Even if you didn't review last chappie I suggest you read the v. long A/N and responses to reviewers as it gives you some more info. about the story, in case you were confuzzled (confused).
I LUV YOU!!!!! I love you, all my beautiful reviewers!! You brightened my day when I was writing a three page paper! Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!
-sniff- I think I'm gonna cry! I am soooo touched. No really, I'm NOT being sarcastic here!! We have reached, one sec let me check the web…
-has a spasm- OMG!!!!!! YAY!! Did I mention that I love you?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
31 REVIEWS!!!!!! I FEEL SO SPECIAL!!! O and did I mention none of these are flames!!!!! YAY!!!
Okay deep breaths….ommmmmmmmm
Ok I've calmed down now, but seriously, thank you so much for all the reviews. I am going to try and write this chapter because of all of your reviews, even though I have almost no ideas for it. Well, here are my replies to my reviewers!!
Fiona-Angel: Thank you!! Glad you love it! thanks for the review!
Dark Shadow-sama: Hehe thanx!! I'm glad u like my story. Sorry to keep you in suspense, I'll try to update more regularly. Oh, and you weren't reallygoing to stab Inuyasha with a fork…were you?
CherryBlossomLove: hehe, you made me laugh when all I could think about was carl Linnaeus and my stupid paper! And yes I think ur the only one who called my story awesome… if someone else did and I have forgotten them then I am very sorry. I just wanna say thanx for the review! –gives CherryBlossomLove a sticker- it says 'faithful reviewer'. I totally respect you. I haven't even found the time to review my favorite fic on this site and you have reviewed 3 chapters of this in a row! I luv u! Speaking of reviewing fics, I was going to review yours, but my computer was all screwy.
Kasatka : I kno, I feel so bad for her! Her life is total crap. Too bad it's me who's inflicting it upon her! Hehe –evil grin- thanx for the review!
KaguyaEvenstar: yes it is a start, but unfortunately Inuyasha seems unable to communicate emotion to any but the dead or those in danger of dying. So basically how he will get himself out of this 'I hate you Kagome' thing is beyond me. (actually it isn't because I've already written that chapter! Lol) well thanx for the review!
stand alone complex 17: her eyes turned red? Sry if I wasn't clear, but her eyes stayed their normal color, she just couldn't really see the real world…kinda like a waking memory; so all she could see was blood and that freaky guy. Sorry but Kagome is staying fully human in this fic…it would mess up my plot too much if I changed that. Maybe next time! Thanx for the review!
Kougas #1 fan: no I don't really check ebay…at least, not every day. No, jk! I never go on ebay. I actually do have some sense of reality, surprising as that may seem. Glad u liked the chappie! Thanx for the review!
AB: I kno, it is sad, isn't it! Well, Inuyasha does want to comfort her, at least in my opinion, and I am the author. I think he just doesn't really know how to come to terms with the way he feels about Kagome, so he takes out his confusion by making himself hate her. I would've made him comfort her, but then a big part of the story would be cut out, so I didn't want that to happen just yet.
-wipes forehead- wow! That was deep! I'm glad I got my intellectual analysis mood thingy out of my system! If I act too smart and thoughtful for too long I begin to scare myself! Well thanx for the review!!
DarkElfGirl7: hehe! I luv u! –gives a sticker- it says 'most enthusiastic reviewer'- or 'crazy psychopath reviewer'…whichever works for you! But I still luv u! hehe lol! And yeah, it's like after you use smirked for the 20th time you begin to wonder if you really are a good writer or if your reviewers were just high while they read ur story…
Well thanx for the review!!
And I was just kidding about the crazy psychopath thing
Crazy Tengu: heehee yay! I want to write 'glad you liked it' but I already wrote that for someone else. Hmmm I really need a bigger vocabulary. Thanx for the review!
spiketwo89: I completely agree with you, as I said earlier –adjusts glasses- Inuyasha just needs to come to terms with his inner emo…o whoops there I go again! And I don't really have glasses either. I am glad u found this fic to ur liking (hmm…now I see why I just normally say 'glad u liked it') But anyway, thanks for the review!
Gothic Inuyasha: Yay! Questions! You are the first person to ask questions! As for what happened to Kagome…I kinda just explained it to stand alone complex 17, but I'll say it better. Kagome had a waking dream thing, where the suppressed memories from the night her mother died overflowed. So basically she couldn't make herself think about anything else and then suddenly all she could see was blood (and then that man) and she could only hear her mother screaming at her (and that man). Freaky, no?
