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Ziva's POV

She knew she didn't fit in. She'd felt it the first day she stepped off the elevator and got introduced to the team. She'd been able to tell from their faces how big shoes she had to fill and that the whole team was convinced she wouldn't manage to do it. They had been right. They'd been cold and Ziva pretty soon understood how worshipped and unique Kate had been. And she knew from the start the they were like a family. A family where she didn't belong.

But they'd done their best, and she'd tried too. Then, after the explosion, they'd told her right out how they felt. It was like a whole year of anger against her was let out. That also proved how strong bonds they all had and once again that she didn't fit in. Her own family had also always been shattered and Ari had actually been on of those whom she was closest to.

She still remembered how horrified she'd felt when she shot him. And now she began to think if it was only a faint attempt to prove herself to the team. She had killed her own brother. Her brother who had protected and taken care of her ever since they were kids. Ari had always been the one whom she adored the most, who supported her and inspired her. But despite the fact that they then grew apart, she knew she had a lot of Ari in her. And that made her feel guilty, for Kate's death. Even if she'd been on the other side of the Earth when it had happened.

She knew she had so many qualities that Ari'd had too. Even the guts to kill without blinking. After Ari was dead, the team did warm up a bit to her. But the fact that Ari was dead, didn't bring Kate back, still showed on their faces. Once again the team began to warm up to her, cause she got Gibbs to remember. She had let down her guard, she had made Gibbs remember and let out all the anger she'd kept inside. Now, Gibbs was gone, Tony was left in charge and she knew the team had gotten new wounds to heal. Tony face had told her it once again. That she didn't fit, and that she definitely not could take Kate's place.

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//Ida