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Gibbs' POV

It had been like waking up from a dream. Not necessarily a nightmare, but a dream. It had been like waking up but not being able to recall that dream, and in this case, recall the last fifteen years. He'd remembered Shannon and Kelly's funeral. It was something about that, that felt familiar to but he couldn't put his finger on it. He'd also remembered how he shot their killer.

Then it got kind of blurry. When he woke up, it felt like his mind remembered, but refused to tell him. Ducky had tried, Jenny had tried. Even his old boss had come to try, people who he'd known for so long. They desperately tried to help him remember. But it didn't help and he got more and more frustrated.

But it was Ziva who pulled the trigger, so to say. The head slap was what had opened up his mind. Small fragments began to come back when he'd felt his own hand on the back of her head. Her, Abby, McGee, Tony, Jenny, Ducky, Palmer and Mike his boss. And then Ziva made him remember two more important names from his past. Kate…and Ari. Gibbs still felt guilty for Kate's death. The young woman, who'd been like his daughter, who'd actually reminded him of Kelly. She'd died too, right in front of his eyes.

Ari…He suddenly remembered it all. Ziva'd shot him, her own brother. To protect her new boss and bring justice to a woman whom she never knew. Gibbs felt guilty for that too. Without hesitation, she'd shot her big brother. A big brother, who probably had protected his baby sister like big brothers always did. Who probably had taught her tricks that only big brothers knew. Gibbs remembered the look he'd gotten from his team when he left. Especially Abby's. His other "daughter".

And then, Tony's look when he handed him the badge and the gun. The same that Tony had worn ever since Kate died. It was more than a year ago and that look still laid over his features. Gibbs had always known something was going on between his agents. And that after Tony fell sick with the plague, it would only be a matter of time. Time fate decided they didn't have. When he'd saw Kate's body fall to the ground, his eyes had immediately wandered to Tony. It happened automatically, if something'd happened to Kate, Gibbs'd always searched for Tony's reaction and vice versa.

So as fast Gibbs turned his head to Tony that day, he saw tha tTony's face had already gotten that look. The same look Gibbs knew he wore himself. The look everybody who'd lost someone they loved, wore. Yeah, Gibbs was certain. Tony had loved Kate, just as much as he himself had loved Shannon and Kelly.

A/N: That was Gibbs' POV. A little bit longer than Tony's. Hope you liked it. Ziva next! Please review!