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Author's notes - Alright, I am clearing up once again that though Rin has had a heart attack she is not dead. I am once more sorry for putting the story off for so long and I promise to update more often. (Laughs) I remember when I first started writing this story I had all my holidays matched up perfectly, now it's all messed up thanks to my absence.

Happy (but not so important) News - Suicidal Love has finally reached 100 reviews! Thank you song-within-my-heart for giving me my 100th review for this story. "OMG this is getting intense!! I must read more" (Laughs) Well, I'm glad that I've written this story to your liking that you can hardly stop.

Kohaku's POV

After running around the Hospital, I found the boy sitting in a chair alone, tears were still streaming down his face. It wasn't after a minute of me staring at him in anger that he noticed I was there.

"Oh..." he said, wiping his nose on his dirty sleeve, "did you come to make sure she was alright?."

I sucked on my lip and unraveled my fists.

"Yeah...I did..."

The boy wiped his nose again. "The girl has Anorexia...I think that's what caused her to have the heart attack."

"I know..." I said, looking down at the clean floor.

"How? Do you know her?" The boy looked at me with full attention.

"Oh, no. I don't know her. I was trailing, sorry. What I meant to say was 'I noticed'." I was sure that Rin had told this boy about me and if I said that I was her boyfriend the boy would become outraged that I let my own girlfriend develop a disease.

"Oh. Do you wanna sit down?" He scooted his body over to make more room.

"Yeah, thanks." I sat down. "I'm K-...Karasu." I made up a fake name, just in case.

"I'm Riku Yuudai." He said. "I met Rin, the girl, down in the subway this morning."

My eyebrows raised. "This morning? She's just a teenager isn't she, wasn't she supposed to be in school?"

Riku nodded. "Yeah, but, she's a runaway."

"Runaway? From what?"

"She said she was running away from her family, who want to place her in rehab and her ex-boyfriend."

Ex? So we are officially over now?

"I see...well...do you...love her?" It was hard to ask that to another person about Rin.

Riku was silent for the next while. "It's dumb, because we just met, but yeah...I love her..."

So he does love her. My Rin...he's in love with my Rin...

"I see..." Was all I was able to say.

A doctor soon came out from the room next to where we where sitting. He was covered in sweat and looked tired.

"Is Rin alright?!" Riku asked, jumping out of the chair.

The doctor shook his head. "I'm sorry, but I'm not sure. At the height of 5"6 and having a small frame, she should weigh around 120lbs to 130lbs. She only weighs 82lbs. I'm even amazed the girl managed to survive this long. We've done all we can for her, I'm sorry."

Riku's face turned white and he sat back down into the chair. "She's only a teenager...she can't die..."

The doctor rubbed his temples and sighed. "She's sleeping right now, but I'll allow you to see her."

Riku and I thanked the doctor and walked into the hospital room. It was a horrifying site to see Rin laying there, flat as a bored, sickly skin, sunken face, and iv's and tubes in her body.

"R-Rin..." Riku gasped and rushed over to her. I, on the other hand stood in the doorway looking at the woman I love with horrified eyes.

Sesshoumaru quickly stormed through the door, nearly walking into me. He didn't say a word as he walked up to his daughter. He only pushed Riku and I out of the way and sat down next to his daughter.

"Who the hell are you?" Riku asked

He didn't answer, he kept his eyes fixed on his daughter.

"I asked you a question. Who the hell are you?" Riku lifted up his arm to hit Sesshoumaru to grab his attention but I quickly made my way over to stop him.

"That's Rin's dad...can't you tell?"

He raised an eyebrow at Sesshoumaru, and then sat in the second chair that was by the television in the room.

"How does it feel, Sesshoumaru?" I asked, peering down at her body. "To have your daughter dying and knowing there isn't a thing you can do."

"Yes, Kohaku. How does it feel to know that once more in your life, someone who love is going to die and there isn't a thing you can do?"

My eyes narrowed and I gave him a glare from behind.

"What is he talking about? You know Rin?" Riku stood up from the chair.

I nodded. "Yes...Rin is...was, my girlfriend."

"So you lied to me?"

"What's your point?" I asked. "If I told you the truth it wouldn't change anything."

"She said it was for you. You're the bastard that did this to her! You could've stopped her, but instead you watched her disappear in front of you. And then blame her dad on it."

My eyes trailed up to Rin's monitor and that me her heart rate. "Whatever..."

