saw you kissing Alex. And since you absolutley depise the guy, I'm either guessing you're cheating on me, or he has convinced you that as long as you kiss him, he'll keep one of your secrets. He does that to the other girls all the time and they fall for it."

"What do you mean?" She asked, pulling back slightly.

"You don't seriously think he would keep a secret, do you? I know for a fact, that he has told at least two people."

"Two?"

"Of course," AJ said with confidence. "Austin and Candy. He tells them everything, his best friend and fiancee...baby, whats wrong?"

Sadie sighed, lowering herself on him and leaned back against the pillows, conjoining her hand in his. "Nothing sweetie...let's just go to sleep." She turned over on her side, facing away from him and closed her eyes. His free hand ran up her back, stopping at her shoulders to give them a rub. Moving his lips across her shoulder and up to her ear, he gave her a kiss before whispering, "I wish you would be honest with me."

LegendSpeaking: Ta da. Three more chapters left...