And, yes, Kagome will eventually tell Inuyasha what happened. However, that won't be for a while, not even right away when they become friends. (Yes, I did just give that away, but please, it was obvious. I mean, did you look at the genre? Angst/ROMANCE. It kinda gives it away, anyway) But, anyway he might not even find out till the sequel (yes, there will be a sequel; don't have a spasm)
Thanx for the review!!
Well once again: thanx for all your reviews!! this time there were so many of you it took up two pages to respond to them. But don't get me wrong, that is a good thing. A very good thing. Sorry if I missed anyone but (God, how many times must I write this) if you liked it then: YAY! If you hated it: that's ur problem.
I just want to say one last thing before we get on to chapter 5(which is a significant number). Thanks so much for all your support. I have 31 reviews for just 4 chapters, and I never hoped to get more than 10. I really do love you all. I just wanna say, that last chapter I was a little unsure about what to write, and when I randomly came up with what I posted instead of my original plan I wasn't sure if you would like it. so thank you. Really. No, stop laughing!!! I'm trying to have a goddam sentimental moment here, so I would appreciate it if you would stop laughing in my face.
Ok I kno by now ur just like 'shut the fuck up and get on with the goddam story' but I have to finish my last thought. What I was trying to say when u started laughing (glare) was now u have shown me that I actually am a pretty good author, and I can follow my whims and end up with something pretty damn good. So thanx. And I will shut up now.
Sorry for wasting 2 ½ pages of your time.
Disclaimer: this time I will tell the truth because some of you take me too literally. (you should know by now that half of what I say is BS) I don't own Inuyasha. There it is, plain and simple, do you get it now??
Hey, wait a second, I just wrote over two pages without being interrupted by Inuyasha! That either means I am actually sane today (v. unlikely) or…
Me: -poke-
Inuyasha: -opens eyes and blinks sleepily- Hey! What was that for wench! I was sleeping!
Me: oops sorry
Hmm guess I'm not going to be passing any sanity tests any time soon! O well!
Now the story:
Just a warning: the chappie name is slightly funny… the chappie is not.
Healings of a Broken Heart
Tearless Pain Equals Insanity?
"She threw up again," Inuyasha stated quietly. It was the day after Kagome had stayed home from school; a Saturday. He was sitting in a lounge chair in the Teen Lounge, talking with Sango and Miroku, who sat on the couch.
"I guess she really was sick then, so why does she keep saying she's fine?" Sango asked.
Inuyasha shrugged, "I dunno, but she said she wasn't sick."
"Is she bulimic, then?" Miroku questioned.
Inuyasha winced. "She screamed at me when I asked her that," he told them.
"But, then why did she throw up?" Sango asked confusedly. (A/N: haha she;s confuzzled!)
"She said she had been thinking about when her mom died and that was what made her throw up," Inuyasha answered.
"Why would that make someone throw up? Unless her mother died in a gory car accident or something," Miroku reasoned.
"Why did she tell you that?" Sango asked Inuyasha suspiciously.
He smirked. "I have my ways."
Sango's eyes widened. "You didn't threaten her, did you?"
"Only mildly," Inuyasha replied.
"Inuyasha," Sango growled, "what did you say?"
Inuyasha sounded annoyed, "I told her I'd tell Kaede she threw up, if she didn't tell me."
"Why wouldn't she want Kaede to know?" Sango asked, not noticing that Miroku was using her distraction as an opportunity to scoot closer to her on the couch.
"She said something about not wanting her to worry," Inuyasha said uninterestedly.
Suddenly there was a knock on the door. Kaede poked her head into the Teen Lounge. "Dinner is in ten minutes, I need ye to come help me prepare it," she told them.
The three got up and followed her out of the room and down the hallway. Miroku sighed. He had missed his chance to put his arm around Sango.
X.x
Kagome stood in the kitchen, humming to herself as she chopped vegetables. Suddenly she slipped and cut her finger instead of the carrot.
"Oww!" she cried, instinctively sticking the hurt finger in her mouth. That was her mistake. She took her finger out of her mouth, and looked at it; watching the blood continue to pour from the wound.
"Kagome, are you ok?" Sango asked. She had just walked into the kitchen with Inuyasha, Miroku, and Kaede.
