AN: Alright I know what I said, that I was going to update Tuesday or Thrusday, but its Friday but at least I updated right. Hate me all you want but not too much. I would like to say thanks to all who reviewed, I'm not sure I'll be writing more to this if it wasn't for you guys. But of course I would because I don't like leaving stories unfinish especially for that one or two readers who read my stories.
AN: This chapter have no value for this story. I wrote it as like a standalone or something. Just giving you readers an inside depth into what Max and Alec was thinking after the event that happen last night. I hope I made it made sense for you to understand what I was trying to get at. I thought it was nice. You could almost call me the hopeful romantic type of person, which in a way I am. But just a little. Like I said before nothing too important about this chapter except for you to maybe like it. But no pressure honestly. Anywho, on with the reading. Enjoy
AN: Oh yeah before I forget, there was a question or rather not a question on why everything was happening too fast. Well, like I said in my profile, I tend to write on in my story and I get off subject sometimes. Or I tend to make my stories long and they turn out to be boring, so I'm trying to not let that happen. Sorry about that.
What happen last night?
This was on both of their mind as they lay completely still in each other arms. Alec, with his eyes close, was lying on his side with his left arm lying over Max's stomach. Max on the other hand was lying on her back with her eyes open looking up at the crack ceiling. Her hands were drawing circles on Alec's arm that was on her stomach. Both oblivious to the other wake in the morning sun as they lay on the bed they share. Only Alec knew Max was awake he just chose to pretend to be asleep so she would still think he was asleep. He needed to think before getting up and facing the many problems for today.
He needed to think about what he's going to do with Gabe and his posse. The more he waits the more Gabe round up some more people for his group and the more restless they get. Especially Gabe since now he knows what Gabe wants. Leader of TC and will start off small to work his way to the top. Even hurt and corrupt some of the people here to do it. And he can't allow that to happen, just like he couldn't allow Max to be Gabe's. Something happen between them last night that he's not sure they both understood the concept of it. Of course they said and did things that were obvious but did they understand it. Did he understand it? He had his fair share of going primal but nothing like this. This was a whole new territory for him. He wanted Max to be his and he could feel in both himself and 494 how much they wanted Max, but in different ways. 494 wanted Max as what he knew he wanted her. As his, his territory and his property. He wanted Max physically. No ands or buts about it. He wanted what Alec's body wanted, he wanted Max over-powered; succumb to what he was doing to her. Taking and wanting her. Him self, Alec, wanted Max as his mate, his love, and his friend. He wanted Max mentally and a little physically. He wanted what his heart and mind wanted, he wanted to show Max his elongated love for her the moment he met her in her cell, and he wanted her to love him back in the process. Needing and giving.
He was fighting amongst him self to make Max his that night. If it was up to 494 he would have done more then nip, lick, and kiss her. He had to fight his primal self so that wouldn't happen but thanks to Max he was able to over power him. Those words… I'm not going to fight Alec… those words calm him down. 494 would want a fight, it what urge him on but Max didn't give it to him. It shock 494 that she didn't want to put up a fight like last time but it's that shock that allowed Alec to win over his body. He was shock himself but pleases all together. It was for that moment he could show Max how much he needed to do what he did last night. To make her safe for one and to make her feel loved, especially after what happen that night at Logan's. And that is what he doesn't understand. Max's safety was the primary part of what happen but did he do the right thing? Did he take advantage of the moment because what happen at Logan's and what happened at the bar? Did he take advantage of Max? It's confusing because he love Max but he also didn't want Gabe to have her. Did he do it out of love and protection for Max or did he do it to possess her? It seems like a little of both but he wants to know did he do it for the right reason. Max may have kissed and said she wanted to be his but did she mean it, did she love him back? He would ask her but he's scared of what she might say. So he thinks about what happened last night and what was the real reason for their connection or whatever last night was.
Max herself was trying to grasp what had happen between them last night. It was new and confusing to her and she just want to know what it was. She knew he was upset; upset about Biggs, Gabe, and probably him self. She knew what bothered him was probably going to call on his animal instinct to help, but she didn't know that the turnout was going to happen like it did. She would have fought Alec for rough handing her last night like he did the day in her office but it was different. Last time she didn't know all the facts about Alec's Manticore life, she didn't know the reason why he attacked her, and she didn't know how much Alec cared about her. Not until Biggs and CeCe laid the ground down for her, some of it actually. She saw the tension and glare Alec gets when Gabe was around and the distorted lines between his eyes when he was deep in thought. Quite even when he was in these thoughts of his and his wants to be alone with them. Trying to keep whatever it was he was seeing in his head of his out from resurfacing. Just like how he was when the Berrisford mission resurfaces it self. And her feelings of comforting him came into play.
Also the other feelings. They grow every time she's with him and she just want to relish into them. See where it takes her, see where he takes her but she couldn't. She was with Logan and she already hurt him enough to not want to hurt him again. But that love she had with him was gone the moment Alec came into her life. And now since she caught Logan and Asha together…maybe.
She just wants to understand what happen last night. Last night was new to her and the feelings between them were there. His actions and words were wanting and needing, making her feel wanted and needed. What he was doing to her was scary at first because she wasn't use to this kind of behavior except when she was in heat and she knew she wasn't in heat, but it was satisfaction all the same. His mouth, his hands, and his body weren't like any other touches she felt before and she wanted it all. She knew what was his purpose but what were her intentions for last night? Did she abuse the situation?
