Ok guys here's the next chapter. This is all Sean's perspective of it all. It's come to my attention to space the paragraph's better so I'll be sure to do that, thanks for telling me! Thanks for the reviews so far, you guys are awesome! Well here it is.

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Didn't Know What I Had Until I Lost It…

Sean sighed as he drove home from Wasaga High with Tyler in the front seat babbling on about a girl named Valerie. Val was Tyler's on again off again girlfriend since the 9th grade. Their relationship kind of reminded Sean of his and Emma's…except that Emma and Sean had dated for much longer. After Tyler had saved Sean's life that day on the beach, they became friends. Tyler forgave Sean for what happened and more importantly Sean forgave himself for what he did to Tyler. Sean was still having trouble not blaming himself for Rick's death, but he was getting through it. He hated it when Tyler talked to him about Val. He hated being reminded of Emma…not really Emma…but he hated being reminded of what he lost. He always thought of Emma. Ever since the shooting he couldn't stop thinking about her. He hadn't had a girlfriend since he left Degrassi. Some girls tried to get him to hook up with them but he wasn't interested. Every time a pretty blonde would walk by, Sean would have to take a second glance just to make sure it wasn't Emma. Craig kept Sean updated about things going on in Degrassi. Sean had only cared about how Emma was doing but didn't want Craig to know that. Sean spit Dr. Pepper out of his nose when he'd found out Manny was filmed taking her top off by some creepy guy named Peter. He'd laughed so hard that Craig got mad and hung up on him. He'd also been informed about Ellie and Jimmy starting to "hang out." Sean didn't really care about that. Even when Sean and Ellie were together he knew he didn't love her…even if he did it wasn't the same way he loved Emma. None of the girls Sean had dated could even compare to Emma. She was the best thing that ever happened to him. And then he had to blow it by throwing her away like a piece of trash. Sean hated himself for that. But he knew that Emma was a very forgiving person. And she forgave him when she came to Wasaga with Jay, him, and Ellie…

Emma just walked up and sat on the blanket next to Sean.

"Sean? (She waved her hand in front of his face) Sean? Maybe you need to see a doctor."

"I'm fine. Just thinking."

Emma looked at him trying to read his face but he was only looking at the ground.

"About what?"

"Emma, I'm sorry."

"For what?"

Emma was confused now. Sean didn't have anything to be sorry for.

Sean looked up at her. He looked into her eyes.

"For last year you know? For everything I put you through. Everything. I'm sorry."

Emma smiled.

"Ancient history."

When Emma forgave him, Sean knew that he couldn't say goodbye to her when he decided to stay in Wasaga. He knew that if she could forgive their last break up, then there was a chance she would take him back. He couldn't say goodbye because if he did, he knew that he would be saying goodbye to their whole relationship…

"Sean? Dude! Sean? Hello! Are you even listening to me?" Tyler yelled snapping Sean back into their conversation.

"What? (Tyler gives him a pissed off look) Sorry dude, I was just...you know thinking."

Tyler smiles.

"Yeah about Emma!"

"Dude whatever. You don't even know what you're talking about."

"Yeah I do, you love her and you know it!"

Sean rolled his eyes. Tyler said this all the time. Sean always denied it, even though he knew it was true.

"No I don't. You didn't even know about me and Emma's relationship ok? You weren't there."

"No but I was there when she came to Wasaga with you. And I was listening in on your apology to her. And I know you jumped in front of a bullet for her. And I know you keep a picture of you and her covered in grease and laying on the ground on your dresser. And I know you have her number stored in your cell memory. And I know you kept a flyer from the day you guys…you know…cleaned the ravine. (Tyler wiggled his eyebrows) Trust me, you love her!"

Sean's cheeks reddened.

"No, I don't. I just…Emma was my first love. And yes, I did jump in front of a gun for her. But that was because she's my friend. We hadn't really talked too much in a year, but we were still mad about the break up. When a gun's pointed at your friend's face you tend to forget about all the stupid things. Look, when I first came to Degrassi, Emma was the only one who understood when to leave me alone. She was the only one who wasn't scared of me…the only one who didn't believe the rumors. Emma was my best friend for most of the time I was at Degrassi…well except for the last year. And I wasn't about to let one of my best friends die, no matter what happened between us? OK?" Sean yelled starting to get mad.

Tyler held his hands up in defeat.

"Ok, man. Sorry I doubted you."

Sean sighed.

"It's ok. I just don't really want to talk about the shooting right now."

Tyler nodded.

"Ok, so what do you think I should do about Val? She said she'd only give me one more chance. She said she still loves me, but she's not doing this on-again off-again thing anymore. She said if we're going to get back together that we're going to stay together or we're not getting back together at all." Tyler said trying to change the subject.

"Well dude, don't you love her?"

"Yeah, I think I do." Tyler said smiling and looking confused at the same time.

"Then, my advice is to go for it. You should be happy you're not going to break up again. If you don't get back together, then you'll regret for the rest of your life. You'll always remember the one that got away. You'll always hate yourself because you didn't know what you had until you lost it. Trust me; I know what that's like. I didn't know what I had until I lost it…"

Tyler dropped the subject when he saw the look on Sean's face. He turned the radio on and looked out the window. Sean wiped away the single tear that fell down his cheek.

"Didn't know what I had until I lost her." Sean thought.

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