Abandoned

by Foxgem

Hojo and Kagome are expecting a baby. Oh the happy family, but what if one of them doesn't want that life? The question is: 'Is life fair' you decide. FINISHED! LOL!

11. Chapter 12 Nightmare

Foxgem: Well hello there. Yes it has been a while. Um… it is taking some time to get it all fixed so I decided to go ahead and a post this. Oh and Bow? I would be more than happy if you would do the two last chapters. 11 and 10. Thanks. I will pay by the way. Thank you very much! Here is Chapter 12 and HOJO.

Chapter 12

Nightmare

Kagome groaned as she opened her eyes and focused on her bedroom ceiling. Great. Today is the day Hojo was coming. Wonderful. The last few days seemed to fly past with all the work she did with the little kids. Now it was time to face her fears. Kagome put her hands over her stomach. For the last couple of days a sense of danger had built up in the pit of her stomach. She was not ready for this.

The sad thing about this was, truthfully, after all that happened with Inuyasha and everything she still somehow still wanted Hojo to come back to her. But it wasn't really love that she felt. No. She just missed his whisperings in her ear as they made love and the way he held her. She didn't miss him, exactly. What she missed was the way he made her body feel. Not that Inuyasha didn't hold her right or loved her right. She just wished that somehow she could wind back time and erase all the bad parts out. She hated having a bad past.

What was wrong with her? She had 2- or 3 soon enough, children who she loved dearly and she had wonderful Inuyasha who loved her more than life itself. What else could she want? Maybe she was scared.

With Hojo she knew what to expect. She knew all about hate and distrust. That is what she had believed that life was like that. Now here comes Inuyasha into her life, smart, funny, loving Inuyasha, in which everything seemed too good to be true.

Kagome shook her head. She was going to have to talk to Inuyasha about this. She hated to tell him after everything. But he needed to know and she needed to be understood. Kagome sat up and yawned. Time to get ready for the day.

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Inuyasha leaned back in his chair on the airplane and sighed as he closed his eyes. The operation was worse than expected. When he had opened the girl up he found that the tumor had spread. In reality…it needed to be taken out about 3 months ago. Those ruddy Doctors at the college thought they knew everything! Luckily he went a head and did the things he needed to do. Of course it would take a couple of weeks to see if it was all gone but…from what Inuyasha saw he could safely say it was all gone.

Inuyasha smiled remembering what Kouga's face looked like after he told him the news. The man had hugged him and began to cry. Too bad he wouldn't get to see Ayme's reaction.

But he had taken too long. He had promised to be there when Hobo (Hojo) came. During the last couple of days Hobo (Hojo) had called to say he was coming around 5:00. Inuyasha was going to be lucky if he got there 10 min to 5! Inuyasha gripped his seat. This was going to be pushing it.

Inuyasha knew that did no good in worrying but how could he not help it? What if he got there late and Hobo (Hojo) did something to Kagome?

Inuyasha stuck his credit card in the phone slot and dialed Kagome's number.

Inuyasha sighed as he his thoughts trailed to Kagome. Her sweet face and her laughter. He loved the way she walked or did anything! With a smile he remembered the way her body felt against him. He missed her terribly. He couldn't wait to get her alone again.

The phone rang three times before a breathless Kagome picked it up.

"Hello?" Kagome had just been wrestling with the kids when the phone rang. Kagome rubbed her back. Good thing to. It was time for a break.

"Hi love! How is everything?" Inuyasha asked smiling.

Kagome smiled brightly "Fine. I am just taking a time out from wrestling with the kids. When you come home you need to beat up these kids and I mean it. They have way too much energy for me to handle. Where are you by the way?" Kagome asked.

"I'm on the plane coming home. It looks like I will be running a little late."

Kagome gripped the phone. "What? But you promised that you would be here when Hojo showed up. What if you aren't here? I knew it! I knew it! I told you not to promise anything!"

"Kagome!" Inuyasha said sternly as possible. "Hold on now. I didn't say I wasn't going to be there! I am going to be there."

"But you just said-"
"Trust me Kagome. I will be there."

Kagome sighed. "I'm sorry. I am just on edge. Not having you home and having him show up is really starting to get to me. I really do love and I trust you."

"Kagome? Do you believe that I would ever let you get hurt?" Inuyasha asked suddenly.

