Weeeell... I've finally got around to reading that Saabel/Nadil part, and this is what came out. I still think I was on crack when I wrote this, but Blue Film can tell you, since I was talking to her as I was writing this. And she beta'd it too, which ... my stuff isn't the easiest to beta, and she does so and nitpicks all the stupid little details i'm too immersed in writing the thing to notice. So thank you!

Warning: Angst, yaoi, though not explicit, but you can just guess.C'mon, it's Nadil/Saabel! That's messed up enough as it is. Oh, and this snippet is a good bit longer than most.

Dragon Knight Snippets: Forget

This feeling… of being terrified… felt familiar. He was so frightened it was getting hard to breathe, and his body was beginning to shake uncontrollably.

Saabel couldn't place it, though. He couldn't remember an instance where fear was etched so deeply in his mind, making him shiver and his stomach clench nauseatingly.

What was wrong with him? His mind was screaming at him that all he was doing was reporting to Lord Nadil… and yet… he drew in a shuddering breath. Why was he so scared? Hadn't he done this a ton of times before? He idolized Lord Nadil, for Dusis' sake, he should be excited about going to see him.

Although… now that he thought about it, he hadn't reported to Lord Nadil in a good while now, which was odd, because he clearly remembered going to the castle to report… the green-haired youkai paused, suddenly confused.

There was a gap in his memory. He recalled riding atop Garaba, heading toward the castle … and then what happened? Scanning his mind, the next thing he could remember was waking up the day after back in his forest… feeling like shit.

His head reeled as he realized that he was in front of the youkai Lord's room, and he hesitated before reaching out to knock, his hand trembling incessantly. What was wrong with him? The mental berating wasn't helping any though, and he just couldn't find the courage to open the door.

So when it flew open in his face, and he was staring into hypnotic rubies, he jumped back, startled.

"Saabel… I've been waiting for you…" his smooth, cold voice sent a chill down the water youkai's spine, but at the same time, made his heart beat faster in anticipation. He tried to will his eyes to tear away from those entrancing crimson eyes, but it was in vain and he could only stare.

A pale hand reached out to stroke his cheek and despite his surprise, Saabel leaned into it instinctively, even as his body trembled and the fear in his stomach rose.

"Lord… Nadil…?" he murmured confusedly. His lord only smiled coldly, leaning over to put a hand behind the small of his back and lead him into his room.

Something was tugging at Saabel's mind… misplaced images… a voice that sounded familiar, yet far off… his head pounded sharply, and he groaned lightly and reached up to rub his temple. Damn headaches…

"Is something the matter?" his lord asked, and for a second, Saabel thought he'd seen … a hint of knowing in his eyes, but his sight had blurred at that moment, so he couldn't be sure.

"Of course not, my Lord," he said, straightening up immediately. The biggest fear in his life was letting Lord Nadil down, and being cast away from his side. His whole life revolved around pleasing his Lord. Hell, he practically revered Lord Nadil… scratch that, he thought, he did revere him. He couldn't deny it, he was hopelessly infatuated with him.

But the fear hadn't lessened, and the pounding in his head was making him struggle to keep from wavering as he stood straight. The violet-haired youkai gave him a measuring look, and then smiled as if pleased with what he saw.

"How are you?"

Saabel blinked, not expecting such a mundane question, or the almost curious tone… in fact, he could have almost said it was mildly concerned.

"Er, alright, I guess…" he trailed off.

"Good… you are invaluable… Saabel…"

The way his name slipped so softly from his tongue made Saabel's face heat.

The violet-haired youkai stepped closer, lifting a hand up to gently take a strand of Saabel's hair.

"You are… quite beautiful…" Saabel's eyes widened at the words and gasped as he was pushed onto his Lord's bed. Nadil's body pinned him forcibly down, and the green-haired demon found himself slipping into a shocked daze at the sudden contact of lips pulling hungrily, tauntingly at his, and the feel of hands running searchingly down his chest. Darkness, there was darkness, and there was light. What was his Lord doing…?

"Beautiful…"

Saabel's mind surged with memories, and clear green eyes widened—this wasn't the first time this had happened. He drew in a sharp breath and his mind reeled with a flood of memories. He finally understood the blanks in his memory. They'd been erased.

"You always remember around this time."

