Disclaimer- I do not own Inuyasha

Author's note- I am so sorry for two things...One - For disturbing a few of you with Rin's purging...I try keeping this story realistic. Two - For not updating in nearly a year! I am so sorry about that. I was caught up in school, training, and then my health went low...Not to mention my own mom was pregnant, since pregnancy nearly kills her (literally) every time, I was forced to take care of the house and her. I also put the story off for a long time, growing bored of it. I then decided to re-write all of the chapters! So, while I give you knew ones, I will be going through and re-writing the old ones to make them a hell of a lot better. Thank you for those of you who stayed and waited for my return. I also apologize for the OOC-ness, I am making the characters very dark because I like it that way. No flames would be nice, maybe complaints about my absense, but that's all.

Kohaku's POV

"I'm not just Anorexic, I'm a Bulimic to..." Rin whispered.

My fists were clenched together as I tried to contain my anger, yet it seemed impossible. "Rin..." I started, wondering if this was going to be the right thing to say. "... you're such a damn hypocrite!."

She gasped as though I had truly insulted her. As she opened her mouth to argue, I quickly walked up to her and pressed a finger on her lips.

"Let me continue."

She gave a small nod and glanced over at Sesshoumaru, who stood there in the doorway still.

Taking a deep breath, I continued with my harsh speech.

"Are you trying to get me killed by your Father? Apparently, I am the reason that you went in this direction...but you know Rin...there was a moment in time where I could care less about your body and how you were taking care of it. I told you that I loved you, and you still ignored me and continued this act." I paused for a moment, getting a new idea. "Or is it...you just want to die together?. Think about it. I could go back to cutting...or would drugs be more officiant for you?. Come on Rin, you're so determined to die, so why not me as well?."

I waited for a brief moment. Waiting and wondering how my words effected her.

Her head was turned to her Father, who surprisingly just stood there, obviously waiting to see what next I had to say.

"Why Rin...must we be in this suicidal love?. If you want this to be a relationship were we are 'dying' to love each other, then so be it. Hopefully I die before you, so I don't have to watch you wither away from a beautiful blossom to an ugly twig. What path do you want this relation ship to lead?." I yelled at the top of my lungs, to the point that it was hoarse. Reaching into my pocket and grabbed my knife. I didn't use it much for cutting anymore, it began more of a self-defense weapon. Putting it to my wrist, I smirked. "Since you are ahead, don't you think I should catch up?."

Her brown eyes filled with shock, as I lightly glided my blade along my wrist.

"So what do you say? Should I catch up?."

"You wouldn't dare! No way would you have the courage to do it in front of me."

I pressed harder on the blade and a small trace of blood appeared.

My action seemed to have effected her more then I thought, when she noticed to blood to spill out heavier and faster, she ripped one of her sheets into a bandage cloth. Grabbing my wrist, she affectionately tented to my self-inflicted wound.

"This means that you'll start eating again I assume, and won't throw it back up?."

She lowered her head and clenched her fists together. "You just don't get it do you?."

"What's not to get? You stopped eating to impress, but I can say you succeeded you impressed me. I'm actually amazed you've gone this long without eating and you're still alive."

"It's not like I just stop not eating like that." She snapped her fingers at the word 'that'. " Do you have any idea how hard it is t-to refuse to eat...and..." Her lowered her head back down. "Just go...I don't want to see you right now."

I didn't have to be told twice, I turned around and headed out of her house, to the waiting Sango and Mirkou.

"Is she alright?." Miroku asked, pulling out of the driveway.

"She'll be fine...if she actually gains some weight soon." I grunted.

"Kagura told us that tomorrow evening they are going to send her to Rehab. Which means you won't be seeing her for a while." Miroku added.

I looked at my wrist and grunted again, to angry to say or do anything.

Why would I care if she is send off to Rehab? After a fight like that, I doubt we were even lovers anymore.

Sighing, I lean back into the comfort of the car, letting my mind wonder to other things like what the people in school will think if they find out that, Rin Sakaru, of all people had decided to turn to Anorexia. If she's in rehab that'll mean that she'll have to have needles coming out of her arm and probably having a feeding tube shoved down her throat.

Pulling up into our driveway, I could almost hear my bed calling to me. This day, even in the last few minutes of it had been very tiering. Dragging my feet up the stairs and feeling a numbness in my legs that practically said, "I need rest" I complied and landed face forward onto my wonderfully awaiting pillow. Rest found me...but peace didn't.

I was startled early the next morning when I opened my eyes to see Sango in front of me.

"What do you want!" I said in a voice that clearly showed that I was very irritated for being woken up in such a manner.

"It's Rin, Kohaku see...she..." Sango didn't look me in the eye and she didn't even finish her sentence.

"What? Did she collapse again?"

