Disclaimer- I do not own Inuyasha.

Author's note- This chapter will most likely suck since it's a little rushed and random in ways, it only took forever to re-write, lol. (Oh this chapter will start out from shortly after Kohaku kissed Rin, in his POV, also a little bit of detailed cutting will be in this chapter...so you are warned!)

Kohaku's POV

After I knew she was in her house, I slowly walked back to the car. I knew Sango saw us and when I opened the door I expected a loud squeal from her, going on about how she saw us kiss and things like that. Something I wish she wouldn't go on about. As I reached the car I took a deep breath, ready to take in her excitement.

Three...two...one...

I opened the car, only to be right.

"I saw you kissing Rin!" Sango squealed loudly.

I looked away from her. "Hm..."

She giggled loudly as she pulled out of the parking lot. "You like her! Admit it! You think she's so cute and you wanna go out with her! Am I right?"

Maybe if I said No, she'd shut up? "No..." I said, with dullness in my voice.

"What? Why not?"

"Dunno..."

Sango sighed and focused back on the road. "You're really ignorant sometimes Kohaku."

"Hm..." I closed my eyes and crossed my arms, wishing I was home right now.

"Oh come on Kohaku, don't be that way." She let out another sigh. "I called Kagome when you were dropping Rin off...she said that while Miroku and I were on our Honeymoon she'd take you..."

I groaned. I didn't like spending that much time with Kagome. She was nice, but she always treated me like I was five, ever since she took in a Foster Care child.

"Yay...I can't wait." More dullness filled my voice.

She shook her head. "I worry about you a lot Kohaku..."

We didn't speak much after that...or really at all. She would murmur a few things every now and then, but not something I would worry about.

Once we got home, I went to bed. I didn't say anything to Miroku and Sango. I just went to bed. For some reason I was once again depressed.

Tomorrow...

I kicked off my shoes and fell onto the bed.

I'll do it again tomorrow, there's so much I need to release.

"Kohaku, I'll be out in the garden for a little while. I'm just going to water it." Sango yelled up the stairs, waking me up from my sleep.

Why the heck is she telling me this?

"If Kagome calls please let me know!" She yelled again. Shortly afterwards the sound of the front door shutting filled the quiet house.

When I knew everything was clear I reached under my mattress and pulled out a long cutting knife.

If I do a quick one, I can clean up the mess before she comes back.

I sat on the floor and held out my right wrist. I was unsure why I was evening cutting again, it just felt so good to slice my wrist up and see the blood spill from me. Shrugging if off I placed the blade over my wrist, pressed hard and ran it up my arm.

Better...

Setting down the knife I reached for a cloth to cover up the wound. "Shit..." I held my bloody wrist and looked around for a cloth. Where was my cloth? The blood was now spilling down onto the floor. My head began to feel dizzy and my vision was a little black. The last thing I remembered was hearing the door open and falling to the ground.

"Kohaku? Oh Kohaku! God please wake up!"

I felt Sango's arms around my body, holding me close to her chest. Opening my eyes a little I saw Miroku bring in some water and a cloth, while talking on the phone.

"Suicide attempt! Yes, that's right!...Su-I-Cide! What part of that don't you get?" He walked out of the room, still yelling at the operator of the phone.

"Kohaku?" Sango screamed again.

I let out a little groan, letting her know I was alive.

"Kohaku!" She smiled, tears brimmed her eyes as she laid me on my bed and delt with my wound. "Why did you do it again? We spent all that money sending you to the Hospital and for what? So you can do it again?"

I rolled my eyes. "Scars are cool..." I lied, but it seemed like a pretty good, yet cheesy one. Sango bit her lip, trying to keep in her anger.

"Scars are cool? So you are going to risk your life fo a bunch of scars?"

I nodded. "Yeah..."

She let out a sigh and rested her head on my stomach. "You're a little ass..." She then laughed a little.

"I called the Hospital...we can take him in to get that fixed. For now, take his this and wrap it around his wrist to stop the bleeding." Miroku walked into the room, trying to avoid the pool of blood and handed Sango a long cloth.