There was then a buzzing noise that filled the room. Riku jumped from being startled and my eyes darted down to Sesshoumaru's jacket. His cell was ringing, it was probably Kagura asking if we had found Rin yet.

"Hello?"

I couldn't hear the voice on the other line, I was only able to make out a bit of the voice on the other line, it was full of panic. Kagura's water must've broken.

"Right. I'll be there right away...North?...I'm at the East...I'll explain later." He hung up his cell and stood up. "Kagura's water has broken and she's going to have the baby...watch over Rin...I'll send your sister over to pick you up when I reach the North hospital."

"You're just going to leave?" I protested.

"My wife is having a child. She needs me there."

"And Rin doesn't?!"

"She has you doesn't she?"

I stayed silent and sat down where Sesshoumaru was sitting.

"You better survive Rin..." I touched her cold as death hand with my warm one. "Don't you want to see your new sibling? You'll be a big sister soon."

I was hoping Rin would answer me, but she only stayed silent her body barely moving with her breathing.

"Do you think she'll survive the night?" Riku pulled the chair he was sitting in up beside me.

"I don't know...it doesn't look like it though." I replied, not looking up.

"So...how did you meet Rin?" He asked.

"I met Rin while I was in the hospital, she was my consular. When I was released, we stayed close and then began a secret relationship."

"Why secret?"

"Well...you saw who her dad was. He wasn't to fond of the idea of me dating his daughter."

"He found out though?"

I nodded. "Yeah, the first time she passed out...everyone had clued in by then. I'm guessing you met her in the subway shortly after she ran away?"

He nodded. "Yeah...I mean, we only have known each other for a few hours, but I felt something special in her. So...her mom is having a baby?"

Once more I nodded. "Yeah, they've been trying for a while to get pregnant. Rin was thrilled when she found out. She always wanted to be a big sister."

"Trying for a while? You mean Rin is adopted?"

"Yeah. Maybe that's why she developed the disorder. She thought she was going to be replaced."

"Or her boyfriend was looking at thinner woman?"

I glared at Riku. "What, did she actually tell you why she has the disorder?"

He didn't reply, it was an obvious no.

"Mr, Anberu. There is a phone call for you." A nurse walked into the room carrying a piece of paper that carried the information of my call. "Just pick up the phone and press 'line' and the number 'four.' You're caller will be waiting for you."

I did as I was told, it was probably Sango with information on the baby.

"Hello?"

"Kohaku! Kagura had her babies." Sango said in an ecstatic voice.

"Babies? You mean she had twins?" I said in surprise. Kagura was rather large in her pregnancy, I thought it was just because the baby was going to be big.

"Yes. She had twin boys." She said proudly. "They're so adorable! With little fluff of jet black hair and dark brown eyes. Just like their mother."

"What did she name them?"

"Takeaki and Takito." Sango said proudly. "You should see them Kohaku! Oh, it makes me want to have one of my own." There was a muffled noise on the other end of the phone. "No Miroku, not here!" Sango laughed. "Now he's really eggar to go home, he thinks I'll finally give in to bare his children. Anyway, Sesshoumaru told me that you're at the North Tokyo hospital. How come?"

I gulped. "Um...well...we found Rin."

Sango gasped before I finished. "She's not dead is she? Is she alright?"

"We're not sure. She had a heart-attack and might not survive the night or even this upcoming week."

"Oh my god..." Was all Sango could say.

"I assume that Sesshoumaru hasn't told Kagura yet."

"N-no. I'll be right over...I need to make a quick stop at our house. Is there anything you need?"

"My walkman...and bring the CD's next to it please. It's on my dresser."

"Right...I'll be there in about an hour."

"Alright. Bye."

"Bye."

I hung up the phone and sat back down in my chair.

"Her mom had twins huh?" Riku asked.

I nodded. "Do you plan on staying the entire night here?"

"Yes. Are you?"

"Yeah..."

"Why did you ask the person on the other line to bring you walkman?"

I yawned. It had been such a long day and was going to be an even longer night. "If I'm going to stay by Rin's side I want something to listen to."

Sango arrived an hour and a half later, there wasn't a cheerful expression on her face. She looked dull, tired, and scared.

"Before I left, Sesshoumaru told Kagura about Rin." She started, setting the walkman and CD's on the stand next to us. "She didn't take it to well."

"I didn't think she would."

