Chapter 17: Finding Out
"Hannah?"
I turned around to see the last person I wanted to see me in this getup. My heart started pounding hard against my chest. 'Oh no, Jake…'
"Why are you… wait… what?" He looked really confused.
"I can explain Jake!" I started to say walking toward him.
"Do you know Miley or something, unless…"
Oliver came in holding his blue wig. "Here Miley thanks for letting me borrow it. Oh and here's your cell." He said and put the wig and my cell phone on the drawer next to him. He walked pass Jake saying "Hey Jake." and out of my room not noticing that Jake wasn't supposed to be there.
"Wait… Miley? You're… you're…" He stood there in shock.
'No more secrets.' I told myself and pulled off my wig. "Yeah Jake, I'm Hannah Montana." I started to gnaw on my bottom lip afraid of what he would say next.
"Whoa…" He leaned on the wall next to him putting his hand on his forehead. "So then… you're the person I've been asking advice to… about you?" He asked still not taking it in.
"Yeah. I'm sorry I'm really…" He walked out of my closet and I ran after him. "Jake, wait!" I pulled on his arm and he looked back at me.
"Miley, let go!" he pulled his arm back. "Why didn't you tell me who you were? Especially when I just fooled myself in front of you telling you Hannah about how I really felt about you Miley." He screamed at me.
I felt my heart fall. No one ever yelled at me like how he just did. "I-I…"
"I know what you were doing, you were just having fun fooling around making fun of me every second of it."
"No Jake, its not like that! I was just scared to tell you because I thought you wouldn't feel the same way, and…" I tried to say as calm as possible.
"And what? Try to pry information off of me so that you would actually see how foolish I was falling in love with both you and Hannah?" He looked like he was about to cry.
My throat felt tight. I couldn't talk anymore. This is unfair he doesn't even know why I didn't tell him. Tears started welling up in my eyes. "Please Jake, calm down."
"Calm down? How do you think I can calm down when I just found out this? How do you think I would react? Do you even think about how my feelings would change now?"
"I just…"
"No Miley, whatever. I have to think about this. I'm going and don't worry, I wont tell anyone about your stupid secret." He said and stormed out of the room.
I fell to the ground bawling to the fullest. 'What have I done?' I hugged myself feeling stupid crying over this.
Lilly burst into my room. "Miley what happened? We saw Jake and he just left." She saw me sobbing on the floor and came over to hug me. "What's the matter Miles? What did Jake do to you?"
"Lilly, its not what he did to me, it's what I did to him." I felt a sudden outburst of shame within me. "He found out I'm Hannah and now he hates me."
"Don't say that, remember when me and Oliver found out about your secret? I was so tempted to tell Amber and Ashley and Oliver fainted! It just takes time to take it all in because we don't know how to react. Just wait and see what happens." Lilly said and wiped my tears away.
"I know, but you should've seen him! He was yelling at me and he was crying. I feel super shitty now and I just want to die. No one ever yelled at me the way he did. He didn't deserve this and I kept it to myself about every single thing I wanted to tell him and now that I want to tell him, I can never tell him because he hates me." I shook my head.
"Come on. He's just one guy. One very emotional guy, but he'll realize that you only did it to protect yourself." she gave me a supporting smile.
"I hate this. I guess you're right though, I just need to find a way to tell him why I did it." I took a tissue from a Kleenex box that was near me and started to wipe the last of my tears. Lilly was right, I just have to wait and see what happens before going into conclusions.
"Don't worry Miley, I'll try to get Oliver to talk to him. He opens up to Oliver easily and they seem to be really close. I'm going to see if I can get Oliver to go call Jake. I'll be right back." Lilly said and stood up. "You sure you're going to be okay alone?"
"Yeah. I'm going to be down in a few minutes, I need to think about this. Thanks for caring Lilly, you're a good friend."
"Hey, what are friends for? Anyway, you've always been there for me whenever I needed it." I forced a smile and watched her leave my room again. I lie down on my bed and start to think about Jake again.
'Why did I leave the stupid ladder hanging on my window? If I hadn't of left it there, Jake wouldn't have found out who I am and everything would've gone good. Dammit. I hate myself so bad right now.' I covered my face with a pillow and screamed into it.
I kept putting myself down through out the night feeling depressed. I've attempted so much just to make this perfect, but now everything is ruined. Jake and I are ruined, Jake and Hannah are ruined, my life is forever ruined.
'I guess in the end no one gets their way if they keep secrets from who they really like." I frowned really hard and tried not to cry for the rest of the night, but not trying just made me cry anyway and so I cried myself to sleep.
A/N Okay so thank you for all the R&R's and hope you enjoyed this chapter. It is 5:45AM and I wanted to put it up before I went to school lol.. Anyways have a good day :)
try-to-sing-with-a-smile: That's good to know about your sister I'm happy for you both and its good to know that shes doing really well. The picture is in my profile the one that says something like heres the spoiler pic or something like that :).