BROTHERS FOREVER

Disclaimer: I don't own Hikaru no Go.

A/N: WAAAAAIIIII! At last I updated! Thank you for the reveiws and I'm sooo sorry for the long wait! Its been like what? Like forever! I'm so soorrrryyyy… I hope this chapter is good enough to make for the long wait! If not then… mail me! Just don't flame me!

Chapter 20

He couldn't move. He stared as the crimson fire started to grow. He couldn't help but be mesmerized by it. Hikaru just sat their on the chair as the fire slowly spread and he was now chocking from the smoke.

There was something in the back of Hikaru's mind telling him to run. Run away from the blazing fire that was going to kill him. Another part of his mind was telling him he had seen this kind of scene before. Another though was telling him to just sit down and not to move at all.

'I thought we were to play today, aniki?'

Hikaru stood up from his seat and started to walk to the door that will lead him to the living room which was now also burning. The fire alarm that was installed in the house was ringing loudly.

'You are not to be an official! Instead you'll be a warrior for our country!'

'Why are you deciding my LIFE!'

'Because whatever decision you choose, it is always the wrong thing!'

Hikaru walked slowly. There were fire in his left and right. Even above him. His brain was not working properly. Memories he doesn't even know and voices he couldn't recognize was talking in his mind.

'Did you here there will be a match in the emperor's throne room. You think we could watch it?'

'I think not only officials could enter there from what I heard.'

Only a few step away and Hikaru will be on the living room.

'I don't want to live anymore.'

'Don't give up… I'm still here by your side, little brother…'

Hikaru stopped from walking and just stood in the middle of the fire. Seconds later, Hikaru heard a cracking noise. He looked up to see a burning ceiling falling into him.

He stared at the burning the wood that will soon be burning him too.

The fire was about to fall into him when the sudden gush of memories flooded in Hikaru's mind that caused his mind to be unconscious.

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Hein Period…………Hikaru's memories…

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The sun was up in the sky. There were clouds that passed up in the air. Sakura petals danced with the wind. Everything was in peace.

Everything was peaceful except for a brooding teen who was swinging his katana carelessly.

The kid was wearing a white kazami and a katana in hand. His short black hair danced with the wind and the kid groaned in frustration. He swung his katana again which caused him to stumble and fell on the ground face first.

A soft laughter was heard behind a sakura three before a beautiful figure of a man stepped out of his hiding place. He had a long hair and was wearing a white noshi indicating he was an official. He was still laughing softly and the kid groaned before getting up and dusting himself.

"You know, I think you'll just run away from the battle. Maybe you should practice more."

"Shut up." The kid mumbled at the older man. Slowly the kid walked towards the official. He stopped near him and sat in the shade of the three.

"You know Kataki, father's right about placing you in the military rather than court." The long haired man quietly mumbled but the kid who he referred to as Kataki heard it clearly.

"Sai… you know I would rather be in a boring court which I chose rather than in a field where my life was decided by others." Kataki replied to his older brother.

Sai smiled at his younger brother. Kataki was always rebellious and would do anything just to have what he wanted. Though Kataki lost to his father by deciding his future the younger of the siblings still was his self. Or so Sai thought.

Sai glanced at his brother. Some bandage could be seen under his clothes. Sai grimaced remembering the night a few days ago when Kataki attempted a suicide. Sai never left the side of his brother from that day. He was expecting it to happen again soon seeing his brother really wanted to die.

"I heard that the other teacher of Go in the palace had challenged you? Is it true?" Kataki questioned his older brother. Sai sat down beside Kataki and rested his back against the tree.

"Yeah… there was a deal though. He said who ever won shall be the only teacher the emperor will have." Sai's face turned into a frown as he recalled the outburst of the other Go teacher of the emperor.

"Hmmp… Maybe he's jealous of you since the emperor like you to teach him more than him. Jealousy makes people blind and close minded…" Kataki said to his brother as he lay on his back.

"I had never in my life thought that someone younger than me will give me some words of his own wisdom." Sai dramatically sighed and placed his hands on his forehead. Kataki beside him smacked him with his hands.

Sai laughed softly before laying on his back like Kataki. Kataki beside him remain quite as they lay there and rest. Sai looked at his younger brother from the corner of his eyes. He looked so at peace Sai wanted that time to last. He sometimes wished that his brother was at the castle rather than in the field practicing his katana to kill and defend people. Sai was also slightly angry at their father for deciding his brother's fate. Kataki deserve much better but their father doesn't seem to see it.

It had been more than an hour when a person, a servant in their home, called Sai. Sai glanced at his brother momentarily before standing up and following the man.

Kataki opened his left eye to his brother's retreating back. He sighed and stood up from his current position. He winced a little as his wound sting. He dusted himself and walked towards the opposite direction his brother took.

As he opened the gate when he reached the front gate Kataki's training katana had lay forgotten under the shadow of the cheery blossom tree. Moments later a beautiful woman with hair as long as Sai' walked towards the katana. She lifted the sword and carried it inside the house.

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It had been two days since he last saw his older brother. Kataki bit his lower lips to prevent himself from talking back to his father. Said father was still babbling about how weak and stupid his sons were. His father had battered him without any good reason.

Hearing too much and nearing his limit, Kataki spun around and strode towards the front gate. He opened the door and exited their house not even glancing back as his father shouted "Come back here! I'm not talking yet!"

Walking around the busy market was kind of relaxing Kataki a bit. He was so engrossed on watching the dealer sell their stuff he nearly missed the conversation some gossiper were talking about.

