Title: When Kakei Met Saiga
Rating: PG-13
Fandom: Legal Drug
Pairing: Kakei/Saiga
Disclaimer: CLAMP! If you own them you must write more! (Although, I'm not really complaining, I LOVE X/1999, xxxHOLiC, and Tsubasa!)
Summary: It's Kakei's first day of college and already he's lost and embarrassed in front of his entire freshman class, but at least the burly senior who embarrased him at Todai was hot.
Warning: Crazy cousins. Back to Kakei's POV.

Chapter 5: In Dreams (Call this Tuesday/Wednesday)

Kakei stared up at the ceiling in his room. It was one in the morning and he couldn't get to sleep. Saiga's face just kept popping up in his mind every time he began to doze off, and then he'd just lie there thinking about him and that first kiss. Then he'd drift off to sleep and the process would repeat itself.

There was just so much they didn't know about each other. How could Saiga feel—and he obviously did feel it from all the kisses—that they should be together.

Also, his sexuality was extremely controversial. Kakei had never really fallen in love before and he wasn't about to start now after he'd accepted that he was primarily asexual. No one appealed to him. So staying up late at night thinking about one person confused him a lot.

Why was he thinking about Shunichi Saiga? Why all the time? He sometimes found his mind straying in the middle of class to which he'd miss tons of notes. He'd sit there eating lunch on the roof with Chiaka and just staring at his food even if he did want to eat it. He'd say he wasn't hungry even if his stomach was rumbling loudly.

And he didn't know why, but he always felt unhappy thinking about Saiga. He felt as though Saiga was an unattainable … being. But what was there to be unattained? He felt so confused.

Finally, his unhappy thoughts drifted Kakei off to sleep. But it wasn't a happy sleep. He dreamt that he was running a lot, through ... well he couldn't really see it because he seemed to be running so fast that the scenery around him was all a blur. Finally he came to a stand still. He was standing on the school roof. And someone was calling his name.

It was telling him to bend down and pick up something at his feet. He looked down. It was a blur, but he assumed that it was a tangible object. The voice told him that if he didn't pick them up, he'd be very unhappy. So Kakei obeyed and bent down to pick up the glasses.

As he stretched out his hand, and the object did seem very far away each time he bent over, the object sprung up and went bouncing away towards the edge of the roof. He chased after it. He really didn't want to be unhappy anymore. He ran after it, and the object landed on the edge. It froze and Kakei froze about a foot away from it. He started walking towards it slowly, and his hand about an inch away from it, and it fell right off the edge.

He hurriedly reached out for it over the edge, but it was too late, it was still falling, farther and farther away from his hand. And suddenly, the object became visible. It was...

Sunglasses?

As he watched them fall to the street below, his hand still outstretched over the edge as if desperate to get them back. At this time, the voice he heard before spoke to him once more.

Aiji...if you can't reach out for something that is right in front of you, you'll never be happy...

Aiji pulled his hands over his head and sunk down onto the concrete building roof. Things were going to be bad ... very bad now.

The next thing he knew, he was curled in a ball in the middle of his bed, holding his hands over his head and hearing birds chirping outside his window. He felt so scared and so lonely, though he didn't know why.

--

Chiaka sighed. She was never going to get through to Aiji-kun. They were having lunch, in the cafeteria this time because Aiji said he didn't want to visit the roof, and Chiaka was trying to talk to him, but he looked so down, scared even.

"Aiji-kun? Is something wrong?" she asked concernedly. "You've been out of it for a little while."

"What?" He said. He looked like he had just woken up from a deep sleep. His eyes were drooping slightly and there were small bags under his eyes. His shoulders had slumped and he wasn't even sitting up as straight as he normally did. He looked a real mess. Chiaka put a hand on his shoulder, just as he was falling back into his daze.

He started at once, "I'm sorry, what were you saying?" He asked politely looking at her and trying to smile.

She shook her head, "Nothing important, listen," She started. She was going to ask him to be her freshman date to the party Saiga had mentioned, but seeing him in this state. She was definitely going to have a good talking to Shunichi.

"Are you feeling okay?" She asked once again.

"Oh, I'm fine," He said, and he smiled and sat up a little straighter.

She suddenly looked very serious right now, "Is it anything to do with Saiga?"

"Oh no, please don't worry about me, I'm just feeling a bit confused," He explained.

"Are you sure? Is it anything that I can help with?" She asked.

He shook his head slightly, "No, I'll be fine, thanks for your concern." He smiled at her reassuringly.

She still didn't look at all convinced. Aiji-kun looked like he was dying to talk to someone right about now, but she supposed he wasn't about to break down right in the middle of the cafeteria. So she decided to give him some space right now.

"Okay ... but if you need someone to talk to, I'll always be here for you," She said smiling.

"Thank you," And they spent the rest of their meal in silence.

--

Saiga saw Kakei in the library in the late afternoon checking out some book for a language class. He wanted to go up to him, but after the talking Chi gave him after lunch ... it was just too much. Poor guy. He must be confused for his sexuality and it was all Saiga's fault. Maybe he should just leave him alone for the rest of the semester and start over again later. But that was impossible; a week was enough.

He knew there was no going back. It was bad enough having to resist him for a week, but if it made him happier—and it got him to that party—Saiga was willing to do anything.

