Chapter 4

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Previously:

"What did you find, Syd?" he urged, he knew he shouldn't their relationship was so fragile, but he couldn't help it, one look at her anguished face he knew he had to know what was bothering her and do everything he can to make it go away.

"Vaughn, I have a twin."

Michael Vaughn was speechless, he did not know what to say, how to console the person he love more than life, he opened his mouth to start off with the questions that are running through his head, but decided against it, knowing the questions that are in him are the same ones that Sydney has, which explains why she's upset. Instead he just chose to be honest and ask her what she needed from him, because he was willing to give anything and everything. "What do you want me to do?"

Sydney babbled, as if not hearing what Vaughn asked, "And I don't know how to handle it, to top everything that happened to me the last few weeks, I learned something that makes it really hard for me to focus on this brother that I am not aware that I have. I don't know what to do, its all mixed up, everything just wants to come out, I don't know which one I should focus on, its so confusing, I just want to sit down and just cry."

"Who says you can't, Syd, I am here for you, even if you just cry, I do not care, I love you."

Sydney looked up, for the first time since learning the truth, they spilled and they never stopped. She realized that it was the first time that Vaughn told her, he loved her directly, she knew, and she felt the same way, she knows she had to somehow tell him too but everything was happening to fast and too much, so she just answered him with her eyes. He nodded, he understood, she loved him too.

This time Sydney's eyes filled up with tears, she couldn't help it, there were too many emotions in her and after weeks even months of holding them back, she was allowed to pour them out to the only person she knew would understand and would just let her, grateful at long last she was where she should be, she just let everything out, not caring, knowing Vaughn is there, letting her just be herself. She just cried and cried over Vaughn's shoulder and him just holding her, letting her cry, knowing she needed it, he did not stop her.

After awhile she was asleep, exhausted after the crying for a couple of hours, sometimes mumbling incoherent words while crying, and all these time Vaughn was there. When she fell asleep she was half on the hospital bed Michael is on, she looked uncomfortable that he had to move her, but do not want move her, she needed the sleep, he thought. Not getting anywhere in trying to bring her up to the bed, he finally relented and called for the nurse. The nurse was about to oppose to the idea of getting Sydney to sleep on the bed with Vaughn considering how fragile his body is right now, but from the determined look on his face, she relented and even got another bed to connect with the one Vaughn had, so they could be more comfortable for the night.

"Sydney."

"Sydney."

"Sydney wake up."

A young Sydney opened her eyes to see her twin brother in front of her bed. "What's wrong J'son?"

Jason opened his mouth to probably answer her, but shook his head and just crawled onto the bed beside her. "Nothin', let's slweep."

Sydney frowned, her big brother, although older by only a four minutes was the bravest kid in their school, why would he come up and stay at her bed? Then she heard it, thunder, she saw her brother wince. Who would've thought that her brother, the one who saves her and protects her from bullies is afraid of thunder, she would keep that to herself, it would be right to let the bullies know about it, they might tease him and she wouldn't have anyone to protect her anymore. No, this stays between her and him.

She kept quiet while smilingly holding her brother's hand and squeezing it, at such an early age, she knew her brother would be there for her in the same way she is there for him now. She wasn't letting go.

Sydney fell asleep holding Jason's hand, smiling.

Sydney was smiling when she opened her eyes, half expecting to see her old room at her father's old house. She loved that room; it was everything she wanted that time, things were so simple then, even after learning about the training she was subjected to at that time, she might still choose to go back to that time given the chance. When she saw the stale, white walls of the hospital everything came back, rushing in, pulling her back to reality. She then felt her hand being squeezed, she knew instantly it was Vaughn telling that he was ready to listen whenever she wants to talk.

She took a deep breath and started with the thing that bothered her the least, but still hurt her.

"The documents in the Wittenberg have everything that happened to me since I was born documented, everything that happened to me professionally and personally. It turns out some of the people in my life that had befriended me, whether in high school or in college even after where hired by the CIA to be my friend. Danny was one of them; Sloan had him killed not because I told him about SD-6, but because Sloan discovered he was CIA."

"Syd, I'm sorry. I don't know what else to say, except I'm sorry."