HAPPY TURKEY DAY EVERYONE!!!!!! (I'm writing this (the last part) on Thanxgiving)
Disclaimer: Don't own Inuyasha, never have, never will…but I own the wonderfully depressing poem!! If there's anything I'm good at writing it is definitely depressing stuff!! (shut up I don't care if that's a bad thing…NO IT DOES NOT MEAN I HAVE PROBLEMS…well ok maybe problems but not THAT kind anyway…lol)
A/N: GRRR MUST UPDATE ...DO NOT READ BEHIND THE MASQUERADE! In the words of Mirocu…resist all temptation…-takes deep breaths-
Sry it took so long to update, I made this chapter longer than the last one cause I took so long.
I'm sooo happy! I got five, count 'em FIVE reviews!! –dances with glee- People are actually reading this and they like it!!! Hehehehehe! And remember… the more reviews the faster I update (especially if u have suggestions)! O yeah if you review I'll check out your stories and maybe review them! ; )
I always feel so special when someone responds to my reviews! So now I'll respond to yours!!! lol…ok…
HugeAnimefan1: Thanx!! Oo its Interesting! YAY! Hehe…oo u know it's partially based on ur story Nightingale's Voice…but not that much just the part about her mom being dead…I'll try VERY hard not to copy anything…
Ritsuki-chan: I'll let you in on a secret: half the big words I use are made up ; ) lol…and believe me you are just as good an author as I am! I showed the strangest and weirdest stories ever to my friends…we couldn't stop laughing!! You and Sinubi are WAY more creative than me…I could never write anything that funny…I'm only good at depressing crap! : (
I could've had off for Thanxgiving from Wednesday until Monday…but no! my mom had to make me go to the grand total of the 1 and a half hours of skool…grrrrr! Well thanx for reviewing!
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Sry if I missed anyone…so thanks if u liked it and if u hated it…well that's ur problem!! Ha!
One more thing… while I was writing this A/N my sister and her friend were reading it out loud and they made it sound really stupid and spazy! Sry if I do sound crazy, but I'm kinda hyper…lol…I'll try not to sound so preppy and stupid next time! (No offense to the preppy people!)
Hateful Hanyous and Stolen Souls
Kagome shrieked as cold water hit her. She jumped out of the way of the icy blast and turned the shower knobs. She sighed with relief and stepped under the now warm flow of water.
"Kagome, are you ok?" Sango called from the shower stall next to hers.
"I'm fine. These shower knobs are just impossible to work. Yesterday I almost burned myself and today I almost froze myself to death," Kagome complained.
"I know what you mean," Sango sympathized, "I couldn't get the water the right temperature when I first came here either."
Kagome finished rinsing the shampoo out of her hair and stepped out of the shower. After she dried off she pulled on the clothes she had selected. Grey slacks with no decorations of any kind, a white polo shirt, and plain, black slip on shoes that were slightly formal. She stepped out of the shower stall and went over to the sink to blow-dry her hair. She finished and started to brush her hair when Sango came to stand next to her. She was looking at her funny.
"Umm, Kagome," Sango started to say, "No offense or anything, but do have any other clothes? Those are a little, ummm," she searched for a word that wasn't mean, "plain?"
Kagome ran the brush through her hair a final time and said decisively, "It fits my mood," before stalking out of the room. Sango sighed. Something pretty bad must've happened in Kagome's old life to put her in a world with no color. Because no color means no joy.
X.x
Kagome entered the dining room, which was full of about twenty children who were laughing and talking. It was a large room with several tables and a window with a counter that connected it to the kitchen. One portion of the window opened and closed, like a gait.
Seeing her brother sitting alone at an empty table Kagome went and sat next to him. "Hi," she said brightly, but Souta didn't respond. Suddenly she noticed a thin white cord, coming out of each of his ears that eventually connected and led into one of his huge cargo pockets. Kagome scowled, and yanked on the cord, dislodging the headphones from his ears.
"Hey!" he yelled, "why did you do that!"
"It's not polite to listen to your ipod at the table!" she huffed.
"You sound like mom!" he said angrily.
Pushing aside the rush of pain, Kagome retorted, "That's because she wouldn't have allowed you to listen to music at the table. If I was really acting like her I would confiscate the ipod!"
Souta dropped his head submissively. "Sorry sis, I won't listen to my ipod at the table again," he said quietly.
