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Cries of pain,

Cries of sorrow,

Can't wake,

For your tomorrow

Take a deep breath,

And fight the pain,

For your love's call shall stop the rain

Love's call shall bring in the light

Desire is Pain:

Mikey watched as his love paced.

"Why makes you think Casey did this?" Leo asked suddenly.

"Do you really wanna know?" Raph growled.

"Yes!" Mikey piped up.

"It was a dream," Raph closed his eyes, "I was locked in a room…and I heard Don begging to be let go…and then silence, and I found myself breaking down the door…Casey was raping Don."

Mikey's jaw dropped at that, "But I thought Casey was straight."

"He's bisexual," Raph stated, "I mean…I've seen him check out other guys."

"And you choose to tell us this now?" Leo glared.

"Because I swore on my honor not to tell anyone," he glared.

"Hey guys," they turned to see a brunette man walk in.

"Yo, Josh!" Mikey couldn't help but smile as the man walked up to them.

"I'm here to help," Josh began, "April is at the doctor…getting a blood test."

"And the reason why?" Mikey asked.

"She thinks she's pregnant," he shrugged, "but her main worry is Don."

"We think we know who took him," Raph began.

"Who?" Josh asked.

-Cabin-

Casey closed his eyes, fighting back the want, the desire to leave the bed room, and take him farther away. He just knew that they were catching on, something just told him that.

His lips turned into a smirk, he would get what he wanted soon enough, and he knew he would.

"You will be mine," he whispered, "and you will want me soon enough."

Donatello was having a hard time sleeping in the other room, being in an upright position made it hard for anybody to sleep if you hadn't done it before. Closing his eyes, the sound of his Shell Cell ringing caused his eyes to open.

"Damn it," Casey exited the room, and walked to his gear, digging through it he pulled out the Shell Cell, and he threw it against the wall. Donny's hope fell as it shattered into pieces.

"You think they will save you, don't you," Casey let out a laugh, "but now I doubt they will even find you." Don glared at Casey.

"Darlin' don't be that way," Casey said, walking over to Don, and he walked behind the Techno Geek, placing his hands on his shoulders, giving them an affectionate squeeze, causing Don to tense, "We will be together for the rest of our lives, you won't be lonely."

Donatello fought the urge to struggle in the man's grasp.

"You will be mine soon enough," Casey whispered huskily in where the olive green turtle's ear would be.

-The lair-

Mikey fought back the urge to cry when he attempted to call Don's Shell Cell again.

"We're sorry, but the number you have called have been disconnected."

"Mike, what's wrong?" Josh looked at him.

"Something's happened to Don's Shell Cell," he gasped. Raph tensed hearing that.

"What do you mean, something happened to it?" Leo asked.

"I don't know, it just won't…" Mikey's voice trailed off, "What if…what if what Raph said was true, what if Casey did take Donny."

"Then the only question is, what are his motives," Leo asked.

"Raph…you're more like Casey, what are his motives for taking Donatello?" Josh asked, turning to the red masked turtle.

Raph felt his throat go dry, he began to stammer.

"Raph…are you okay?" Leo asked.

"Raph…" Mikey watched as Raph stopped stammering, and began to clinch his fists.

"Do you really wanna know why," Raph growled, "DO YOU REALLY WANNA KNOW WHY?"

The three shrunk back at the aggravation in Raphael's voice. Leo was the only one who noticed the tears that began to roll down the hothead's cheeks.

"Raph?" Leo reached out.

"I love him," Raph cried, "I just found out that I love him, and he's gone, taken away." No one understood a word, it was whispered.

"Raph, could you…" Mikey began.

"I LOVE HIM, YOU IDIOT, AND I WAS TOO BLIND TO SEE THAT I'VE ALWAYS HAVE!" Raphael's rage took over, as he charged his punching bag, and he began beating the tar out of it, after four kicks and punches, it flew, landing in front of the others in the room.

"Raph, calm down," Leo began. He watched as Raph stood there, taking deep breathes, a scowl on his face.

