A Pain Held So Deep Within
Chapter Seven: Missing Miko

Authors Note: Hello my fellow readers! How are you doing on this fine morning? Or afternoon… Or night… Or whenever you are reading this! So I go a lot of reviews for last chapter. A lot where very supportive! Thank you so much! I realize that I got the name wrong of the man who fought Inuyasha's father. I thank the reader who corrected me. It has been so long since I watched the third movie… Well… any of the movies except the fourth one. Now that… is a good movie… It does have some of Inuyasha and Kikyo's past in it… but I would say its mostly about Inuyasha and the hanyou children on the Island… Well… I wont say anymore, I'll let you guys watch it for yourself! But I give it a thumbs up! Anyways… I kind of got to rambling there… So I guess I will start the chapter now… And I sent all of you replys to those who guessed and got the answer correct to my Trivia Question. If you guessed, Kagome's Father. You are CORRECT! And I apologize if you did not get a reply back… I do it through FanFiction and I've never actually seen that that way works. But it's the only way I could do it. Oh well… And I also apologize for not updating in such a long time. I have my reasons. I don't want to bore you with them but just know that they are good. So, I suppose I have kept you people long enough! So on the story!

Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN INUYASHA OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS IN THIS STORY! SO YOU STUPID LAWYERS CAN'T SUE ME! OHHHHHHH IN YOUR KOOLADE! WHO'S THE QUEEN OF THE PURPLE MONKEYS? I AM! -Here's footsteps- OH NO! THEY'RE COMING TO GET ME! ATTACK MY EVIL PURPLE MONKEYS! ATTACK! -purple monkeys stare at me blankly- WHAT? NOOO! YOU STUPID MONKEYS! YOU'VE TURNED YOUR BACK ON ME NOW! I THOUGHT WE WERE GOING TO CONQUER PLUTO! -purple monkeys mumble to themselves- -purple monkey steps forward to speak- "We have decided that we can conquer Pluto and all the rest of the planets WITHOUT your help! So, we have called the Mental Institution to come and pick you up, just to make sure you don't leak any of our plans…" -hears more footsteps- "well, that must be them… we must be off" -purple monkeys go poof- WHAT? NO! GET BACK HERE YOU TRAITORS! -door flys open to reveal 5 persons in white suits holding big long needles and a straight jacket- NO! YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME! I'M NOT CRAZY! THE EVIL PURPLE MONKEYS SET ME UP! -Evil people in the white suits advance towards me- NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I DON'T WANT TO GO TO THAT PLACE! IT'S EVIL! THERE ARE LITTLE BUNNYS AND RAINBOWS AND OH MY GOD THE HORROR! -Evil people in whit suits.. still advance towards me…- YOU STAY BACK! I'M WARNING YOU! I HAVE A BACK UP PLAN! -evil people in white suites still.. ah you get the picture…- MY EVIL GREEN CHICKENS, ATTACK! -green chickens come out of no where and attack the evil people in white suits, giving me time to RUN AWAY!-
Cough okay… now that that is settled.. I knew I couldn't trust those purple monkeys… beware…

Chapter Seven: Keeping To His Promise

The two silently walked back to the car and began the drive home. About ten minutes had passed when Kara decided to break the silence.

"Inuyasha, do you realize why what you said to Kagome affected her so much?" Kara questioned him. Inuyasha looked from the fields that they were passing to Kara. Kara took his silence as a 'no'.

"You compared her to that girl, Kikyo, did you not?" Kara asked. Inuyasha silently nodded his head looking to his lap for comfort.

"I am assuming that you said something along the lines of, 'Kikyo is better that you'?" she questioned again. She expected another silent nod, but instead she heard a calm voice that was filled with pain.

"I told her that she was nothing compared to Kikyo. But I didn't mean it. Kagome… she's my everything." He said, mumbling the last part so it wouldn't reach Kara's ears. Well, being a mother has its ups, you hear almost everything. And what Inuyasha said, did not go unheard. Kara smiled at his words, it was then that she was sure that he and her daughter were meant to be.

"When you compared her, she thought back to her father. Leaving us for another family. She felt useless, and like a nobody." Kara explained.

