A/N: Okay, this is like a totally pointless chapter lol, but oh well, we had to have him read it didn't we? Well anyway, soon it will be summer and Lily will be back at her home with.. dun dun dun.. Petunia ( crowd boos at the sound of her name ). But soon summer will be over, and everyone knows what happens next! School time baby!

Okay, Okay, now to the point, I hope you enjoy this chapter. PLEASE read and review.. but mainly REVIEW, even if you DON'T like it, I need some feed back. Constructive criticism is welcomed, even flames, but you better have a good reason to flame me if you do! Alrighty then, have fun!

A/N 2: Oh and before I forget, even though I put in some diary entries that you've already read before, make sure you read them again to get the full effect of the chapter, otherwise you'll be done reading in five seconds.. oh one other thing, sorry it was so short but I figured I would have it short this time but update sooner.. ok now...

Read on...

Chapter 6

Just Say It!

Recap:

He got up to follow her, but decided against it and figured that staying here would be better. James then noticed that Lily's books, quills, parchment, .. etc. had been scattered all over the floor, so, being the gentleman he was, he bent down and started to collect the items and put them back into the bag when he noticed that one of her books was open.

James closed it but couldn't help but see that printed in Lily's neat hand writing on the cover were two words... "My Diary," he stopped dead in his tracks. She was already mad at him... what would it hurt to read a bit out of it.. I mean she did leave it laying out carelessly... James opened the book and turned to the first page...

End of Recap:

Just as he started to read the first entry he realized that if Lily came in and saw this happening more than bat boogey hexes would be thrown in his direction so he shut the book again and placed it in his pocket. Then he put the rest of Lily's things back into her bag and set the chair up again, James then ran off to his room and locked his door.

He walked over to his desk and sat down, opening the diary and started to read:

"September 5th

Friday, 12:30 noon

Dear Diary,

You know what? I am sick and tired of this. No matter what I do I cannot convince anyone that I don't like James, today it happened again. Mallory, Amanda and I were talking and once again they were trying to convince me to let them set James and I up. I don't know what I have to do to get it through everyone's head that I HATE HIM I do not like him in ANY possible way!

James asked me to Hogsmeade AGAIN today and I told him no... don't I always? Everyone is always at my throat telling me that we are "meant for each other" sure... they are mental I tell you, mental! How could James and I possibly be meant for each other? There are a million differences between us! Look here, I will even list them:

I am the smartest witch of our age.

James cannot even get a D in Charms.

I am quiet and am always obeying the rules and my elders.

James is loud, annoying, obnoxious, rude, and always gets into trouble! Always trying to impress me.

I hate him.

He loves me.

My hobbies are, reading, writing, singing, studying, talking, and shopping.

His hobbies are, Quidditch, pestering Severus, getting into trouble, flirting with me, and driving me insane!

You see we have nothing in common, I don't know why he doesn't just give up!

Well, lunch is almost over, I think I better head off to Charms class.

Note to self: Make sure to get the Transfiguration essay done by Monday!

Lily Evans"

James winced at all of the cut-downs she had listed in this entry, but was eager to read more so he flipped to the next page. What his eyes fell on this time made him feel a bit better:

"September 5th

Friday 7:15 P.M.

Dear Diary,

It's amazing how you can hate someone one minute and find yourself deeply caring for them another. I really don't know when it dawned on me, but... I sadly admit that I am falling for James Potter. I swear, no sooner had we moved into this dorm together, my feelings for him had begun to change immensely. We had a huge fight about fifteen minutes ago and now he, I am sure, totally hates me. What am I to do? Should I just go on acting like I hate him? Or should I tell him? Maybe I should just take it slow and go apologize, after all, I did say some pretty nasty things to him that I now regret. Yes, I do believe that's what I shall do.

A very confused...

Lily Evans."

James grinned, so Lily Evans did have feelings for him! He was overjoyed by this, he was so happy, as a matter of fact, that he felt that doing a little jig in front of the school wouldn't be the least bit embarrassing. James turned the page again and started to read.

"September 6th

Saturday 9:47 P.M.

