The Covenant
Prelude
I tried Rosette, I really did. To get to you, it took all my strength, all my determination not to just give up, let myself die, I couldn't I promised you I'd come back. I promised. I thought I had the time, all the time in the world, we had brought you back, I had my horns, what could take you from me again? I didn't know, I'm so sorry, I didn't know. Your life wasn't returned to you, I didn't have the time to do what I did. I should have known. Rosette.
It was months before I could think rationally again; the only thing holding me together was that memory of you, your warmth, your face, your smile, and your kiss. That kiss, I think it doomed you, I shouldn't have…I shouldn't have waited as long as I did, but I didn't have any choice, I wasn't even a whole mind. As I said, it took months for me even to be able to think, and even then I couldn't move, until, my horns were finally healed, things went quicker, I had to see you again, so I pushed myself, the need to hold you, to steal you away, to tell you I love you. Why didn't I when I had the chance? Why didn't I go quicker? I'm so stupid.
I'm sorry. Rosette.
I had thought…. I was so stupid for thinking…. That you had time, enough time. When I was able to move again, when my body was whole, I looked around the place I had landed, the remains of Eden, searching for my brother. If I had survived, had he? I don't know, I couldn't find him anywhere, no part of him at all. He couldn't have survived, could he? He didn't have horns, I don't know. It doesn't make any sense but he might have, its Aion after all. I wanted to run to you, to abandon my reason and just take you away from the order, I didn't care what anyone thought, I still don't.
I loved you Rosette, I still do.
It pains me to write this even now, that I didn't… I didn't say it sooner, that I didn't think to listen to myself and just go to you right away. No, instead, I was going to surprise you. I thought and dreamt over and over again about what you would do when I showed you my plan, what I had worked six months to do. I had a job, no one could best me. After all, who could best a demon at hunting down evil? The pervasion of Pandemonium had been stopped, the hive destroyed, and yet, evil still remained. I didn't know what this meant, I still don't but I swear to you I'll find out, after what you gave…It's the least I can do. As I said, my plan, it was going on perfectly, I had a job, a home, a soiled career that I knew you would love the same, and I had it all plotted out. I had the ring, why did I wait? Even just that that one day, if I had come sooner… maybe then.
Rosette.
It hurts so much, living without you. I can't die; I've tried so many times. When I got to you, I was so happy, I thought…I thought everything was going to be perfect. Why was I so blind? You were there, surrounded by your friends, your brother, Azu.. They all looked at me when I came through the doors, tear stained and shocked. Azmaria started to cry again, Joshua wouldn't look at me. You had died Rosette, not minutes before I came, you had asked for me, you were frightened, and I did nothing, I was able to do nothing. Why did I wait? Why?
Rosette.
You had struggled so long, waiting, always waiting. Why didn't I? That's all I can ask myself, why didn't I make it in time. If I had just been there, maybe you wouldn't have… They didn't tell me, I'm so sorry Rosette. I thought… It doesn't matter now, you are gone, and they wont even let me stay with you, like I did with her. You made sure of it, wanting to be cremated rather then being buried. Even after death you thought about my well-being, Rosette, why? Why did you have to be so selfish, why wouldn't you let me stay with you? Why wouldn't you let me lock myself with you till the end of time? Even this way, it hurts just to think of it. Why? Why didn't I… It's getting hard to write, I keep crying. Damn it.
Rosette…
I keep hoping, that maybe…maybe some day you will be reincarnated, your soul returned to earth like it's supposed to. But it can't can it? I ate it. To keep me living, to save your brother, you forfeited everything. It sickens me, what did I do to you? I can remember when I first met you, little angel. You didn't care at all if I was a demon, if you didn't know me; you just offered me your friendship, warmth, the light, along with some smashed treats. You were so innocent, you and your brother. Joshua, I think he'll hate me until the end of time wont he? I took you away from him, not just once but twice. Lord what did I do to you?
Rosette….
This is the last gift I can give you, this letter, and what is within the pocket watch. Bits of you are in there, your laugh, your smile, when I sleep I can hear you in it, calling to me. I don't want to let it go, god I'm selfish. Even if it means you might…you might be able to be returned to me, to this world, I don't want to let go of those pieces, those fragments that hold my heart together. But I will, I have too. Even if it's just a sliver of a chance to bring you back, to be reincarnated… I would give my horns to give you that chance. Heh. But If I did that, you would probably just do the same as before…Why did god make you so perfect?
Rosette…
This is my goodbye, this letter that is going to be burnt with you, I don't know if I'll be able to watch, it hurts so much, but I have to. I left you for so long…how could I let you go? So I will stand there, watching you burn, and I will personally put this letter in your hand, and I will personally give you back what you deserve.
I'm so sorry. Rosette.
I Love you.
I always will.
Chrno.
Ok, If this made you cry, raise you hand. I know sure as hell I did. A lot. Still am. This isn't the end. Don't worry, I'm going to keep this going. Actually, I'm working on the first chapter right now! Ahahahah! Don't kill me. Its what happened in the manga! Blame Moriyama! I'm just continuing!! Lol. Expect a happy chapter next. I promise. This is just the prelude, that's why its so short. See you in a bit!
Amai.