"Casey you're a dead man."

-Cabin-

Casey's hand slid off of Don's shoulders, and stopped on his biceps, using his thumbs he started to rub circles on Don's arms. He smirked as Don trembled.

"Donny, you'll learn to love me," he whispered. Don shook his head negatively.

"Yes…you will love me," Casey demanded, "because I love you."

Or maybe you just want me, Don thought.

-The lair-

"Okay…we have to find out where Casey is, where he's been hiding for the past year," Leo began.

"And then…we're going to kick his ass," Raph growled.

"No…then we' are going to do a rescue," Leo continued.

"THEN WE ARE GOING TO KICK CASEY'S ASS!" Raph shouted.

"Raph…are you okay?" Josh asked.

"I'm going to kick his ass, and he's going to be sorry he messed with Donny," Raph glared, "and then I'm going to push the bonehead off a cliff."

"Raph, please…don't think like that," Mikey gulped.

"Oh, I'm thinking like that all right," Raph growled, "and Casey has pushed just the right buttons."

"Okay…you want to kill your best friend," Josh said.

"EX-BEST FRIEND!" Raph stressed.

Mikey couldn't help but shake his head; he had never been so worried in his life. Don was the one who kept the balance, and now that he knew how Raph felt about him, he didn't know what to say. Days before any of this happened; Donny had told him his deepest darkest secret.

-Flashback-

Don had been more fidgety lately, and that worried Mikey, he couldn't help bur fear the thought that he was against he and Leo's relationship.

"Donny?" he asked, making the purple banded ninja jump.

"Mikey, it's just you," Don sighed.

"Something's bothering you," Mikey said, "is it…?"

"No, it's not your relationship with Leo," Don shook his head, "it's more about my feelings."

"About who?" Mikey asked, "April?"

"No," Don shook his head.

"Sydney?"

"Mikey, stop guessing," Don sighed, "I came to realize, I'm bi."

"So…who's the lucky guy?" Mikey couldn't help but smirk.

"Mikey, it's not some childish crush," Don shook his head, "I am in love with this person."

"Who?" Mikey asked.

"Promise not to tell anyone," Don was serious.

"I swear," Mikey said, "so who is it?"

"I love Raph."

-End Flashback-

Mikey realized how serious Donny's feelings towards Raph were.

"Guys, we just got to find Donny," Mikey shook his head, or Raph will never know.

"Mikey, that's what we're trying to do," Raph shook his head.

"Wait…" Leo paused, "you know his Grandmother's farm house."

"Yeah," Raph nodded.

"When we went there last, Casey showed me a cabin just four miles away from the house," Leo said.

"So that means," Raph couldn't help but get excited, "that that's where Donny might be."

"Okay, so we have make plans on how to get there," Mikey said, "but it takes, like almost…four hours to get there, what if we're to late, what if Casey…"

"Mikey, don't think like that," Raph growled, "I swear if he did…he's going to be one dead man."

"He's already a dead man," Mikey muttered under his breath.

"I HEARD THAT!" Raph growled.

"I'll call April," Josh said, pulling out his Shell Cell.

Moments later, he was talking to April, telling her what was going on. Mikey laughed as he brought it at least a meter away from his ear, she was pissed.

"Okay, she's getting supplies packed," Josh said hanging up, "but where do we go when we get Donny out of there."

"We have to come up with a plan first," Leo said.

"And that would be?" Mikey asked. Leo took his lovers hand in his, and he sent him a doubtful smile.

"I don't think my plan will work, but at least we'll try," Leo sighed.

"Leo, it won't work unless you make it work," Josh shook his head.

"Okay, here's the plan…"

-The Cabin-

Casey had left the room, and Don was finally asleep.

-Dream-

Don was standing on the roof of an apartment complex, he looked to see Raph standing next to him.

"Don," Raph looked at him, he found his heart skipping a beat.

"What's up Raph?" he asked. The next thing he knew, Raph pulled him into a passionate kiss, at first he was shy about it, but he started kissing back.

