ANSWER
"She says you love me" He tells me. It's a simple statement but it catches me by surprise. I look deeply into his eyes and I see he's searching for answers.
"How does she know that?" I ask
"She says it's in everything you do, in everything you say, in how you look and talk to me." He says like if he was an embarrassed child.
She's smarter than I thought but I guess a woman notices this kind of things. I fell for him the first time we met but he was with Claire and I decided to go on with my life. Then, she died. He lost his wife and I lost a close friend. I tried to help him through everything and with time my feelings for him came to the surface again and for a second I thought he loved me too. But then, Peyton came. Beautiful, smart, funny….someone to look into their eyes and not see the remains of a painful past. When he looks into my green eyes, he sees memories full of sadness, of towers falling, of cold nights spent awake trying to forget the pain.
He's waiting for my reaction but I'm immutable. I don't let anything affect my outside appearance, even though when inside I'm hurting.
"And what do you say?" I asked him.
He takes his time to answer. He always acts the same way, never doing anything irrational. Each one of his acts or answers it's meditated, thought for a long time. He doesn't make mistakes. He would not allow himself to make mistakes.
"I would like to believe what she says it's true." He takes a deep look into my eyes.
"Do you love me?" I ask
"I think so. I'm scared." And he certainly looks scared.
"Why?" I ask him trying not to show I'm surprised.
"Why what?"
Sometimes he makes me angry. He can't be so stupid.
"If you think you love me then, why are you with her?" I ask him feeling my knees go weak.
"I don't know" he answers avoiding my look.
His words don't surprise me. "When you finally know it, we'll talk again"
I leave the room without saying goodbye. I know it'll take a lot of time before we talk again. I know I'll still have to see them together until I finally get a real answer. But I'll wait and when that day comes, we'll finally be together.