Down & Out

I wanted to write and update a long time ago, but I just didn't have anything written and whenever I tried to write I'd get stuck…But I'll try to update more frequently. You know how it goes though, school, work, friends. Anyways enjoy and review.

Part Nine: Catching My Breath

Alex rapped on the door in front of her and waited patiently while someone fiddled with the locks on the other end. When the door swung open, there stood Decan. Alex gave him the once over, starring at his pants.

"Um" She muttered pulling her attention back to his face.
"Yeah." Decan said a grin plastered to his face.
"Nice pants? Wait are those my pants?" Alex asked spinning him around so she could see the back. A slight blush crept up his cheeks as he nodded.
"Why exactly are you wearing girl pants? My pants to be exact?" Alex questioned, quirking an eyebrow.
"Well see, this girl really digs em and I thought I had a better chance with her if i you know."
"Decannnn." A voice called from within his apartment.
"I take it, the pants worked?" Alex asked, nodding towards the voice. Decan flashed her one of his million dollar smiles.
"I'll call you later okay?" He said before closing the door.
"Yeah, have fun and be safe."

When she returned to her apartment Alex did the only thing she could think of, slept in her own bed. However before collapsing onto the heap of sheets and blankets she pulled her clothes out of the bag and threw them into a laundry basket.

"Shit, shit, shit." Alex muttered looking through the basket, unable to find her black CBGB shirt. Once again she'd lost her favorite shirt. A frustrated Alex crawled into bed, and closed her eyes waiting for sleep to come over her exhausted body.

When Alex awoke she looked out the window towards the early evening sky. Taking a quick shower, she threw on some clothes and headed towards the bar. Walking into the almost full bar, her manger spotted her and gestured for her to go into his office.

"Alex" He said while closing the door, and turning to face her. Alex held up one of her hands to silence him.
"Billy, I know what your going to say. I'm sorry okay? Something came up."
"Are you okay now?" The older man asked. Alex was one of the best bartenders he had, and he looked after her like she was one of his own.
"Honestly? So much has happened in the past week, I just don't know what I'm supposed to do anymore."
"What do you mean supposed to do? I didn't know there were things we were supposed to do in life." he said taking a seat across from her.
"I guess its more what I need to do and what I want to do."
"Care to elaborate?"
"It's a long story."
"I've got time."

Alex proceeded to tell Billy, her boss about her past relationship with Marisa. All the good times, all the bad times, the jealously, the lies, and the breakup. "And the thing is she got into a car accident like a week or two ago, I can't even really remember days everything just kind of blurred together. So anyway her best friend called me and said she'd been in an accident and that there was a letter for me. And me being the type of person I am, dropped everything and went back to Newport. I ended up staying every night by Marissa's bed side. And I guess early this morning I decided I had to move on with my life. So here I am. " Alex sighed aloud after finishing her story.

Billy sat quietly mulling over everything she'd just told him. "Well obviously your not happy with your decision?"
"I knew I wouldn't be happy with it, it was just something that needed to be done. I had no right to be there with her. We were over, we were done."
"Then why'd you stay? Why'd you even bother going to Newport?"
"I don't know."
"You want to go back don't you?"
"I don't know."
"Do you still care about her?"
"Yes, I've always cared about her. Never really been able to stop myself. She's not easily forgettable. Despite everything."
"Your not easy to forget either Alex. I bet you if she was awake she'd be missing you like hell right now."
"You don't know that."
"No I don't, but you don't know if it could be true or not. Either way your taking a big chance right? You won't know the full truth, and it'll be in the back of your mind bothering you if you don't go back. Take a chance Alex. I mean hell she could have woken up by now and be asking for you right? You won't know unless you go back there, it's obvious that your worried about her and that you care. So why not go back and show her how worried you are, and how much you care? Forget about everything else and just do what your heart tells you to."

After Billy's speech, the room was filled with the sound of the clock. Neither said anymore, until Alex looked up at him.
"You know for an old man you sure have some good advice."
"Words of wisdom. No need to thank me." He smiled.

Alex exited the room and into the nearly vacated bar. Jumping into her jeep she started making her way back towards Newport, knowing that at least for tonight she needed to see Marissa. There were still a lot of things nagging at Alex, but all she knew was that one way or another she needed to see Marissa.

How was that? I'm sorry for just a delayed update. Please review!