Author: tears oF U
Title: Infinite Tears
Summary: Two people separated by an accident, Sakura is an aspiring violinist, and everyone sees her as the girl who will be voted for, "Most likely to Succeed". She's her student body president and the captain of the tennis team. Exactly different from the life Syaoran Li lives. He is a runaway from home, trying to find his true father. He took a boat all the way from China to come to Japan, looking for his father.
Disclaimer: I do not own Cardcaptor Sakura.
Chapter 4
Fourth Tear
"Syaoran, is that you?" She looked at the third row, and she walked there, but her eyes deceived her. It was just a man with the same hair color as him. The man looked at her like she was crazy, "Oh, I'm sorry, I thought you were someone else."
Sojiro came up behind her, "You haven't answered my question." The whole room felt like Sakura had ruined the sweet moment. She looked into his eyes, still not wanting to hurt his feelings, she agreed.
"Yes, I'm sorry for going off like that earlier. I will marry you." Sakura said without emotion, everyone clapped for her as Sojiro took Sakura in his hands and kissed her passionately. Sakura went on with her act, and pretended to be happy. Tears rolled down her cheeks, not tears of joy, but tears of regret. Syaoran watched in torture as he forced himself not to be jealous. He knew they were brother and sister, but he couldn't help himself from loving her. What is wrong with me? I can't love her, she's my own sister. Syaoran thought as he tried earnestly not to cry. Meiling smiled; inspired by the romantic moment that Syaoran would do the same.
"Maybe one day, you'll propose to me." Meiling said to Syaoran with a happy smile. Syaoran ignored her once more, and she frowned. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing…"
After the concert Meiling forcefully took Syaoran's hand and walked back to their car.
"I really love you Syaoran, I was thinking, if we were going to take this relationship to the next level, we should get a puppy." Meiling suggested as Syaoran started the car.
"What? Honey, are you crazy? A puppy is totally different from baby." Meiling looked at him with a puzzled expression.
"Who ever said anything about a baby? Wait, we're you thinking of having a child?"
"Wait, what, no, but I-" But before he could finish, Meiling cut him off.
"Oh honey, I can't believe it!" Syaoran groaned and gave up on explaining himself; instead, he just turned on the radio and drove away.
Meanwhile, in the V.I.P. parking, Sojiro and Sakura got into their limo. It was magnificent both inside and out. On the outside, it was pure black with sparkling crystals scattered at the bottom, and the windows were shaded from the outside for privacy. Sakura, Tomoyo, Sojiro, and Sakura's manager, Soo Yin got into the limo.
"Let's congratulate Sakura on her outstanding performance!" Soo Yin said as she poured glasses of champagne.
"Yeah, and let congratulate Sakura and Sojiro for their engagement!" Tomoyo added as they all laughed, except for Sakura, and lifted their glasses up.
"Cheers!" They all said as they laughed and conversed with each other. Sakura sat next Sojiro, feeling the worst she's ever felt. There was no way for her to get out of this one without embarrassing herself, her family, and Sojiro. Plus, it would be all over the tabloids if she was seen with someone else. Sakura sighed and looked out the window as they passed restaurants, stores, and cars. I wonder if Syaoran is in this city…
Sakura thought, when the car stopped, Sakura looked at the car next to her. Her eyes widened as she saw Syaoran, staring straight at the road with a solemn look on his face.
"Oh my god…" Sakura whispered as she clicked the button to open the window, but it wouldn't budge. "Sir, can you unlock the windows?" The driver nodded and unlocked the windows. But right when Sakura was going to open the window, she saw a gorgeous girl sitting next to him, and she kissed him on the cheek. Sakura felt like fainting as her limo drove away. She sat quietly in her chair as she started to wheeze again. During their ride back, it gradually got worse. The car finally pulled over at the front of the hotel and they all got out. Sakura gingerly walked out of the car, barely able to breathe.
"Are you okay?" Tomoyo asked as she looked at her with concern. Sakura nodded, trying to speak but couldn't Right when Tomoyo was about to walk past her, Sakura's wheezing got louder, until she collapsed onto the cobblestone road.
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"Meiling, will you just stop it?" Syaoran asked, growing tired of Meiling's nagging. Meiling looked at him with an offended expression.
"Do you even love me? I mean, you've been ignoring me every time I ask what's wrong. And how does Sakura know your name?" Meiling asked, starting to get angry.
"Well, maybe she was referring to another Syaoran." Syaoran said as he stopped at a stoplight. Syaoran looked at her with widened eyes.
"You're lying, every time you lie your eyes widen. You do know each other!" Meiling screamed with teary eyes. She slapped him before Syaoran could say anything and got out of the car. When she got out of the car a light shined at her and she looked at it.