Sango gave a small yawn. "Since the babies are healthy and have nothing wrong with them she'll probably be coming home tomorrow afternoon." She glanced at Rin's body and backed away with a horrified look upon her face. "And she'll visit...if Rin survives the night..." Her eyes then darted over to Riku. "Who's he?"

"A boy that she met while she was in the subway. Apparently, he's fallen in love with her and was also there when Rin's heart attack occurred."

"Fallen in love with her? In only a short period of time?"

I nodded. "I know, I don't get it either...so are you heading home?"

"Yes, it's been a long day and I have to go to work tomorrow. I want to stay here with you and Rin, but Miroku and I don't want to risk losing our jobs." She bent down and kissed my forehead. "On my way out I'll have a cot brought in so you can sleep comfortably in the room."

The cot was brought to her room half an hour later. It was already midnight and I was drained of energy.

"You're going to sleep?" Asked Riku in disbelief.

"I'm tired and I've been up since three in the morning...why?"

He shook his head. "Never mind. Just if she was my girlfriend I wouldn't rest until I knew she was well again."

I rolled my eyes and placed my headphones upon my ears and laid down on the bed. I wasn't going to let him get to me.

That night, Ayumi sung me to sleep. Her voice calmed me down and sleep came peacefully to me for the first time since Rin first passed out.

I awoke early the that morning. It was only eight and the hospital was quiet. Riku was sleeping in an uncomfortable position in the chair and Rin was still resting in the hospital bed. She had thankfully survived the night.

She looked so beautiful sleeping on the bed, even with the IV's and tubes in her body.

I pulled the headphones off of my ears and placed them on her own. "You always did love music." I placed the CD she had given me for Christmas in the player and went to track.09. Moments. The music was placed on a low so it wouldn't harm her ears, but that she was still able to hear it.

"This was our song...I'd listen to it for hours at a time when we weren't together, remembering the first time we sang it together and when we saw Ayumi sing it live in front of us for the holidays." I smiled. "Some say, that when you talk to a person, or play music for them while the are in a coma or dreaming, they'll wake up."

Only her chest, which showed that she was breathing, moved.

"I didn't think it would work..." Moments was now over and the CD had moved to its' next track. "There is a song I want you to hear though..." I reached over to the night stand and grabbed a burnt disc. "I was saving this for your birthday, but by the looks of it, you won't make it that far."

I felt so stupid for talking to her. It was no different from talking to a corpse.

"It's called Yumemiru Tameni...I think you'll like it." I set the CD player to go to the last track on the disc.

Faintly, I heard the peaceful song begin to play, and once again Rin's body didn't show any new movement of life.

This is stupid. You know she's not going to wake up Kohaku. And to think you were going to play this on the night you were going to...

"Rin isn't any better yet?" Riku had finally woken up.

"No. Not yet."

"Why are there headphones on her ears?" He pointed to my player.

"Oh!" I quickly took the headphones off, the song was almost done anyway. "I just thought...never mind."

Riku raised one of his eyebrows. "Okay..."

"Still nothing?" I heard Miroku's voice fill the room. He and Sango must've come to check up on us.

I shook my head. "No, not yet. How's Kagura and the babies?"

"Um...they're all good. They'll be here in an hour or so. Did you get any sleep last night?"

"Yes."

"Sango is down in the gift shop. Are you hungry? I can call her and tell her to pick something up."

"No, I'm good. Do you think it'd be okay, Miroku, if you took me to the jewelry store where you bought Sango's wedding ring?" I could tell that I had now confused Riku and Miroku.

"Sure I can take you." Miroku finally said after an awkward silence opened. "Let me tell Sango where we're going and then we'll leave." He pulled out his cell phone and dialed my sisters number.

"What are going to get a jewelry store?" Riku asked. "A ring maybe?"

"It's none of your concern what I'm going to buy." I said cooly.

"That's what it is. I can tell. Remember idiot, you two are no longer together." He said angrily. "If she recovers from this, I doubt she'll want to see you again, let alone marry you."

I rolled my eyes. "Who said it was an engagement ring? Did you ever think that I'd just like to buy something nice for her?"

"Kohaku, are you ready?" Miroku called.

I shot Riku one last glare. "Yes."

"Kohaku, are you going to-

"No. What makes you think that? It's just a congratulations for recovering gift." I snapped at him before he could finish his question.

"What if she doesn't recover?"

"Well..." I thought for a moment "She can at least be buried with something nice."

