Shattered Reminiscences

By Scarlet Rayne

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Chapter 6

"You … you're… w-what?" he asked dumbfounded, eyes drowned with confusion. His expression was a twisted mix of extreme surprise and shock, as his hands dropped by his sides. It took a while for the newly found information to sink in, and when it did, he was … completely blank.

Fear.

That particular feeling was slowly creeping into his mind, gradually eating up his awareness, as his thoughts started to blur. Unable to think, something deep inside started to stop functioning.

He knew he heard wrongly.

He just had to.

She swallowed. 'Oh great going, Kamiya. How are you going to get yourself out of this on- ………'

Then, even in her state of panic, something started to click.

She blinked.

… Of course.

Of course.

Why didn't she think of this sooner? The perfect cover up, to lead him to think of something else. Her heart resumed back to its normal speed, as the power of her mind started doing mental gymnastics.

Lovely.

'Exactly. Great going, Kamiya.'

She breathed.

"You heard me." Her voice was more confident this time. "I'm in love with someone else."

He felt another solid, strong blow striking him in the stomach, as he gazed at her with unbelief. His palms started to sweat, as he struggled to straighten up his mind, which was clearly loosing its clarity.

Everything seemed to go wrong by the minute.

"You're joking." Was all he could come out of, after a long while of silence.

"Why would I joke with something like this, Himura?" She retorted with her head held high, as she slipped away, walking towards her living room. "Tell me."

He turned to look at her, questions screaming out from his eyes. Suddenly he felt something cold kicking into his heart, as he felt his whole body shiver. Shaking the feeling off, he gave her his hardest glare.

"You're lying."

"Really?" she tried to sound nonchalant. "How would you know?"

"Because you're not a very good liar."

"You seem convinced," she perked up an eyebrow. "Even if I'm not, the fact of the matter is that I do like someone else. Now can you leave? I've got things to do."

He slammed her door with his hand, eyes never leaving her form. "I'm not leaving until you tell me the truth."

"I AM telling you the truth, dammit! Don't flatter yourself, Himura. You don't know everything about me, so don't assume that I'm lying when I'm not." She cried, frustration colouring the edge of her voice.

"It doesn't make any sense," he exclaimed, frustrated. "It doesn't make any fucking sense!" he ran his hands through his fiery scarlet hair.

"What doesn't make sense to you, Himura? That I'm in love with someone else?" she asked, not daring to look at him. "You give yourself too much credit, Kenshin. You're not my everything, and if I do fall in love with someone else, don't be too surprised."

He felt the cold feeling entering his system again. He hated it, since it made him feel extremely uncomfortable all over. The warmth that he possessed in his heart for so long felt like it was robbed away from someone else.

"Everything was perfect, dammit." he mumbled more to himself, but his tone was clearly ascending to the next level. "Nothing was bothering you, now was there? Everything was laid out for us, Kaoru." He said, eyes glancing forlornly at her back. "And the next thing I know, you're purposely picking up fights with me for no reason, ignoring my calls. And now you're telling me that you're in love with someone else?"

She kept silent.

"You're hiding something from me, aren't you?" he accused, feeling angry. "You're trying to lead me to something else, aren't you?"

Still, she didn't make a sound.

"AREN'T YOU??"

She ignored his bitter indictment, and yet, she refused to look at him. While he on the other hand was incoherent with grief, that was painfully consuming him up bit by bit.

"Kaoru," he started off in a gentle tone, but ended up heavily pressured. "Tell me what's wrong."

She looked down to the floor, all of a sudden interested in the patterns printed on the tiles.

"Please," he pleaded. "Talk to me."

She shook her head in response, as tears surfaced in her eyes. Determined to not let them fall, she refused to blink her eyes. "Kenshin," she started off distantly. "I'm sorry, alright? It's just that.. I've been thinking these past few days, and I realized how much I'm still… in love with him."

'I swear, that has got to be the most disgusting lie I've ever made,' she flinched inwardly.

"I couldn't help it, Kenshin. It was natural."

There was an awkward pause that hung in the air, as her words hit him flat on the face. There was a sudden painful aura that surrounded him, as he fought to adopt her words into his mind.

Into his reality.

How could this happen, he wondered foolishly. He had let her slip past his fingers, and he never got a clue. But most importantly…

He had let her slip past his heart.

The pain throbbing in his chest was growing stronger, as he swallowed a lump that was stuck in his throat. Breaking the silence, he slowly asked in a croaked voice. "Who… Who is he?"

Her face softened after she heard his tone, knowing that it was the first sign of his defeat. Gathering her courage, she turned to look at him, eyes glistening with hardness. "Enishi. Yukishiro Enishi."

She couldn't cry, not now. Right now she had to be brave, and after he leaves, it would all be over.

All of it.

"…. W-Why?"

"I….. I don't know, Kenshin." She said softly, gazing into his eyes. She felt her heart burn when she saw the dejection glaring back at her. "It just… happened."

His eyes were downcast, as he dropped to the floor. Leaning on her door, he covered half of his face with the right palm of his hand. Slowly, but surely, she saw a tear rolling down his cheek from where she was standing. Again, he asked quietly. "W-Why?"

Taking small steps towards him, she felt her heart break. Bending down to meet his height, she swallowed. Struggling to keep her tears in tack, she whispered in a gentle tone. "I'm….. I'm sorry Kenshin." Tucking in a strand of his hair sub cautiously, she continued. "I never meant for it to happ-"

She let out a soft scream as he suddenly pulled her close to him, hugging her tight.

There was a moment where no one said a word, and all she heard was his rapid breathing, his trembling body.

"Kensh-"

"Kaoru, please." he cut in, hands tightening its grip.

And then, she felt it.

She felt his hope, his desire, ... his plea. It was as if he was pleading to her telepathically.

Telling her that he did not want to let her go.

"Please," his voice croaked. "D-Don't do this to me, Kaoru." He embraced her even tighter. "We can work this out, we really can. I'll forgive you for liking another, but please,"

She closed her eyes.

"Don't go."

AN: I actually typed this out on the 11th of August, but I was just too lazy to edit my grammatical errors -_-.

I know that there are still some errors hanging about, but I can't seem to find another word or make another sentence. I really do apologize for that.

Anyway, the reason why I'm starting to not update my fictions are really because I've suddenly lost the interest in writing them out. Out of the blue I stopped coming to I haven't been here for ages. It's so hard to find good fictions to read now a days, so I guess that's part of the reason why I stopped.

Webdesigning takes up 80% of my time when I'm online, coding and editing images for the school and so forth. Writting.. isn't very appealing to me, but it does kick in once in a while. And my laziness, procrastinations and school work just adds spice to it ;).

So If I don't update for another eon, you'll know why. But don't worry, I will try to finish all my fictions.

I hope.

With that said, show me some love and leave me a review <3