Short drabble on how she feels about him...
He was unusual, the first one my eyes laid on before having my windows fall upon sight of Ken-San. He had a strange yet unique aura revolving around him which brought a smile upon me. Now that I think about it, I almost forgot that girlish feeling for the split second before I noticed his red headed companion.
Over the time, I was too occupied with hiding my secret to actually befriend almost everyone. Mostly my attention headed on Ken-San but every once in a while Kaoru-Chan would talk to me to try and stop me from talking to her so called childish crush and Yahiko-Chan and others would follow leading to a friendship with everyone, almost that is. I was able to win hearts of the two delighted children with their playful traits to ask me everyday to play with them, but of all tori-atama was hardest to win over.
He would always keep to himself, silent with his head usually down as if he didn't find us worth enough to talk to. Or maybe it was for another reason, but for whatever it was it led me to try harder as after all I did have a competitive side in me digging to find a way out. I would use methods of teasing, giggling, and mostly just ignoring him to see if he warmed up…Nothing.
In the end I finally gave up on him concluding as a report to myself that he was a jerk that didn't deserve my hard work for a friendship to form, I have Ken-San and that is all I need. But for some unusual reason I broke down when he found the drugs I had accidentally dropped at some point, his anger rising on me made me want to hide behind a shield. So there was a more aggressive side of him, I once more concluded.
When I gave in and returned to work once more to continue making the opium I felt like I was doing the right thing, hearing his voice call out for me when I was near the gate let me this time miss a heart beat. His words touched me as it hit me that even he who had such harsh feelings for me understood that I didn't need to turn myself in and would protect me.
When I first saw how affectionate Sayo was to the chicken head, it slightly left my imaginary fox ears, I always pretend to have them when I personally want to express a feeling to my thoughts, threaten her as if charging draggers on her. But I didn't understand why I felt that way; after all I have Ken-San still in my heart!!!!
In the end when I heard the news of her death, I did the unbelievable and wished she would still be alive when I saw the lurking sadness drowning in his eyes….
He's just a friend to me…I'm always a doctor first and a women last, except for a certain red head's state…Right?