But suddenly, everything started to change, and instead of kissing Raph…he was kissing…

Breaking the kiss, he was wide eyed noticing that Raph had changed into Casey.

-End Dream-

Opening his eyes, he couldn't help but shake his head. He didn't want to be there anymore, he would rather die than be there.

Blinking, he noticing the sound of Casey breathing coming from the other room, a sudden snore; laying his head back, his shoulders sagged down gratefully.

-The Lair-

"Guys, you really think that Casey did this?" April asked.

"Come on April, if Casey and Raph are both bi, and Raph loves Donny," Mikey began.

"Mikey, they aren't exactly alike," April sighed.

"That maybe true," Raph nodded, "but I DID once had this bit of a crush on ya April…but that was a long time ago."

"So, you're saying…OMG," April shook her head, "you don't think he would hurt him."

"He said he wouldn't," Leo said.

"Then why do I find it hard to believe," Raph narrowed his eyes.

Leo blinked; he had never seen Raph this hard headed before. He was worried, what if Raph said what he meant, that he was willing to hurt or kill Casey, just to get what he wants, is his love for Donatello was real, or just some killing desire.

"Raph, do you really love him?" Leo asked eyes narrowed.

Raph blinked, "What?"

"Is it love or lust?" Leo demanded. Raph's eyes widened at that question.

"You don't know, do you?" Leo asked.

"I do know lust is for sexual desire," Raph narrowed his eyes, "why don't I have any sexual desires?"

"How do I know if you're telling the truth?" Leo asked.

"Because," Raph growled, "I know what lust is...and I've escaped it once."

"When?" Leo asked. Raph frowned.

"Joy," Raph growled, "remember her."

"But she died," Mikey said.

"Yes," Raph nodded, "but before that, she and I did one of the stupidest things I could never forgive myself for."

"What?" Leo asked.

"We went off somewhere alone," he closed his eyes, "and we…did it…she loved me, but I lusted for her…when I lost her, I never forgot her, but then I realized that I only lusted for her."

He frowned at the groups shocked faces.

"Raph…I didn't…I didn't…" Leo stammered.

"Leo, I'm over it," Raph shook his head, "but I'll never forgive myself if we don't save Don."

"Guys, let's just hit the road," Mikey said, "We have to save Donny."

-Cabin-

Don just couldn't sleep, his eyes were closed, but he couldn't sleep. He was living in a nightmare he didn't want to be in…why did he let Casey take him, trick him.

-Flashback-

Searching the dump, he was grabbing parts to fix the oven.

"Hey, Donny!" Casey's voice rang out.

"Casey?" he found himself asking, "but I thought…" before he could even turn to the man, he felt something hitting him the back of the head, and his world went dark.

-End Flashback-

He should have been more prepared, instead of being so surprised about it. Casey hadn't talked to them for over a year, but he remembered the last thing the man said to him.

-Flashback-

"Casey, you just can't be…" Raph began.

"Raph I'm sorry, I just got a lot on my mind," Casey shook his head, while music played in the background.

"Like what?" Don found himself asking.

"Stuff," Casey smiled at him.

"I'm going to get some punch," Raph sighed, walking off.

"Don…" Casey began.

"Yeah Casey," Don inquired.

"I will be back," Casey said, "and you'll be the first to know it."

"Okay," he blinked as Casey walked off.

-End Flashback-

Please, just let this get over with and done, Don thought. Casey exited his room; he was wearing nothing but boxers.

"Nice to see you're up," Casey yawned, walking up to Don. The next thing he knew, his gag had been removed once again, and Casey was kissing him. Then he realized Casey was going to go beyond the limit.

His world went dark.

Touch,

What most people want,

Or what they need,

But smile is what everyone truly needs,

And most people give willingly

Loving smiles,

Different from loving touch,

Loving touch shall not last forever,

But a loving smile will be burned in you're memories forever,

Smiles bring hope

PLEASE R&R!