"No." Kagome said without hesitation.

Inuyasha smiled. "Good, because I love you. I love you, baby."

"Love you too."

There as a slight pause before Inuyasha asked, "How are the kids?"

Kagome laughed. "Fine. Shippo and Kara have seemed to have a bond now. Nathan is fine. He doesn't feel or act sick so that is a good thing. I think it was just one of those 24 hours bugs that gets passed around in school. I went to the doctor you recommended and he said things look all right, so that's good."

"Wonderful! But I knew Kara and Shippo would get along. With the parents they have, of course everything is going to be perfect. Now, how is your mother? Is she still calling you?"

"Yes, unfortunately. She keeps calling every 5 minutes trying to preach to me. Come on! She went on a cruise on my ninth month! She wasn't there for the birth of Kara and on the day of my divorce hearing she stood on his side. I don't understand. Why wouldn't she be on my side? I'm her daughter. Why wouldn't she be there for the birth?" Kagome asked leaning against the wall watching the kids play some made up game.

"I don't know. I wish I did, but I don't. I know that if this happened to Kara that that man would be long dead by now."

"You would kill him for her? Why not kill Hojo for me?" Kagome asked smiling.

"No, I don't think I would. As much as I would love to, I wouldn't. I know how you look at life and I realize that if I killed Hobo that it would only hurt our relationship. Then he would forever be in between us. No thanks."

"But why kill Kara's guy, then?"

"Could you deal with having Kara go through what you are going through right now?" Inuyasha asked.

"No. I think I would want to kill him too. But what about your relationship? That wouldn't tare your relationship apart?"

"Of course not. I am her Father."

Kagome laughed.

"Hey Guess what? I have presents for the Family." Inuyasha said looking at his bag sitting in the seat next to him. They were going to love them.

Kagome smiled. "You didn't have to do that."

"Yes I do. When I would go on trips that Shippo couldn't go on, I would always bring home a small treat. The tradition must go on! Well I think the real phrase is that the show must go on but this works. Anyway, I love you guys so why wouldn't I bring home presents?" Inuyasha asked.

"When did you have time to go and get them? You called every night and you sounded pretty tired to me." Kagome asked worried.

"Oh well…I cut some sleep time. I just couldn't seem to sleep as well without being beside you."

Kagome blushed. "Mommy? Your face is all red." Kara screamed from the other end of the room.

Inuyasha laughed.

"Well, um…we are going to have to fix that aren't we?" Kagome said trying to get her voice to sound normal.

"Kagome," Inuyasha voice was hesitant. "Have you told the kids yet?"

Kagome sighed. "No. I don't seem to have the guts. I don't see how I can tell them that…"

"Baby, you should have told them earlier. But we can't do anything about it. Look, you have to tell them. It is only fair."

"I know. I just don't like explaining it on my own. I wish you were here to help me." Kagome's voice shook.

"I wish I was there too. I am coming home as soon as I can. You will tell them right?" Inuyasha asked concerned.

"I will. In fact I think I will before you get home. Somehow I think the explanation won't be a quick one."

"Kagome…I love you."
"Oh! Not to change the subject or anything, but can we talk when you get home?" Kagome asked.

"Aren't we talking now?"
"Well we are but I want to be alone with you."

"Aren't we eager for a little loving?"

Kagome face flared. "INUYASHA!"

Inuyasha's ears flattened. "Okay wench! Yes, we can talk without any little interruptions tramping in."

"Are you calling my children interruptions?" Kagome asked in a fake horrified tone.

"No, they are just sweet little unexpected surprises."

Kagome smiled. "Yes they are."

Inuyasha smiled evil. "So, when are we going to have our own pleasant surprise?"

"Uh…"

"MOMMY! Your face is RED again!"

"Hush Shippo! Um…when would you like it?"

Inuyasha blushed thinking about her 9 months pregnant. It was…quiet beautiful. "How about we work on as soon as I get home."

"Sounds good. But of course we will after we talk right?"

"Yep."