Am I really going to buy this? Buy a ring for a girl who may not recover, and if she did, not want to even see or speak to me again? Was it worth the money? Was it even worth spending a small fortune on her? If she does recover, would she even accept the ring? Riku...would she be happier with him?

"Hello, may I help you?" An shortly elderly woman greeted us as we walked into the store.

I was still in daze of my thoughts and didn't realize she was talking to me.

"Kohaku, the lady wants to know if she can help you." Miroku nudged my ribs.

"Oh, sorry!" I snapped back into reality. "Um, well I'm looking for an..." My eyes shifted up to Miroku, who had, like Riku, caught on that it was going to be an engagement ring. "...engagement ring."

The woman smiled and clasped her hands together. "How sweet. Let me guess...childhood sweethearts?"

"No..." I said embarrassed. Rin and I were nothing close to childhood sweethearts, if anything we were suicidal sweethearts.

"Oh." The woman continued to smile and began to pull out small displays of rings. "Do you know her size?"

"Yes. Well...I think I do. As of now she's most likely a size three or four. If things go to plan she'll grow into a size seven or eight."

"My, she has such tiny fingers!" The woman exclaimed. "Well, let me see what I have here...Oh! Here we go!" She pulled out a small display of silver banded, diamond rings. "I hardly sell rings of that size so my collection is small."

"It will do, thank you." I began to carefully look at each ring. "How did you choose one for Sango?"

"Simple. I chose the most beautiful one there was, to represent the most beautiful woman in Japan." He smiled. "Personally, I like this small one on the left." Miroku pointed to the smallest ring. "It's very fitting for her. Small, and beautiful."

"Perfect..." was all I could say.

"Have you chosen?" The lady came back to the display.

I nodded and pointed to the tiny ring. "The smallest on the left. It's perfect."

She smiled and placed the ring in a box and handed it to me. "That's five hundred yen."

I pulled out my wallet. I had been saving up my money for so many years and gave around half to the elder. In exchange I was given a beautiful ring that would hopefully bring Rin and I together.

"Oh, Kohaku, there you are! Do you want to see the babies?" Sango said in a cheerful voice and pointed to the twins that Kagura was holding.

I was amazed that in the short time period I was gone the hospital room was filled. Sango, Kagome, Kagura, the twins, Sesshoumaru, and Riku were all in the room.

"Um, okay..." I held out my arms so I'd be able to one of the babies. Kagome brought me the child.

"This is Takeaki," She beamed proudly, gently handing me the baby. Sango was behind her, holding who must have been Takito.

The infant was an exact replica of Kagura and Sesshoumaru. Dark black hair and deep beady brown eyes. "He's cute." Was all I said.

Rin will never be able to have children thanks to Anorexia, the one thing almost every girl wants; a child of their own and she'll never be able to become impregnated after this.

Takito was handed to me next, he was constantly stretching and moving his body around as if he was playing with a dog.

"Has the doctor given any news about Rin?" I asked, instead of telling Kagura that this child to was adorable.

Kagome shook her head. "The doctor did say something..."

"What did he say?"

She pursed her lips together and didn't reply. No one else said a word in the room, Sango had taken Takito back and sat down next to Kagome, who was carrying Takeaki.

"Is she going to live?"

Kagura shook her head.. "Kohaku, they're even surprised she managed to live past the night. And believe she'll be lucky enough if she lives through this up coming week. Her heart rate has increased a bit but not enough to satisfy them."

"Oh..." I slowly walked up to Rin's peaceful body. There still wasn't any color in her face. Was she going to die on me? Before I even had the chance to say that I was sorry? I didn't want it to end like this.

All of a sudden the twins started crying. Kagura, Kagome, and Sango rushed to a mother's air room that was down the hall.

Were they crying because they knew their sister wasn't going to make it?

I laced my hand in hers and lifted it up to my face. I breathed softly onto it, warming it up a little. "Your brothers are going to never know their sister Rin.."

Her hand twitched a little, and her face tightened up. Was she waking up?

"K-kohaku?...W-where am I?"

Author's notes - Okay, obviously I do not know how to count yen into dollars, but whatever works. Sorry for cutting it off like that, but I needed to end the chapter or it would've dragged on and become so boring. (Not to mention I'm dead on idea's and a new Naruto is on! Sakura's getting some big screen time in this episode..I think...lol)

Thank you for reading.