"I never meant to hurt her, just… my anger gets the best of me and I can't control it. I don't want to lose her, but I'm afraid that I'm pushing her away. So in turn, I run back to my past, Kikyo." Inuyasha opened up his heart to Kara and poured out every ounce of emotions he had. From sorrow, to anger, to love. Kara pulled onto their street, but didn't turn into the shrine's driveway. She kept going, not wanting to stop Inuyasha. He was finally opening up and letting out all of his feelings that he had kept locked up for so long. She thought that if Inuyasha let it all out now, it would be easier for him to do that same with Kagome. To open up to Kagome, and finally admit his true feelings. So, she just drove, not having a destination.

"…and then there's those damn 'sits'! She finds any little reason to put my face in the dirt! And then I'M the one who has to apologize? But when I get angry with her, I'm WRONG! I'm ALWAYS wrong! Why can't she understand that the male is supposed to be dominant? I mean sometimes I wonder why I lo…" Inuyasha stopped in his tracks. What was he saying? And to Kagome's mother for gods sake!

"Inuyasha, I am glad that you finally got all of that out of your system. I only hope that you can tell Kagome how you feel. She is the one who really needs to hear all of this. You are pushing her away Inuyasha, like you said. But not by getting her mad and making her sit you or anything like that. It is because you are turning to Kikyo, Inuyasha. You are hurting her every time that you run to Kikyo. That is what is pushing Kagome away Inuyasha. You say you don't want to hurt her. If you truly mean that, which I know you do, tell her how you feel. It's the only way to bring her out of all that pain that she's feeling. Save her Inuyasha. Only you can." As the last of her words rolled off of her tongue, the car pulled into the driveway of the shrine. Inuyasha replayed her words over in his mind. 'Only I can save her.' He thought.

"Go Inuyasha, go to the one girl who you hold so dearly in your heart." Kara gently commanded.

Inuyasha didn't need another word. He bolted out of the car and up the shrine steps.
He almost ripped the door off trying to open it. He didn't even notice Sango, Miroku and Shippo sitting in the living room till one of them spoke up.

"Inuyasha, don't you dare go up there." came a feminine voice. Inuyasha ignored it and kept going.

"Oh no you don't!" came a small voice. In a matter of minutes Shippo was clinging on to Inuyasha's leg and had a firm grip on it with his mouth.

"Shippo, you have to the count of three to get the fuck off of me." Inuyasha growled.

"No." Shippo said in a muffled voice.

"One."

"No."

"Two."

"No."

"Three!"

"NO! I WON'T LET YOU HURT MAMMA ANYMORE YOU BIG BULLY!" Shippo yelled.

"Like you could stop me even if you tried!"

"IF YOU WANT TO GET UP THERE, YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO GO THROUGH ME FIRST!" Shippo yelled once more.

"And me." came the feminine voice. "I can't allow you to hurt my sister any longer." she said as she stepped in front of the stairs.

"Sango, stay out of this. I'm going up there whether you like it or not!" Inuyasha warned.

"She doesn't want to see you Inuyasha! Do you have any idea how much you hurt her? She won't even talk to me! She was pouring her eyes out! And for what reason? Because YOU had to go and be an IDIOT and open your BIG mouth! IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT! AND I'LL BE GOD DAMNED IF I'M GOING TO JUST LET YOU WALTZ RIGHT ON UP THERE!" Sango cried out, tears beginning to form in her own eyes. She couldn't stand to see her sister being in this sort of pain. She quickly wiped the tears away that threatened to fall and glared into Inuyasha's eyes. But her look softened when she saw the salty liquid lingering in his golden orbs.

"Inuyasha... I..." Sango began.

"No! Don't apologize! Everything you said was true! It's my fault and I know it! But I just have to fix it! I never knew how much my words hurt her until today and I can't believe that I could do such a thing to someone I love. How the hell can someone cause so much pain for the one they love? But I have to tell her! I just can't sit around here any more and pretend that I don't love that god damn woman! I swore that I was going to protect her! But I just caused her more pain than anyone else ever could! I have to make things right! I don't care if she doesn't return my feelings as long as she knows that I never meant to hurt her. As long as she knows that I love her and that I never want to see her in pain ever again. I have to tell her! So either you get out of my way or I don't know what I might do!" Inuyasha yelled. Inuyasha wasn't expecting what came next. Before he knew it two arms wrapped around his neck. He looked over to where Sango was standing and found that she wasn't there. He sniffed the girls aroma that was hugging her and it didn't smell of the sweet cherry blossoms that Kagome's scent carries. Instead the scent smelt of warm vanilla. It was Sango who was hugging him. He quickly looked over to Miroku to make sure he wasn't mad. Miroku saw Inuyasha's shocked expression turn to a worried one. He knew that Inuyasha didn't know if it was okay because of his demon background. He knew that in the demon world, when two demons or half demons confess their feelings that the woman is not to be touched by any other demon. If you were to touch a male demon's woman you would be dead. So, Miroku understood why Inuyasha was worried and smiled at him while nodding to show him that it was okay. Inuyasha relaxed a little seeing Miroku smile at him.

