A/N: ok I hope none of you hate me but I think for my story it would be easier if vampires could cry and sleep. Oh and I didn't really mention this but Bella (obviously) and sort of Edward are a little OOC. Anyway thanks for reading and the reviews! Hope you like the next chapter!!

THIRD PERSON POV

As Bella was wheeled off further into the hospital, Edward took a seat in the waiting room. He put his head in his hands, and for the first time since he left Bella, he cried. He was angry at himself for leaving her, for causing her so much pain to the point where she wanted to die. And most of all, he was angry that he hadn't gotten to her in time to stop her from taking the pills. He knew that if Bella came out of this he would never leaver her again. The only thing that would stop him is if Bella wanted nothing to do with him, and Edward wasn't about to out without a fight.

Edward finaly put himself together and looked up to find Alice and Carlisle waiting for answers.

"Edward what happened?" Carlisle asked.

"She ODed on painkillers. On purpose. Because of me. Because I left her alone," Edward put his head back in his hands and sobbed.

"Carlisle, you have to help her. She can't die!" Alice told him.

"I will go see what's happening," Carlisle told Edward, putting a hand on his shoulder to reassure him everything would be ok. "I will do everything I can." With that he disappeared behind the doors Bella had gone through.

"Edward?" Alice asked.

"It's my fault Alice, she is laying on her death bed because of me. If I had just listened to her, and I had pushed my second thoughts aside, she and I would have had the last two years together."

"None of us thought this would happen. Bella never showed any interest in partying and drinking."

"That was when I was with her and you were with her. Before I abandoned her."

"She will be fine, a little banged up, but fine."

"How do you know?"

"I have this little gift where I know how things will turn out. Remember?"

"I'm sorry Alice. I-I-I just…she means everything to me and now she is dieing. It's hard."

"I know Edward." Alice sat down and put and arm around her brother's shoulders.

Meanwhile, Carlisle got in to help Bella by saying he was her doctor. After getting her stomach pumped, getting all the drugs out of her system, she started to have heart failure, which they also got stabilized. They took her out of recovery and into a room. Carlisle went into the waiting room to go tell Alice and Edward how Bella was doing.

Upon seeing Carlisle come out into the waiting room, both Alice and Edward stood. "How is she doing?" Edward asked.

"We got everything out of her system, but the drug itself caused Bella to have heart failure. We got her stabilized. We just put her in room 203. You can go ahead and see her."

Edward rushed back to the room Bella was in. She looked paler than usual, and had dark circles under her eyes. To the side of her bed was a heart monitor beeping to the beat of her heart. He went and sat next to her bed. He held her hand and traced his fingers across her forehead. Alice had tried calling her parents to tell them Bella was in the hospital, but both of their responses were that Bella was no longer apart of either of their lives, and to them she was dead. Now it would be impossible for Edward to leave Bella, she had no family and was completely alone. No wonder she tried to kill herself, Edward thought.

Finaly about thirteen hours after bringing Bella to the hospital she woke up. Edward had never left her side since she had been put in one of the hospital rooms. (I didn't know how to word that.)

Bella took a minute to look around the room to see where she was. Then she looked to the beautiful vampire next to her. Edward was holding her hand, his head was resting on the side of her hospital bed, he was sleeping. (Ok like it says in my authors note in THIS story a vampire can cry and sleep, so don't hound me on it)

"Shit," Bella groaned.

This woke Edward up. "Bella! You're awake!"

"Ok, I am either dead, or you saved me. And I hope I am dead, but I can't tell because I am in a hospital, and you are here. And you wouldn't be here if I was alive, so I must be dead."

"Bella, Alice had a vision of you in an ally way dieing from a drug overdose. I came as fast as I could, but you were already in the ally. So I brought you here," Edward explained.

"Why would you do that?" Bella groaned.

"I didn't want you to die. Even if you wanted to."

"Edward I don't have a family or friends anymore. I have nothing left to live for. That was why I ODed!"

"Bella, no. You can not have wanted to die. That's not you."

"Edward you don't know me anymore. The day you left you stopped knowing me."

"I know, but I have been miserable the past two years, and knowing you were still alive, kept me alive."