"Alec was facing Manticore all over again because of Gabe presence," Biggs told her. "Gabe was the bane of Alec's existence back there and now here it's like he have to watch his back every time. Fight all over again because Gabe had it out for him back there. In Manticore, Alec was the screw up and the traitor to Gabe." Those words he said made her look at Alec differently, even more differently then before. She cared for him and wanted to comfort him for what he went through. And the more they told her the more she wanted to be with him and comfort him from his troubles. So was this a mean of comfort for his problem? Did what happen last night was just her comforting him because he needed it?
She turns and faces the man of her thoughts and look at him. As she turns his arms tighten around her, pulling her close. In thought of thinking she was leaving perhaps, she doesn't know but she just looks at him. He's so young and at peace when he sleeps. Comfort or not last night his instincts were telling him to make her his and she allowed it. She allowed it because it felt right and in someway she felt she wanted him too at that moment. His pleading look when he asks her to make her his was so prefect that she fell in love with him. She has fallen in love with Alec. She smiles at him when he tries to open his eyes against the morning sun. What were his thoughts on what happened? Once he finally got his eyes open he looks at Max. The smile that once was there was gone and she was looking disappointed. Does he feel the same as I feel?
Alec doesn't know was he dreaming of the smile on her face or did she actually smiled at him. He searches her eyes to see what she was thinking but a sound coming from the other side of the door broke his concentration. They both sat up in the bed; leaving the sweet embrace they were in to investigate what was the noise. Their thoughts of before was forgotten for the moment when Alec was position beside the door with Max behind him. The sound of glasses shuffling around was heard this time and Alec quickly opens the bedroom door just as Joshua was carrying small jars across the room.
"Joshua wakes you," he asks putting the jars down on the table next to his incomplete painting.
Max and Alec let out a sigh of relief and step further into the living room. The fume of the paints hit them hard before they reach where Joshua stood.
"No Joshua we were awake, you didn't wake us," Max said going to the kitchen to fill herself a glass of water.
"Alec okay?"
"Yeah big guy I'm fine. Sorry for kicking you out of your apartment though. I didn't mean to take my anger out on you."
"It's okay. Joshua understands. Upset about Biggs. Max come to make Alec feel better."
"Yeah she helped made Alec feel better," Alec laugh a little before focusing on Joshua number 92.
"Max and Alec get busy?"
Coughing and laughing fill the room as the curious Joshua watch his two friends.
"No…Josh…no me and Alec didn't…I mean we just slept that's all," Max answered between coughs. Alec moves into the kitchen to pat Max on the back. "We didn't…you know."
"Why Max have bite mark on shoulder?"
Max looks over her right shoulder and sees the fading yet noticeable teeth mark. She turns back to Joshua to say something but her mouth just open and closes like a fish out of water. Alec was enjoying the show but he feels Max suffered enough. I mean she just got choke, now she have to explain the teeth marks he made on her.
"Well Joshua Max here fell asleep on my arm and I was starting to lose feelings in it. She wouldn't get off so it was either chews my arm off or…"
He wasn't allowed to finish his sentence when Max hit him on the shoulder hard. Alec bit his lower lips to keep from laughing even more when she saw the despise look Max was sending him. Joshua nods his head at his two friends before turning back to his painting. Max put her left hand over the mark and her right on her hips, rubbing the mark. Alec just watches her do it.
"Sorry Max."
She turns from looking at Joshua to look at Alec. He was eyeing her hand rubbing her shoulder and she quickly removes it.
"Alec no, its okay I'm fine it's just a little sore that is all."
He nods his head before turning away from her shoulder. He wanted so much to kiss it for her to make it better or better yet kiss her, but he's not sure what she'll do.
"Well it's time for me to go home and hit the showers," Alec announced with a clap of his hands. "I'll see you two later." He went back inside the bedroom to grab his things with Max right behind him.
"Are you okay Alec?"
"Like I said before I'm fine," he shrugs on his jacket. "The real question here is are you okay Max?" He looks again at the bite mark. "I mean I was a little rough on you last night."
"You weren't that rough on me."
"I man handed you to the wall and attack you. This time there was injury involved."
"What the bite, Alec its okay. And why are you referring to last night as an attack? We both participated in it this time," she moves closer to him. "It isn't like last time," she notices he was backing away from her and she frowns.
"You fought back last time. This time you may had come willingly but what happens the next time. I might not be able to control myself," he stops his backing up when Max stop her advancing. "This is new to me and I don't want you getting hurt because what is happen to me. My primal self is running high now and so far I've only attack you, Max. I had trouble controlling it last night but you manage to stop me each time. Who knows how long I can keep this up?"
"Control yourself from what Alec?"
"For wanting you, from keeping Gabe from having you I don't know. I really don't understand what happened last night, what the significant of it. But I wanted you Max, needed you."
"I don't quite understand what happen either but I know it wasn't an attack. My perspective on what happen last night was me comforting you, helping you, and even loving you through it…"
"You…," she place her finger on his lips to silence him.
"I wasn't sure if that what I was doing was right but I felt it. I felt your need and your want for me Alec and I love that."
She pulls him down for a soft gentle kiss on the lips and hugs him. Alec tightens the hug and repeatedly kisses the mark he made on her.
Meanwhile Joshua was in the living room painting away with a smile on his face like the happy dog he is.
AN: So what do you think about it? I enjoyed writing it and I hope you enjoyed reading it. I will be updating for sure tomorrow for you who want to continue on with the story. Stop with the stalling and get on with it. I know, I know. I will and hopefully I haven't bored you guys already. Until tomorrow, I'll be seeing you.