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Here we go, Chapter 3!

Chapter 3 – Why does it hurt ME?

Pan's first month of the autumn term flashed by, without any contact from Sirius or James.

"They're too busy with their 'tarts of the week' to bother even talking to me and Lily," she thought irritably "Even though James obviously likes Lily way more that those slags he dates" she slammed the door that she had just come through (the door to the girls' dorms) and yelled "WHY ARE THEY SO BRAINLESS?"

"Who's brainless?" asked a confused Maddi, who had just appeared from behind her bed. She had a leotard, tracksuit bottoms, and pumps on. She was obviously about to go to the Room of Requirement to practice her dancing.

"Oh! Erm... No-one!" squirmed Pan.

Maddi looked unconvinced "Riiight... You wanna come with me? Dancing helps you relax, and you look as if you need to relax!"

"Sure," breathed Pan "I'll come..." and even though she was still boiling with emotion, she followed Maddi back down the stairs, through the Common room, and along the corridors to the Room of Requirement. They both walked around, outside it, until it opened.

Inside there were long, wall-sized mirrors, with a barre. There was a magical radio, exercise mats, and other equipment for Maddi, and a couple of chairs and a bookcase for Pan in one corner. The two walls that were not covered by a mirror, were covered with pictures of their friends, including Sirius and James.

While Maddi warmed up and started to dance, Pan sat in one of the chairs, picked up a book and pretended to read it. She was actually glaring at the photo of Sirius. She hated him, hated him. He thought that he was the best at everything, and that everyone loved him. He was so arrogant and...

Pan whispered, "Why does it hurt me to hate you?"

"What?" said Maddi, turning to face Pan "What d'you say?"

"I said..." Pan hesitated "Why does it hurt me to hate him?" she pointed a finger at Sirius' picture.

"Oh!" said Maddi "Well partly because you don't hate him."

"Yes I do!"

"No you don't, he's your friend, he gave you a new start at Hogwarts, and you like him for it."

"I HATE HIM!"

"No you bloody well don't! You just don't understand. Sirius is the most want boy in scho-"

"I don't want him!"

"I KNOW." said Maddi patiently "But lots of girls do. Now for a 16 year old boy, that is a huge confidence boost. All this confidence sort of, erm... overinflated his ego..."

"Obviously-"

"Listen!" said Maddi "Some day, he and James will grow up, and see what assheads they are. You don't hate him, Pan, you hate his image."

Pan sat and contemplated, then she spoke,

"Do you think that they know what they look like?"

"Nah, course not!" laughed Maddi "If they did, they wouldn't be like that. In answer to your first question, you hate hating him because you don't want to. You want to be his friend, so do I, he's a great guy inside, but to be honest, he doesn't deserve us until he pulls his act together!"

"You should be a psychologist!"

"Why thank you!"

"I wish he would pull his act together..." sighed Pan.

"Are you sure you don't like Sirius?"

"What? Of course I like him, that's what we've just been talking about!" Pan answered

"No!" Maddi rolled her eyes "Like him, like him!"

"Oh god, Maddi, I DON'T LIKE HI-"

"Yes you do, that's why you're so stressed!"

"Don't"

"Do"

The next day, in History of Magic, Maddi, Lisa and Pan were passing notes. Lily was taking notes.

Maddi was playing a matchmaker game, where Pan guessed numbers, and Maddi read out the guy next to that number.

Childish? Yes. Fun? Very!

P: How about... 10?

M: Johnny Wood! Haha!

P: Sooo? At least I didn't end up with Sirius again, you keep fixing it so I always end up with him.

M: No I don't! So you like Johnny better than Sirius?

P: What gave you that idea?

M: I dunno... 'Cause you said at least. Or are you trying to say that you like Sirius better than Johnny?

P: Oh my God! I said 'at least' 'cause I always end up with Sirius, not because I like Johnny better.

M: Oooh, so you do like Sirius better?

P: NO! I'm not talking to you.

M: I bet you will!

L: I bet you will too Pan!

P: Oi! That's two against one!

M+L: Told you you'd talk!

P: FU

M: How rude!

L: Hehehe, we're only joking Pan!

M: Never write 'hehehe' again, it's scary!

L: Sorry Maddi

P: Right, let's drop the whole 'Sirius and Johnny' thing, OK?

M: NO! You like Sirius!

P: Don't

M: Do

P: Don't

M: Do

P: Don't

M: Do

P: FOR GOD'S SAKE I-

"There goes the bell" said Lisa smoothly interrupting the argument, snatching the bit of paper and throwing it away. Pan tried to give Maddi 'the evils' but failed miserably. She couldn't help laughing at Maddi's lecture to Lily about the pointlessness of taking notes in History of Magic.

"Honestly, do you want to end up like Binns? Who exactly is gonna need it anyway? We have to take it because it's compulsory, but you don't have to actually do it!" Maddi announced with a horror stricken look at the stack of notes "And, to make matters WORSE, you're gonna make us read them!"

"Hear, hear!" shouted Pan, unaware of two certain boys' presence.

"Amen to that!" Sirius whispered in her ear.

Pan almost jumped out of her skin!

"DON'T DO THAT... Sirius?"

"Hey baby,"

"Don't call ME that, I'm not one of your weekly ditzes, I have a brain!"

Sirius looked affronted, "You seem to have settled in well" he smirked, James and the other three girls had all backed away, anticipating a pureblood row. Their arguments were awful because both sides had been brought up to think that they, and only they, are right.

"Don't give me that smirk Black! Other girls might fall at your feet, but I won't, I have pride"

"What is the matter? What have I EVER done to YOU?" Sirius yelled

"Become a slave to your image, that's what you've done! Have you got any idea what you look like as soon as anyone is near you? You look arrogant, and easy, and as if your stupid ego is being pumped bigger every minute!" Pan yelled, her eyes becoming ever glassier with tears.

"Really?" sneered Sirius sarcastically, unaware that the others were now backing away in horror at their best friends' behavior.

"Yes!" sobbed Pan, her voice cracking as tears started to pour down her face.

Sirius froze, looking horrified, he had made her cry.

"Oh, Pan, don't cry... Please... I didn't want to hurt you"

"You already have... You ignored me from the moment we stepped into the Great Hall." Pan sniffed

"Can I make it any better?"

"You can only make it better by changing, stop going out with any girl who throws herself your way. Think about other people, not only you... And deflate your head"

Sirius looked shocked for a minute, then he walked over to her and hugged her tight.

"If it will make you happy..." he gritted his teeth, making a huge decision "I'll change"

Pan smiled weakly "You will? You promise?"

"Yeah," he said, still holding her tight in his arms "I promise."

Pan looked right into his eyes and said,

"Can I have that in writing?"

Sirius grinned.