"No, Kohaku...nobody can find her!." She said quickly.

"What!" I sat straight up in bed and almost banged my head into my sister.

"Sesshomaru had a feeling that something was wrong last night and went to check on her and when he opened the door...she was gone."

"Without a trace?"

"She did leave a note..."

"Sango come on! The car's warmed up, is he even up yet!" Miroku's voice rang throughout the small house.

"What is he talking about?" I asked, confused.

Sango let out an angry sigh. "Sesshoumaru wants you to help him find Rin, so obviously we're going to drop you off at his house."

"Why?"

Sango let out another angry sigh, "Just get ready!"

I groaned, a little annoyed of being awoken so early I said, "Alright, I'll be down in three minutes."

"Alright Kohaku. Three minutes."

The drive there was fairly quick, since Sango was the one driving, she seemed to be the fastest driver in the country.

The Sakaru's door was open and you could feel that something was amiss. Getting out of the door in a rush, I hurried up and walked through the doorway and got a chill up my spine. This house reeked with sorrow. I could hear Kagura's sobbing coming from the kitchen. Slowly walking towards the chamber that held the sweet smell of coffee in the air, I turned the corner to see Sesshoumaru comforting Kagura, running a soothing hand up and down her back. I almost felt that I was barging in on them...they looked so peaceful and yet worried. How could Rin do this? I wondered idly if she had any idea just what she was putting her parents through.

Kagura sensed another presence in the room and turned around hopefully only to see that it was I, and not a police officer baring the news that they found her precious daughter.

Her eyes were a bright red, swollon from all the crying she had done. She gave a weak smile, as if I was a new hope for her daughters returnal.

"You are going to go with Sesshomaru and search for her. I would come but..." She rubbed her stomach. "The baby is due any day now."

"Kohaku, try not to argue with Sesshoumaru..." Sango whispered from behind."As you can tell he's in a bad mood...it'd be best not to say anything at all to him."

I nodded lightly and headed back outside, where Sesshoumaru quickly followed.

Rin's POV

I zipped my jacket up even more then it was when I started my journey of running away from home. Shivering, I slipped my fingers into the sleeve of my jacket. It was so windy and I didn't have anywhere to go.

If I went to Aunt Kikyou and Uncle Inuyasha's they'd instantly call Mom and Dad, Kagome wouldn't do any better, she'd probably ask me why I wasn't at school and why was I carrying a duffle bag and my backpack. Shiori, Kanna, and Souten would all be a bad choice as well. Not only were they at school at the time, but they to would also call my parents.

I quickly pulled out my wallet and counted the money I had in it. There wasn't much, only three hundred dollars, which I had been saving up since I turned fourteen.

Sighing, I put the money away. It was my lifeline now and I knew I had to save it until it was desperately needed.

My watched beep twice, telling me it was now ten, I had been walking for five hours, with a few breaks along the way and I had gotten no where.

I studied the busy street, in hope of an area to rest, and then it hit me; The subway.

It was perfect, I knew that there were benches to sit (and if needed, sleep) on while you waited for the sub to arrive. I could stay there until I was able to get back onto my feet.

Smiling broadly, I skipped down the stairs to my new home.

My smile faded once I entered the dirty subway, it wasn't exactly what I wanted it to look like. Fast food bags and candy wrappers would glide every time a gust of wind flew by, people were talking loudly and rushing past each other without a care in the world, others were either smoking or drinking, also not caring that they were giving the other's second-hand-smoke. At the far end of the long strip of waiting people, a few homeless looking teens were gathered in a corner, talking and laughing. The eldest of the group seemed to be no older then eighteen.

Shyly, I walked over to the group, hoping they would not be rude, but kind and willing to get to know me.

"Hi!." I said smiling, not wanting to look scared.

The eldest of the group, looked up at me and smiled. "Hey," he said.

Perfect, this was going the way I had hoped it would.

"I'm Rin...Rin Sakaru." I stuck out my hand.

The eldest stood up from the ground and took my hand in his. "I'm Riku, Yuudai Riku." He gently took my hand in his and gave another sweet smile.

He turned his head the other three people with him. "This is, Hikaru Rei..." he pointed to a young teenaged boy who looked about seventeen, with long blonde hair that was obviously bleached, "The one next to him is his girlfriend, Ostata, Mai," the seventeen year old girl smiled and waved, her shoulder length hair was dyed pink at the tips and was formed in a braid, "and last, this is Shima, Kiru." The last boy looked so much like Riku, that he could have been his younger brother, they had identical hair and eyes.

"So why aren't you in school, Rin?." Mai immediately asked me, shortly after Riku asked me to sit down.

I lowered my head and played with a loose string on my jacket. "I...well...I ran away from home. My parents were going to send me to Rehab...and...I just got so mad...so I ran away."

