Disclaimer- I own nothing associated or affiliated with Twilight. These are the property of Stephenie Meyer and no copyright or offense is intended. You can't sue me for the inner-worst workings of my mind. Honest.

Sorry there have been no updates for awhile, moving apartments sucks.

Anyway, this chapter will be told from Rosalie's POV. Enjoy!

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Choices- Conversations with Rosalie

"Rose..."

I was laying across the couch in the living room simultaneously reading a magazine and watching the television when Alice came weaving down the stairs, her voice wafting towards me like some portent of doom. Where she was concerned it usually was.

"Edward's on his way home." There was the doom.

"And that means what to me...?" I had one eye on her and one on an article about street bikes vs sport bikes. It's so hard to decide sometimes, looking good or going fast?

"He wants to talk to you."

"About what?" My gaze flicked back to the tv, I get distracted easily, but it makes me a great multitasker. There was some guy making a foody thing, there was a lot of flour and he was gesturing erratically with many pointy and violent looking utensils. The tv is always tuned into the bloody cooking channel lately. Now that Edward wants to cook for Bella. Barf much?

"About Bella."

I should have guessed. I sighed and returned my attention to Alice. When it came to Edward and Bella it was best to shut up, look out and hang on. At least where I was concerned.

"What about her? I haven't done anything. Lately." Honestly, I'd been rather amicable I thought. I was quite proud of the fact that I was able to treat her so, normal. People tend to think I'm rather selfish and inflexible, hard to believe isn't it?

"I actually have not the foggiest idea." Alice was leaning against the bannister, frowning slightly.

"Well how do you see this 'talk' going, dear sister of mine?" I rolled my eyes at the mock endearment.

"Well now see, that's the interesting bit!" Alice pushed herself off the staircase and joined me on the couch, my magazine now long since forgotten.

"Do enlighten me, the suspense is killing me." I threw in a yawn for good measure. She smacked me.

"I can tell. Just take a little more interest when talking with Edward. I know that's asking a lot from you but this is something big, and you're important to it."

"I don't even now what 'it' is!" Honestly, ask much?

"I just know what you're like, that's all."

"Any way to get out of this?" I really wasn't looking forward to whatever this was about.

"Nope, he's here."

I sighed and pushed myself off the couch, brushing some imaginary lint off my clothes in a failed attempt at nonchalance.No one gets to me like Edward. "I'll be in the car."

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"Even people like us shouldn't take their hands off the wheel whilst driving this fast."

"We're not people, Edward." I rolled my eyes at him, but put my hands back on the wheel nonetheless. We were in my car, driving north along the highway, the top was down and my hair was streaming behind me. The forest lining the road was a greenish blur and there were precious few other cars on the road so I felt comfortable keeping my speed up. Edward had been silent thus far, at least. But that was making me more nervous than if he'd actually been yelling at me for something or other. When I walked outside to my car earlier he'd already been there, waiting in the passenger seat. He didn't appear to be reading my thoughts either, just staring pensively ahead as I gunned the engine, trying to elicit some kind of response. He didn't say anything as I got in, nor until we were out of Forks. The comment on my driving was the first he'd made. But he was getting a little wound up about driving lately, I'd noticed.

"Have you ever considered a motorbike?" I wasn't expecting that, although I had been considering it...

"Why? Bella not allowed hers anymore?" I teased. He growled and looked out to the side. I sighed, so it was going to be like that was it? Fine.

C'mon Edward, just get on with it already. Some of us have things to do today.

He raised an eyebrow at me before starting. "If you could have had a choice, what would you have wanted to change. Before you were, changed, I mean."

"Oh for Christ sakes Edward! We are NOT having this conversation with me! N.O. No!" That's it, I'm turning the car around.

"No, don't. It's just a question."

"A loaded question! I am NOT getting involved in this. You want to change Bella then go ahead, you've already heard my views on this. Go talk to Carlisle or Alice. They're all for it."

"That's exactly why I'm coming to you. You're opposed to it and I want to know your reasons."

"Don't you have enough reasons of your own? What's happened, Bella find another way to lose her soul and now you're feeling giving?"