Kagome only stood there, eyes wide, staring at the blood on her finger. She managed three weak words before her eyes glazed over,
"Souta…get…Souta." Then her eyes became unseeing and her breath came in short, uneven gasps. Kagome fell to her knees.
"Miroku, get Souta," Sango cried, and dashed over to Kagome, with Kaede following her.
Inuyasha stood in the doorway to the basement, watching.
(A/N: I've described the orphanage really badly, but think of the basement like this: although it is a basement it is more like a lower floor. The whole thing is finished, and there is basically a hallway with doorways to places like the teen lounge, and storage rooms. (kind of like the temple basement, Prozdor peoples)I will expand on this if I get more ideas. Oh yeah, and because this is just the door way to the basement you should know there are a couple others in the kitchen. They are: a.) a doorway into the dining room. This is the part of the window that acts as a gate (mentioned in chapter two) b.) a doorway out to the backyard. Mainly for romantic purposes (aka coming in from playing in the snow for hot chocolate. This will be used in a later chapter) c.) A door to the stairwell, which is by the front door. This is the door Miroku is about to use. I will shut up now. Sorry for wasting your time, but hopefully now you understand the house better. In the future I want to try and sketch a floor plan and put it on the web. Where I would put it, who knows…maybe I'll get a deviant art. Does that cost money? There was something else I wanted to draw and post, but I don't remember what it was now…o well)
'This is the same type of thing as what happened yesterday,' he (A/N: Inuyasha, in case you couldn't remember after the big ass author's note) thought.
Miroku had run out of the room and was calling up the stairs, "Souta, come down here! Hurry up!"
"What for?" Souta called back.
"It's your sister!" Miroku said.
"Coming!" Souta yelled, thudding down the stairs. He reached the bottom of them, and rushed into the kitchen with Miroku. "Oh, crap," Souta said when he saw Kagome.
He rushed over and crouched in next to her. (A/N: Kaede and Sango got up when he came in.) "Kagome," he said shaking her, "Kagome, listen to me!" He let go of her, "Kagome can you hear me? Nod if you can hear me." She nodded; slowly, as if it took a lot of effort.
(A/N: it's hard for her because she's having trouble finding her physical body as well as the rest of the physical world.)
Souta continued in a calm voice, as opposed to the slightly panicked one he had used before. "Can you see?" he asked. She shook her head, her eyes clouded with pain and confusion.
"Just concentrate on breathing," he told her. "It's all over," Souta continued in a whisper so only she could hear; however, Inuyasha could hear, too. (A/N: cause he's hanyou) "It's all in the past. It's gonna be ok, sis," he told her quietly.
"Souta," Kagome moaned in a whisper. She stretched her hand out toward his voice; reaching blindly for him through the darkness that was all she could see.
"I'm here Kagome," he told her, matching their palms, and intertwining his fingers with hers.
She blinked a few times and her eyes cleared. "Souta," she murmured, pulling him into a hug. Her body shook, as she sobbed tearlessly.
Souta just sat there, letting her hold him.
After a few minutes she let go of him. "I'm sorry," she whispered, as her eyes closed and she fell to the floor.
"What's happening?" Sango asked almost immediately.
"Is Kagome alright?" Kaede asked.
Inuyasha just watched silently from the doorway and Miroku took a step closer to Sango.
"It's nothing," Souta replied, "This is normal." 'Or at least, it used to be,' he thought. "She'll be fine; she always passes out after this happens. She should wake up soon," he continued.
"Did she…" he looked at Kagome, "There we go; this would be it," he said, holding up her cut hand.
"What do you mean?" Sango asked.
"This probably caused it," Souta told her.
"How?" she questioned, not noticing that Miroku now stood right next to her.
"Probably from the blood and pain," Souta responded.
"But people experience blood, and pain on a daily basis. Does this happen all the time? Ye said it was normal," Kaede remarked.
"It doesn't happen all the time. In fact, it hasn't happened in a while," Souta answered.
"But when it does happen, we just do what you did and it will end?" Sango asked.
Souta shook his head, "No, that only works when I do it."
"Feh, that happens just because of a little blood? What a weakling," Inuyasha said with disdain.
Souta glared at him, "My sister is not a weakling!" He glanced at her, filled with admiration, 'She's been so strong,' he thought, 'it was much worse for her, and yet, she just pushed it away so she could take care of me.'