"Why would they send you to Rehab?." Kiru asked, tilting his head.

"Um...well...apparently I'm near death because of an Eating Disorder." What was I doing? I didn't know these people, and here I was, sharing my personal life with them.

"Oh, what Eating Disorder?." Asked, Mai.

"Anorexia." I quickly spurted.

Riku raised his eyebrows. "So that's why you're so pale and sickly looking!."

I frowned a little, I never did like it when people told me how sick I looked.

"So..." I said, in hope of changing the subject. "Why aren't you all in school?."

Mai and Rei both explained about their forbidden love and instead of Mai's parents sending her to an All Girls School, they decided to runaway together, in hope of starting a family.

Kiru came from an abusive family and instead of waiting for social workers to decided what would happen to him, he abandoned his past life.

Riku also came from an abusive family and had been on his own since he was fifteen. He also has a job with Mai and Rei and too is saving up money for a home so he could have somewhere to live, which Kiru would join as well so he wouldn't be alone.

I was stunned by each passing story.

"So...you have anyone looking for you, Rin?." Rei asked, curiously.

"Probably my over-protective Dad and...ex-boyfriend.." I wasn't even sure if Kohaku and I were finished, by I might as well declare it that way.

"Ex? What happened?." Asked, Riku, leaning closer towards me.

Taking a deep breathe, I told my story about my "Boyfriend" and Eating Disorders.

After telling my story, they allowed me to stay with them until I was also able to raise some more money of my own and rent a small apartment, though Riku was much more then happy to offer him a room in the one he had his eye on.

When it reached one in the afternoon, Mai, Kiru, and Rei all left for work and assured me that they would be back late in the night.

"Where do they work?." I asked, once they were out of earshot.

"Oh, they are janitors at one of those five star Restaurants."

"I see...and what do you do?."

"I'm an mechanic at a nearby twenty-four hour car-shop. I actually just got off my shift a few minutes before you came here." He said in a softer voice.

Pursing my lips together, I studied the busy subway, just to kill time. Every now and then people would give me strange looks and mutter things to the person next to them. Some of them would actually glare at us and say aloud "Get a job!" while a small amount would toss money to us.

"So...tell me about your 'ex-boyfriend'." Said Riku, shortly after another person told us to get a job.

"What?." I said stunned.

"Your ex, tell me about him. How did you two meet?." Riku moved to a more comfortable position, like his Mother was going to tell him a story.

"Oh...Kohaku. Well, when I first met him he was suicidal...you know, cutting himself and things like that. We met when I became his teenage consular. After he left the Hospital he was in a terrible car accident and I went to visit him everyday. I guess that's how it all started, we then began to grow attached to one another. After he said he 'loved me' in December we began to do everything together, even at times he'd become a little jealous when he'd notice other boys looking at me." I laughed a little remembering that day. "When I passed out in Gym class a while back, was when I think our relationship began to break. He never returned my calls, never came to visit me when I'd ask him to...then last night...he told me that I should go to a Hospital that would take care of my condition, right there I went crazy, ripped posters off my walls, tore off my bed sheets, my makeup was splattered all along the floor. Thankfully he left and didn't see my episode. When my Dad finally dragged him back into my room, I knew he was going to end it with me, so I stopped him by saying that I was proud of my Eating Disorders. So...that's what lead to me running away."

Riku blinked a few times in shock. To me, he seemed speechless and a little disturbed from my childish act.

From then on he asked me questions about my life and I asked about his, just to get to know him a little bit better then what he told me.

The time slipped by so fast, before I knew it, it was six o'clock.

I let out soft sighs every couple of minutes, indicating that I was a tad bored and a little depressed. Of course Riku didn't hesitate to comfort me and make sure I was entertained. Though I didn't mind talking, it did get a little annoying listening to his long stories from when he was my age. I hated long stories, but he didn't need to know that.

After finishing his long story about his first love he asked me an intresting question; "Do you still love Kohaku?."

I was stunned, I barely knew Riku and here was asking me a question of love as though the three of us had been best friends since birth and one of the boys finally decided to make a move, causing the other to drown in envy.

"W-well...I-I..." I bit my lip, what was I to say? The fire of romance between Kohaku and I was burning out and there wasn't anymore four hour long phone calls, passionate, lusty kissing, secret dates, or any other the other fun things we did anymore. What if I was to say no, and Kohaku still loved me? What if it was the other way around?

"Well?" He said, leaning closer towards me.

Come on Rin, choose! A voice in my head hissed.

"I still love him, but as a brother now...since we've 'broken-up' we decided to keep a close bond!."

Great lie, Rin. You know perfectally well that you and Kohaku do not keep a 'close bond'.

Riku's expression of questioning turned to a bright smile.

"Alright, I just wanted to know."