After a slight pause Kagome's voice changed to one of horror. "Inuyasha…I can't help but thinking…what if he shows up without you there? I mean how am I going to be able to talk to him. What if he says something-"

Inuyasha cut her off. "Kagome. Don't even think about it okay, because it isn't going to happen. I love you and it hurts just knowing I have to allow this guy to be near you. If you are scared that the crazy scenario that you are imaging is going to happen then do this. We know he is coming around 5:00. So just be sure to lock everything up by 4:00. That way, just to make sure, that he doesn't get in there without me being there. I really don't like the idea of Kara, Nathan, and Shippo near him. Not to mention how I really am uncomfortable of just having you near him. We have no idea of what or how he is living. He could be a regular drunk. He could have a disease!"

"Inuyasha, it isn't like he is a dog!"

"I take that as a insult. He is nowhere near the dog level. Remember, I am dog."

Kagome smiled. "Half. You are half dog."

Inuyasha flinched. "I still don't like how we could even be similar. Can we at least agree that he is lower than the dog?"

"Sure sweetie."

"Well I got to go. Before I do, promise me that you will lock everything up and wont let him in. I love you darling." Inuyasha looked at his watch. " I will be home as soon as I can."

"I promise I will lock everything and I can't wait for you to be here safe and sound. I love you."

"Bye!"

Inuyasha hung up and took a look at the price.

$ 89.67

WHAT! Oh man. Well Kagome had better feel loved! 89 dollars just for a phone call! OUCH!

Inuyasha sighed and picked up the bag full of presents and smiled as he went through them.

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Sango sat on the couch typing away on her computer. With one hand she picked up a celery stick and began to chew it angrily. How in hel was she supposed to think! It had been 4 days since Miroku had lain with her. Do you know how hard it is to make fierce love to a person for 7 years and all of a sudden have it stop? Not just stop as in still sleeping by each other but stopping when he got himself another hotel room. Dam him and his pride! She was drunk! Why can't he forgive her? Sango slammed her laptop shut. This sucks.

Sango stood up and began to pace. She was sick of waking in the middle of night and not having him there to soothe her fears a way. Not to mention whenever he came over he didn't hug her nor did he kiss her! He acted cool and collected and asked all the semimetal questions like, "how was your day today?" or "What a beautiful morning, don't you think so?" and he put them into their conversations at the most inconvenient time!

Fine. That is it. Sango stormed into her room and picked out the clothes she bought before the wedding. She had bought them hoping to drive Miroku wild but since he was no longer her lover she was going to go out and drive some poor unsuspecting fool out of his mind. Sango put the phone on speaker and dialed Kagomes number.

It rang once before a cheery Kagome picked it up.

"Kagome? I am not going to be able to come over tonight." Sango said taking off her jeans and putting on tight black leather pants.

Kagome twirled the telephone cord. "Why? Did you and Miroku make up or fix what was going on with you two?"

Sango scoffed. "No. That man is too bull headed to fix anything. I am sick of waiting around for nothing. I am going out."
"Where are you going to go?" Kagome asked getting worried.

"I am going to the bar. I am planning on getting drunk and making some poor fool crazy." Sango took off her shirt and bra and put on a black push up bra and a black LOW cut shirt that showed off her breast.

Kagome looked around nervously not sure what to say. "What if Miroku finds out?"

"I will just tell him it's his own fault. I tried talking to him but he will never answer me back. I am sick of him trying to be all-noble. I DON'T LOVE THE NOBLE! I love my own sweet, romantic, and sexy Miroku. Not this sick idiot! I am not going to wait around forever. I don't want to be an old maid with nothing! I want a husband, kids and tons of grand children! I want a life like yours. Not the Hojo and you part. Just the fact that you have 3 kids and are going to marry the man of your dreams. Your life is perfect compared to mine."

Kagome laughed. "Not true. I have tons of things wrong with my life. Inuyasha just seems to block all of the unhappiness out. Isn't Miroku the man of your dreams."

"Yes he is. But he doesn't seem to know it. Yes, I love him. Yes, I am willing to give him all the kids he wants! Yes, I want to marry him. If he asked me right now, of course after we fixed things back to normal and if he promised never to touch another woman, to marry him I would give him the biggest yes the world has seen. I want him to be the person I grow old with. But not if he is going to be like this. I am going out to have a fun time. I just want you to know where I am going in case of anything."

"I don't think this is a good idea, Sango. I really don't. Can you promise me that you will think about this will do to Miroku. I know he loves you."

"Yeah, in a lustful way. Well I promise I will think about it. Good-bye."

Kagome sighed. "Good-bye. Be safe."