Sango watched this exchange with interest, having just entered the room. It confused her that Souta had given in so easily. Deciding it wasn't important she went over and sat next to Kagome. "Hi," she said cheerfully.
"Hi," Kagome replied shyly, "Look, I'm really sorry about how I acted upstairs." She braced herself to be yelled at.
"O that, no it's my fault, I shouldn't have said anything," Sango said apologetically. "So where's your food?" she asked, digging into the pancakes on her tray.
"O, I'm just not that hungry," Kagome said lamely. Sango raised an eyebrow. "I am NOT anorexic!" Kagome said in an annoyed tone.
"Whatever," Sango said, hoping she wasn't lying.
"I'm gonna go finish getting ready for school. See you later Kag," Souta said as he stood up.
"Sure, I'll see you around," Kagome replied with a motherly smile. Souta left to put away his tray and go upstairs.
"Aww, how sweet," Inuyasha said sarcastically and sat down next to Sango. Mirocu sat sown across from Sango, next to Kagome, where Souta had previously been.
In response to Inuyasha's remark Kagome only looked down and blushed faintly. She and Inuyasha had not hit it off when they first met. It just made her mad thinking about it.
Flashback
(A/N: sry to interrupt the story…just have to say this…Sry if this is a long flashback, it wasn't going to be a flashback, but then my story ending up starting at a different time than I had expected…it's funny how authors think they actually control these things…who knows maybe the good ones can)
Kaede led Kagome to a room with a closed door. The sign on it read 'teen lounge'.
"Kagome, ye wait in here. I will introduce Souta to the other children his age and then bring the other teenagers to meet ye," Kaede said and Kagome nodded.
Kaede opened the door onto a small, but comfortable room. It held a couch and several recliners as well as a huge plasma screen TV with several gaming systems next to it. A bookshelf on the far wall held books, cards, board games, and computer and video games. A foozball (A/N: do you really expect me to know how to spell that) table was in the back of the room (to kag's right). Basically it was a perfect place for hanging out.
"Inuyasha," Kaede called to a teenage male playing Halo 2 from the couch. (A/N: couldn't resist making it Halo 2…some of the boys in my class r sooo obsessed with that…it's SOO annoying!) He wore baggy jeans and a plain, white tee-shirt. He was extremely good looking, (A/N: I'm hesitating to call an anime character damn sexy…anyway it's not something Kagome would think/say…ok no more interruptions…I promise) but that wasn't what Kagome first noticed. The adorable dog ears coming out of the top of his head immediately caught her eye, as well as revealed to her that he was a hanyou. In her old life Kagome would have wanted to touch the fuzzy appendages (A/N: that is from luvingreen…I couldn't come up with something like that), but now she just looked back down and continued to study her shoes as she seemed to do so often these days.
"Yeah?" he said, while continuing to blow up the other little men on the screen.
"This is Kagome; I'll be back in about 20 minutes with the others in your age group. Be nice."
"Whatever," he said as Kaede left, closing the door behind her. Kagome just stood there and Inuyasha continued gaming. Kagome was starting to feel sick from all the killing taking place on the screen. Just when she was starting to feel like she was going to throw up if he killed another person in the game, he paused it, growling annoyedly (A/N: don't care if that's not a word).
"Why are you just standing there!" he yelled (A/N: it had been like five minutes…ok now I really will stop). Kagome flinched. "You could at least sit down," he said in an annoyed tone. Kagome obeyed, sitting on the only plastic folding chair. She sat on the edge of her seat, hands in her lap, looking at the floor.
"God, Woman! Why are you so quiet?!" He was starting to get angry. (A/N: it's funny how Inuyasha is always yelling before he is actually angry…REALLY must stop this! I mean the annoying authors notes after like every sentence…)
"There isn't anything to talk about," Kagome's voice was barely more than a whisper.
"Fine," he said, she could tell he was annoyed, but at least he was trying not to yell. "Why are you here?" he asked.
"Why do you think?" her voice was bitter.
"What I meant was how did they die?" Inuyasha said, as if he was stating the obvious.
Kagome winced. She bit her lip, trying not to cry. "I don't want to talk about it," she said quietly, not quite able to disguise the pain in her voice.
Inuyasha rolled his eyes. "Oh please, it can't be that bad," he said, and she could tell he found her irritating. "Don't think you're special because your parents died. You're not gonna be treated different because of what happened. Maybe at your old school or home you were, but not here. Here we're all like you."
