A/N: Yeah sorry that the last chapter wasn't all that great. But I'll try and make this one better. Enjoy.
Lizzie and Gordo decided to work out their relationship; they felt that this was right. They didn't want to be apart, they didn't feel whole when they were apart. During this period of rebuilding their relationship Lizzie began thinking that the reason why they didn't feel whole, and that they couldn't stand being apart was because they were never really apart, they've been together forever, either as friends or as a couple. She hated this thought so she would try and block it out every time it came to her mind, she loved Gordo, she knew she did she never had a reason to doubt her love for him, and he loved her and he never had a reason to doubt his love for her, but maybe it was the same love anymore that he once felt.
seems like just yesterday
you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
your arms around me tight
everything felt so right
unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong
Lizzie and Gordo were back to sharing that apartment once again. It was 2am and Gordo's cell began ringing, he woke up and went to retrieve his phone. Lizzie had ideas as to who it was, but she was hoping that those days were over. Gordo looked at the collar ID on his phone and it read 'Miranda', he of course answered.
"What's up?" He said in a whisper.
"I need you Gordo." She said, and she sounded like she's been crying.
"Why, what's wrong?"
"I don't want to say over the phone. Do you think you could come over?"
"Sure I'll be right over."
no I can't breathe, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes
Gordo walked over to the dresser got out a pair of paints and went to the closet and got a shirt and went to change. He walked over to Lizzie and told her that he'd be back later. Lizzie automatically knew who called and she knew where he was going. She held back her tears and her anger, and she didn't reply. He walked out the bedroom door, and she knew that she had to say something now; she wasn't going to let this happen all over again. She got of bed and walked out and saw that he was about to open the apartment door.
"Gordo!" Lizzie shouted.
"Lizzie, I thought you were sleeping." He replied.
"You were wrong."
"I see that, did I wake you?"
"I know who called and I know where you're going. Why are you letting this happen again, the thing that tore us apart the last time?"
"Lizzie she needs me…"
"Isn't that what she always says, she needs you. I guess she has her knight and shining armor."
"Lizzie, don't do this, not now."
"When Gordo? A year from now, and I'm telling myself that you'll stop going to her whenever she needs you and you'll finally be around to have a relationship with? I don't think so Gordo, I did that before and look where it got us, and it's happening all over again and you're doing nothing about it…"
"You don't understand Lizzie."
"How could I Gordo, you're never around to talk to about it, the only time I see you is at work and that's not the appropriate place to talk."
"I try Lizzie."
"Obviously not hard enough, Gordo."
"Lizzie, I got to go."
"Leaving when the conversation is getting started and you don't want to handle it because you don't want to handle the truth. Go Gordo, but I got one thing to say to you, when you get back I won't be here. I'll be gone, and this time I won't come back. We'll see if Miranda is there for you when you need her like last time. But wait, she wasn't there last time. And she more than likely won't be this time either Gordo. You've had your chance, and I was obviously dumb for giving you another one in the first place. I also quit, when you get to the office in the morning my office will be empty…"
Gordo opened the door and walked out. Lizzie began to cry she couldn't believe that the guy she loved for as long as she could remember walked out the door for her old best friend. The guy that once loved her the same way, the guy that would do anything for her even if he'd get in trouble for it, the guy who would do what ever it took to protect her, they guy who was once her best friend and the one she saw herself having a life with.
I told you everything
opened up and let you in
you made me feel alright
for once in my life
now all that's left of me
is what I pretend to be
sewed together but so broken up inside
After she calmed down she began collecting the things that she brought over, and packed them away into her car. She found a piece of paper and wrote him a little note, she didn't think that he deserved it but she left it anyways.
After writing the note she headed for the office, she pulled into the parking lot and she knew that that would be her last time, she knew that she could never come back, but not because he was going to ban her from doing so, but because he was banning herself from ever doing so again. She walked up to the door, used her key to get in the one like all employees have and when she got inside she turned off the alarm. She walked over to her office with the boxes that she brought over. She started packing her stuff, her personal items, and her own documents and ideas. When she finished she looked around and saw that there was a picture of her and Gordo on the top of stuff in her box, she took the picture out and tore it in half. She took the half that had him on it and taped it to her computer screen because she knew that he'd eventually go in there, and she attached a post it that read:
I love you, but you didn't love me the same way
Before exiting the building she took one last look around and knew that she'd miss going to work there everyday and that she'd miss all the friends that she made. She walked out the door with no regrets of what happened, and none going into this new life that she was going to start.
no I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes
Gordo arrived at Miranda's and walked up to the door, thinking about everything that Lizzie said while he just walked right out the door, wondering if she was serious about quitting and leaving. He knocked on the door, and saw Miranda with tear stained face. He hugged her as he walked in.
"What's wrong Miranda?"
"I don't want to be alone tonight."
"Why what happened?"
"My boyfriend just broke up with me, and I really thought that he was the one."
"You woke me up at 2am for this? Because your boyfriend broke up with you."
"Yeah, maybe I shouldn't have but there's more to it then that…"
"Miranda I was just fixing things with Lizzie, and now she might be gone for good this time."
"Gordo, he left me because I'm pregnant."
"Oh, Miranda."
swallow me then spit me out
for hated you I blame myself
seeing you, it kills me now
though I dont cry on the outside anymore
anymore
Later that morning, Gordo had to go to work, but he had to stop at home first, he wanted to see if Lizzie was serious about leaving.
Gordo arrived at his/their apartment hoping that she'd be there. Hoping that she was just upset and that she didn't mean what she said. He grabbed his keys and unlocked the door. He saw a note sitting between the salt and pepper shakers on the counter, he threw the keys on the table and ran toward the bedroom, the bed was made, he hoped that that meant that she already headed for work. He searched the room, and all her stuff was gone. He ran out of the bedroom, grabbed the note and his keys, and ran out the door and down the stairs to his car. He hopped in his car, drove as fast as he could to the office, he ran all the way to her office and saw that it was empty. He closed the door, walked over to her desk and sat in her chair. He looked around and thought to himself, 'How could I be so stupid? How could I let this happen again? I let her get away; I thought she was calling my bluff.'
He noticed the picture on her computer; he pulled it off and read the note that was posted to it. He felt upset. He decided to open the letter and read what she had to say.
Dearest Gordo,
Well here I am writing you again, writing you for the same reasons as last time. Miranda got between us and you let her. Except this time it's different because I'm not coming back, I have nothing here, only my family. But that doesn't really mean as much as it once did because you were part of my family and now I don't have you. I guess I never did, you were always there for Miranda, and you were never there for me like you used to be. Gordo there are few things I want you to know: number one-I love you and always will even though our love for each other is now different, number two-Miranda's changed, she'll do whatever it takes to have people do what she wants, and you fell under that spell, you'll continue to deny it but one day you'll figure it out. Last but not least, good luck Gordo, you'll succeed beyond your expectations, you may not know it but I do Gordo. I've always known it, but don't let anyone stand in your way not even Miranda. This is longer then I wanted it to be, but good-byes aren't easy.
Good-bye Gordo!
Elizabeth McGuire
Gordo couldn't believe that she was serious, she was seriously leaving.
Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes
Gordo walked back out to his car, he knew that he had to get back to work; he had to get to the set.
Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes
There was one thing that Lizzie didn't include in that letter, and that's because she knew that if she did he'd come and look for her. She knew when she was going to tell him, and how. But she didn't want to tell him yet. She was heading for another city in another state, a place where she knew there was a job offer; an offer from a friend that he said will always be there for her. A friend that she found out in high school that she could always run to, and that he could as well.
A/N: I hope you liked this chapter…