Souta scowled at Inuyasha, "You're gonna regret what you said. You should know a person before you pass judgment on them."
He clenched his fists and began to get up.
"Stop," a voice said weakly, and a hand grabbed his wrist. Kagome sat up. "Souta don't," she told him. "It's not worth it. Remember words can…"
"Make us or break us depending on how we let ourselves be affected by them," he said along with her. She gave him a motherly smile and then stood up.
"I'm sorry if I caused a scene," Kagome told Kaede.
"It's alright as long as ye are fine," she replied.
"I am," Kagome said with a reassuring smile that was impossible to tell if it was real or false.
"You sure?" Sango asked skeptically.
Miroku took a final step closer to her and put his arm around her waist.
"PEVERT!" she screamed, and slapped him when he grabbed her ass.
"Uh, sis," Souta said quietly, "can I talk to you for a minute?"
"Sure," Kagome responded.
"Alone," Souta finished.
"Oh, ok. Let's go in the hall," she gave Kaede an apologetic smile, "We'll just be a moment." The pair went into the hall.
Sango smiled and gave a satisfied sigh as she finished beating up Miroku. She and Kaede began working on finishing dinner. (A/N: haha it's oxymoronical!!! (that's one of my words)Beginning to finish something! hehe)
Miroku got an icepack out of the freezer and sat on a stool holding it on the red, hand-shaped mark on his face.
Inuyasha grabbed a soda (A/N: haha, Souta, soda! lol…wow, I am way too easily amused.) and leaned against the wall by the door, unconsciously listening in on Kagome and Souta's conversation.
"Sis, what happened in there?" Souta asked Kagome.
"I cut my finger," she told him.
"I know that," he replied, "What I mean is, why did you react like that. It hasn't happened in, like, a month."
"I don't know, Souta," Kagome said with a sigh. She sounded scared, "It's just, I-i can't cry anymore." Her voice cracked. "And for some reason that's caused this to start happening again."
"Are you gonna be ok?" Souta was concerned. 'She had gotten so good at controlling it,' he thought. 'And she sounds really scared.'
"I'll be fine," Kagome gave him a reassuring smile. "Don't worry about me; I just need to find a way to suppress it," she told him.
"Ok, if you're sure," Souta replied with a smile. He could tell she was still scared, but didn't want to worry him. For now, he decided, he would let her believe that he thought everything was alright.
But what Kagome didn't know then was that when she tried to suppress this thing that kept happening, she would only end up burying it.
And, like the body that the murderer buries in his back yard, it would, at night, crawl out of its hole, to dance in her dreams.
X.x
A/N: -sigh- I hope the plot makes up for my horrible writing style, and un-useful vocabulary. Why couldn't they teach us any useful words in vocabulary last year. Like another way to say smirked, or something. I mean do they honestly think that I'll ever use a word like repartee????? –sigh-
Well I ended it there cause I didn't really want to write more. Maybe I'll elaborate when I go back and edit.
But you won't be able to tell the difference. So, ha!
Me: The next chappie will come as soon as possible, but I want to try and update my other fics first. Or at least post my fic in response to the tsunami. –sweatdrop-
Inuyasha: talk about delayed reaction!!!
Me: Hey! I'm a very busy person!
Inuyasha: -rolls eyes- Sure you are.
Listen to me I'm so horrible. 'I'm a busy person, so I can't even post a story as a tribute to tsunami victims.' And they don't even get to read it. –sniff-
O well whatever. I just wanna say a couple of things before I go. First of all, the last two chapters have been pretty drama-packed. I don't know if you liked so much drama squished together, or what, but if I continue like this the story will be only a little over 10 chapters. And you wouldn't want that, now would you.
In other words, the story will calm down a little. At least, less waking dreams, more fighting between Inuyasha and Kagome. Oops, did I just give that away? o well….
One last thing…it may be a while until I update because, well ummm….ok let's just pretend I have a life.
Would you stop laughing!? Ok fine I just have a lot of homework and I'm very lazy.
Not to mention that I'm kind of sick. But I'm sure that u don't care. U just want me to update. –sniff-
-blows nose- Goddam cold!!!
Ok, well, so if it takes a while to update, please be patient. I know it's hard, but try for me, will you?
If you can't stand it anymore then go and read my other stories.
And the fics by LaRohaZeta!!! They're really good!!!
Well by for now!! Have fun waiting! –evil laughter-
-Becky-