Chi told him that once the week was up maybe he should ask Aiji-kun to start over, become close friends and maybe have Kakei question his sexuality later. If all went well, Saiga and Kakei would probably be very happy with each other. She just told him that he had been too forceful before, and maybe it was time for a change. Saiga sadly felt, just looking at Kakei's slow movements and his new inability to pay attention to things around him, that she was right.

He felt like such an asshole. Why did he have to impose himself on the poor guy so early? Damn blindness.

But Chi just said that that was the way he was and ... well, no getting around it. He hugged her, and proceeded to stalking him, just to check him out for himself.

When he finally found Kakei in the library, he looked a mess, a real mess. And it was entirely Saiga's fault.

Sighing again, when Aiji finally made it out of the library, he continued to follow him, just to make sure he would be okay.

--

Kakei felt worse then he ever had. He knew he should have probably confessed to Chi his feelings and told her about the dream, which was still residing vividly in his mind, but he really didn't feel that he could break down in the middle of the cafeteria, nor break down at all. He just didn't do that.

Sighing, he hitched the book he had been carrying more up into his shoulder, and kept walking towards his dormitory, knowing full well that he wouldn't be able to concentrate on studying tonight.

He wasn't really able to pay attention to where he was going either. Twice he found himself nearly rammed into a pole, and then finally, once outside and moving towards the dorm building, he'd found his ankle lodged inside one of the bike stands outside, and he flipped over it and landed hard on the ground.

Thankfully there wasn't anyone outside other than him to notice that he had missed such an obvious thing in his way. He was losing it. He was even too tired to predict his future, so that was why he had tripped and fell.

He pulled his foot out of the hole for the wheel and winced at once. His ankle had twisted.

He thought he'd heard someone saying 'Ouch! Damn boy!', but when he looked left and right, no on was there.

Cursing his luck, he crawled over to a large tree and leaned his back against it leaving his legs in the figure four position and whipped out his cell phone intending to call Chi for help.

Then suddenly, an unseen someone kicked at his leg.

"Ow!" He howled. He distinctly heard someone behind him say, "Bitch!" But when he looked around again, no one was there.

"I'm so sorry!" It was girl. She was tall and had long hair tied back in a ponytail, but whatever other features she had, Kakei wasn't paying attention because the pain he was in was the most indescribable. And once again, he had not bothered to foresee any more faults today. Not that his powers were working properly anyway. Ever since he came into contact with Shunichi Saiga, they'd been … malfunctioning he'd like to say.

"I'm sorry! I didn't see you sitting there! And let me...oh! Aiji!" She said.

Kakei could just open up only one eye and look at the rest of her face. Trying to forget the pain, he opened his other eye and looked at her.

"Ayumu?"

--

"Does it any feel better?" Ayumu asked him once they were back inside his dorm room. She was his cousin, a junior at Todai, and he had completely forgotten that he had intended to meet up with her.

She had helped him up the stairs and into bed, propped up his leg and gave him some ice.

"Yes, thank you for helping me," He said.

"No problem," She said. "So, how've you been?" She asked, even though she could tell the answer. Her cousin looked as if he couldn't be worse.

"Not too good," He said sadly.

"So, tell me about it! You look like you need to get a few things off your chest."

Unwilling to bottle it up any longer, he told her. He told her all about Saiga. She commented about his first encounter with him. ("Oh, so you're the one Saiga did the first day!"), but she listened to the rest with a serious expression on her face. When he was done, he couldn't have felt better. Finally a burden was lifted from him. He really wanted to tell Chiaka first though, but at least his cousin would also understand.

"It'll be okay, don't worry about it." She assured him. "I think you're only confused because you've never really been the most romantic person, and you've never liked anyone before. It can be confusing when you first fall in love, so don't worry,"

"But I just told you I'm asexual," He reminded her. The thought of himself falling in love with Shunichi Saiga was scary.

"But sometimes new faces can bring out the best in us, but in your case it's the worst. I wish I got a picture of you falling over that bike stand." She chuckled at the end of this.

"What's that supposed to mean?" Kakei asked her.

"Aww, come on! You, straight-backed and tall Aiji Kakei. Proud and never losing your cool under any possible circumstance. It must be the Kakei family code. You're little sister acts the same way!"

He tried to think of how his sister acted … "Who Asuna? And what code?" He came up with nothing in comparison to straight-back and never losing their cool.

"Oh, forget about it, but to all those who know you, it would be hilarious to see you of all people tripping over something so obvious--"

Aiji chose this time to throw a pillow at her and sigh. His family got more serious with age, and he seemed to be the only one who knew it. Ayumu could be very serious herself now if she really wanted to be.

"Well anyway, Aiji-kun! It just seems that you and Shunichi Saiga are falling for each other whether you like it or not."

"I don't think I'm falling for him," Aiji protested calmly. "I barely know him,"

"Oh, but I do," She said, "And there's always room for getting to know each other if you give him another chance. Stop pushing him away. Be happy! Stop thinking so much! Love's just like that." And with that, she made it clear that was the end of the argument.

Done! That was a kick-ass chapter. Poor Kakei-san! I want to jump into my computer and hug him tightly. Hmm, all of Kakei's relatives seem to have names beginning with 'A'. And yes, my HotS (hots!) winner did request an appearance here. Hope you all enjoyed it.