Ch 3
Reasons with a Disturbing Sight
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It wasn't love that has brought Hinata, Ino, Sakura, and Kurenai that has brought the four Kunoichi to embrace all at once. No it was a sign of care, care for the person that, despite being an ignorant Knuckleheaded fool, that their spirit kept them alive to having to be best friends and close to giving him something he never thought since the day he was born…
A family……..
Naruto however, felt strange about the sudden mood coming from the four. It was almost as if someone ordered them to comfort him, yet he didn't feel welcome at all. The blond pushed away from the Kunoichi gently from their embrace, leaving the four both confused and worried.
"Naruto-kun w-why did you push us away from you; we only came here to make sure your ok."
"Yeah Naruto, why did you do that and to think that we were worried about yo- OWWW"
"Ino-Pig watch your manners, that's my teammate you're talking to!!!" Yelled Sakura.
"Both of you stop it now, were not here to fight. Were here to make sure Naruto is well and better."Kurenai said, as soon as the talking stopped the rest of the gang came in the room. Though Sasuke is being watched by Gai and Kakashi, Neji and Lee didn't feel like they were in the mood to argue nor start hell with the last remaining Uchiha.
"Guys I know I kinda did that crazy attempt but there's a reason that I've felt this way. I just don't know how to put it in words… just as he was about to continue Lee went right in front of and did the unexpected.
POW!!!
Lee just punched Naruto in the face, and yet the blond understood why he did it. It wasn't that they were friends but something to snap out of the blond's entranced behavior.
"Naruto-kun, I thought better of you. To commit suicide and take the coward's way out?! That's absolutely not how the springtime of youth is asking for in this time of day!!!!!
Naruto can tell that not only did Lee do his pose but Gai jumped the second he mentioned the springtime of youth. While doing their pose, Neji went right in front of him and down to business.
"Naruto, I don't understand why you wanted to kill yourself. To me, that's a complete disgrace to the shinobi line and to Konoha's honor. I guess everyone's waiting for you reason to this, I suppose. Forgive my rudness but I couldn't help it, seeing as though there's more to you than meets the eye.
The gang focused a lot on and in front of the Blond, especially Kakashi. He knew that the time may have come to reveal his secret, yet he felt so uneasy for him to spill his emotions so easily. So bad since the death of his Sensei, Arashi and a three page Statement that will change Naruto's fate forever. Till right now he has to focus more on his little reasoning.
"I guess you've all been waiting for this to happen, and I'm only giving you the reason why I'm depressed. Well the reason is that... I was abused for a long time, ever since I turned two."
The adults weren't that surprised to see that two letter sentence. The Genin however, were surprised especially the Uchiha, knowing full well on what to expect but never had Naruto ever the Hyperactive shinobi of Konoha have such a bad life that started the day he was born.
"I was physically and Mentally Abused ever since I was really young, I didn't know why at first. Till the pain started to get a lot worse as I grew up. I never had a family; I didn't know who my mother or father was. It was too hard to even begin, as I aged the people here started to detest me and loathed me for who I was." Just as he was about to continue sadness hit everyone hard, especially Sakura, Ino, TenTen, Hinata and Kurenai. While the guys had a saddened face showing remorse and pain for the blond. The group except Kurenai, Kakashi, and Gai wasn't new to this in fact Kakashi was the person who saved him from Death's door.
"It….'Sniff'... must've been hurtful for you to even begin with…'Sniff'... but why did the villagers do this to you!!!" yelled Sakura, she was in tears of sorrow and pain for the blond. The same hyperactive blond of Konoha who she thought was a complete idiot on the inside, reveals the mask and barrier surrounding the real pain inside. Pain that would never heal the mind of a boy who wants nothing more than family and someone to love him deeply.
"It didn't matter who I was, I got used to it and was always ready to die that very moment till I got a knack for singing. My lyrics keep me alive and through out time."
"Wait was that the song that we heard while we were heading towards your room Naruto-Kun?" asked Lee.
"Yes it was fuzzybrows, I took a liking to singing songs that express my deep feelings whenever I was alone. My lyrics to my sadness help me keep my life going no matter where I was going, I wanted to move on if I was going to get through this alive." Naruto stopped, he didn't want to show his emotions to his friends because of what a shinobi believe to have no never shed any tears.
"I didn't think someone like you would sing awefully beautiful, it sounded alot soothing yet sad to hear something like that come from you Naruto." Ino said.
"It is Naruto, I think I want to hear more about your songs and what kind you like to sing for us." Kurenai said. Everyone was about to continue till the Copy Ninja decided to end the night as it was time to retire to their homes.
