Dear Reader,

This chapter came out early WHOO HOO! It is also getting surprisingly good reviews for a fic I wrote on a whim three years ago... Hmmm... I guess spontaneous writing is a good thing.

In this chapter I introduce a new character, PT the ferret. I saw a picture on the 'net of Heero holding a ferret and just had to use it.

I do not own Gundam Wing

I do not own Taking Over Me by Evenescence.

Thank you to Heaven Star and Kami-Crimson.

Heaven Star- I found out the hard way that has this little thing about song fics... So I had to twist everything around a little... Maybe one day I'll rewrite the entire thing and do it properly. But for now this is the way it is... Poo...

Kami-Crimson- I'm adopted too so I kinda know what it's like wondering who and where your real parents are. But unlike Relena I've known it my entire life... I even have a letter from my foster mother who took care of me the two weeks after I was born and not old enough for adoption. You and me, we're the lucky ones... Just think about the others who are either shunted from foster home to foster home or end up messed up or dead. I don't really know what to think of Relena herself. I think she's spoiled, but that's not surprising. I think of her as just a girl. That's all I have to describe her. Just a girl...

Thank you to all of my reviewers, you give me such confidence and support. Thank you to my friends who make up the pieces of me. Thank you to my family and TO MY PARENTS WHO JUST CELEBRATED THEIR 29TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY! WOOO HOOO! PAR-TAY! BREAK OUT THE RUEBARB WINE AND THE BEATLES ALBUMS BECAUSE IT'S GONNA BE A WILD ONE! (kidding... But seriously... Ruebarb wine is the best... Especially when it's home made... I don't think I've ever heard my parents be more giggly and hoochi-scoochi. It was cute... Awww...)

Stay safe
Stay healthy
Sincerely,

Starr

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A week passed since Noin and Zechs had returned to Earth. Duo ended up moving in with Relena to 'keep an eye on her'. He lived in the room just down the hall from her own with his pet ferret PT. PT was a roley-poley ball of mischeif and never failed to bring a smile to Relena's face. Although Duo wasn't satisfied that she was smiling enough.

"Well, that's a start." Was all he said. Of course the housekepper hated the ferret, simply because she though he looked like a rat.

"What better reason to keep him around?" Duo had said, "Comedic releif." Even though she had promised herself and her friends that she would never look at another sleeping pill for as long as she lived, Relena was starting to miss them. It was becoming harder and harder for her to face the world every day, even if it was something as trivial as going downstairs for breakfast. The urge to return to the world of sleep and that comforting sense of timelessness was becoming stronger by the day as insomnia slowly set in. And Heero. He was beginning to invade her thoughts. Even though it had only been six months since his death it sometimes felt like six years or six days. But even though time was passing, her memories were not. And with htose memories Heero slowly invaded the dreams of what little sleep she managed to get. The dreams felt so real that Relena half believed she would wake up to see Heero sitting on the bed next to her. At first the dreams were so real that she had gone to all of his old haunts, just to see if he was there. It was frightening at first, but they were just dreams.

She remembered when she had first met him. He had been so harsh and cold. Emotionless and brutal. The Perfect Soldier they had called him. So young in body, so old and jaded at heart. She had researched everything she could find about him, which was unsurprising few. She wanted to see who lie behind the emotionless face of Heero Yuy.

She also remembered when she had first fallen in love with him. All she wanted was to comfort the child Heero had never been. To hold him and sing lullabies to him until he could sleep through the night without nightmares and memories of a little red haired girl and her puppy. He had tried to chase her away. He told her he didn't want to see her. He told her he'd kill her. He had told her he didn't want to see her hurt. He told her he was dangerous. A born killer.

She remembered the old Anime they had watched together once. He had likened himself to the scarred, redheaded main character. The red head had been an assasin. It had given her chills when she heard the line, 'A manslayer is a manslayer until the day he dies'. To hear Heero compare himself to that fictional character had disturbed her, even though she could see the truth in it just as he had. But she hadn't given up hope until he had actually lost his temper with her, a rare thing for the usually stoic heero. She had run off in tears. He had followed her not long after. They came to an understanding that day. That was also the day she had officially hired him as her bodyguard.

Even though he had never said the words she had known that he loved her. In his own way. Even to the day he died she had known it. It was the way his cold eyes would soften and she could almost feel the warmth coming from them when he looked at her. She kept him close, to make sure that he wouldn't escape again. But he had. He had died, and in doing so escaped her once again. This time forever.

Laying back Relena felt sleep cover her like a blanket. It was like this nowadays. A floating in and out of sleep as her mind willed it. But in those breif spaces of oblivion she would dream of him. Tonight was no different. He was there. His eyes so warm as they had never been in life. He held out his hand to her. His lips on hers was gentle, as she knew they were, for in all the time they had known each other he had only kissed her once. She almost believed that he was there.

She remembered little of the dream. Only that she felt at peace. He pulled her close and whispered in her ear. The same words he had said to her before he had died.

"Live Relena. Live for me. Live the life I couldn't. Love the way I didn't know how to. Live Relena. Live."

Relena woke to the sound of his voice echoing in her ear and tears fighting to free themselves from her tightly closed eyelids. Opening her eyes she turned to look at herself in the mirror over her dresser. The look in them frightened her. It was the same look in Heero's eyes before he had died. That look of longing and hopelessness. Those were Heero's eyes.And for the first time since Heero Yuy's death six months before, Relena wept.

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A few minutes later Relena heard a knock at the door.

"Relena? Are you alright?"

"Duo..." Relena whispered, "Such sharp hearing. Just like Heero. Always knew where I was."

"You say something?"

"I'm fine Duo. Go back to bed."

"You sure?"

"I'm sure."

"You sure you're sure?"

"I'm surely sure."

"Positive?"

"Positive."

"Surely positive?"

"Duo!"

"Alright! But I'm just down the hall if you need me."

"I know... Thank you Duo."

"Anything for you Relena." The feeling in his voice made her pause. A strange emotion clenched at her chest and she had the strange urge to call him back. The feeling disturbed her, but she brushed it aside and settled back onto the bed. A few moments latter a fuzzy fluff ball scampered onto the billows. Relena smiled and stroked the heavily masked head.

"PT... Duo sent you didn't he? He didn't want me to be lone, did he?" PT snorted what could only have been an affirmation and curled up into a ball next to her head and covered his eyes with his tail. Smiling Relena went to sleep feeling strangly warm knowing that, in his won way, Duo was keeping watch over her as she slept through the rodent the would bite the fingers off anyone who looked at her crosseyed. And Heero watching over her went without saying so Relena had no doubts that she was being well taken care of.

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You don't remember me
But I remember you
I lie awake and try to shard not to think of you

But who can decide what they dream?
And dream I do...

I believe in you
I'd give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live
To breath
You're taking over me

Have you forgotten all I know
And all we had?

You saw me mourning my love for you and touched my hand
I knew you loved me then.

I believe in you
I'd give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live
To breathe
You're taking over me

I look in the mirror and see your face
If I look deep enough
So many things inside that are just like you are taking over me

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live
To breathe
You're taking over me.