Sango hung up the phone and headed into the bathroom. She put on her make-up and began to do her hair.

Halfway finished she "caught" her own eye in the mirror. Her eyes were filled with pain She couldn't do it. She didn't have the guts. She loved Miroku. Angrily she threw the brush down with a bang and she screamed.

"YOU IDIOT! YOU BLIND, NIAVE', IDIOT!" Sango put both hands into fists and slammed them into the counter. Her body shook like thunder as the tears poured out. Then she began to whisper.

"I can't. I can't." Sango repeated this over and over. Sango sank to the floor and held herself.

Sango had no idea how long she knelt there sobbing, but some time later she felt strong arms go around her.

"Shh…I know, baby, I know." Sango turned fell exhausted on Miroku's chest.

"You heard?" Sango's voice was raspy.

Miroku nodded "Every word."

Sango looked up and him tiredly. "Why? Why are you doing this to me?"

"Doing what? What am I doing to you?" Miroku asked with tears falling down his face.

"You are driving me insane. Miroku," Sango sat up and looked Miroku in the eye and pleaded. "Please. Can you stop? Stop with all the nobility? Please?"

Miroku bent his head so she couldn't read his expression. "Why?"

"Why? Miroku that is not who I fell in love with. I fell in love with a hopeless romantic, who always wanted to prove how much he loved me in small acts. My man is a woman worshiper, which only means that he understands woman more than most men, and that he would never even dream of hurting me."

Miroku's body shivered. "Well, you would be wrong. Because right now, I really want to make love to you until you are painfully sore. I want to show you just exactly how I felt being away from you. I love you."

"Then why don't we?" Sango asked moving in.

Miroku "dodged" and slightly pushed her away. "Sango, when you drink you become a very honest drunk. I don't like…hate…that somewhere in you, you think that I am going to leave you high and dry. Not only that but you think that I don't love you and you are just a…a…comfort for a short time. I want to get that out of your head. I want to prove to you that you are so much more."

"Have you not proven it to me?" Sango asked making him look in her eyes. Sango was stunned and hurt when she saw the pain in his eyes.

"Have I? Sango, I have absolutely no idea how to prove to you just how much I love you. I don't know how to make you understand that you are the only one for me. No woman could ever take your place. I don't know how to show you what you mean to me. Please, help me."

Sango cupped his face with both of her hands and smiled. "I love you. I know you love me. As to your questions…" Sango had to swallow a lump in her throat and tears sprung to her eyes and she continued, "You told me you wanted to marry me. I want to marry you too. I want you to be the father of ALL my children. You can prove to me that I am the only woman for you by marrying me. As to the question of proving that you love me and showing me how much you mean to me…" Sango cut off as she moved her hands down his neck and shoulders. Miroku shivered as she continued down in his arms and finally grabbing both of his wrists. Miroku couldn't tear his eyes away from her face she was smiling in pure bliss and tears were flowing down her face. Silently with tears in her eyes she took his hands and laid them on her stomach. "Here. Show me here. Show me by starting our family."

Miroku was now crying shamelessly. "Really? You…want children, with me?"

"Yes."

They couldn't say who took the next step but soon Sango was on her back with Miroku on top. When their kisses grew more than just kisses and when he felt him sinking Miroku remembered. He broke it off gasping from the strain.

"What?" Sango asked curiously a little breathless herself.

"I…Sango this was…the last thing…on mind that we would be doing…I didn't bring anything. No protection." Was Miroku could say gasping for breath.

Sango looped her arms around his neck and pulled him back. "No need." Then she whispered into his ear. "It's time for a kid anyway."

Miroku smiled and tears came to his face. "You have no idea how long I waited to hear that." With that he sank back to her level and once again they started on their journey.

( -- Okay I know. Cheesy. )

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Kagome sat on the couch watching Dragon Tales© with all of her kids leaning on her. Kara was leaning on her arm where Nathan was laying down with his head in her lap. Shippo sat on the floor in front involved in his video game. Kagome looked at her watch and sighed.

Kara looked up at her mothers face, curious. Kagome smiled in response. But as soon as Kara's eyes were glued to the T.V. Kagome got restless. Kagome looked at her watch. 3:43.

