Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter, nor do I own, any lyrics used in this Fictional Story.

Author's note: Hello, It's me again. This was the first Fic that I posted on my website when it was first opened in November of 2005. Please enjoy and remember that this is not and will not be a Ginny/Harry Fic.

Chapter 3:

Both Harry and Ginny had thoughts running through their heads while on their way down to lunch, how was it possible to have feelings for two people or even to love two people, they were both very confused and met up at the top of the stair case on their way to the kitchen with Ron and Hermione by there sides.

They smiled weakly at each other and when the confusion and silence was noticed Ron and Hermione both spoke in unison.

"Going down for lunch then?"

"Yeah actually." Ginny and Harry both replied also in unison.

They both mouthed thank you to Ron and Hermione for stopping what could have been a very embarrassing moment for everyone.

As they made there way to the kitchen they found themselves in an uncomfortable silence.

The girls didn't know why the boy's weren't talking or joking around like they usually would and vice versa.

Harry and Ginny were both going through their previous conversations in their heads glad that the other people could not read their minds.

Ginny could feel the water rush to her eyes when she thought about the nights that she had spent with her lover at Hogwarts, in one way she wished they had never ended, but in another she wished it had never happened so that she did not feel like her heart was being ripped into two pieces, one half belonging to Harry and the other to the man who knew the person she had become over the last year.

Harry on the other hand was thinking about the night he had made love for the first time and could not help but think about what would happen if he ever saw her again.

As Ginny felt a tear roll down her cheek she excused herself and walked into the bathroom to wash her face, their was no use in doing so though because every time she closed her eyes she saw him and everything they did together, she ha been so happy and then it ended without much warning. She often wondered what would have happened if she had told him that she loved him.

After about half an hour had gone by Harry realised that Ginny had not returned to eat her lunch and went looking for her.

He stopped when he heard vague sobs coming from with in the bathroom and knocked at the door.

"Who is it? I'll be out in a minute!" Ginny called out after hearing the knocking.

"It's Harry, are you alright Ginny?" Harry asked sounding concerned.

"Yeah I'm ok I just knocked my knee against the cupboard under the sink!" Ginny replied trying to cover up her real reasons for being in their crying for the last thirty minutes.

"Can I do anything to help?" asked Harry

"No that's ok I'll be out for lunch in a minute, just go back to the kitchen ok." Ginny said insistently.

Harry put his hand on the door as if he could touch Ginny on the other side and then quickly removed it as a pain shot through to his heart as if it had been slowly tearing into two. He did not know why it had happened or if it was him who had had the pain, all he knew was that when he had removed his hand the pain disappeared.

Ginny stopped herself from crying and washed her face again, she felt she could control the crying even if she could not control the continuous ache in her chest.

A few minutes later Ginny emerged from the bathroom, her eyes were puffy but most of the redness had gone. You could see just how much Ginny had changed when you really looked at her, her hair was now a dark auburn and flowed half way down her back, her body had developed more curves and most of her freckles had disappeared.

Harry had only just left and had entered the kitchen when he heard the bathroom door close, he moved around and took his seat just before Mrs Weasley put a plate of sandwiches in the middle of the table and told them all to help themselves.

Ginny walked in seconds later but before she was able to sit down and start her lunch both Ron and Mrs Weasley had seen her.

"Ginny dear are you alright, what's wrong?" Mrs Weasley enquired.

"Yeah Gin you look like you have been crying." Ron added

"I just hit my knee in the bathroom, just a bit of shock that's all." Ginny replied answering both questions at once.

Hermione took one look at Ginny and could see that she had not hurt her knee but had been crying over remembering what had happened over the past year that she was at Hogwarts, even though Hermione had not been told the full story yet.

They all returned to their seats and ate lunch in silence when there was a knock at the door. Both Harry and Ginny's heads shot towards the door wondering whom the person on the other side could be, and if their secrets were about to come out faster than they had once thought.

Mrs Weasley walked up to the door and opened it beckoning the guests inside.

Harry and Ginny felt relieved but upset at the same time when they saw the red headed twins Fred and George enter the kitchen.

"What's for lunch?" Fred asked.

"Well no one seems very happy to see us!" George said looking from Harry to Ginny and back again.

"Sandwiches sit down and help yourselves, there is plenty to go around." Mrs Weasley answered as she pointed to the middle of the table.

Fred and George sat down at the table and ate their fair share of the sandwiches, when they saw the glum faces and could feel the tension in the silent room; they decided to joke around to get everyone to lighten up a bit.

The joke didn't work as planned everyone just put on fake smiles and stupid laughs to keep the attention off of themselves.

"Thanks for lunch mum, I'm just going to go up stairs for a while and get some rest, I want to catch up on some of the sleep I lost while exams were on at school," Ginny said as she was getting up from the table.