Sango sat up and wrapped my wrist as carefully as she could. "Mm...I'll be right back..." Grabbing the phone Miroku left on my dresser she ran down the stairs. Miroku sat on the foot of my bed.

"I swear Kohaku..." He trailed off and shook his head. "Teens today..."

Rin's POV

I closed the diary mom had given my earlier that morning. I only found out a few things that I wanted, but it satisfied me enough. Hearing the phone ring I got out of my bed. "Mom, phone." The phone kept ringing and ringing. Just as the fourth ring finished I picked up the phone.

"Hello, Sakaru residence." I said, not as bright and cheery as I usually would have.

"Rin? Is that you?" Sango's voice came frantically from the other end.

"Sango? Yes it's Rin. Is something the matter?"

"K-kohaku! He cut himself again...I found him unconscious on his bedroom floor laying there in a pool of blood..." She spoke fast and was letting out light hiccups as she tried to breath.

"I...is he alright?" My legs and arms felt numb.

"Yes, he's fine now. We're going to take him to the hospital in a few moments...can we pick you up after we drop him off? I have a feeling Kohaku would like to see you."

I looked into the sitting room. If I could find mom and ask her... "Yes, I'll be ready."

"Alright...we'll be there as soon as we can..." She hiccuped a few times before hanging up.

I dropped the phone, and let my body slip down onto the floor. The beeping of my call ending and I should hang up was the only noise as the phone swung on it's cord.

"But...we did all that therapy..." I let out a small scream and buried my hands into my face. My body felt numb and I wanted to stay in that position forever. I just wanted to help people recover from their problems, and it would have seemed that I made Kohaku's worse.

"Rin?"

Mom voice soon filled the room. She sounded confused, unsure why I was bawling my eyes out.

"Mom..." I stood up and hung up the phone.

"Kohaku. Am I right?"

I nodded. "He..." I made a motion of someone slashing their wrists open.

She pursed her lips together. "Rin..." She walked over to me and then wrapped her arms around me and pulled it into a warm hug. "It's alright...Can you see him soon?"

"As soon as Sango comes over to pick me up..."

She brushed some damp hair away from my eyes and smiled. "Well you better get ready..."

More tears brimmed my eyes as I walked back to my room.

We did all that therapy. He seemed so happy to go back to his sister!

I rubbed my eyes.

Unless he was only using good behavior to get out!

I frowned. "So he was pretending to be cured and act as though I made some effect on him?...Low..." Then again, maybe that wasn't the reason he did it?

Shortly around three, Sango's car pulled into the driveway.

"Sango's here...mom." I slipped into my shoes and was ready to answer the door. Peering outside through the window, I saw Sango still had Kohaku's blood on her pants, shirt, and hands. Just as she reached her hand out to ring the door bell I opened it. "Hello Sango."

She beamed a small smile at me.

"Hey Rin." Mom came up behind me.

"Is there a certain time you want her back?" Sango asked, placing her hands behind her back.

Mom smiled. "No, whenever you feel it's necessary to drop her off..."

Sango nodded a few times. "Alright...bye." I smiled at my mom one last time before shutting the door.

We were about half way to the Hospital before either of us spoke.

"You have a lot of blood on you..." I pointed out.

Sango rubbed her face, most likely unaware that she smeared blood all over her face. "Yes...I was in such a hurry to get him to the Hospital I forgot about the mess..."

"Will he bet out soon?"

She smiled. "Yeah...just a few stitches..should do it..."

I smiled back at her. "You have a really nice brother. I'm sure in time he'll stop this silly problem..."

Cute Rin, real cute. And you were planning on starving yourself this morning now weren't you?

Sango let out a small laugh. "Yes, I'm sure in time..."

When we arrived at the Hospital, Miroku was sitting on a bench near the fountain. He looked tired as though he hadn't slept in days.

"Miroku. Which room is Kohaku's?"

He looked up at his Fiancee'. "Room 8 C."

Sango kissed Miroku's cheek, took my hand and took me to the elevator.

"How many times has Kohaku been in the Hospital anyway?"

Sango pressed the button for the Third floor. "Hm...five-six times...not as bad as it could be, right?"

