Chapter Eleven: What I Thought I Knew
As Haley got outside Nathan's front door, she leaned her back against the wall and fell down, her knees to her chest. She ran her fingers through her hair stressfully, thinking about how hard it was for her to leave Nathan moments ago.
"This is wrong." She whispered to herself. "I should not have these feelings for someone else. Especially not Luke's brother." She continued. She threw back her head and tried to look up at the stars, btu she couldn't see them through the dark clouds over head. She heard the sky rumble, and saw lightning flash. Quickly getting to her feat, she put her purse over her head and ran down the driveway. The sky rumbled again, and this time came crashing down on her. She let her purse fall to her side in her arm and turned her face towards the progressing storm. It all fell harshly on her face, intermingling with the tears that were escaping from her brown eyes. If someone could see her now, they'd see someone broken, falling apart in front of them. But she wasn't.
As he lifted her arms out, she let the rain sooth her soul and she got caught in the moment. And as the tears fell, she laughed. She laughed through the tears, through her pain, and through everything that was trying to bring her down. She knew Faith would be fine. She knew Lucas would never betray her, and she knew that soon, she'd be graduating, and be far away from all the temptations that Nathan brings upon her. She laughed happily once more as she looked forward to how bright her future would be. She ran her fingers through her wet hair as she began to walk again, feeling a weird weight being lifted from her, like she could breathe deeply and keep her head high.
But somewhere else, as Haley walked along confidently... somewhere else... in the middle of an abandoned road, through a blurry car window, Lucas' bare chest was pressed against Brooke's. Their breaths were short and heavy as Lucas felt himself letting loose with her, letting go of everything he ever stood for, and feeling the passion in her embrace.
Brooke ran her fingers over Lucas's bare back as he kissed her jaw line. He moved his kisses down, and then along her neck, kissing that one part that always made her completely lose herself. She moaned beneath him as he continued to place quick and passionate kisses on that one place. She moved her hands up and gripped them in his hair, pushing him down closer to him, if that was possible. She kicked her pants and underwear off of her ankles, wrapping her legs around Lucas's waist as she struggled with his belt. Lucas stopped for a small second, to just look at her, and smile.
"Are you sure?" He asked her sweetly as he pushed her hair back from her eyes to look deeply into them. She nodded as she bit her lip, and pulled him down to kiss him, them pushed his lips off of her's again to ask him..
"Are you sure?" She asked sadly as Haley's face came into her mind, the first time since they had begun this on the bus stop bench. Lucas looked at her with confusion.
"Why wouldn't I be?" He smiled, and leaned to kiss her again. But Brooke felt guilt rip through her body, as she pushed him off of her and reached around for her scattered clothes. She just shook her head as they guilt kept pouring in, and poured out of her sparkling eyes. She didn't want to stop this, she loved Lucas so much and she just wanted to be with him. But she remembered how good Haley was to her, even with Peyton bringing her down all the time, and she owed it to her to return the favor. Brooke started to cry with guilt as she placed her hand over her mouth.
Lucas was getting frustrated with the sudden mood and activity change as he sat impatiently next to her, grabbing for his own clothing. "What the hell is this about?" He snapped. Brooke's eye widened as she saw a side of him she had never once witnessed in all of her years around him.
"You have got to be kidding me." She gasped as she rolled her eyes and shook his head. "It really hasn't occurred to you yet?" She asked him, unable to believe that Lucas still hadn't realized her was cheating on Haley. Lucas just shook his head and shrugged.
"Come on Brooke..." Lucas whined as he leaned in and kissed her again, moving his hand up to push her bra strap over her shoulders, which she had just put on again.
"Lucas!" Brooke said as she pushed him off of her. "God!" She gasped as she wiped his kiss off of her mouth. Lucas got angry and punched the seat in front of him, causing Brooke to jump and stare at him in surprise. "What is wrong with you?" She yelled at him as she pulled her shirt over her head and pulled on her boots.
"What's wrong with me? What's wrong with you?" He shouted at her. "After SO long apart, after me going with other girls, just to replace you, after me trying to hate you for so long, we finally find our way back to each other, and you push me away? Then again, that's just like you isn't it Brooke? To run away?" Lucas shouted at her, his emotions clearly taking over his whole body as he noticed him gripping her wrist to stop her from leaving. She struggled, but finally got her wrist free, and looked at him with disgust.
"What about Haley?" Brooke yelled back. "Was she just a replacement too?" She continued, but then her voice changed to a whisper as she looked at him with sincerity and said, "Because, if she was... is... than you're not the guy I fell in love with." With that, now fully clothed, she opened the car door and disappeared outside, and down the road behind the car, her hand still over her mouth as she realized what she had just figured out. That people change, and sometimes, they change so much that they're not who you thought they were, and you're left disappointed and alone.
Lucas leaned his head against the seat in front of him, as he realized how terrible he just was. But what hurt him the most, was the realization of what he just did to Haley. He knew she wouldn't do that to him, he knew it, and he knew that her expectations of him were greater also, that he'd rise above the temptations. But now he didn't even know who he was, as he sat there so lost and alone, in the complete dark, with a complete stranger.
Brooke exited onto the main road, back into the familiar town, which along her walk, she wished had disappeared. As she walked along the side of the road, the rain pouring over her, she tried to wrap her head around what had just happened. She got the chance of a lifetime, with a boy she had loved since fifth grade, and she turned it down. She pushed him off of her and got the hell out of there. Where was the sense in that? She thought to herself. Then as she looked up she could see a girl, so small and confident, walking in front of her, and she knew who it was, just by how she held her head high and walked along with such innocence. That's why she did it... all of her years wanting to be more like her friends, the popular ones, who get the guy. But now she knew that in the end it wasn't them who won, it was people like Haley James, who had so much purity in them, and so much honesty, that you just want to be like them, and the last thing you want to do is take that away from them. She smiled to herself, and realized she was right, she had the chance of a lifetime with the boy she loved. But she was grown up now, graduating in a couple days, and she didn't have room in her life for a boy anymore, she needed a man, and for once in her life she could see that Lucas Scott, was becoming less and less of that, and she knew she needed more.
Goodbye to you,
Goodbye to everything that I knew,
You were the one I loved,
The one thing that I tried to hold onto...
Goodbye to you...
Alrite.. there ya go.. I hope you liked it... i really really do.. by the way, thank you for the awesome reviews.. i LOVE getting reviews... HINT HINT! LOL... anyways.. have a good day!
Michelley P.