Chapter 18: Where Are You?

In the morning I woke up feeling sick, like my head hurt and everything was spinning. I couldn't open my eyes because they were incrusted with sandy stuff so I felt my way through the bathroom and washed my face.

As soon as I was finished, I looked at myself in the mirror. My eyes were red and puffy so you could tell that I was crying over night. Ohh well.

I walked down stairs finding Jackson and Lilly on the couch watching TV and my dad in the kitchen. I walked into the kitchen and took orange juice from the fridge and drank it from the carton.

"Hey Miles, you want something for lunch?" He said putting food on a plate.

"Lunch? What time is it?" I looked at him kind of confused.

"1:38. You doing okay? You look kind of… Well, bad." Dad said and watched me sit at the dining table.

"It's just a little upset about something and I may have lost a friend." I looked at him helplessly.

"Don't worry darlin', things will get back together with you and your friend. It takes time, just watch out and see what happens next." He stated and his cell phone started ringing. "I'll take this in my office." He said and left.

"Come on Miley, it will be alright." Lilly said and came over to sit across of me.

"How do you know? What if Jake never talks to me again? What if he does tell everyone about my secret? What if he…" I said all too quickly

"MILEY! Just calm down, did he say he was going to tell your secret to everyone?"

"No, but…"

"From what Ollie said, Jake never breaks promises or secrets, so that part you don't need to worry about, but you do need to take a chill pill and just let faith take its path, if you know what I mean." Lilly gave me a supporting smile.

"I guess you're right, again. Speaking of Ollie, where is he?" I said noticing him not being here.

"Well he said that he went out to go see… Jake." She looked down.

"Oh."

"I'm sorry Miles, Oliver just wanted to see if he can make things better, but he's Oliver so I don't know how he's going to do that."

"Ohh, I see. I'm going to be right back I'm going to change and go for a jog." I said and ran up stairs to go change.

I picked out some shorts and a plain shirt to change into and tied my hair up into a pony tail. I took my cell phone and wallet and put them in my pocket. I brought out my iPod from my closet, where I last left it, and picked my stressed out play list slipping on my earphones. I put on my shoes and jogged down the stairs and out the door.

I went on the sidewalk and started running trying to forget about everything that happened, but the feelings didn't want to leave me.

'When I first had the chance, why didn't I go and tell him how I felt! I'm so damn stupid. Now that he knows everything would be different. I know I'll be even more jealous and heart broken if I ever saw him with another girl. DAMMIT life sucks.' I told myself and started running harder.

I kept this up for about 30 minutes when I felt completely out of breath and collapsed on my back on the grassy hill. My whole body felt numb and my legs were like jelly as if they were going to fall off right at that second. My heart feeling like its pounding right out of my chest. I shut my eyes trying to catch my breath letting the pain slowly ease away, but all these memories came to me when me and Jake first met.

How Jake talked to me at the beach that day saying I was cute, the day he asked me to the 70's dance, when he almost kissed Hannah on Zombie high, when I was going to tell him how I felt before I knew he was dating Rachel.

It all doesn't make sense how after just one thing had happen, it all falls apart. I hate this and I hate feeling that way.

I sat up still breathing hard, but slowly gaining back my normal state. My throat was burning. 'I needed something to drink.' I stood up and started walking looking for a small store to get a drink at when my cell phone started ringing.

I took out an earphone and answered my cell phone. "Hello?"

"MILEY!" It was Lilly.

"What?" I asked kind of irritated.

"Did you see Jake anywhere?"

"No, why? I mean we're not talking, why would I see him after one day of fighting?" I felt kind of confused and interested at the same time.

"Because Oliver just called from Jakes house and Jakes mom said that he hasn't been home all night." She said worriedly.

I stopped dead in my tracks. "What? Are you serious?" I felt my heart pounding harder than it was just a second ago.

"Yeah, I'm serious! Jake hasn't been seen ever since he left your house yesterday. Oliver said that his parents thought that he was sleeping over Oliver's house that's why they weren't really worried at first, and now that he's really gone, his parents are looking all over for him."

"Oh my god. It's all my fault. It's seriously all my fault." I started saying.

"Miley SNAP OUT OF IT! We have to worry about Jake now!" She yelled though the phone.

"Sorry I just feel like it's all my fault that Jake ran away!"

"Can you stop thinking about yourself for just one second and think about Jake! He could be hurt for goodness sake!" Lilly sounded very serious.

"Okay, sorry! Do you know anywhere that he would go to? I'll help look for him." I replied.

"Okay Oliver and Mr. and Mrs. Ryan are looking at where they think are his favorite places. Do you know anywhere else that Jake would be?" She asked.

"I dunno." I replied, but started thinking about the night he slept over. 'He said something about this one place he loved to go to just to think things out. Dammit what was that place called?' I started to think harder and it came to me. "Lilly I may know one place that he might be at. I'll call you back." I said quickly and hung up.

I started running through streets not caring how tired and thirsty I was. Remembering how descriptive he was with this certain place made it like you'd always want to be there, yet it's a scary place, as he said. I finally stopped running and trying to catch my breath, I looked up and saw that I finally reached my destination.

A sign at the entrance saying 'Danger enter at own risk.' I felt kind of scared all of a sudden, but I had to see if Jake was okay, so I walked in slowly waiting for something to happen.

"Dammit Jake, Where are you?"

A/N Sorry if this chapter was a little bit boring. I'm kind of having some issues and it took me a while to think of what to write about next.

Izzy: You click on my name, AlwaysxAddicted and after that there should be a blue word with an underline saying something like click here or whatever and you just click that.

try-to-sing-with-a-smile: Oh wow, I hope you feel better soon. That's a pretty good idea, I'll think about it. Maybe a new story after this one. Hehehe…

P: Thanks lol I'm still a n00b at this so maybe I'll try to get it smoother next time lol. Sorry! I'm weird at the moment.