Passion's, Love and Confession's Chapter 4, a harry potter fanfic

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter, nor do I own, any lyrics used in this Fictional Story.

Author's note: Hello, It's me again. This was the first Fic that I posted on my website when it was first opened in November of 2005. Please enjoy and remember that this is not and will not be a Ginny/Harry Fic.

Chapter 4:

Ron was beating Harry once again at wizard chess and could tell he had other things on his mind.

"So did you want to go and play Quidditch, or did you want to go and talk somewhere you look like you have a lot on your mind." Ron said hoping Harry would choose Quidditch.

Harry looked up at Ron knowing what he wanted him to say, but he just didn't feel like playing Quidditch, but he also did not feel like having Ron stare at him while he went through the most amazing times he had had while he was on his quest, it was just a shame it had to end so quickly, and that the last memories he had of his trip was finding out that when he had sent her to get breakfast that she along with the Weasley's, and some close friends and order members had been captured by Voldermort.

"Nah I don't really feel like doing anything I might just go for a walk." Harry replied.

Harry walked over to the door and when Ron started to follow Harry stopped and asked for some time alone to process his thoughts.

Ron nodded his head and decided to go up and see what the girls were doing.

When he got to the bedroom door he could hear someone sobbing and didn't know wether to knock and go in or to walk away, before he could make up his mind he heard Hermione's voice telling Ginny that everything would be ok and decided that he would go in and try to comfort his sister, he had seen a big change in her and knew that something had happened while she was at school but was not quite sure of what it was.

Ron knocked and then before anyone could answer he walked in and put his arms around Ginny telling her that he was there for her if she ever wanted to talk about why it was she had been so upset since she had gotten home.

Ginny thanked her brother and told him that it was best if he didn't know and that he was very sweet for caring about someone that no one else would care about.

Before he had time to answer her and tell her that she was wrong she got up and ran to her bathroom and locked the door behind her.

Harry had been walking for a while now and decided that it was time to head home but that he would take the long way round.

Before long Ginny had gotten in the shower under the hot running water she thought of nothing but the man that had hurt her so much.

When she got out of the shower the bedroom was empty so she got dressed into one of her new outfits she had been waiting to wear, it was a green satin shoe string strap dress with an edging of green lace and sequins. It flowed down to just above her knees, she put her hair up in a clip so that it flowed from the back and left a few strands around her face, she had decided that no one else was going to see what she felt on the inside, she put some green eye shadow on and some black mascara, and then put some lipstick on, it was a pinkie purple colour that sparkled when the light shone on it, she was thinking about what she had found while wondering one night as a kid, a place where the sky was so clear that you could see every star, green grass grew beneath where her feet would have been and you could hear and see the ocean so clear and blue.

Ginny looked at herself in the mirror and took a deep breath, she spotted a necklace that he had given her and thought about how beautiful it was, she had sworn never to wear it again because of the memories but could not let it just sit there any longer, she picked it up and moved a few strands of her hair so that she could close the clasp, without getting it tangled in her hair. She centred it and looked at herself once more before heading to the door. She opened the door and started walking down the stairs when she heard voices coming from the lounge room, and the voices were not those of her family but those of the order, she thought about returning to her room but decided that she had come this far and decided that nothing would stop her.

Harry had no gotten to the door and entered the kitchen also hearing voices from members of the order, he walked around the corner and saw Ginny coming down the stairs, he had not yet noticed the eyes on him or seen the other person staring at the beauty coming down the stairs in a lustful way.

Ginny saw Harry looking at her but then caught a glimpse of someone else, the man she had not wanted to see yet, not until she could control her feelings for him more, she wanted to run up and kiss him passionately but decided against it since she could not move from the spot she was stood in just yet.

Harry noticed her gaze move from him to someone else and the look on her face when her head stopped turning to find them. As he looked over he didn't know what she was looking at but saw what he had been dreaming about since the first time they had kissed and made love in such a passionate embrace.

Ginny's and Lovers View:

He could hear the noise around him come to a silent stop as if it was just him and her, he had not seen her since that night with Voldermort but was more interested in making sure Harry saved everyone then taking the time to try and talk to her, he knew that they had to talk eventually but also knew that it would be best to do it away from prying eyes and ears.

She felt a tear come to her eye as she saw her parents talking to him, but they didn't even notice that he wasn't listening to them, instead he was looking at her she couldn't tell what he was thinking all she could tell was that the feeling in her legs had come back and they felt like they were going to collapse under her, she wanted to run away fast but then she remembered what she had told herself and tried to smile but failed miserably, the tears were in her eyes and she started to walk further down the stairs making sure she held onto the railing blinking the tears back, trying to stay strong.

He saw the gleam in her eyes from where the tears were threatening to spill and knew that she would try to be brave, but he didn't know if he could be, he knew that they couldn't do what they had been doing even though he wanted to with all his heart, he knew that he had hurt her and that he could not fix that but didn't want the uncomfortable feelings of tension between them happen every time they were in the same room, he had to make sure she was ok and the only way to find that out was to ask her. All he could think was how beautiful she was and then he saw it the necklace he had given her, she was holding onto it with her hand letting it slip through her fingers and then tightening her grip on it, he got up to go and see her, but to make it look like he was just mingling. But as he had gotten up to talk to her he mouthed the words I'm sorry, before he could move any closer to her she was gone.