"Alright everyone I think it's time to leave now, its nighttime and I think we need to let Naruto rest till tomorrow. Also Naruto I want to talk to you personally about earlier ok." Everyone got up and left the room, all except for Sakura and Kurenai who wanted to say their good night to him before exciting the door.
"Good night Naruto, and I'm sorry for what I've said to you and I shouldn't have been so mean." Tears leaked out of the pink haired Kunoichi as she left the room both sad and happy at the same time.
"Good night Naruto-Kun, I'll see you tomorrow." Kurenai said as she left the room, leaving Kakashi and Naruto to talk on personal issues relating to something that the silver haired Jounin kept himself.
"Naruto, I'm sorry that I wasn't there to be there by your side yesterday. I'm too ashamed of my actions; I thought you didn't forget that incident that day eight years ago."
"It's alright Kakashi-Sensei; I knew you were watching except that I never wanted help. I just wanted to handle things by myself, and I felt that it was a shinobi's job to handle situations like that." Naruto looked down on his bed, tears leaked out of his eyes and couldn't help but know that someone's there by his side besides Ero-sennin.
"Like I said before Naruto and I'm a bit ashamed by that rule the day that you, Sasuke, and Sakura were being tested to see if your actually Genin. "Those who break the rules are scum, but those who abandon their friends are worse than scum." There's something that I wanted you to know but I can't help but shake it off me." The silver haired Jounin said, in Naruto's case something was wrong based on his facial expression and he needed to know what he was hiding that looked so important.
"Sensei, what are you hiding from me?"
"Nothing Naruto but it is considered a secret, seeing as how your wounds are healed. Tomorrow Tsunade-sama has signed up a mission for you tomorrow and you will do it alone. I know it's hard to do missions alone but, I want to know if you're up to the mission that will allow me to tell you everything that my former sensei has to leave, Good Night naruto." Kakashi left leaving Naruto with Questions that has him very curious and very worried on what's to happen.
"What is he hiding from me, and why did Baa-chan assign me a mission right after my attempted demise. What is that old hag thinking?" Naruto drifted away in his sleep knowing full well on whats to happen tomorrow.
Meanwhile……….
"He still doesn't know does he, I hope your doing the right thing Kakashi. Arashi left you responsible because he felt that he could trust you more about his last will."
"I'm well aware of that Jiraiya-sama but if Naruto doesn't know soon, then for sure that his demise will never be given another chance at life as a shinobi." Kakashi said.
"I trust you well then, as much as Arashi trusted you as well." With that he left the area leaving Kakashi the night to think about this.
"I need to sleep…. I'm getting old for someone my age."
The next day………………..
Naruto woke up the next mourning feeling a lot better and energized. He got off the bed, dressed, and equipment ready to go, he headed off early to the Hokage tower. Even though it's been a day in the hospital, there was no doubt that his mission will be a tough one.
"Obaa-chan, I hope you're giving me a good mission because it better be." Before even going inside the office, the blond's decided to sing something to even heal his mental self. He arrived near the Hokage's door and went across to a window and opened it, sat on the ledge and allowed his beautiful voice to sing.
Across from the land comes a painful life
From…the seeping voice comes a cry
The cry of a boy demanding freedom
There's a chance someone's watching over life..
Throughout life of silent cries……
It's been too long, to be loved by life
Were abuse and mutilation roams freely…
Within that abuse come a grateful voice,
A voice shares a serenade,
The love for a boy, with a dark past life….
Were love is once all alone…………
As soon as he stopped singing, he looked around to find Sakura, Shizune, and the Gondaime herself: Tsunade. Judging by their facial expressions, the three Kunoichi were not only blushing but were in awe that such a handsome voice came from a loudmouthed hyperactive shinobi like Naruto.
"Naruto since when did you sang so beautiful and elegant, this is a first I've ever seen you sang a song." The Pink haired Kunoichi was smiling sadly, even though she understood the lyrics she never remembered something like that happened in the past.
"That was beautiful Naruto-Kun, I've never seen someone like you sing such a beautiful number." Shizune while crying with tears of joy.
"She's right Naruto, you're the first that I've ever seen a male shinobi sing. Most males here in Konoha are all perverts, yet this is getting interesting. Enough Talk I need to assign you the mission that Kakashi told you about. Tsunade, Shizune, Sakura, and Naruto went inside the Hokage's room. Knowing that the mission the blond heard was going to be tough, meant that the mission may be considered a class B or A.
"As you know Already, we are requesting Funds from a recent country of the wind. Like the Ocean village, there's a Representative from the wind that requests to be escorted to the Ocean country. The problem is, is that there will be an escort of funds coming to the Ocean country meaning that part of our funds are to be finalized there. Now Naruto even though you just got back from your injury, I have assigned a random Shinobi that will watch you from afar."
