Okay, first and foremost, let me state this CLEARLY, this IS a TROYELLA! Don't worry, its coming, patience is a virtue. Thanks for all the reviews, you guys rock! Decided to try somthin a little different with this chapter, hope you guys like it. Don't own anything here, except the plot.

Lost In My Own Thoughts

Gabriella's POV

It's been almost a month now since Troy and Vanessa started "dating." They say that they aren't exactly boyfriend/girlfriend, but from what I can see, they don't need that title, they sure act like they are.

I know that some of this is my fault, I mean, I did kinda push the two together, but I couldn't be with Troy if he had feelings for her, but still, why does she have to be my SISTER!

Just seeing them, its just… terrible. I seriously try to get my mind off it, and I know Taylor and Sharpay and everyone are trying to help, but still. There's really only one person who could help, and I really doubt that he will at this point.

Troy and Vanessa are trying to keep things the least awkward it could be, but I really doubt that there is any way to make this any better, unless they break up. But I don't want that, not really. I mean sure, part of me would LOVE for Troy and Vanessa to break up and for Troy to come running back to me, telling me how much he loves me and how much he wants to be with me, but how could I take him back after this? Don't get me wrong, I want to be with Troy, but still, IT'S MY TWIN SISTER FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!

Its such a strange feeling when I hear them pull into the driveway, getting out of the car, laughing, and just having a great time. I'll look out the window, and they look so happy together, and I guess, that's what I want. I love him so much, and as corny as it sounds, I want him to be happy, no matter what.

I'd watch, as he looked deep into her eyes, with a really weird smile plastered on his face. He looked at her like she was the most amazing person he had ever met, the way he used to look at me. It's that same look in his eyes that I used to be able to stare back into, moments that seem so long ago as I reminisce about them now.

I know that I can't keep doing this to myself, but I love him. I LOVE HIM, and when you love someone, you don't just forget about them, no matter what happens. There are sometimes when I seriously think to myself if I'll ever stop loving Troy, but I realize the answer is no. He's my first love, and you NEVER forget your first love. When your first love is with someone else, you have two choices, you can sit around and mope about how they don't feel the same way about you, or you can learn to live without them. You don't stop loving them, you just learn to suppress the feelings to the point where they aren't completely controlling your life, I still have to figure that whole thing out.

I wonder if Troy feels for Vanessa what he used to feel for me? Actually, I wonder if he ever really felt the same way for me as I felt for him. Right now, I guess I would have to say no. There is no way that he could ever even consider being with someone else if he felt the same thing I did.

I can't believe how stupid I've been this whole time. I guess it would be kinda funny, if it wasn't happening to me. I mean come on, he's Mr. Popular, and me, well, I'm just nothing special, regular old math geek, Gabriella Montez.

I guess I have to accept the cold, hard truth, Troy and I are over, and now the love of my life is dating my twin sister who I've known all of one month. I just wonder, what does she have that I don't? I mean, I don't THINK she's prettier than me, I mean identical twins right? Well, she does play basketball, Troy and I had nothing in common really, well except for singing, but that really wasn't him anyway.

Singing with Troy, some of the greatest moments of my life, but he probably hated it. I guess that's it, they have stuff in common, and the thing Troy and I have in common, is something he really doesn't like too much anyway.

I guess I've decided then, I'm gonna try and live without Troy, all the while, because of the current situation, I'll have to see him everyday. Piece of cake right?

Troy's POV

Wow, today was AMAZING! It's moments like these that change your life forever.

All the time, you hear people talking about important, defining moments in your life, well, I guess I understand that now. I love this girl more than ANYTHING else in the world.

I can't believe it even took me this whole month to realize how much I love her. I mean, seriously, she is the most amazing person I have ever met.

I remember when I first laid eyes on her. Her beautiful brown eyes, her naturally curled brunette hair, and that amazing smile of hers that totally lights up the room. We have so much in common too, I swear, I could talk to this girl FOREVER and never get bored. I just find out so much about her all the time, and it leaves me needing more.

I used to doubt my feelings for her, because of, well, the awkward situation, but now there's no doubt in my mind that I love her. I really wish I could tell her how I feel, but there really aren't any words to describe how I feel. Words would just degrade the emotion into a meaningless sentence, and this is anything but meaningless.

I have to be with her. How could I have ever been without her? Me without her, seems like such a strange concept now a days. I was so different back then, but now, there's just so much more to me.

I have to tell her, I'll just go right up to her and say, "Gabriella Montez, I love you." That should work.

End of POV

Troy walked up to the Montez house, and decided to head around back, up the familiar tree and onto the balcony. He got into her room, but he didn't find her. He decided that he might as well walk downstairs and find her.

Being careful not to be seen, he walked downstairs. Kinda weird sneaking around the house, but still, he didn't want her mom or Vanessa to see him.

He walked downstairs silently, and heard people in the living room. He walked in, and saw Gabriella sitting on the couch. However, she wasn't alone.

"Ryan?" Troy asked as the pair's heads shot around towards him.

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