Ginny saw him get up and go to move closer to her, she saw him mouth the words sorry and just could not control the tears that were going to start flooding her face at any moment, she decided that not too many people had seen her arrive and before he could get any closer she made a decision, she thought of her favourite place and then she felt the tight squeezing sensation, when the sensation subsided she opened her eyes and walked over to a rock ledge that she had spent many nights and days sitting on and thinking about, the tears were now flooding her face and she thought of the things she could do to make it feel better to stop the increasing pain that resided in her chest, she slowly walked closer to the ledge not able to control the river of tears that were still flowing, she started to shake, she could hear the sound of the ocean and she could see the stars, at least this was one place that had not changed.

He saw her leave and had a good idea of where she had gone, she use to tell him everything, her thoughts, hopes and fears and he came to the conclusion that he needed to go after her no matter what. He quickly apologised to the Weasley's and other order members saying he had a personal matter to take care of and he headed for the door. Once he was standing outside the door he apperated to the place Ginny had described to him and saw her now down flowing auburn hair, he saw how close to the edge she was and prayed that she hadn't thought of jumping, he hated himself for making her feel like she had to resort to this and started walking over to her, when he was in arms length of her he spoke.

"Ginny, what are you doing up here, please come down and talk to me, tell me how you are feeling please." He said.

"You know I prepared for this moment in case you followed me, if I ever saw you again and I think you need to read this and leave me alone." Ginny replied, her voice still shaking, as she was trying to hold back the next flood of tears.

He took the letter and what looked like a cd, she had shown him cd's that held music over their time together and thought that this must be one of those.

"Ginny I don't want to read a letter as if your not here to tell me what is in it, I want to talk to you, please come away from the edge.

Ginny turned around to face him, ignoring the tears in her eyes, she was mad; he couldn't even let her take away the pain.

"REMUS, just leave me alone, I can't do this anymore I can't pretend that it doesn't hurt, you…."

Ginny felt the pain grow stronger and stronger but could not stop it and could not even get enough breath to say anything, she grabbed at her chest and went dizzy.

Lupin saw the change in her eyes and could tell that something was wrong, when she grabbed her chest he could see she was in pain as a tear fell from her now closed eyes, she fell straight into his arms, he picked her up, her legs in one arm and the other supporting her neck and upper body.

He didn't know exactly what had happened but when she wouldn't wake, he got scared and decided to apparate back to the burrow, and then if need be to St Mungo's.

When he appeared at the burrow holding Ginny's limp body no one asked too many questions except what had happened, Lupin explained to them that he had seen her collapse and when he tried to wake her she didn't respond. As soon as no one could wake her they grabbed their coats and headed to St Mungo's, Lupin kept Ginny in his arms, no one thought anything of it, they assumed he was already carrying her and moving her could be difficult so they left her their, everyone except Hermione that is who knew that their was a strange connection between him and Ginny, while they were apperating, Lupin whispered sorry into Ginny's ear, he felt so bad about hurting her and did not know what was going to happen to her.

After they arrived they got Ginny into a room straight away and went to work on figuring out what had happened to her. Lupin decided to do what Ginny had asked in the last few words she had said to him, he found it in his pocket and went into an empty room, he closed the door and put a locking and a silencing charm on it so no one could here what it said just in case.

Lupin then conjured up a cd player, Ginny had shown him how to use one with magic and he cast the spell that she had taught him so that it did not need a power point, he slipped the cd into the player and read the note while it was loading.

My love,

I wrote this letter on the possibility that I was not ready to tell these things to you in person, I want you too listen to the song on this cd, it explains nearly word for word how I am feeling, and what I have been going through. Remus, I'm sorry it had to end like this; I know I never told you this before because I was scared, but I love you.

You will always hold a large part of my heart in your hands.

Love always and forever Ginny

The cd had loaded and Lupin sat and listened to it,

Seems like just yesterday, You were a part of me, I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong, Your arms around me tight, Everything, it felt so right, Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong.
Now I can't breathe, No, I can't sleep, I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again, I'm torn into pieces, Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one, Broken up, deep inside, But you won't get to see the tears I cry, Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything, Opened up and let you in, You made me feel alright
For once in my life, Now all that's left of me, Is what I pretend to be So together, but so broken up inside,

'Cause I can't breathe, No, I can't sleep, I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again, I'm torn into pieces, Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one, Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out, For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now, No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again, I'm torn into pieces, Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one, Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry, Behind these hazel eyes.

When the song finished a tear rolled down Lupins cheek, he had done this too her, and he wished he could take it all back. He sat in that room in the darkness listening to the song over and over again, by the third time the tears were flowing down his cheek, if she died it would be my entire fault, he thought to himself as he cried.