I returned the smile, but was stopped. My heart was pounding faster and faster with each passing second, as the pounding went faster it felt as though someone had stuck their hand through my chest and was now twisting my heart, as though they were trying to rip it out. I gasped and clutched the pain, tears began to flood from my eyes and I fell to the ground, gasping, crying, and still clutching the pain in my heart.

When I fell Riku began to panic. He shook my gently and began to call out my name.

"Rin! Rin! Are you alright? What's hapenning?."

I didn't reply, the pain was to unberable, now gasping for air hurt.

Kohaku's POV

We had been searching the city all day and there was still no sign of her. Sesshoumaru made me call the school and all of her friends at least a dozen times before he realized that she wasn't with them.

I was still bitter with Rin from the pervious night and as of now, could care less where she was. Yet a part of me secretly worried about Rin and was hoping that wherever she was, she was safe and out of harms way.

My watched beeped, it was now seven and I was growing tired of looking for her and sitting around in the car for so long.

"Should we give up until tomorrow?." I said hopfully to Sesshoumaru.

He didn't reply, he never did. Though when we were stuck at a red traffic light he'd mutter things to himself as though he was trying to perform some magic trick that he'd "summon" her towards him.

It's her stupid fault...

I thought bitterly to myself, wishing I could be at home watching a good horror movie with Miroku like we had planned.

If she didn't develop this stupid illness, we'd still be together, happy and healthy. Her dad wouldn't be blamming me for everything that happened in his family and Kagura would have less stress on her shoulders. Sango wouldn't be so noisy and Miroku would lay off on the doctor talk about average weight, height, and all that assorted crap of the average teen. Yes, if she wasn't self-conscious I know our lives would be easier...

"This will be our last stop and I'll take you home." Said Sesshoumaru in a tired tone of voice.

We pulled up at a gritty part of town, the buildings there were old and worn down, like they had been there for several decades. On the street were a few old fast food resturants, a dance club and a subway at the end of the street. I quickly jumped out othe car and began entering every building on one side of the street in search for Rin, while Sesshoumaru searched the other side.

"Do you want to check the subway?." I asked, noticing that Sesshoumaru was heading back to the car.

"No, she's terrified of them."

I rolled my eyes. "It doesn't mean she won't go in one."

Sesshoumaru turned back to me and opened his mouth to argue, but instead of a cold threat or comment, a cry of a teenaged boy filled the air.

"Help! I need help, I think she's having a heart attack!."

She.

Could it be Rin? Anorexia could cause heart failiure after all.

I turned my heal and raced towards the voice, my own heart pounding faster and faster of fear that I could be just a little to late and would lose her because of my foolishness.

Coming up from the steps of the subway, I saw a boy in his late teens, holding a small frail figure in his arms, whose chest was moving up and down at a rapid pace.

It was Rin.

I stood in my tracks, breathless and in shock, my mind was going blank and I felt as though my eyes were quickly studying every aspect of my surroundings, trying to avoid the dying figure in front of me. My breathing then began to pick up when I saw a clear view of her face, pale everywhere except for her eyes, which where puffy and red with tears pouring out of them.

The boy came up to me, tears were also streaming down from his face.

"Can you drive? I need to take her to the Hospital!." He cried, clutching her shoulders tighter.

I shook my head to get focused again. "No...but he can take you there." I pointed to Sesshoumaru who was studying my every move, unaware that the dying girl was his own daughter.

"Thank you!." He said, quickly as he rushed towards Sesshoumaru and begged for a ride to the Emergency room. I followed the boy, into Sesshoumaru's car. Obviously in the short amount of time Rin had met this boy, he had fallen for her.

While we drove quickly to the Hospital. He must have still been unaware that it was Rin. Within ten minutes we arrived to the Emergency Room and the boy carried her in after thanking us half a dozen times.

"You don't know who that girl is, do you?." I said cooly to Sesshoumaru.

"Why would I even want to know? I have my own daughter to worry about."

I clenched my fists together. "Because she is your daughter! How could you not notice?" Without any warnings, I jumped out of the car and raced after the boy and Rin.

After running around the Hospital, I found the boy sitting in a chair alone, tears were still streaming down his face. It wasn't after a minute of me staring at him in anger that he noticed I was there.

"Oh..." he said, wiping his nose on his dirty sleeve, "did you come to make sure she was alright?."

I sucked on my lip and unraveled my fists.

"Yeah...I did..."

Author's note- (Sighs) Once again, I am so sorry about the wait and now I've left you all with a cliffhanger...but on the bright side I was able to get two chapters of my top stories up tonight...good thing right? ...No, lol, I didn't think you fans would be pleased (And not to worry, Rin isn't dead! Just because in recent manga chapters she died for a second time, doesn't mean I'm going to follow it.)

Anyway, thank you for reading.