"I was beyond miserable Edward! First I was a zombie, then I dated Jacob Black who turned out to be a werewolf, then I left for Port Angeles. I went to college for a month before dropping out. After that and some other things my parents disown me, Renee had a new baby, a new daughter who she could love and who would grow up to be better than I am. I slept on random people's couches for the last nine months. I drink every night, most of which I black out from drinking too much. Occasionally I will do drugs with the people whose couches I sleep on. And about every other week I will sit down at a bar with a bottle of painkillers and some strong drink to down it with. Every time I sit down at that bar guess whose voice pops into my head. None other than you, and every time you talk me out of taking that entire bottle. That was until last night, I told you to shut up and you did. I took the entire bottle, hoping that I would finally be able to rest in peace, not thinking about everyday I have to live without you. And then you take it away from me, only making it harder because you will probably just leave again, and next time I do this you won't be there to save me, Edward. So I would say I have probably been more miserable then you for the past two years, don't you think?"

"Bella, I am sorry, but I am not leaving you again. I promise."

"Yeah right. That was what you said last time, and then three months later you left."

"I can't leave you now that I came back."

Bella broke down crying. Edward hugged her close to him, she tried to push him away, but gave in crying on his shoulder.

Bella really didn't want to give into him, but she knew what he said was true, he wouldn't leave her again.

They stayed like that for awhile, then Carlisle came in.

"Glad to see your awake Bella!" Carlisle said.

"Yeah, me too, I guess," Bella was happy to be with Edward for the moment, but there were still some things that needed to be discussed between them.

"Bella, we pumped your stomach to get rid of all those pills you took, but it seems your heart couldn't handle the strain with the pills and the alcohol you took them with. You have heart failure, or CHF, you flat-lined while we were doing tests to make sure nothing had been damaged. We need to keep you in the hospital for that, and we need to keep you under suicide watch," Carlisle informed her and Edward. He had known about heart failure, but not about her flat-lining.

"I have heart failure?" Bella asked in disbelief.

"Bella, you have a very bad case of CHF, and you need a heart transplant. We need your parents to come in to give us your family's medical history. One cause is alcoholism, and seeing as even though you have been doing excessive drinking, you could not have gotten such a weak heart over a year, you had to have had this your whole life. Your drinking and the overdose on drugs just pushed it over the edge."

Bella started crying again, "they won't come in. To them I am not their daughter anymore."

"Do you think it would help if I talked to them?" Carlisle asked.

"You could try, but I have little hope it will do anything."

"Bella, it's worth a try," Edward told her.

"Edward could I have a word with you?" Carlisle asked.

"Sure. I will be right back," Edward told Bella.

Carlisle led Edward out of the room. "Edward, if she doesn't get a heart within the next two weeks she is going to die. You have to make a decision to let her go or change her."

"But, no, I can't do that to her."

"It's your decision, her family already doesn't want her around, and she is going to die. It is an extremely rare chance she will get a heart within the next few weeks."

"I just got her back, she can't die."

"Then there is your answer, you don't want to leave her again, and she clearly doesn't want to leave you. But like I said it is your decision." Carlisle went off to call Bella's parents and tell them she doesn't have long to live.

First he called Charlie. Charlie picked up on the second ring, "Hello. Charlie? This is Dr. Cullen. I treated Bella last night, she came in after overdosing on painkillers. We found that she has an extremely advanced case of CHF, which is heart failure. She needs a heart donation and has only a few weeks to live seeing as there isn't a good chance she will get a heart."

"I see, but Bella has been dead to her family for nearly a year now." Charlie told him.

"She is your only daughter Mr. Swan, I think you should come in and see her before she dies." Carlisle continued.

"I'm sorry but I can't, goodbye Dr. Cullen." Charlie hung up the phone. Carlisle didn't even bother calling Bella's mother.

Unless Edward was going to change Bella, she was going to die. And the only people she would have is Edward and the rest of the Cullens. That was why Carlisle called up Esme and the rest of the family to be with Bella, because they were all she had, and they had been gone for two years. Carlisle felt guilty, but at least they were there now. At least Bella wouldn't die alone…If she died at all.

A/N: ok review and tell me what you thought. I don't think this will be a terribly long story, but I hope you like it.