End Flashback-that was a long one
'He's so insensitive!' she thought. 'He has no idea what happened and he just assumes they died of a disease or in a car crash!'
"Leave her alone, Inuyasha!" Sango said. (A/N: in case you forgot after the big-ass flashback…u know Inuyasha's 'aww how sweet' remark when he sat down)
Inuyasha just rolled his eyes. He focused his attention back on Kagome. "Why aren't you eating, food not good enough for you?" Inuyasha said with a smirk.
"I'm not eating because don't feel well," Kagome said quietly.
"I know the horrible conditions here really take a toll on a person," he said shaking his head, his voice sarcastic.
"I never said that was why I felt bad," she was still quiet, but her voice was firm instead of the normally lost way it sounded.
"Oh, really? What's put you off your feed then, or do you just not eat in general?" She wanted to smack the smirk off his face, but she knew it was only the kind of thing she'd do in her old life. 'He just loves tormenting me!' Kagome thought. 'He never thinks for a second it could be serious…and I hate it when people imply I'm anorexic!'
Kagome stood up. "I threw up last night, but I see you obviously don't care!" she said angrily, but her voice was still soft. She stalked off.
"Inuyasha, that was really mean!" Sango cried.
"Hey, I'm not the one who thinks I'm better than everyone else!" he retorted. "And anyway, how was I supposed to know she was really sick?"
"Sango scowled, "Kagome doesn't think she's better than us! She's just quiet! Inuyasha, you can't just make assumptions about people!"
"You wouldn't say that if you had seen her when I first met her! She wouldn't talk to me because she thought she was so much better than me! And she was sitting on her chair like she was disgusted by it! I swear she must've been rich or somethin'!"
"Inuyasha, I told you she's quiet!" Sango growled.
"Well she wouldn't even answer when I asked a direct question!"
Mirocu was watching them yell back and forth, like a ping-pong match.
"What did you ask?" Sango's voice was dangerous.
"I asked about her parents, but I know what happened to your parents. You didn't mind telling me!" Inuyasha was a little scared at the look on Sango's face.
"Inuyasha," she said in an exasperated voice, "everyone is different. You can't just ask someone who is so obviously hurting inside a question like that!"
"It isn't obvious!" he yelled.
"Oh, please, Inuyasha," Sango began to tick each reason off on her fingers, "very quiet, and reclusive, always staring at her feet, doesn't wear any bright colors, acts like her brother is the most precious thing in the world. This person is hurting, Inuyasha!"
Seeing Inuyasha was about to yell at Sango, Mirocu said, "You guys, can you stop, my neck is starting to hurt."
The 3 friends burst out laughing, the argument forgotten.
X.x
Kagome collapsed onto her bed, sobbing. She screamed into her pillow. She hated him. But even more she hated herself. For crying over everything. For not taking better care of Souta. But most of all, deep down inside, she loathed herself for not telling the truth. She wanted to tell so much, but she wasn't strong enough. Telling the truth meant more fear. More loss. More pain. She couldn't face that.
She sat up and shook her head, trying to push those thoughts from her mind. She decided to think about Inuyasha to distract herself, but it didn't work for long. 'Why does he hate me so much?' she wondered. She felt like the whole world hated her. "Why does God hate me so much?" she whispered, tears falling from her eyes. "What did I do to deserve this?"
Kagome did the one thing that gave her comfort at such times. Kneeling on the floor, she reached under her bed and pulled out a small cardboard box. She winced seeing other boxes, knowing they contained photos from her past life and posters that used to hang on her walls.
She sat on her bed again and pulled a notebook out of the box. She flipped through, looking for a blank page. Half of the book was already filled. She took out her pen she always used for writing. Pulling off the cap she began to write.
X.x
Sango opened the door to her room she shared with Kagome and two other girls.
"Come on, I need to get my coat and backpack," she told Mirocu and Inuyasha. The first thing they noticed when they walked in was Kagome. She was sitting on the bed next to a cardboard box, scribbling furiously in a book. She hadn't noticed them come in.
She finished writing and looked at the book for a moment before scowling and crossing something out. She wrote something else and then continued to look it over.
"Whatcha writin'?" Sango asked cheerfully.
Kagome jumped. She looked up and saw Sango, Mirocu, and Inuyasha looking at her curiously.
"Nothing," she squeaked. She hastily began to close the book.