"It's about damn time you realized your feelings and confessed dog boy." Sango said as she released Inuyasha from her embrace. "But know this. If you hurt her again, I will not hold back, got it?" she warned.

"Feh," was the response she got.

"Now, go get her Inuyasha." She smiled at him and stepped out of the way so he could get up the steps. Inuyasha nodded and ran up the stairs. He gently knocked on Kagome's door and when he didn't get a reply, he cracked the door open and peeked in. He expected to see Kagome laying on her bed sleeping, but found the room empty of all life and the window open.

"Kagome?" he asked. Silence answered his question and he bolted out of the room screaming her name all through out the house.

"What's wrong Inuyasha?" Sango asked as she ran up to him.

"Kagome's gone!"

"But she was just in there ten minutes ago! Shippo was in there with her!" Sango exclaimed.

"Ugh, she must have ran when she heard my voice. But where would she go?"

"Use you're brain dummy! Kagome probably went back to the feudal era!" Shippo exclaimed.

"Is she stupid? She's going to get herself killed!"

"Inuyasha, calm down. I'm sure she has her bow and arrows with..." Miroku stopped what he was saying when Sango came out of Kagome's room, bow and arrows in hand.

"Never mind. Inuyasha you better go after her." Miroku said.

"Don't you think I know that?" Inuyasha yelled.

"Well then why aren't you going?" Shippo yelled.

"...I can't remember where Kagome put Tetsusaiga..." Inuyasha said. His comment was followed by three loud thumps from Sango, Miroku and Shippo falling over.

"What do you mean you can't remember? Ugh, you big stupid head! Who's going to protect mamma now? I know, I'll do it!" Shippo yelled and started down the stairs. Everyone stared after Shippo. Then Inuyasha ran after him and grabbed him by his tail.

"You don't stand a chance runt!"

"Well someone has to go and its obvious you aren't!" Shippo argued.

"Who says I need Tetsusaiga? I still have my claws!"

"Then why are you standing here arguing with me?" Shippo yelled. Inuyasha stared blankly at him.

"Shut up!" he finally yelled and ran out of the door and into the well house. He jumped into the well and was immediately engulfed in the blinding white and blue light. 'Please be alright Kagome.'

Authors Note: Hey all! There were a lot of things that I didn't like a bout this chapter...

1: It was too short

2: Inuyasha was OOC. (sigh I hate doing that... sorry!)

3: IT WAS TOO SHORT!

4: I don't like the chapter title..

5: IT WAS TOOOOOOO SHOOOORRRRTTTTT!

BUT! I felt like you guys needed SOMETHING... since it's been like.. FOREVER since I updated.. and I apologize for that... Another thing was that I didn't include the part that I promised you all... sigh... I'm lazy.. I know I know... but hey... what can you expect from a girl dealing with a lot of shit right now? lol! Anyways.. I've been having a lot of inspiration for new stories.. but I have sworn not to start them till this is finished with! (I doubt I'll be able to keep to that.. but whatever! lol) But I will try my hardest to get the next chapter up as soon as I can! I thank all the reviewers who reviewed and all the readers who read! The next chapter: Two bodies, with the same soul, share a lovely conversation! ((Wow.. wonder what THAT could mean... and before you get on me about how Kikyo and Kagome do not share the same soul... I'm too tired to remember if this is true or not... so if this is wrong.. blame it on me not getting any sleep for about 3 days straight now... Now.. I am off to TRY to get some well deserved sleep...)) PLEASE REVIEW REVIEW AND REVIEW SOME MORE!

P.S. THE MORE REVIEWS I GET THE MORE INSPIRATION I GET AND... THE MORE INSPIRATION I GET, THE MORE I WANT TO WRITE.. AND THE MORE I WANT TO WRITE.. THE MORE I WILL WRITE.. AND THE MORE I WRITE.. THE FASTER I GET THE NEXT CHAPTER UP! (You do the math.. too tired...)