Once we reached his Hospital room, I didn't hesitate. Pushing open the door I yelled out his name and rushed over to his side. Sango followed shortly behind me.

His wrist was bandaged up and an IV was running through the other. "Rin...?"

I shook my head furiously and smiled. "How are you feeling?"

He laughed a little. "Like shi...crap..."

Sango sat on the other side of the bed. Brushing some of her brothers hair out of the way. "Kohaku if you keep this up, there isn't going to be any money for the wedding..." She tried to make the comment a little funny by laughing to it.

I couldn't stop staring at his wrists though.

Does an IV hurt? Kohaku must be used to them. What about cutting? I wonder if that hurts a lot. Do you grow into it?

So many questions about Suicide raced through my head. It was something I knew I was never going to attempt, yet I wondered so much about it.

A few moments of silence slipped by before Sango stood up and smoothed out her stained shirt. "Um...this room is a little dull. I'm going to go buy some flowers..." She quickly left the room, leaving me in my silence and worries over Kohaku.

"Why did you do it again? After all that therapy and time we shared together, you throw it all away?"

At first he looked at me with confusion, like he didn't know what I was talking about.

"I don't know, I just felt like it."

I was becoming more and more furious with him for every second he didn't tell me the truth.

"So you're going to waste your life away? Even though you have your sister who loves you, her Fiancee' and me?"

I pursed my lips together. Still hoping he'd tell me the truth why he did it again.

"Rin...people do things without a reason. Some kill, others steal, I...cut." He seemed so calm and collect about this, it was driving me wild.

"So that's your reason? Because you don't have one? You risk dying when you have so much ahead and in-store for you?" This topic was hard to comprehend, everyone has a reason for doing what they do. "Kohaku, please just stop? Make your sister go a day without worrying what she'll do if you die." I was now standing out of my chair and towering over him. "When you kissed me, did you feel any reason that you should stop? The feeling of love, happiness, anything." My face was hot now, and it was gleaming a bright red.

"I was just being polite." He smiled at me. "And I think you need to calm down a little..."

I sat back down in the chair, my fists curled up tight that my knuckles where near white.

"I'm not going to argue about this with you anymore Kohaku..." My voice stood strong. "...if you want, I will ask Sango or Miroku to take me home..."

He smiled and shook his head. "You can stay. I just think you should calm down a bit."

Sango arrived back at the room a few minutes later. Neither one of us said anything for a long time.

"Sango...do you know when Kohaku will be released." Sango nodded her head slightly. "Yeah, I think they let him out tomorrow...why."

Why did I want to know? I should make up an excuse instead of "Just wondering" how about...

"Oh I was just curious."

Close enough...

More moments slipped by and no one said a word. Kohaku's eyes would shift from his sister to me, then back. Sango and I had our eyes fixed on Kohaku, making sure nothing went wrong.

It was now seven at night, and my stomach was starving for some food. "Sango...um, I was wondering if you could take me home."

She nodded. "Just let me tell Miroku where I'll be going." She rushed out of the room to find her Fiancee'.

"Leaving so soon? But I thought you liked it in this Hospital." Kohaku laughed.

"Hm...no, I'm really hungry, sleepy..." I made sure I had anything and walked to the door. "You better get well soon...then I can have you come over for dinner..." I waved good-bye and opened the door.

"You know, when I kissed you I did feel something, I felt...happy. Like I had no reason for suicide."

I quickly turned around. "What did you say?"

He shrugged.

I smiled and walked out of the room.

When I kissed you I did feel something, I felt...happy. Like I had no reason for Suicide.

That line seemed to race through my head the whole way home.

Do I dare tell Sango what he told me? It would make her happy to know her brother didn't have those thoughts...but would Kohaku want her to know?

"Rin, you alright?" Sango pulled into the driveway of our house. "You look all fidgety..."

I took a deep breath and turned to her.

"Sango...Kohaku told me in the room, just after you went to find Miroku...that..When he kissed me. He felt...happy. Like he had no reason for Suicide."

Author's notes - There, I finally re-wrote chapter six...only took me forever. I kept putting it off...

Thank you for reading.