Dear Diary,

Yesterday, as you know, James and I had that huge fight, and I was sure he'd never speak a word to me again. But just after I had finished writing in here he knocked on my door, came in here and apologized! Can you believe that? Of course not.. your a little pink book, anyway... we shook hands and decided to be friends. And then he did something totally unexpected. For the third time that day, merlin he is so gutsy, he asked me to go to Hogsmeade with him. I thought about it for a minute and decided that it would be a good idea to get to know him. So today we left at about half past two and met up with the girls , Sirius and Remus in Hogs Head. We had a great time, first the girls and I went off shopping for clothes and such while the guys went to Zonkos. We also went by the Three Broomsticks and the Sweet Shop, and I never realized how funny James was, I don't think I've laughed this much since Petunia fell down the stairs back home and busted her nose. Ha ha that was truly a classic! ( At this James smiled and started laughing )

Anyway, when we got back I went to my room and sent an owl to Pr. Dumbledore asking him about how long we are supposed to be doing this project; the other nutty Professors obviously don't have a clue. After I did that I read the letter we received earlier from Pr. Sprout, it said that we had to have the seed planted in a pot and have the first potion made and fed to it by this Friday. I think I'll start brewing the potions ahead of time, that way if something comes up I don't have to worry about getting the potions to the stupid plant late and failing this whole project.

Well I think it'd be wise for me to go to sleep now, I'm so tired.

Yours Always,

Lily Evans"

" So she thinks I'm funny too, wonder what else she thinks of me..." he said to himself turning the page. What he saw next broke his heart into a million pieces and just about made him want to stab himself, but he would never do that...

December 14th

Friday 1:55 A.M.

Dear Diary,

I know, I know, I'm totally insane for staying up this late, but I can't help it. I couldn't cry myself to sleep tonight like I have so many times, so I thought I would just write in here.

All I seem to be doing lately is crying, moping, and running from the person who I'd least like to run from, James. James furrowed his brow at this, maybe he'd finally figure out why she was so mad at him I'm so... un-Lily-like lately, and I guess it's all my fault too. I suppose it's time for me to spill out what has been bothering me for the past three months.

Well, it all started when James and I decided to go to lunch. It was just a normal average day and we were getting along just fine, until we sat down at the table. I noticed that Amanda was gone and asked Mallory where she was, apparently Mandy and Remus hooked up so she was with him. Then I cracked a joke about how Mal and Sirius should get together, which finally happen a couple of days ago, anyway... I should have never cracked that joke because then Sirius said " Well I think its bloody well time for you two to get together!" referring to James and I. What happened next made me so feel so mad and hurt at the same time that I felt I could burst. James flung his head back and started to laugh, I didn't know why until he said, " Yeah, right, Padfoot, like that would every happen!"

When he said that a pang went off in my heart, it wasn't some good type either, I mean it was more like me hitting rock bottom. Why would he say that! Did he think that we could never get together? Suddenly everything dawned on James and he felt veryguiltybut he had to read on... he just HAD to Or did he just simply think that I didn't like him? Well I don't know but it made me really mad and so I started yelling at him. Eventually I ended up running out of the Great Hall and ever since then I have been dying to let James know that I am in love with him, " She.. loves... me!" James thought to himself feeling like his heart was in a vise but I just can't. Now that I know he doesn't like me anymore... I just can't. So basically James, Potter broke my heart...

And that was where James slammed the diary shut and quit reading. He had found out what he needed to find out, and now it was time to do something about it. But how could he possibly do that? How? I mean he couldn't just go up to her and tell her that he had read her diary could he now? No. He had no idea what to do, so he left his room and returned to the deserted common room and put her diary back in her bag, leaving it so she would never know. James figured that eventually she would come out of her shell and talk to him, he would just have to wait until then to talk to her.

- A WEEK BEFORE SUMMER VACATION-

Christmas had passed months ago and Lily had received many wonderful gifts. James seemed to have gotten the hint and had left her alone, making her aching heart relax for awhile.

The plant had grown tall, four feet to be exact, and was a very very bright blue. She had turned in the project the day before and she and James had gotten A's. At this James had given Lily an excited hug, which made her very uncomfortable and she had dashed out of the room immediately afterwards.

Mallory and Amanda had noticed Lily's change of attitude and had been pressuring her to tell her what was wrong, but she had just simply told them that she wasn't feeling well, and had escaped their wrath once more.

Today she and James were moving back into the Gryffindor tower once more, since the project was over they had no need to be living together anymore. The rest of the sixth year students would be moving back into their old dorms as well. This both pleased and angered Lily. She loved seeing James' ruffled hair in the morning and smelling is manly cologne but not being able to talk to him was just tearing the teenager apart completely.

Xxxxx

" Well, I think that's it," James said to Lily.

Lily didn't answer immediately but rather nodded and then started towards the door.

" Well, I guess this is it, no more living together." said James once more, hoping that she would respond.

And she did, she turned to him and looked very sad but, oddly enough, happy too, " Yeah, I suppose so." said Lily, very quietly. " I-I'm going to go now, thank you for your help, goodbye." without even giving James time to say 'your welcome' she was out of the room and back into the Gryffindor commons before you could say ' Tibbly Wibbly'. (( A/N: Lmao, I find that very funny.. okay sorry for my intrusion read on ))

Lily walked over to her favorite chair near the fireplace and slumped down into it taking in the warmth of the fire, even though it was spring the Gryffindor commons were always cold.