Bam! A car crashed into her and the car door.
"Sakura!" Syaoran cried as he got out of the car and went to the opposite side. Meiling had managed not to break her whole body, she had tried to run, but her leg was smashed between the car and the door.
"I'm not Sakura… you jerk!" Meiling yelled crying with scratches all over her face. The woman in the other car got out and frantically walked up to them.
"Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry!" She said in Mandarin, she started to cry as she got down on her knees to look at Meiling. Meiling had fainted and was laying on the ground as police cars and ambulances surrounded the area.
Syaoran got into the ambulance with Meiling to the hospital. Inside, Syaoran was forbidden to enter the E.R. and had to wait in the waiting room.
Outside the hospital and ambulance with Sojiro and Sakura pulled over. The nurses and doctors took the unconscious Sakura inside. Sakura went right past Syaoran, who had closed his eyes to relieve his stress.
"I'm sorry, sir, but you cannot come to the E.R. You'll have to wait here." A nurse stopped Sojiro as he watched the Sakura go behind the doors. Sojiro took a deep breathe and nodded, he sat next to Syaoran, who still had his eyes closed.
I messed up really bad… Syaoran thought as he felt the tears coming. He opened his eyes and wiped his eyes. He looked at Sojiro, who had fallen asleep in his chair. He gasped at the sight of Sakura's new fiancé. He turned his head quickly before Sojiro could see who had gasped. Two men that loved Sakura so much were sitting right next to each other. Syaoran was now convinced that he still loved Sakura, and he could barely hold himself back from punching Sojiro. Thirty minutes later Sakura's doctor came out and sat next to Sojiro.
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"We took some tests, and we have found out that your fiancé has lung cancer." Sojiro and Syaoran's eyes widened as Syaoran forced himself not to look at them.
"Is it serious? Sojiro asked with tears in his eyes, Syaoran's heart started to beat, the thought of hearing the women he loves had cancer and her fiancé is worried sick made him want to die.
"The tests say the cancer has been growing for three years now. If she doesn't get help now, there is a risk of fatality." Sojiro nodded in great concern as he followed the doctor inside the hallways of the hospital.
Syaoran sighed and wiped his forehead, "I can't believe it." Tears fell onto his sweater as he thought about seeing her again. Would he meeting her again help her, or would it make her worse? The questions raced through his head, but his thoughts were interrupted when a nurse came out with Meiling in a cast and crutches.
"Meiling!" Syaoran called as he got up, "Is everything okay?" The nurse smiled and nodded as Meiling refused to stand by Syaoran.
"Her leg was partially shattered, but six months with a cast can fix everything." Syaoran nodded and tried to win Meiling's forgiveness with a smile. Instead, she just rolled her eyes and tried to walk to the exit.
"Um, Meiling, can you wait in the car?" Syaoran asked, without an answer, Syaoran ran off as Meiling looked back and dropped her jaw in awe.
"Oh my god, what an ass!" Meiling screamed as she turned around and sat on a bench outside.
Syaoran stood at the side of the door at room 1426. Sojiro was sitting in a chair next to Sakura crying. Sakura was asleep as Sojiro took her hand and kissed it over and over.
"Don't worry; I'll be here for you." Sojiro said. The reality of the situation finally got to Syaoran, and he felt like he was going to have a heart attack. In a wanted daydream, Syaoran slowly walked outside, he broke down into tears when he got out of the hospital. Meiling watched him, thinking he was crying over her. She was flattered and got up to walk to him. She put her hand on him and cried.
"It's okay Syaoran, it will be alright." Meiling reassured him, not really knowing the situation. Syaoran looked at her, and hugged her tightly; Meiling's eyes widened from being startled and hugged him back.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry… This is all my fault." Syaoran apologized as he sobbed in her arms.
"It's alright, I forgive you." Meiling said.
Sojiro sighed in the hospital room, blaming everything on himself.
"I'm sorry Sakura, I'm sorry I couldn't be with you before, those three months being away from you was hard to bear." Sojiro said, Sakura's eyes slowly opened, her sight was blurry for awhile, but her senses came back in a few seconds.
"Sojiro…" Sakura mumbled, still exhausted, Sojiro looked up at her with bittersweet thoughts; he smiled at her and kissed her hand.
"You're awake. We're in the hospital, you had another asthma attack." Sojiro explained to her as Sakura sighed.
"Not again, where's Tomoyo?"
"She's at the hotel. Sakura, I need to tell you something."
Sakura gave him a worried look, "What is it?"
Sojiro could barely speak, but forced himself to say it, "The doctor told me… He told me, you have lung cancer." Sakura eyes widened, and she stared blankly at Sojiro. His words were incompatible to her.