"Bitch."

"You wanted honesty, that why you came to me."

"People come to you for hairstyling tips and vapid conversation."

"Touche.' So what are you doing here then?"

"Obviously, I made a mistake in thinking there was an intelligent person in you somewhere but I guess I should just trust my instincts when they they're screaming "Vacuous Tramp!" at me."

"Alright that's it!" I swung the car around and pulled up fast, turning in my seat to face him. "I did not come here to put up with your whiny, hormonal crap, Edward! So stop taking your melodramatic problems out on me and get the fuck out."

He didn't move. He was smirking at me. I can't stand it when he does that, he looks so smug and thinks he's so superior well I can fix that...

I'm not usually a violent person when it comes to my siblings but...CRACK!

"You bitch! What the hell was that for?" Edward was currently picking himself up off the side of the road. "You hit me! What are you psycho?"

Now it was my turn to smirk. "You were asking for it. Pull any of that shit again when you're asking for my help and I'll give you an ass kicking you won't soon forget."

He nodded, conceding my point, standing awkwardly on the side of the road, rubbing his nose. Funny if i broke it.

Get in. I rolled my eyes and leaned over to open his door but he jumped over it and slid down in his seat.

Watch the leather, I cautioned.

I started the engine and began cruising down the highway again.

"You didn't answer the question."

"What question?"

"Don't be difficult."

"Why shouldn't I be?" I was enjoying being bratty.

"Would you have wanted someone to make it easier on you if the option was there?" It didn't work so well when he was being all serious though.

I sighed. "Fine."

"Tell me why you're opposed." His gleaming eyes were on me and I found it rather unnerving. Me and Edward. Having a serious conversation. Weird.

He laughed suddenly, "I know, I feel it too."

I laughed with him. No one had better hear about this.

'So, tell me."

"What do you want to know exactly?"

"Anything. Everything. Why don't you think this is a good way to live?"

"Are you blind or something? Have you seen how we live? We eat animals! Live ones! We drink their blood, Edward! That's real appealing. I'm sure I'm not the only one who would rather eat a Big Mac." Had he been going through the last century with complete sensory deprivation?

He snorted. "You don't even know what a Big Mac tastes like. And you wouldn't eat one anyway. It's full of fat."

"But you'd like the option wouldn't you? Why the hell would someone give up real food in favour of animal blood?" The thought boggled me.

"Just humour me, ok?"

That's all I ever do.

"I heard that."

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"So basically, it was the little things." We were stopped now, pulled into some rest area off the road, surrounded by trees and the coming night. He was laying across the hood of my car and I was lying with my seat pushed all the way back, making shapes out of the dark clouds that moved sluggishly overhead.

"Yes and no. I mean, I could take the not eating and sleeping ok, that you get used to. I mean there are people with those conditions."

"There are not people who can't eat or sleep, Rose." I could hear the smirk in his voice but chose to ignore it. Smarty pants.

"Whatever. Insomniacs or something. Anyway, it's the fact that it all hits you at once, the little things and the big things and you don't even have a chance to get used to it. It's just FOOMP! Here's your crappy new life. No eating, no sleeping, no heartbeat, no sunlight, no friends, an eternity of your moping and oh yea, the fact that we want to kill people!"

"We don't want to kill people, Rose. At least I don't. I hope you don't!"

"You know what I mean, you twit. It's our natural instincts. It's hard to suppress that everyday. Not to mention sucking down animal blood is sooooo not right. I mean, those things aside, any human would jump at the chance right? Eternal life. Superhuman strength. But who wants to live forever if it's not really living? Edward?"

He'd jumped of the car and was striding towards the treeline, stopping when he reached it, his voice calling back to me, over his shoulder. "So you're saying, we're not really living?"

Something was wrong. I sat up, frowning at his back. What is it?

"Just...answer the question, Rose."

"O-k...Well, I'm not saying we're not living, I'm saying that from a basic perspective there's nothing appealing about it. What kind of existence is it when you can't even integrate with the rest of the world? You can't do anything for fear of giving yourself away, can't associate with people, you basically become this hollow shell, wandering aimlessly with no purpose, no meaning. Nothing to look forward to, no real excitement or lust for life as they say. I mean, what's the saying- 'a life without love is no life at all.'"

