It's been a few months since I realized that I'm in love with my best friend. Talk about surprise and confusion! I've known Chanel ever since we were both babies. We've been best friends forever, and super close. We've always been the kind of friends who show their affection. You know, hugging and holding hands and stuff. But a while back I started noticing that whenever Chanel would grab my hand, a little tingle would run through my body and my heart would jump. I brushed off these feelings, not really wanting to think too much about it.
A few weeks later something else happened that I couldn't just brush off and ignore. We were sitting together in the cafeteria during lunch when this guy (I didn't bother to remember his name) came up to talk to Chanel. I guess they have a class or something together, but anyway, he and Chuchi were flirting like crazy. The more she would bat her eyes and giggle at his stupid jokes, the sicker I felt. At first I thought I was just annoyed and embarrassed because the two of them were so over-the-top with their flirting. But it didn't take long for me to realize that in reality I was jealous. And it wasn't her I was jealous of, but the guy. He had taken her attention away from me and I wanted her to flirt with ME that way. I immediately realized that these were not normal best-friend kind of thoughts. Oh my gosh, I had a crush on my BFF! Finally the tingles I got when we touched made sense.
Strangely enough, even though I was a little bit surprised and confused when I realized all of this, I wasn't freaked out. It sort of made sense, after all. I've always admired Chanel for her beauty, talent, and poise. She's really an amazing young woman, and she doesn't even seem to realize it. I think that's one of the things I love about her the most--that she's so down-to-earth. She has always been a calming influence on me, since I have a tendency to be really intense and serious. All it takes is one silly little joke or goofy face from her to calm me down and cheer me up. And I have to admit that she's just too adorable when she scrunches up her nose and sticks out her tongue (which she does pretty often). Every time she does that, I just wanna grab her up and kiss her.
For now, I'm sitting here on an airplane headed for Spain. The Cheetahs actually managed to figure out a way to convince our parents to let us go to Barcelona with Chanel and Tia Juanita, complete with a major international singing competition! Barcelona has this big famous summer music festival every year that hosts a new voices competition. We managed to audition over the phone and convince them to let us enter even though it was past the deadline. Now everyone's spread out across a row of airplane seats. Juanita and my mom are sitting across the aisle from me. I'm sitting in an aisle seat, with Chanel sitting to my right. She's sleeping at the moment, and her head has found its way onto my shoulder. Aqua and Dorinda are sitting on the other side of Chanel and they're both sleeping, too. I smile at the sight of all my friends sleeping and settle myself a bit deeper in my seat so that maybe I can nod off too. I turn my head for just a moment to notice that my mom is watching me with a strange look on her face. She turns her attention quickly back to Juanita. Strange. I'll have to find out what that was all about. Later, though. Right now it's nap time.