"L-lung cancer?" Sakura stuttered, praying that he was playing a joke on her. Sojiro broke into tears and nodded as he laid his head on her, caressing her hands for comfort. Sakura started to cry, she was still so young, she hasn't even discovered many things about herself, and she was on the verge of death. Plus, she hasn't seen Syaoran for many years.
"I'm sorry Sakura…" Sojiro sobbed as Sakura closed her eyes, wanting to dream of herself in a happier life.
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It has been a month since Sakura returned to Tokyo; her career has been crazy, with press conferences, concerts, guest appearances, and many other things. She had still kept her sickness a secret from the media and Sojiro is still by her side. But the awkwardness was still there between them, which made Sakura feel worse.
"Honey, are you coming with me to the rehab clinic?" Sakura asked as she got her bag.
"Sorry, I can't today; I have a meeting at the office." Sojiro said from the living room.
"Okay!"
Sakura drove to the Hanazakari Rehabilitation & Therapy Center, she had forced herself to think positive and forget about Syaoran, which was going well. But once in a while she would mope over him; when she got to the Rehab Center she parked her car next to an imported blue Volkswagen beetle. She got out of the car the weather had warmed up a bit, but it was still chilly.
"Gosh, when will this cold front end?" Sakura asked herself as she looked up at the cloudy sky. Inside the blue beetle Syaoran was helping Meiling untangle the seatbelt.
"Honey, twist it over once." Meiling nagged as Syaoran became annoyed, Syaoran and Meiling's relationship had grown to be good, or so one of them thought. Syaoran felt uncomfortable and stiff every time Meiling gave him a kiss, and there relationship was starting to take a downfall.. Finally, after two minutes, they got out. Syaoran helped Meiling inside, and they took a left into the "Leg Rehabilitation" room. They opened the big red door with "Leg Rehabilitation Room" inscribed on it.
Just to the next room was the Cancer Therapy, where a patient would sit down with a doctor to talk about their day, and do exercises to help them keep positive.
"Doctor, I feel like my relationship with Sojiro is one-sided. I can't let go of him, I can't hurt him so badly by leaving him. And we're going to get married in six months; it would be an embarrassment to me, his family, and my family." Sakura said as tears raced down the side of her face. She would lie down on a stretch seat, every Thursday she would sit there and cry her eyes out.
"Well, I think it's best to tell him, truth will always fix the problem. If you keep up like this, you're condition and career reputation will worsen if you don't stop this." The doctor suggested, Sakura nodded and wiped her tears.
"Also, I've been trying very hard to forget this person, but he is instilled in my brain. He was my first love, and he ran away the day we confessed our love for each other. I need to forget about him, but I can't." The doctor nodded and wrote in her notebook.
"Well, if he was your first love, there is no possible way you can forget about him, unless, you still love him." Sakura looked into the light of the lamp and cried, the stress was building inside of her, so she fled out of the room.
"Ms. Kinomoto!"
Sakura opened the door and ran out, abruptly, she crashed into someone and they both fell onto the floor, their cell phones dropping onto the ground.
"I'm sorry." Sakura said hastily. She picked up the cell phone and ran off.
"Wait, miss!" Syaoran called, but Sakura ran out of the building before he could catch her. "That's my… phone…" Syaoran mumbled, he picked up her pink phone and sighed. "Great, my phone is gone…" He flipped it open, and realized who he had bumped into. A picture of Sakura playing the violin was in the background of the screen. "Sakura?"
Sakura wiped her tears and turned her car on; she took her phone out of her pocket to call Sojiro, but realized that the phone wasn't hers. She turned it on, and revealed a picture of Syaoran and his girlfriend smiling.
"Sy-Syaoran?" Sakura said as she turned off the phone. She took a deep breath and looked up at the rehab center.
Should I go back in? Sakura asked herself as she looked back at their short past together. She built up the courage to go inside, after nervously making up a scene up in her head of what was going to happen.
Syaoran sat down in the lobby and was uneasily thinking if she would come back inside after realizing that was his phone. He slicked his hair back and sighed, "I hope she doesn't come back." Syaoran muttered to himself as he looked at the automatic sliding doors. But his hopes were shattered when the doors opened and in came Sakura holding the phone and searching the room. Syaoran looked at who had come in, and his eyes widened. Sakura looked at him, and she cried from afar.
She walked closer, her hands were trembling, and she extended her arm to him and gave him his phone back.
She tried to smile, despite her urge to frown and sob. "Just like the o-old days, huh?"
End- Chapter 4: Fourth Tear
A/N- Okay, chapter four ended. I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving, I know I did, that's why it took a while to update… sorry guys! ) Well, I pray that you liked this chapter, please review! We'll see each other again in chapter 5!