"Ok sweet heart I will wake you when dinner is ready." Mrs Weasley replied.

Ginny said goodbye to her brothers and told Hermione that she would catch up with her later. They all waved at her and said goodbye. She then told Harry that it had been good to see him and that they could catch up later on if it was ok with him.

Harry nodded and Ron if he would be interested in a game of wizard's chess, Ron agreed and got up from the table as well.

Fred and George said that they needed to get back to work at the shop and then as they were getting up thanked their mother for lunch, and gave her a hug.

Ginny walked out of the kitchen and up the stairs to her bedroom closing the door behind her for some privacy, a tear fell down her cheek as she walked over to her bed and slid beneath the covers wishing that the pain would stop and that she could go back to school, thinking that it might have made a difference if she had another year left to go, she might have had more time with the man she could not stop thinking about.

After crying for ten minutes she drifted off into a deep sleep, breathing heavily from her cries of anguish.

Hermione went up to check on her a minute or so later and slowly opened the bedroom door peering through the slit as it grew larger. She could see Ginny asleep on the bed with the blankets wrapped tightly around her and when she got close enough she could see Ginny's tear stained face beneath her auburn hair.

Hermione went and sat in a chair in clear view of Ginny's bed and opened a book up to read while Ginny was sleeping, she wanted to be there when Ginny woke up, she hated seeing Ginny upset and didn't want anyone to disturb her while she was sleeping.

Hermione looked at Ginny from above her book and saw something she never thought that she would see for a very long time, Ginny was smiling in her sleep, bitting her lower lip as she often did when she was nervous or embarrassed.

Hermione put her book on her lap and continued watching Ginny in hope that she might find out who the mystery guy Ginny had told her about was.

Ginny was dreaming about walking through Hogwarts castle at night, going into an abandoned classroom and lighting a few candles to study, she knew what was going to happen next and was able to successfully skip to the last things that had happened on that first amazing night, the closeness, his breath on her face and the electricity that went through her body when there lips met over and over again, and the feeling of weakness when his hand slid down her back, she let out a gasp in shock and pleasure fighting for control with her lips, her hands in his hair and around his neck as if begging for him to never let go.

Hermione watched Ginny lay their fighting with the sheets, and then heard her gasp, she decided watching and listening to Ginny may not be a good idea after all, but was stuck to the spot as Ginny started to cry in her sleep.

Ginny was still dreaming but had gone to the last day she had seen the man she had spent so much time with behind closed doors so they were not to be seen by others and since she had been given the marauders map when Hermione, Ron and Harry had left school, in case she needed it, she used it to her advantage and made her way around the school without being seen.

She had just noticed the fear in his eyes and then he spoke those words she had hoped never to hear.

"I have really enjoyed our time together Ginny, but I think that now you only have a few weeks left before you return home it may be a good idea to forget about me and find someone your own age." He said

"But look at what we have done over the last few months; are you telling me that it meant nothing to you, that you had no intention of seeing this through in the first place, I was just something to toy with?" Ginny asked with shakiness to her voice.

When he had just looked at her in shocked silent awe she started to get angry, she had let herself fall in love with this man and he was breaking her heart.

"Well is that what you're saying?" Ginny asked again trying not to give into the tears that were begging to develop in her eyes.

"No that's not what I'm saying, I'm saying that too many people will get hurt if they found out about this, about us, hurting you is the last thing I want to do but we can't do this anymore," He said while putting his hands on her face.

She moved his hand gently and kissed it knowing that he was right, but she wasn't going to give up just yet.

"After everything I went through, being captured and tortured by Voldermort, and finally being able to trust someone, this is what happens. It's too late to tell me you don't want to hurt me because that's what you have done, and I don't think that I could ever feel this close to anyone else but you" Ginny said trying not to yell.

"If what you're trying to say is good bye, ill make it easy for you." Ginny said almost mumbling but still coherent.

Before he could say anything in response she had kissed him, turned around and walked out of the room, leaving him their to think about what he had just done.

He sat their for hours weeping and telling himself how stupid he had been, he wanted to go run after her and tell her how he felt and that he was scared but knew that he couldn't, he knew that he would eventually end up hurting her again so when he was able to get up he left Hogwarts and did not return before every student had left almost two months later.

When Ginny had walked out of that room she felt like she was going to die, she ran to the common room and when she got there she got to her room and fell asleep crying.

Ginny woke up and sat up still crying and shaking as a flood of the pain she had felt that night went straight to her chest, she spotted Hermione in the corner of the room and put her head down hoping that she had not revealed anything in her sleep that could make this day anymore painful.

Hermione rushed over to Ginny and pulled her into a hug, telling her that it was just a dream, but Ginny knew it was more then just a dream, it was something that has happened for real and something that she relived nearly every night since it had happened.