He turned suddenly, a ridiculous grin plastered across his face, "Rose, I could kiss you right now!" And for one horrifying moment I thought he was going to.

"Um, no because Bella would stake me."

He laughed then became serious again. "Given the chance over..."

"Would I or wouldn't I? Well, there's the thing, I didn't have a choice in the matter. Don't get me wrong, I don't resent Carlisle for what he did, he was doing what he felt was right at the time and now I'm grateful."

"Grateful? But you hate this life."

"Before, I did. Before when I had nothing, when I was getting used to the idea of eternity, or rather trying to run screaming from it. I still am. Getting used to it, i mean. And yes, i am envious of Bella. But most of that was before. Before i had...some things."

"Like what."

Never mind.

He laughed. "C'mon Rose !"

Go away.

"Puh-lease!"

I'm not listening.

"I'll ask Emmett."

Emmett.

"Oh."

Dammit.

"Awwwwww! Our ickle Rose loves her Emmett more than anything! Even being human!"

"I so hate you right now."

"But you see where I'm coming from now, don't you?"

"No, but I'm sure you're going to tell me."

"Bella loves me more than anything. Including being human. And the feeling is mutual. With Bella, i forget who i am. What i am. Before I met Bella I was that drifting, meaningless existence. And without her, I'd have nothing to live for once again. And neither would she."

"May God save us from teenage vampires in love!" I clasped my hands and looked to the sky imploringly.

"You're one to talk."

"Yea, yea, yea," I waved him off, dismissively. "So, what you're saying is she doesn't want to be a vampire- she wants to be with you."

"Yes!"

"God why?"

"Bitch."

"I was kidding, you know, joke? You're gonna have to lighten up dude." Honestly, didn't Bella know what she was getting herself into?

"Grumble."

"So why haven't you done anything yet. Seeing as you obviously have a fairly good grasp of this whole thing."

"Because I don't think she quite grasps exactly what giving up her human life entails."

"And I'm helping this how?"

"I didn't get much of a chance to live when I was, well, alive. You did. And you miss it. I need to understand that and try to make the transition a little easier for her when it happens."

"So you're definitely going to do it then?"

"Mmm-hmmmm."

"Geez Edward, and here we all thought you'd never put out!"

"Har har."

"What changed your mind?"

"Lets just say we had a little discussion not too far from these lines."

"What about, you know, the 'soul' thing?" I hated to bring it up. Much as it pained me to say it, I liked seeing him happy. He was my brother after all.

He grew pensive once again. "I'm still working on that."

Oops, change of subject. "Does she know?"

"That I'm changing her? No. I'm still not entirely decided upon the matter. There is still one other person I need to consult."

"Carlisle?"

"No."

"But might I ask, dear brother, how exactly do you plan to use this information I have so gracefully provided to make the transition easier, as you put it?" Even I had to admit my curiosity was piqued.

"Lets just say Bella has to agree to a few simple terms and conditions first."

"Make it sound like a contract why don't you. You're so romantic, Edward." I pressed the back of my hand to my forehead and started to sway. "I think I'm about to swoon, catch me!"

"This is serious Rose."

"Mmm-hmmm."

"Stop smirking."

"Make me."

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"Drop me at Bella's place." We were back in Forks now, night had fallen and I was exhausted. Edward, on the other hand, looked rather apprehensive.

"It's a bit late isn't it?" I teased. "Maybe I should just take you home. Maybe she needs a chaperone in future."

"I don't want to talk to her." Well, I wasn't expecting that.

I raised my eyebrows but he wasn't going to elaborate. I shrugged and deposited him in the Swan's driveway. There was a single light on in the downstairs of the house, and I could see the tv light flickering. Edward knocked and after a few moments Chief Swan answered. In his pyjamas. I stifled a laugh as I pulled out of the driveway, but not before I heard Edward offer up his excuse for calling so late-

"Charlie, I need to ask you something..."

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