"There were rumors that Fujiwara no Sai lost on his game. His very first lost!"

Kataki's eyes narrowed. 'That can't be…Sai never lost…' Kataki listened to the group intently. Maybe they can give clues on where his brother was now.

"I also heard that he cheated to win but he lost anyway… maybe the gods had punished him for that vulgar act!"

Kataki nearly shouted 'Sai doesn't cheat! He can defeat that lowlife that calls himself a teacher!'

"Some said he leave this village and went somewhere else. Poor child he was so nice I can't believe he decided to cheated."

"Ohh… but I have a new gossip! I heard that he never really left this place instead he committed a suicide. Some said he hang himself on a three… some said he drowned himself on the river and some said that he stabbed himself using his brother's katana!"

"Oh… poor child must have taken his lost too hard."

The group continued on talking that they didn't notice Kataki run away as fast as he can and entered the forest.

Kataki's mind was in a mess. He can't believe his brother had been defeated by some lowlife… moreover he can't believe his brother attempted suicide. He ran inside the forest in search for his brother. Maybe those people were just saying stories and he would not find his brother dead but will find him later at home looking so worried that his little brother had gone missing.

Kataki smiled and he felt himself gain determination as he ran deeper in the forest.

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A pair of worried eyes looked gaze at Kataki. Kataki and Sai's mother, who had long black hair and cheery lips, looked at her youngest son who was sitting in the middle of his room with his head down. Kataki came home after sunset his face pale, eyes wide and glazed. He walked small steps towards the house while clutching the fan Sai usually carried around.

Once again she looked at her rebellious son whose face now so pale like the white ceiling, mouth slightly apart, head still bowed and was still clutching Sai's fan.

She didn't know what had happened that caused this to happen to her son. She sighed and closed the door while wishing Sai would come home today to talk to his brother.

She smiled as she imagined Sai talking to Kataki animatedly.

She never saw the blade aimed on her head as she fell on the floor dead.

A man in black ninja suit walked away from the shadow that concealed his present. He came closer to the door that the woman just looked into. Slowly opening the sliding door he peeked inside the room to see a black haired boy kneeling on the center of the room with a fan on his hand.

The man smiled sadistically as he silently stalked at the back of the kid. He was about to stabbed the back of the kid when he felt a katana pierced his abdomen. Blood slowly came trailed from his mouth as he looked at the kid who just stabbed him before dieing.

Sharp honey colored eyes stared at him full of hate.

Kataki stood there head bowed. He was clutching Sai's fan on his right hand while his katana on the left hand. A smile slowly appeared on his blooded face.

Fire started spreading on the wooded wall and smoke become thicker. Moments later the whole house was burning and Kataki could hear some people shouting outside the house.

'Brother… I thought you said that suicide will solve nothing then how come you succeed before me… hahahaha… and here you left me alone to suffer more while you drown yourself.'

A burning wood fell on top of Kataki. The fire started to spread on his body. His eyes started to close as darkness slowly consumes him.

'I will follow you brother even in the afterlife or on your reincarnation and I will make sure you will never reach your dream… to reach the hand of god.'

The house of the Fujiwara burned down and the people outside looked sadly at the one of the beautiful house on the region.

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Present…………

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Sai glanced at his younger brother's sleeping form.

Hikaru was now peacefully sleeping on the hospital bed. The wound on his wrist was now treated and bandage.

Sai chocked a sob back down. His brother nearly died and it was his fault. He should have not have left his brother alone in the house. He should have called an ambulance or something first rather that running on the store.

What would happen if he was late on saving Hikaru? Sai suddenly told himself to not to think about that but rather be grateful that he had come on time and saved his younger brother.

A small smile appeared on the long haired youth's face. He combed Hikaru's bangs a little with his hands before tucking his brother more neatly. He walked towards the light to switch it off before going back on his previous seat. Sai laid his head on the side of the bed before closing his eyes and started to sleep.

Moments later Hikaru's eyes slowly opened. His still hazy mind registered the surrounding and noticed that someone was near him. Hikaru looked at his side to see Sai's sleeping form.

Hikaru's eyes slightly narrowed the softened again. He sighed and rested his head on the pillow once again.

'Now I remember…'

Hikaru slowly closed his eyes to go back to sleep. Many memories flood his mind and he doesn't want to lose his sanity so he rested and slowly recall every memory he had.

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It had been two weeks since the incident and the Shindos had already bought a new house. Hikaru had graduated a few days ago. Sai had been present on that day and so was their mother. Their father however didn't come.

After that everything went back to normal again.

It was after sunset that Sai returned home. He shouted the traditional 'I'm home' but no one answered him. Sai went to the kitchen to look for his mother only to find a note on the fridge saying she went to the market since their food supply was low at the moment.

Sai smiled and went to the living. As he walked he passed the stairs that lead to the second floor. He debated against himself to see if Hikaru had got home yet or not. Moments later he abandoned the idea of going to Hikaru's room. He told himself that Hikaru will only be angry at him.

He shrugged and walked towards the living room.

A fading light from the sun lit a room in the Shindo household. This room was clean. There were no things and the room looked like only an extra room in fact. This door that leads to this room was at the end of the hallway on the second floor.

This room was Hikaru's.

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I hope you're not angry with me… but I'll try my best to come up with the next chapter sooner! I can't really write fics from march to may since… well… my moms here so I can't really use the p.c.

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