She wasn't fast enough. Sango snatched the book and looked over what was written there. Her eyes widened and she sat next to Kagome on the bed.
"Umm Kagome, are you ok?" Sango asked. "Anything you wanna talk about?" Kagome blushed.
"Hey lemme see that!" Mirocu said and grabbed the book. He read for a while and his eyes widened.
"What's so frigging interesting?!" Inuyasha growled.
Mirocu read the poem aloud, his voice sad.
"I see people smile
And it makes me cry
Sitting all alone
I just want to die.
I wish there was someone
With whom I could share my pain
But even if there was
I don't think they'd understand.
I am the ghost
Of a joy now long gone
My heart was ripped out
Long ago by someone.
People stare at me
Because to them
I am strange.
Maybe that's what I've become
But I wasn't
Once.
I'm looking for someone.
Anyone,
Please.
To help put the
Soul
Back in me."
There was silence for a few minutes when Mirocu finished reading.
Then Kagome came to her senses and grabbed the notebook before they could read anything else in it. Sango, Mirocu, and Inuyasha watched her as she put the book and pen in the box and stuck it back under her bed.
Sango's face showed concern, Mirocu's curiosity (and a perverted grin when she bent over to put the box under the bed), and Inuyasha's was blank, hiding his emotions bouncing around inside. Kagome could feel their eyes following her. Finally she couldn't take it anymore.
"Would you quit looking at me!" she yelled. The 3 were astonished that the always quiet girl was now screaming her head off.
Kagome began to stalk out of the room.
"Kagome," Sango called, causing her to pause. "Are you sure you're ok?"
"I'm fine," Kagome said in a cold, yet annoyed voice. She didn't realize it, but she sounded exactly how she used to when she was angry in her old life.
"Then what was that poem supposed to mean?" Mirocu asked gently.
"NOTHING!!!" Kagome screamed, her hands forming fists. She stormed out of the room and Mirocu and Sango sighed. Inuyasha just stood there, a blank look on his face. His mind was racing, looking for an excuse to still hate her with this new evidence.
"Now do you get what I meant, Inuyasha," Sango said in a tired voice.
"All I get is that this girl is not only stuck up, but she harbors a huge amount of self-pity! Not to mention she can scream like a demon from hell," he said stubbornly, rubbing his ears.
Sango growled.
'Not again!' Mirocu thought as their yells began to fill the room.
X.x
A/N: Ok I wrote the 3 authors notes on different days I expected to finish…the last is the last one I wrote most recently…
A/N: Whoot! Finally…I was beginning to think it would never end! I almost didn't end it here…thank God I did! 8 pages including my very long Authors Notes!! Not too shabby!!! My only regret is nowhere does Inuyasha say 'Feh' or 'Keh'…o well maybe next time! Sorry for lack of developing Mirocu's character…I'm still trying to figure out if I want him to be all goofy pervert or a little wise too…hmm. All you San/Mirocu freaks, no flames!! Plenty of juicy chappies coming up! (haha like anyone would really care enough about this to flame me!...great just for that watch someone say they hate this chapter…damn!) O well whatever…I hope u liked it! Please review! Flames are accepted…really I am THAT desperate!
A/N: Just wanted to say…isn't it so weird when you know someone exists, but they have no idea that you do? For ex. I was just searching for pics of Sesshy-crazy grin-on the web and someone's web site popped up…so I learned all this stuff about this guy, but when I tried to sign his guest book I couldn't cause I'm not a site member. So now I know he exists, but he doesn't know I exist. –shivers- this kinda thing gives me the creeps! U know it's the whole 'what if everyone sees red different' thing…
A/N: UGG I AM SOOO MAD!!! And it sux cause now I have a head ache and I'm all clogged from crying!!! Not to mention the five minute lecture from my mom. PARENTS ARE SO EVIL!! (I would use a stronger word, but then I'd be sooo dead if my parents ever read this...) O well at least I'm on the computer…maybe I'll go read some depressing fanfics…
O yeah everyone please check out my new fanfic Child of the Lost…
And my friend Liz's fanfic called A Hogwarts Tale…it's under my favorites if you can't find it…her account is like Larohzetta or something
One last thing…Inuyasha wants to hate Kagome so much because…I know I haven't really showed this well…he's been hating her for like a week…it's like a habit. Not hating her would feel weird at this point… yup that was a pretty bad explanation…from now on I promise not to try and rush the plot!