MEMO: Ohmigod! I'm SOOOOOOOOo sorry how long it took me to update…. My mind, but I really haven't written it- sorry- but I've been like really busy, well, not that busy- but I'm reading these Sarah Dessen books which are really good and that I'm going to put over here- The Truth about forever- and Just Listen- are really good and I recommend reading it………………

Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer already gave away the whole entire plot to New Moon when I put in on hold beforehand in the library- our main prediction is typically correct though……..I'll put that in my review response or something……….since I doubt people would want it here….

BELLA'S VIEW!

At first I had no idea what was happening. I had felt absolutely nothing for what had been the past couple of days, had heard absolutely nothing- but had seen everything. I somehow was able to see it from Alice's mind for some reason. I think it was because she had taken my supposed life from me- except I wasn't really dead which was really strange.

I wanted to know so badly of what they were talking about- and now I had found myself able to read their lips. As soon as I had mastered this task, I instantly regretted it. Now I was hooked upon what they were doing.

I also found myself to understand and absorb Alice's feelings. I didn't know what was happening to her. Something concerned with Jasper and Edward.

It took me a little while- from when she had reached this supposed group who Edward had once told me about- to a few hours when I realized that Edward was talking about giving up his immortality for me. He wanted to give up his life for me. To become human.

It was so stupid, I thought. How I had responded. How I had immediately called Alice and told her to change me. And now Edward was going to become a human. Edward was going to live.

I found myself giggling in my mind about how he would look like a human- what characteristics he would have. Would he still be as tall? But then remembering Alice, and how tall she was- I guess height really didn't change. Would his nose be crooked, I thought? What colors were his eyes originally? How about his hair color?

Then I remembered the other features…what if he started out as he had left off? The dying seventeen years old in Victorian times on the verge of death from the Spanish Influenza? What if, I thought, his memories of me vanished? Everything he had experienced since his death, replaced with memories of the past he had so called "forgotten"?

What if…I thought….What if….What if…

The "What if's" would not seem to stop. There were too many. What if Edward died the second he turned human? What if Edward didn't even turn human- like the Votruseli said- but was gone altogether?

I could see Alice's panic. I could also see my own. (NOTE: I REALLY HOPE THAT CLEARS SOME CONFUSION UP- IF IT DID NOT CREATE MORE SINCE WHAT THE VOTRUSELI SAID IS THAT EDWARD GIVES UP HIS IMMORTALITY FOR BELLA- MAKING HIM HUMAN AND SHE'S PONDERING ON THAT RIGHT NOW)

Edward's view

There was a mirror right be me. I saw my transformations occur slowly. I wasn't sure what the Votruseli had did exactly. But it did include Alice, who was standing- trembling- right next to me. Apparently Bella was seeing everything from her mind, and so she had probably seen and heard what I had said to Alice, I assumed.

I was so excited though, that now I would get to see Bella. See her again, in this hell of a long time.

I missed her so much. And so I had no regret doing this.

I didn't remember what I had looked like a human exactly. I only remembered a few things. A few things the Votruseli had brought up in me somehow by pricking me and Alice, and putting something in my mouth.

The changes were small, but secure. My hair for one thing, turned a brighter shade of orange/reddish somewhat and a darker shade of brown in some other parts. I saw myself in the mirror, my self reaching more of a human posture, much more slouched and leaned back. Not the picture I was used to seeing, but not much different nonetheless. What seemed most surprising to me however was that my eyes color didn't change much- but were made permanently a honeyish color- the type of color they sold in contacts nowadays.

My skin tanned itself automatically. I looked half like I was half Mexican- half albino like Bella was.

I felt my teeth rotten itself- to how they used to be. They, I knew, no longer were as clean, and as groomed. Carlisle could fix that later however.

I also felt a bit lost- for all those voices that used to be in my head disappeared. Especially Alice's, the one I wanted to hear right now. It was probably what Bella was hearing and seeing.

I was wondering what changes were happening to her. What were happening to her body, right at this precise moment. Of course her body wasn't over here. It was being watched over by Carlisle at the present moment who had left it somewhere else- somewhere he wasn't telling me.

My hands were quivering I noticed, my teeth chattering endlessly. I was so cold. Of course the Votruseli wouldn't have to waste their money on a bit of heating- they were probably wasting it on pointless books they would never read.

The changes were no pain to me. I was thankful for that, nothing like changing into- but somewhat like waking up- something I now remembered. I heard memories rushing back into my mind- over a century of memories I fully remembered. I was thankful for that, the memories. I could remember just about every one now. My memory was always sharp, I remembered. Something about eating this thing called badam or something some lady had given to me- or more specifically my mom in a market.

