Supernatural

No Matter What

AN: Okay, I'm sooo proud of myself right now. I had no idea I could finish my homework that fast and be able to up-date today. But I am! YEY! Okay, so here's chapter three and after you read it, please let me know what you think about it. REPOSTED!

Warning: Self harm and language

Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural.

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I've been haunted by a vision

It's like the morning never comes

I feel the burning of confusion

Always searching, on a run

-Full Blown Rose, Somebody Help Me-

Chapter three

Three days after Sam's little episode with the mirror the boys had decided to leave the motel. Sam still wasn't acting like himself, he still didn't eat as he was suppose to but he seemed to feel a little better after he had told Dean what his nightmares were about. He still had them, but the voice had stayed quiet and Sam was only seeing the old dreams again so they didn't freak him out so badly. But his was still secretly hoping that Dean wouldn't find them anything to hunt for awhile. He seriously thought he wouldn't be able to handle it.

What Sam didn't know was that Dean wasn't even looking for a hunt. He was purposely lying that he didn't find anything interesting in the paper when the truth was that he hadn't read it. He knew Sam was up for a break and honestly, so was he.

"So, Sammy. Where do you wanna go? Some town has a library that you wanna visit?" Dean asked casually as he drove down an empty road in between two forests.

"Well, as soon as we see some civilization we could visit a little bigger city for a change", Sam said.

"Like?"

"San Francisco", Sam suggested, shrugging.

"California? Sam, if you wanna go to California you might as well pick up a warm city like... Los Angeles. Oh, just think about the beaches..." Dean said, leading back on his seat dreamingly.

"San Francisco's not cold, Dean", Sam argued.

"It is colder than L.A.", Dean pointed out. Sam sighed.

"Well, whatever. It's the same to me", he said, leading his had against the cold window. He felt a headache coming and he just hoped that he wouldn't get a vision. He heard Dean's voice somewhere far away as his eyes started to slid shut.

"...closer to San Francisco anyway so I guess we could go there... Sammy?" Dean turned his gaze from the road to Sam for second and frowned. "Huh... You're more tired than I thought", he said quietly. He settled himself more comfortably on his seat and looked forward to the road. Man, this was gonna be a boring drive.

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Sam couldn't believe what he was seeing. Wait, no... He did believe, he just didn't want to. He was watching as Jessica, few years older though, was playing with a boy that looked about five years old. There was also a girl but she was only a baby.

"Mommy, look what I made for Daddy!" the boy said excitedly showing Jessica a drawing.

"It's beautiful, Josh. I'm sure he'll love it", Jessica said, smiling at her eldest. Josh smiled and then they turned to look at the opening door.

"Daddy!" Josh yelled and ran to his father's open arms. And the father was definitely not Sam. He had light hair, he was shorter and he had blue eyes. He hugged his son smiling brightly.

"Hey there, kiddo. Had a fun day with Mommy and Sophie?"

"Yes, look! I drew you a picture", Josh answered and gave his dad the picture.

"It's great! You're really good." Josh giggled and then dropped down from his dad's arms. Jessica smiled as his husband came to her. "So how are my favorite girls?" he asked as he kissed Jessica on the lips.

"We're fine, thank you", Jessica answered as she placed Sophie in his arms. "By the way, Ryan, did you go see the house today?" she asked.

"Yes, as in fact I did. It's perfect, it's everything we've been looking for", Ryan answered.

"So, you think we should take it?" Jessica asked.

"Do you want it?"

"Uh.. duh!" Jessica said.

"Good. Cuz it's already ours. Happy birthday, sweetie." Jessica screamed and almost flew to give his husband a big kiss that looked so passionate Sam turned his head away. Only to find another happy family moment.

"Come on, honey, make a wish", Cassie said to her daughter.

"But I want Daddy to be here first!" the girl whined.

"I'm here, Rosie", came Dean's voice from another room. He came to the kitchen turning a camera in his hands. "I swear we have to buy a new one", he said when he came to the table. "Alright then", he said and put the camera in front if his face. "Blow them all and make a wish."

Rosie turned to look at large cake with six candles on it. "I want a baby SISTER", she said and blew all the candles with one blow. Just then Sam noticed that Cassie was pregnant. Not long but clearly pregnant. Dean laughed a little.

"You know, you're not suppose to say it out loud", he told his daughter.

"But how else will the fairy godmother hear me?" Rosie asked, confused. Dean and Cassie looked at each other.

"You're absolutely right, sweetheart", Cassie said, picking her daughter up. "Daddy here doesn't seem to recognize a smarter person when he sees one." Dean shook his head laughing and went to pick up the phone that had started ringing.

"Hello? Hi, Mom." Sam's heart skipped a beat. His mom was alive? "Yeah, sure, she's right here. Rosie, it's for you", Dean said. Cassie put Rosie down and she ran to the phone yelling 'grandma!' when she finally got a hold of it.

"See how things would have been without you? Completely without you?" the voice whispered into Sam's ear. "You kind of people are not suppose to exist. You only bring bad things upon the people that love you, that care about you. YOU are the reason the demon is after you. It's all your fault..."

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"All my fault..."

Dean's head turned to Sam as soon as those words had escaped his mouth. "Sam? Hey, wake up", he said, not stopping the car.

"It's all my fault", Sam whispered again.

"No, it's not", Dean said, not sure what Sam was talking about. "It's not your fault. Come on, now. Wake up", he said, his voice taking an ordering edge. Sam shifted in his seat as if he wasn't comfortable and a single tear rolled down under his closed eye lids. "Sammy? Hey, it's okay, you can wake up now", Dean tried again, no use.

"Mom..." Sam suddenly said, his voice becoming more audible. Dean gulped. Oh man... Suddenly Sam's eyes snapped open.

"MOM!"

"Whoa!" The wheel under Dean's hands took a life of it's own and turned sharply to the right. It was just someone mocking them that there happened to be a forest there. They crashed into tree quite hardly but as amazing as it sounds, the car didn't even turn off. Dean turned to look at Sam who was pale and his eyes were wide with fear, sadness and confusion. "You okay?" Dean managed to ask. Sam gave a little nod but it turned into a shake of no. "Why, what is it?" Dean asked. "Are you hurt?"

"No..." Sam whispered and wiped a tear that had escaped from the corner of eye. "Are you?" he asked.

"No", Dean answered simply. "You were dreaming about mom?" he asked, trying to keep his voice normal.

"Not actually... She just... she was alive..." Sam said. He saw Dean raising his eyebrows. "You were an adult", Sam explained.

"Oh..." Dean said, not knowing what else to say at the moment. They were quiet for awhile. "Uh... I think we should get moving", Dean finally said and touched the wheel carefully, as if he was afraid it would scream and do something stupid. "There you go..." he mumbled as drove the car back to the road. "So, what was the dream about, if not about Mom?"

Sam stared out of the window, not sure did he want to answer. He just shrugged. "Typical..." Dean thought but did not push. "I checked the map while you were sleeping. It's about eight hour drive to San Francisco. You wanna stop for dinner or something?" he asked.

"Not hungry..." Sam said.

"Your hand okay?"

"It's fine, Dean." Sam's voice was way harder than he had intended but he didn't bother to say 'sorry'. He just sighed and kept looking out of the window.

Dean shook his head, frustrated. They had just taken two steps to normal Sam. And now that had taken four back...

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AN: Okay, I hope you like it. Wonder if they're gonna make it San Francisco? Find out in the next chapter! grin

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