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Chapter 4.

I've been sitting in this cab all night long.

My twogirls are asleep on the seat next to me.

They don't know why I left you Scott...

I wishI never have to tell them, but when they get older I guess I will have to.

Tonight I head to the man of my dreams.

I hope he will take me in.

I hope he will love me like you once did.

No... I don't want to be loved like you once loved me.

Because if you call that love I don't want any part of it.

If loving someone is cheating on them and betraying your marriage of 5 years and your friendship of 15 years. I dont want anything to do with it.

Hopefully he will understand how I feel.

It will take me time to get over this sadness,

But in time I will love again.

My feelings for him have never truly gone away in the first place.

Even when I married you Scott,

I still had feelings for him...

And hopefully he still has feelings for me too.

That is what I will find out tonight.

My girls will learn to love him too...hopefully.

We arrive in front of his apartment.

I wake my girls from their slumber.

They look at me with confusion in their eyes.

I know that they will understand when the time is right.

I tell them to come with me out of the cab.

They ask me where their father is but answering them now is too hard.

Their little questions bring me to tears.

I try to keep from crying but I can't.

I just wipe them away.

I tell the girls that you are no longer going to be with us.

But they don't understand.

They are too young to understand.

They will someday...hopefully.

I take their little hands in mine.

I walk to the door.

Afraid to even knock.

I could just get back in the cab and go on home.

But I know that I truly can't do that.

I would be loosing if I did that.

I would be giving in to what you want me to do.

That is the last thing I would want to do.

I don't want you to win.

This whole thing is your fault in the first place.

You don't deserve to win.

I let go of one of my girls hands and bring my hand to the door.

I'm about to knock but fear stops me again.

Forget about fear Jean you can do it , just knock. I tell myself

I finally do it.

I bring my hand to the door and knock hard on the wooden surface.

It takes a few minutes.

I hearyou stumbling around in the dark.

I hear you unlock the lock on the door.

The knob on the door turns.

It slowly opens.

I'm stuck standing infront of you looking into your deep brown eyes.

I am unable to speak.

You look at me with confusion.

Your eyes go from me to my girls as they look up at you with confusion in their eyes as well.

Once your eyes fall back on me

I am able to speak again.

I say one word and one word only

Logan...

A/N: Thats it for this chapter. I hope it was as good as the other ones. Please r/r. Thanx

-Blaze-LoganLover