A Turn For The Worse

Rune Alchemist Kaori

Disclaimer: I don't any of the Gravitation stuff.

Chapter 11

A month seemed to go by much faster than usual for Shuichi it seemed. He was frightened now that the surgery was coming up. He tried very hard to not be annoying because he didn't want Yuki to be angry with him, however he was just a little more tearful than usual those last few days before the surgery. Meanwhile, Yuki had been trying to go on with his life as normally as he possibly could. As he came home from a meeting that day he was greeted by a sniffling pink-haired boy rushing into his arms.

"YUKI!" Shuichi sobbed into his shirt, holding onto him desperately. The blond stood there in silence, more like an inanimate object than a person. Slowly he brought his arms around the boy.

"Idiot," he muttered, "What's wrong with you?"

"I... I'm sorry," Shuichi mumbled, looking down at the floor. The author rolled his eyes. Slowly he knelt down to look at the singer.

"What's wrong Shuichi?" he asked in a softer tone, truly wanting to help. He didn't want a sobbing boy to put up with the rest of the night.

"I'm scared.." he mumbled, burying his face back into Yuki's shirt. The blond blinked then his arms tightened around the boy.

"You don't have to be scared," he told him, "This'll work out, I promise."

"But... what if something happens to you? I'll die if something happens.."

"Don't say that," Yuki whispered, placing a kiss on Shuichi's temple.

"But I will!" the singer insisted.

"I said don't say that!" Yuki said more sharply, "I don't want to hear you talking like that!"

"Y..Yuki..." Shuichi looked at the floor and nodded. He circled warm loving arms around the blond.

"You're scared too aren't you?" the singer whispered and felt his lover nod slowly.

"I'm sorry I said that.." Shuichi said quietly, "I didn't know it would upset you so much Yuki."

"It's ok," the author said gently, "I'm just a little... tense.. It's going to be ok."

"Of course it will," Shuichi replied with a slight smile, trying to reassure both of them

And so, the day of the transplant finally came. Tohma drove them to the hospital and gave Shuichi money for a taxi to go home in the evening even though the boy insisted that he wanted to stay there.

"Shuichi I want you to stay healthy," Yuki told his little lover gently, "You have a concert coming up soon don't you?"

The bubblegum-headed singer nodded slowly, sniffling and looking up at the two blond's with sad puppy eyes, tears ready to spill from them. Even Tohma had to admit that it was very hard to resist, so he kept his mouth shut.

"Listen Shuichi," the author said, "What good will it be if I get out of the hospital and you go in? I want to be able to come home to the person I love the most and find that he's perfectly healthy and safe. Understand?"

Shuichi stared up at his lover, blinking; his words echoed in the singer's mind.

The person I love the most...

"I'm the person you love the most?" Shuichi asked.

"Idiot," Yuki said, rolling his eyes. He gave Shuichi a gentle kiss before leaving with Tohma.

Now I remember why I dislike Shindou-san so much, Tohma thought bitterly, but it didn't matter, what was important was that Yuki was going to be ok after this. That's why he'd decided to do this.

Though Shuichi tried very hard to stay as long as possible, someone eventually told him he should go home and could come back to the hospital the next day during visiting hours. Shuichi fixed them with his puppy eyes and they looked ready to tell him he could stay, but then the boy remembered what Yuki had told him about going home and he relented.
"Tohma...?" Yuki mumbled quietly, "You asleep?"

"No.." came Tohma's sleepy reply, "Not anymore."

"Is it true you and Mika are getting divorced?" The younger blond asked.

"Yes, but not for a while yet."

"Is it Shuichi and my fault?"

"No."

"Liar."

"I'm tired Eiri... and on top of that I'm old."

Yuki snickered slightly until he heard Tohma's weak coughing.

"Hey.. Are you ok?"

"I'll be fine... in the morning.. Go to sleep Eiri.. It's been a trying day and we both need to regain our strength. I'm sure we'll be bombarded by Shindou-san in the early morning."

Yuki smiled, nodding his head as he closed his eyes and fell asleep. Tohma sighed. He was rapidly losing people he loved. Mika was leaving him, Yuki belonged to Shindou-san... the only thing he supposed he had to live for was N-G, but was it worth it? He wasn't so sure any more. Tohma wasn't really the suicidal type, he would never allow himself to go out with such terrible stories about being written in the paper. Freak accidents were good though... ah well, he'd have to think about it in the morning. Slowly his eyes slid closed and he fell asleep.

A/N: Ah! Tohma's thinking bad things! -sniffle- Sorry... I'm sorry I haven't updated in a while everyone. I've been sick and when I haven't been sick I've been very busy. Review please!