Look I'm not dead yet! OMG, I'm sorry my loyal readers I really am don't kill me!

Anyways, I made myself cry thinking up this idea. I decided to screw around with how Yuffie and them got to Radiant Gardens and some things that happened in between. Tell me if you like it okay?

Disclaimer: No own except plot. (too lazy to put what I've put before)

Warnings: Character death; slight crossover; major angst; repeated use of the words: it, he, she , they, him; some crude language and I could go on but blah

Cookie to anyone who guesses who the main character is and who he is (both before the end of the story) and it is

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Summary: It hurts like hell but you know you can ignore it for them.

Also (sorry for ranting) I'm sure you can figure out the legend stuff. Aslo I'm leaving you with any other stuff, take it as you like.

PROMISE

Self-preservation and happiness kept it away. They kept it so far away so as not even Aerith-sweet, kind dead Aerith-could find it.

"Would you mind helping me make lunch for everyone?"

It's not supposed to be there. You're cheerful, too cheerful, as Squall-cold, stubborn stranger Squall-puts it.

"You're too young to be fighting Heartless. Go help Aerith she needs someone to cheer her up."

It lurks waiting for you to lower your defences. The defences that are so high not even Cid-crude, techno-geek old man Cid-could break them down.

"Fucking brat! Stop stealing my fucking tools!"

It reminds you so much of him, and he reminds you of them and you try so very hard to forget. You try so hard you sometimes feel like Cloud-emotionless, machine, chocobo Cloud-when he tried so hard to save them but couldn't.

"Not now, I'm busy scouting go find Aerith to talk to."

And it hurts so much and even though you know it will always hurt and be there you find yourself wishing it wasn't. You wish, even if it's gone just for a minute-second even.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing Aerith! Just missing Sora but I know he'll be back soon! He promised to come visit again!"

Cid—crude, techno-geek old man Cid—and Aerith—sweet, kind dead Aerith—and Squall—cold, stubborn stranger Squall—and Cloud—emotionless, machine, chocobo Cloud—all started to see through you but they put it off as nothing when you went back to 'normal' and it hid again.

"Brat?"

"Yeah Squall!?"

"Uhgh. Stop being so damn cheerful! We're in the middle of a war!"

Your head's reeling and it's here again. It's turning out like then and you wish so much that you were stronger and he was here to tell you you were being stupid. You think about just giving up, if you do you might see them again. See them once-just once because that's all you need- more before darkness takes over you because you know they were always there when you needed them then and the only reason they're gone now is because they saved you.

"Stupid thieving ninja!"

"You know you love me fur ball!"

Now Aeirth and Cid and Squall and Cloud are gone, you lost track of them a long time ago and you're feeling the pain of it so much stronger now.

Suddenly it goes dark and you realize you've been scared of being alone in the dark since then and you start sobbing against your will. You curl up in what you think is a fetal position, you can't tell in the dark and shut your eyes tight and pray that you don't have to feel it anymore.

Warm arms wrap around you and you smell his scent. You whimper and pull closer to the warmth and you feel a chuckle travel through the hard chest you're leaning against.

"Open your eyes."

Slowly you open your eyes and you're in his arms in a field of flowers. They are all there smiling at you and you know they want you to go back. They're telling you it's not your time. You clutch him tighter and manage to choke out a why. He wraps you in his cloak-as red as his eyes-and he tells you why.

"When we were fighting back on the Planet, you promised me you'd live."

You sob and close your eyes again. When you open them you see Aerith and Squall running towards you. Aerith hugs you as Squall yells at you to never do that again. You know they saw the red cloak but they were too worried to dwell on it.

It is always going to be there but after all, you promised him to live and that's what you're going to do.

"Yuffie! Where'd you get that fucking cloak?" Cid screams at you, as he looks shocked. Cloud can't even put any words together as you smile at them with a real smile for the first time since you had to leave the Planet.

"From someone I made a promise to."

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