What Kills Him Chapter 3: Here Without You, a friends fanfic

So I decided to continue this story. It was only going to be one chapter but I got an idea for a second chapter. Somehow my little one shot is now at chapter 3 and still going. Tell me if you think I should keep writing!

Disclaimer: All Friends characters belong to Bright, Kauffman, and Crane.

Rating: PG

Summary: I see her everyday with him. They're soul mates, they fit together. So where do I belong?

She left with him. Just left. No looking back. The tears wouldn't stop now. Phoebe would get married and be happy and I would die alone. Stuck here forever. In love with Phoebe. She didn't love me. I knew Phoebe was gone but when I heard that knock, I thought that maybe it was her.

I barely remember opening the door and seeing Phoebe there. I just remember her lips on mine. A kiss that could rival Ross and Rachel's. Years of passion suddenly released. I never wanted it to end. But when it did I began to wish it had never started.

She pulled away from me. "Joey, I am so sorry. I don't know what I was doing."

"Phoebe it's okay." I wanted to tell her that I loved her but she started talking again.

"I just got thinking that once I married Mike that was it. I would never kiss another guy. I guess I just wanted a send off. I don't know."

"I understand."

"Thank you so much. I was afraid for a minute you might think that it meant something." I felt like I had been slapped in the face. But she could never know how much pain those words caused me.

"No of course not. You know I don't think of you like that." My heart was breaking even as I spoke those words.

"Well I better get back to Mike. Tomorrow we're having a little party to celebrate. You'll be there right?"

"Yah of course." It was a dream come true. I would get to watch Phoebe and Mike laughing, touching, kissing. "I can't wait."

"Okay. I guess I'll see you later." Once again Phoebe walked out of my life like she had so many times but none of them had ever hurt like this did.

I was so stupid. I thought that kiss meant that maybe she loved me too. I just wanted to die. Being dead sounded so much better then being here. When I was dead I couldn't think about Phoebe anymore.

I had no idea what I was doing when I grabbed those sleeping pills. Or when I sat down to write everyone a letter explaining my decision. Once I was done I looked at those pills one last time before swallowing the whole bottle. It was all over. My decision had been made. The last thing I remember before darkness set in was a song playing on the radio.

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

Just you and me Phoebe. Just you and me.