Longer chapter than usual; Sorry about the delayed update it's been a busy weekend and such; Hope you enjoy this. I could use some suggestions to where this fic should go. Thanks xo.

Sara woke up extra early the next morning, even though she felt like she needed Paul to hold her. It would never be the same, no matter how much Randy hurt her, no matter how many tears she cried because of him, it just wasn't the same. No one could hold her the way he did, no one could compare to the happiness he brought her, (Christian) She was nervous about seeing him, it had been at least 4 months of them being divorced and not seeing each other. Sure there was the occasional supershow but Sara would have one of the diva's take Christian to Randy. Facing him was just too hard, but now it was time.

"Good Morning Gorgeous" Paul said walking into the kitchen at about 8:34 am. Sara turned around and smiled, he was wearing basketball shorts, without a shirt. Oh how tempting he could be sometimes.

"Hey" Sara replied quietly.

"You okay?" He asked immediately concerned.

"Yea, fine, just thinking" she said staring out the window.

"Mommy" she heard a voice say, she turned her head and saw Christian with his teddy bear he made a build-a-bear.

Sara got up and went over to Christian and picked him up.

"Can we call Daddy now?" he asked.

Sara nodded her head. "Sure honey, come on" she said.

She went to her old bedroom, the one she shared with Randy and sat on the king sized bed. She picked up the cordless phone that was on the bedside table.

"Hey You" Randy said picking up the phone.

"Good Morning" Sara greeted pleasantly.

"Sleep good?" Randy asked.

"Honestly?"

"yea?"

"Horribly" Sara said simply.

"Was it that bad?" Randy asked.

Sara sighed and looked over at Christian who was waiting patiently for the phone.

"Yea, we can talk about it later, Chris is waiting to talk to you"

"oh okay"

Sara handed Christian the phone as a wide smile formed on his face.

"Hi Daddy" Christian said.

"Hey Chris, whatcha up to?"

"Just woke up"

"You going to have breakfast?"

"Maybe, I don't know" Christian replied innocently.

"I'm sure Mommy will make you something you like"

"Yea, maybe" Christian said.

"How is Mommy?"

"She's okay, she looks sad" Christian said making Sara look at him.

"Well, maybe you should draw her a picture, and be easy on her okay?"

"Okay Daddy, do you still love mommy?" Christian said changing the subject totally. You know how 3 year olds can be.

Randy sighed on the other end, kids definitely do say the darnest things.

"Of course I do"

"Okay, when will I see you?"

"In a week or two"

"Okay Daddy, I'll call you tomorrow"

"Alright son"

"I love you"

"I love you too"

Christian then handed the phone to Sara as she stood up.

"So I'll see you in a week or so?" Randy asked.

"Yeah, we should share a room, so Christian can be with you more"

"Sounds good"

"Alright, then we'll talk to you later"

"Sara, wait"

"Yea?"

"Is Chris right? Are you sad?"

"I don't know Rand"

"I love you" he said without thinking.

Sara sighed on the other end.

"Don't say that, I gotta go make breakfast now"

Randy then sighed back and nodded his head.

"Bye"

A Week Later:

Sara arrived with Christian in California. There was a huge Raw/Smackdown supershow taking place on Sunday, with all the celebrities out like the Carters, The Jackass crew, and K-Fed. Sara was definitely one of the teenie boppers growing up listening to the Backstreet Boys, so the fact that she would meet Nick Carter was more than exciting.

She first entered the hotel and asked for Randy's hotel room number. She arrived at his room with Christian holding her hand. She left her luggage in the car.

After 2 knocks Randy answered the door, shirtless with his rko basketball shorts.

"DADDY!" Christian shouted jumping on a sleepy Randy.

"That woke me up" he said then hugged his son back.

Randy set Christian down as Sara walked inside.

"Did we wake you?"

"It's alright, where's your stuff?" Randy asked scrunching his eyebrows.

"In the car"

Randy nodded his head. "I'll get it for you later"

"Sounds good" Sara said then set her purse down.

There was a urge to kiss Sara, to hold her, but with Christian right there Randy was unsure of what to do. So he sat down next to his son on the bed.

"I'm tired" Christian said.

"You want to take a nap bud?"

Christian nodded his head.

"Alright"

Randy got up and covered Christian up with the blanket and got up and shut the door. He walked out of the room and saw Sara sitting on the couch with her head resting in her hand.

"Hey" Randy said then sat next to Sara.

She situated herself to look at him.

"You look good" Randy said.

"I don't feel good" she said. Her facial expression definitely wasn't the same, she wasn't the same cheerful, loving Sara.

Randy put his hand on her thigh. "We haven't really talked"

"Whats there to talk about?" Sara asked.

"Oh come on, us, there's no doubt that I miss you, and I know you miss me"

Sara just kept quiet.

"come on Sara" Randy said almost shouting. He stood up and ran his hand over his face.

"Fine, I miss you okay? And I didn't realize just how much till I went back home and you weren't there. I didn't realize till I looked in our room and you weren't in bed, when you didn't wrap your arms around me when I was asleep, when there wasn't coffee waiting for me when I got up" she said then started to cry.

Randy then sat back down next to her and wrapped his arms around her.

"I'm sorry" he whispered in her ear.

"Maybe.." Sara started backing away from Randy's hold. "Maybe if we didn't get involved when I was young, maybe I wouldn't be so dependent on you, or wouldn't miss you as much, or maybe I'd be able to move on" she sighed. "but I can't, I have the constant reminder everyday, that precious, beautiful, boy, he's ours, I'm reminded that no matter what, you'll always be part of my life"

Randy just listened to her, let her speak her mind.

"And, I don't think I can move on with someone else, knowing you'll always be there"

"All I ever wanted you to be was happy, and I know that sounds cliché, but it's true"

"But, if I go back to you Randy, I need to be able to trust you"

He nodded his head. "You can trust me" he said taking her hand then kissing the back of it.

"We'll make this work, me, you, and our son"