"L-Lord N-Nadil…" he breathed out, his hand clutching the sleeve of the larger youkai above him. But he was only pushed back harder, and with a chill, noticed that his shirt had been stripped off, his bare skin exposed to the wandering hands of his Lord. Hands that traced patterns in fire, sending all of Saabel's senses into overload, and his mind could only wrap itself around one thought… Lord Nadil… and he…

Nadil cupped his chin lightly, and those magnetic violet eyes looked at him directly, "You have a choice," he murmured, leaning in to nip his ear lightly, his breath warming Saabel's neck and making him moan lightly. His body trembled.

Yes, he remembered, he had a choice whether to let his Lord do this or not… but the consequences of denying were clear—he'd be killed, or even worse, cast out from Nadil's army. He closed his eyes and relaxed his body into submission, and could feel Nadil's smirk against his throat. He remembered. He always had a choice, and he always let Nadil do as he wished. After all, how could he refuse something that gave him so much pleasure, even of it brought pain, physical as well as amotional,along with it?

Why would he give up the one opportunity to be the only thing Nadil thought of? The way violet eyes only saw him, the way only his name slipped out from the youkai king's lips… Saabel drank it all in, even knowing that all he was only a toy, that he was being used.

The worst thing about it, he thought, tracing his finger lazily through the covers as his body arched in response to the hands that wove through him, the lips that crushed against his bruisingly, the heaviness of the body on top of his...the worst thing, he repeated to himself, was that there was a part of him that enjoyed this. He liked knowing that he was special to his Lord, despite the fact that he hated everything about the youkai, there was something that inevitably drew him in. He liked that the youkai's eyes were focused only on him, even if it was only because of lust. It was… a bittersweet feeling, but what could he do? He would never… deny his Lord…

But tomorrow, he would wake up back in his forest and have forgotten all of this, never suspecting what had gone on far into the night, left wondering why he felt so sick.

It was probably better that way anyway.

... It really is an odd thing... but there it is, for Capella! Next i have a Ruwalk and Rath one, and then a Tetheus/Kaistern, and am brainstorming for a Ruwalk/Alfeegi : )

Angstluver: I'll aim for that Rath/Kharl. I think they're an odd pairing, but all the indications are in the manga that Kharl seems to have something... for Rath... I actually like this pairing, to a certain extent, so I'll see what I can come up with.

Shadowdown: Thank you! Raamgarnus, laamgarnus, same person but Ram is the japanese name.

Kage Ohkami: Yup! How could Tetheus ever refuse?

Crazy meowmeow: Hm... Rath/Tetheus... now that's interesting You're a bit possessive of Rathease off, he's not going anywhere, it doesn't hurt to share. Lol. In your head he can always be all yours, right?

Cairnsy: I loooove Tetheus/Kaistern. And Rath/kaistern. And your fics :) I got the snippets inspiration from Fireun, though hers are FullMetal Alchemist and X/1999, and hers are AWESOME. The endings are SOOO cool, there's always a catch line for the ending or something, and that's somethign I really liked about her drabbles, so I'm trying to use that in my own snippets.

Capella: yes, well, I like Rath with red hair. And I'll ask Blue Film about what his official hair color is in the Mineko Okhami's site... Anyway, here's your Nadil/Saabel... I'm sure it's not quite what you were expecting, however... but I really don't know what else to do with them, they're just plain.. weird... I think I'm going to play with them a little more eventually though. Kurama's hair is cool laughs

Poco-poco: Thanks!

Aquajogger: Hotmail is odd.. gives aprhensive glancebut I prefer it over any other email service. LOL! That sounds like something that would hjappen to me! Me and my friends will be hanging out, and i'll randomly be reminded of something from some fic or a manga! I will do a couple sad/angst ones, they won't be all humor, cause contrary to what you seem to think, I really am not too good at it.

Dragoness Fei: There's gonna be a coupel Ruwalk/Alfeegi ones sooner or later, though not all happy... And there's a couple Kaistern/Tetheus snippets on their way! happyI adore them!

eikou: I adore Rath as a little kid. There's sooo many snippet potential with that. I mean we could have a separate snippet on his bugging the he11 out of each one of the officers, and rune, and sneaking off, and him in his lessons, and just all the random stuff that little kids do. I have an 8 year old hyperactive cousin for inspiration. The DEFINITELY say the weirdest things... and when you talk politics in front of them.. it's quite amusing the random things they'll input.

Anyway, next snippets won't be so out there, for any who didn't enjoy that, but I did give you warning on the oddness of it, so no flames.