I remembered my mom at that point. I'd never seen her much however- much more of my Dad. That's how times used to be. And what I saw more than my Dad, was working outside in the fields- where I remembered we had caught the virus.

Working outside in the fields were only jobs for people who could not afford much of anything else-. That was why no one really ever knew that we were gone- that I had died and come back- that there was no body- because to everyone else I never existed. Except for Carlisle. Then Esme. Then Rosalie, followed soon by Emmet- and decades later Jasper and Alice.

I didn't want to spend my time donning on old passports I had forgotten however, when there was so much of the new that I yet to absorb in. The new feeling of being human. I also knew that now I would have to leave them. I would have to leave everyone- except for Bella- who knew that I existed.

I knew that I probably wouldn't change back. I knew that's what Alice was thinking with her fight with Jasper. I knew she had been repenting for it about an hour earlier- but now was staring at me incredulously.

I felt a notch clense in my stomach, and knew that I was both tired, hungry, and had to go to the bathroom. The tiredness part kicked in the most for I was on the ground- no doubt unconscious that much before hand.

"Edward," a man at my side said, gazing down at me- face familiar, voice familiar- but couldn't sort anything out right now- "Do you know who I am?" he asked.

"Don't really remember," I replied, blinking once. Twice.

"Well, that's good," he replied, walking away. "You never really knew me anyhow- and after this I'd doubt you would remember me. But at least you remember your name."

"Marcos," I said in reply.

"Good job," he said, somewhat amused by his tone. I was now just wondering what he was thinking, about what to do to me next. The silence in my head was beginning to mock me.

"How did you do it?" I asked, confused. I didn't remember that part.

"A part of your beloved's flesh- your's- and your supposed sister Alice's. The other part I'm not telling you."

I immediately noticed the part he said about Bella. "Where is she?" I asked him.

He laughed.

"Where is she?" I repeated, louder.

He just smirked this time, and turned his back on me.

"Where is she," I cried, this time yelling and up to my feet.

He started to walk away. Before I knew it, I was on his back- grabbing his neck and kicking him from behind, screaming "Where is she?"

It was just as he pushed me off his back, without turning to face me or anything- and continued walking- that I heard the words whispered "I'm here."

I turned to face her. "Excuse me Alice," she said, looking past her and at me. "I need a minute alone with Edward."

"Sure thing," she replied. I could read her face well enough to know that she had not been expecting Bella, but was just bewildered at what I had done with the famed "Marcos".

Marcos then left the room, followed by Alice who I could only assume was after Jasper. I still wanted to know what happened between them. But not as badly as I wanted to know what would happen between Bella and myself.

She walked up to me, determined- an earnest glimpse in her eyes. As soon as they were gone, she ran up to me and hugged me- kissing me on the cheek.

I wasn't expecting that.

"Edward," she said, looking me down- from foot to head. "You look so different, and also feel so different," she told me.

"Like wise," I replied, smiling. The intrigue thing must have been a hoax, I laughed. To make me feel better, and she couldn't have meant that now- I thought. No, now I knew.

"Edward," she said, "before this goes on any longer we need to talk about something."

I saw a determination in her eyes I had never seen before.

"Yeah you're right," I replied, grabbing her hand in response. "When do you want the wedding to be?"

"Edward," she looked at me, scornfully.

"What?" I replied, laughing. Never before had I remembered being this happy.

"Carlisle told me what you did-" she started. "And I-"

"Don't talk," I said, and pressed my lips to hers, happily. Within a few seconds she broke out.

She must have been determined, I thought.

"I meant what I said," she said, stepping back from me. "I will miss you Edward," she said. "And I don't want you to dwell on this moment, ever. But I can't be this distraction to you. You need to go turn back to what you were- only hours before. This obviously won't work out Edward. You're meant to be a vampire thing," she continued. "and I'm not. I can't take you away from Alice and Carlisle and Esme- all these people who love you more than I ever could. And I don't want to hear anything from you," she said. "I will always love you Edward, but this love was never meant to be. It didn't work Edward. Carlisle told me why it didn't. Apparently I'm a lot more different than you ever thought. Apparently my blood's different, I can never truly become one of you. So good bye."

She turned and walked away. "Don't," I gasped- when realization of her words finally hit me. "Please don't," I said.

"Don't make this any harder than this is," she said.

Her hair flipped as she left, and that, I thought, would probably be the last glance of her I would ever receive.

I was still standing there, not realizing what was happening, not noticing the rush of excitement around me- Alice wrapping her arm around my waste trying to calm me.

Those words I knew, would never truly make it in.

Bella's View

The second I stepped out of the manor, a wave of rush stepped over me. I ran as far as I could from there, taking a local bus.

Staying hours in it until my stop in nowhere land.

The tears finally coming to me.

God, I thought, I was such a liar.

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