Kagome went ahead and locked all the doors as soon as she had gotten off the phone with Sango. She didn't want Hojo to suddenly appear out of the blue. Kagome looked at her kids and bit her lip. They had no idea that was coming or what was even going on that night. Kagome fidgeted. She had to tell them. Kagome shut off the TV to the dismay off all the kids. Even Shippo who was watching and playing at the same time complained.

"Kids, There is something I need to tell you." Kagome got up and picked up Shippo and set him on the couch. All three pair of eyes was watching her intently.

"Tonight we have a guest coming-" Before she finished all three kids groaned. Kagome wanted to smile. It was the same way she felt.

"Now listen. It isn't anybody you know." Kagome said folding her arms.

Shippo looked at her with an eyebrow raised. "Who?"

Kagome sighed. "Kara and Nathan's Father."

Kara stood up on the couch. "You mean mine and Nathan's Dads are coming?"

"I thought my dad was coming." Shippo said with a weird look.

Kagome shook her head. "Look. Inuyasha is coming home tonight. After Inuyasha comes there is only one more guest coming. His name is Hojo. Nathan, Kara, Hojo is both your Fathers."

Nathan looked at Kara with an open mouth. "So we are full siblings?" Nathan asked.

"No." Kagome said softly.

"What?" Kara was close to tears. "But we have to be. We have the same Father."

"But not the same mother."

Kagome stilled. That answer had NOT come from her lips. Nor did it come from Shippo or Nathan.

Kagome paled. She knew that voice. The last time she heard it…she was in divorce court.

Kagome turned and gasped. Hojo.

( Here he is. Hey look. This is like the LAST scene he will ever be in so be nice. If you start to panic please turn away from the computer and smash your purple rubber ducky instead of the screen. Thank you. By the way he is going to get REALLY nasty. I already smashed 4 of my many purple rubber ducks for even thinking about this.)

There he was. Hojo had on a brown hat and a long beige overcoat. His face was still deeply tanned and his eyes were still the same brown. But…something was wrong. Dead wrong. His eyes were all out of focused. The manner in which he walked was…crooked.

"Hojo. Are you…are you drunk?" Kagome said standing in between the kids and him.

"Nah, babe. I am only on what the doctors ordered." Hojo tapped his head.

Kagome didn't know what exactly he was talking about. All that mattered was protecting all three of her kids. "What?"

"Drugs, honey. Pure and simple. Drugs and plenty of them. But you will find out soon enough, wont you?" Hojo laughed scenically. Oh this was rich. Here was a dear devil vixen trying to protect herself and her pups. But what he really laughed at was that all her protecting was in vain. He nailed her coffin shut as well as her pup as well as his own.

Hojo tried to get a fixed look on the devil but his eyes just didn't want to focus. Dam the drugs and Dam those bloody doctors!

"Stop, Hojo you are scaring the children! Please! Can you go away and come back in an hour." Kagome asked pleading.

Hojo laughed sickly again. Didn't she understand? You never tell the Angel of Death what to do. The Angel of Death chooses when it is time to come.

Hojo looked down at his hands. So much blood stained his hands. But it was his duty. It was time to shut the devil down and her pups once and for all.

"Kagome. This is where everything ends."

Kagome didn't have a chance to understand what he meant. Hojo launched himself at her and brought her crashing down on the coffee table. The glass covering shattered cutting him and her.

Kagome groaned in pain. She looked up and saw Hojo's dark eyes. Her mind went all fuzzy. What was going on? Her head hurt…Kagome touched the back of her head and brought it in front of her face. Red. A red sticky substance stained her fingers.

Just then she heard a scream that broke her heart. "MOMMY!"

Kagome's eyes widened. The kids! HOJO! Kagome got on her feet as best she could and shook her head to clear her mind.

Meanwhile Hojo was cornering the kids. "Look at you. You're Kara aren't you. My aren't you the Devils Bit." Hojo reached down for Kara. Kara's eyes widened in fear as she screamed for her mother. Shippo put his body in front of his sister and scratched at Hojo's hand.

"OWWW!" Hojo's scream of pain split the air. Kagome felt her hair stand on its ends.

"WHY YOU-" Hojo went in for Shippo but Kagome reached him first.

Kagome had no idea what she was doing. She threw herself at his back making him stumble to his knees. Hojo grunted as he went on all fours. Kagome was pounding his back with her fists. Hojo felt like laughing. Her fists were like rain on a roof…pointless. Hojo swung an arm around her tiny waist and he swung her so she was on her back in front of him. When Hojo went in Kagome began scratching at his face with her fingernails.