Naruto didn't like the feeling of this, something that the Hokage didn't mention something like that and knew he had to ask questions that may put his life in jeapordy.
"Tsunade-Baachan why do you want me to go escort the representative from the wind, couldn't you ask someone else?" he asked.
"Most of the Shinobi are out on missions and you're the only one who hasn't been assigned one. Now your mission here is to escort the Representative from the wind without any injuries, there's been many renegades that have been after the money. Yet, I can't help shake the feeling of random attacks on the way to the Ocean village due to it's prosperity and wealth of it's villagers. After arriving you are to receive the money at the Ocean Country after going through cross examination and approval for our funding.Then return with our funds safely here, I know you can do this Naruto." Tsunade said, as Naruto began to head out the door, Sakura followed him shortly. The legendary sucker wasn't convinced enough that the blond shinobi can handle the mission, something was wrong about his misdemeanor and she's willing to get to the bottom of this.
"Shizune, go and investigate that brat's house and see what you can find there." The Gondaime ordered.
"Why Tsunade-Sama, is there something wrong?" she asked.
"there's a lot more to what Naruto's suicide after singing a sad song and I want answers on what's been going on with him."
Shizune left the room and began her investigation. If her teacher was right then evidence could lead to more worries on Naruto's condition and possibly a Kinjutsu.
Meanwhile near the gate…………….
"Naruto, Naruto whats wrong why are you avoiding me." Sakura said.
"Sakura I need to start my mission now, I have no time to talk to you right now." he just looked at the sky, admiring it's beauty at how time was slow for him.
"WHY!! Is there something wrong? Look I'm sorry about the other day, its just I didn't know that you were suffering ever since you were born." The pink haired Kunoichi leaked tears in her eyes and wanted more answers from the blond, yet there's no way to get through to him. All he's been doing is pretending that something like that never happened in the first place.
"Sakura-chan, I understand that you love Sasuke-teme so much. I'm well aware of that, but don't go asking for love now that you knew my tragic past. No one not even you will begin to understand, I just hope you the best." Naruto didn't look at her and began to drift away, leaving her on her knees.
"Naruto-kun, please can't you give people a chance to show how much they're sorry to you. I'm sure you can understand that." Naruto stopped, he knew that was coming to him and the only thing he said was only going to be painful.
"Sakura-chan, as long as you're with Sasuke then your smile will always make me happy. I believe that both of you will make a good couple, as long as life continues on. In fact, I promise to sing you a very beautiful song that will prove how much you love him ok." Naruto put up a smile right in from her, and left the village to start the mission.
Sakura however was amazed by his promise, yet she didn't want him to hide his pain or his feelings for him. "Why are you so nice to me, why can't you understand that my feelings and my heart was shown the light the night you told us your tragic past."
Meanwhile in Naruto's house………
"Ohh my god……….. what have you been doing here Naruto." Shizune couldn't believe what she saw on the bed and the scrolls, papers on the table and his room. All were covered in his own blood in some parts, yet she was also amazed as how he could survive that. she looked to the left to find a scroll containing what appears to be a note about a forbidden technique never been created within Konoha.
To sucessfully master the Kinjutsu, it appears that the container must cut himself in certain places of the physical body for three years and endure pain without having the demon healing him automatically. for the Kinjutsu to work right, the host most concentrate on exact places to allow the voice of the container to be clear and sincere. after enduring pain for three years the container must sing a serenade, and the Requiem of sacrafice that will allow the container to unleash power beyond the powers of a Hokage but in return, the container gives up life to live.
"Have you been hurting yourself just to calm yourself from suicide? Poor boy, I've never felt so much self hate and self abuse. You were slowly giving in to the villager's hatred toward you year by year, yet no one has ever shown you love and comfort that most kids have from their parents. Why are you learning this Kinjutsu, don't you want to live on and protect...OHHHHHH NO!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Shizune had to hurry to tell Tsunade of this disturbing sight and the forbidden Kinjutsu the blond's learning from his apartment. If not then his life may be in danger for the future, as well as with the villager's hatred toward the Kyuubi container especially the ultimate Sacrafice Jutsu.
The brunette was even worried at whats to come after his mission was completed.
Author's Note: Hi there, hoped you liked Chapter three, I know it's a bit confusing with the mission and all but I must keep this an Angst/Tragedy genre for my story. Yes you realized that Naruto has been learning a Kinjutsu but it'll be explained later on, and Please don't jump to conclusions that Naruto will die at the end of my story. I'm still thinking about it, also for the pairings one of you asked for a Naru/Saku pairing. I can't put it straight but I may leave it as a Naru/Kure or a love triangle of Saku/Naru/Kure fic. I'll see what happens... Later! Flames and Reviews are appreciated but not to harsh ok.