She couldn't believe her sixth year was almost over. So many things had happen that year, but one that would change her life forever... her new found love for James. There were only thirteen more days of school left before she had to go back home and face her sister, how fun that would be.

Suddenly the portrait hole open and in came Mallory and Sirius hand in hand. Lily watched Mallory tip-toe up to him and plant a kiss on his lips, and of course Sirius just had to go a bit further than a simple kiss. But Mallory had sense so she pulled away and whispered something in his ear. Sirius kissed her on the cheek once more and then walked up the stairs towards the boys dormitories.

Mallory smiled and walked over to the couch, sitting down on the soft fabric, " Hey, Lils, how are you?"

Lily fake-smiled and then said, " Fine, you?" it made her feel very left out, like a fifth wheel with both of her best friends dating her other two friends, and then liking her other 'friend' if you could call it, but him not liking her back.

She sighed dreamily and then said in a breathless voice, " Wonderful,"

Lily giggled, Mallory was like this every time Sirius left the room, " I bet you are... Can I call you Snoggy?"

Mallory rolled her eyes and snorted, " Your crazy, Lils," they both giggled until they were interrupted by Remus and Amanda who walked in together and kissed, like Mallory and Sirius had, and then they both went their own ways. Amanda joined Mallory on the couch and smiled at the two.

" Hey, guys, whatcha up to?" she asked.

" Nothing, just making fun of Mallory, oh by the way, Amanda, your now to be known as Snoggy Jr."

Amanda looked confused at first but then started laughing. There was a comfortable silence between the three of them for a couple of minutes until another person entered the common room... this time it was James.

" Hi, Mal, Mandy... hello Lily,"

" Hey James," said Mallory smiling warmly at him.

Amanda grinned and then said, " Hello!" cheerfully

Lily flushed and managed, " Er.. hi," he had just called her " Lily" for the first time, she wondered if he had noticed what he had just done.

James looked disappointed but sat down in the chair opposite from Lily.

" So what are you three up to?" he asked.

" Oh nothing much, just gabbing like we usually do," Mallory said.

"Just the normal girl talk huh?"

Amanda laughed, " Well, I suppose you could say that,"

" Well, in that case I'll just go up with Remus and Sirius for awhile, bye you two, bye Lily," He said smiling at the three, but directing most of it towards Lily.

She flinched and then waved, her stomach felt like it was swarming with bugs, every time he gave her that smile it about killed her.

Mallory looked over at Amanda after James had left and then gave a sort of 'what-was-that-about' look towards her.

Amanda was the first to speak up, " Lils?" she asked.

Lily looked up from the fire and said, " Hmm?"

" Er... mind if I ask you a question?"

Lily smirked, " You just did, but yes you can ask another."

Amanda looked over at Mallory curiously again and said, " What's with you and James,"

Her eyes widened and she squirmed in her seat, " Nothing,"

" What'd you mean by that.. nothing?" said Mallory.

Lily looked at her feet sadly and said, " Just what I said... nothing, absolutely nothing,"

After a few minutes of pondering, Mallory smiled and spoke up, " Wait a second, I know what's going on!"

Lily looked up and noticed the smirk on her face, "... What? ..." she asked hesitantly.

" You like him, don't you!" Mallory said.

She had hit the nail on the head hadn't she? That was exactly it, but Lily wasn't giving in that easily, " No," she answered simply.

" Okay look, this is me and Mallory your talking to. We know when you lie to us! We've got you this time! He he!"

" Er.. I'm n-not lying I don't know what your talking about," she said turning her head so they couldn't she the look on her face.

Mallory giggled and stood up, Amanda followed, they grabbed hands and started to dance around in circles singing, " Lily loves James! He he he!"

She turned back towards them and couldn't help but to laugh. They stopped and looked down at her, " Just say it Lily, everyone knows you love each other!" Mallory prodded.

" Say it Lily," Amanda joined in.

" Come... on Lily!"

She looked at her two friend and then down at her feet, smirking she said... " I like James."

The two started squealing like stuck pigs, grabbed Lily, and started hugging her.

" Finally! It's about bloody time!"

The three of them sat there for the rest of the night, rambling on about their, boyfriends and Lily's to-be-boyfriend. For the first time in several months Lily was enjoying herself.. while thinking about James.

A/N: I know, it was boring, but oh well, now everyone knows she likes him.. he knows, Mallory knows, Amanda knows, and surely James told Remus and Sirius about the diary so they know too.. It'll just be a matter of time before fluff between the two begins!

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Lissy