Out of the corner of her eye she saw Shippo racing in to help.

"NO! GO AWAY! Get Kara and Nathan and GO! Go get help!" Kagome screamed at the top of her lungs fighting Hojo off the best she could. Her strength was wearing out.

'Oh God!' She thought mentally. 'Please! Don't let my children see me die! PLEASE!'

Shippo, with tears in his eyes, ran and took Nathan and Kara's hands and dragged them down the steps toward the front door. Kara and Nathan shrieked for her the whole way.. Kagome's heart twisted in pain. Her babies. Would she ever hold them again?

Hojo finally broke her defenses and punched her in the jaw. Kagome saw lights dance before her eyes. Hojo took hold of her shirt and pulled her up so she had nowhere to look except him.

"Do you know I am, Bi? I am the Angel of Death. Angel of Destruction. It's time to end your life." Hojo's grin made her want to puke.

"Why?" Kagome gasped. "Why are you doing this?"

Hojo laughed, "Boy, I thought you would understand after all these years. You listen girl…do you know who started this he for me? Do you know who sentence it was to send me into the place where I am living now. YOU. Even from the very beginning you gave me your body but not your heart or soul. No matter what I did. No matter how kind and sweet I was…I WAS NEVER THE ONE. Inuyasha always held your heart and soul, didn't he? No matter how hard I tried I could never match up to your precious and perfect Inuyasha. You daring devil. You gambled with everyone's life and guess what. You just lost. Now, even your precious Inuyasha can't escape it."

Kagome's eyes were large with fear. "What?"

"Clueless. That's the way you have always been. Time to end this dance." Hojo drew from his pocket a knife. Kagome pressed herself to the ground.

Here it comes. Kagome let a tear trickle out the corner of her eye. She was never going to hold hers and Inuyasha's child. Never know what it was like to lead a happy family life. She was never again going to look in her children's eyes. No more proving to Shippo that she could be his mother…NO! No. She couldn't give up like this. NO, NO, NO!

Kagome made her face look passive. Hojo smiled sickly. Hojo flipped the knife in his hand began to come down toward her with it. Meanwhile Hojo had crushed her to the floor with her feet on his chest. As soon as he came closer Kagome launched him off of her. Rolling away Kagome scrambled to wards the kitchen. Hojo grabbed her foot and dug the knife deep into her thigh. Kagome screamed and kicked him in the face.

Limping and gasping Kagome made it the kitchen. Just then she felt his arms around her. Kagome grabbed the nearest thing close to her and turned around and slammed it into her chest. Hojo gasped. A thin line of blood came out of his lips. Kagome stepped away from him in pure horror. She had stabbed him with a butcher knife that had been laying on the counter. But she missed his heart. Instead of hitting on the left side she had stabbed his right.

Hojo stared at her in hatred. "YOU!" He sputtered spitting blood on her. Kagome was too stunned to move. The pain in her leg was killing her. She felt her blood flow in a steady stream down her leg.

Where he got his strength from she would never know but he grabbed and pulled her out of the kitchen. "You are going to die." His words were mercifulness. Kagome tried to struggle.

Right in front of the banister Hojo made her fall to her knees. Then he wrapped his hands around her neck. Kagome tried to scratch at his hands but her world was blackening before her eyes. NO!

Kagome got what was left of her strength and she hit him hard in the groin. Hojo's hands fell away as he screamed. Kagome eyes cleared as the oxygen got back into her system.

Kagome looked up to find Hojo stumbling back toward the banister. Kagome let her instincts take over. Kagome rammed her sore body into his chest. Hojo was blown back and broke through he weak banister. As he started to fall Kagome felt herself smile. She did it! Then…Hojo reached out and grabbed her. In one last effort he grabbed onto Kagome hoping that she would be able to stop his falling. But Kagome's frail body weighed half of what he was. Hojo fell taking Kagome with him. Kagome remembered screaming…then…nothing.

Foxgem: Oh yeah…who rules? I RULE! There you go. I promise that is the last scene with Hojo. Yes Hojo will be mentioned just not shown. Besides who wants to see him anyway? Thanks allot guys for reviewing!